I do not own Hetalia okay? I don't have much else to say here so enough of this A/N, on with the fic!
October 1st 1918
(From the diary of Matthew Williams)
Well Al was a weird mix today. Happy yet rather sad. Same with Natalya. Ivan did survive the attack after all. But they are worried that he is coming home not able to walk anymore. That's the worst. Sure I may have a limp and swear to god my vision has gotten worse since I had entered that war but I still have a mostly normal life. I can walk on my own. I can put my pants on by myself and while it hurts when it's rainy, there is still the fact I do not have to have someone do it for me. Then again it's not like he's helpless. I don't know. Katy told me that he could if he wanted to but it was more often the mind that held many back after something like this happens. I know that whole "I am still alive" can only get you so far when you have been though something like that. I know when I first moved in with Al and Natalya, I frankly couldn't give two shits about things, at least not until Nikolai kept wanting me to play with him. Sweet kid. He's like Al in that no one can be sad around him. At least not yet. He still has innocence in this world.
And since this is my journal, I can confess this. I do say that Al has matured enough as to not bust into my room and read what I write down. I will have to thank Natalya for that one. I know she would be rather furious if she caught him acting like that to this day. At their wedding Ivan told me, after I asked why he introduced him to Natalya than Katyusha if he was more worried of her being alone and he told me, that besides the fact she was dating that Feliks guy who left her at the altar, that he felt that Natalya was the only one who could keep him grounded. I do hope that Ivan coming back won't interfere with what I have with Katy now. I really like her and I know she is very caring of a person. She has been praying daily for Ivan's safe return. Well he is returning. But she told me she will have to dedicate a lot to taking care of him and she has been asking nurses and doctors she knows about how to rehabilitate him or at least to help improve the situation as it is. Thing is that he may get used to how he is physically now, but it's his mind I worry about. War changes you. A lot. Al's noticed it and I know he loves the kids but god, there's times it's hard for me to put away the dark thoughts, the anger the frustration, the misanthropy and remember they are little, they want to play with Uncle Mattie. They hadn't seen what Uncle Mattie has. A tummy ache or scolding from Mama is the worse they know. Will Ivan be able to do the same? I hope so. I guess I can be there for him, one man who has seen some of the foulest things man can do to another.
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