"How are you feeling today Olivia?" Dr Raynor asked
"Fine"
"Just fine?" she asked, I nodded, she looked at me tapping her pen on her note book, I fucking hated that note book, why do therapists need to over analyse everything? I was fine, I felt fine, I was training and spending time with the team, I hadn't had a panic attack in weeks and yet my dad still makes me attend these sessions, my only solace was that Bucky was also having sessions with Dr Raynor "And how do you feel about the up coming mission?"
"Fine"
"Are you sure, this is bound to bring back some memories, PTSD can be hard, especially for someone so young, tell me, how have you been sleeping?" Jesus christ
"I'm sleeping fine, I feel fine, i'm absofuckinglutely fine" I smiled, Dr Raynor frowned, writing more notes in her stupid note pad,
"Can you stop with that!" I snapped
"With what Olivia?"
"The note book, I don't understand what your writing, or why you are even writing anything!"
Dr Raynor smiled, as the clock chimed, signalling the end of the session, "Well I guess we will pick this up next week, your parents are joining for the next session" Dr Raynor smiled standing and opening the door, I stood from my seat, grabbing my bag as I walked out of her office, rolling my eyes at her and muttered goodbye,
walking out of the building, I stood in the fresh air for a moment, enjoying the cool evening breeze.
"Ready to go doll?"
turning round, my heart was in my throat, Bucky stood behind me of ghost of a smile playing on his lips as he took in my startled expression, "Bucky, that was not funny" I glared at him "how did you get here anyway?"
"Sam..asked him to drop me on his way to see Sarah, she's visiting with the boys" Bucky smiled walking past me"Come on, lets go grab dinner before we head back to the compound"
"Wait..Bucky!" I shouted following after him, Bucky turned and smiled at me again but continued walking "Come on Liv, keep up"
my stomach started fluttering as i tried to keep up with Bucky, by the time I got to him he was stood outside a Chinese restaurant 8 blocks down from Dr Raynor's office "Found this place a few weeks back, its pretty good, you like Chinese food right?"
"Love it" I stated, Bucky nodded opening the door motioning for me to go inside, I smiled at him walking in ahead of him, Bucky closed the door behind him, placing his glove covered hand on the small of my back directing me where to go causing the fluttering in my stomach to return with a vengeance.
"Hi, just the two of you?" The hostess asked, Bucky nodded as we where led to a table at the back of the small restaurant, handing us two menus and taking our drink order
"Just let me know when your ready to order" She smiled, looking down at Bucky, Bucky smiled back nodding and winking at her before she left
feeling slightly irritated I rolled my eyes at him "Well, now I know why you wanted to come here"
"Nah doll, just being polite" Bucky smirked at me, "You jealous?"
I rolled my eyes again "Yeah Gramps in your dreams"
Bucky laughed picking up his menu, I smiled at him, he always looked handsome, but when he laughed, I loved the way he scrunched his nose it was one of the many things I loved about him,
"I actually have a question?" I stated while picking up the menu
"Yeah?" Bucky looked at me over his menu
"What's with the gloves?'
"Vibranium arm" Bucky stated like it was obvious, I raised my eye brows "But people know you have a vibranium arm Bucky, your an avenger", Bucky sighed "I don't really like to draw attention to it"
"huh, I suppose.."
we sat in a comfortable silence until our food order was taken, once our food arrived I realised how hungry I was, which was still a big feat for me, my appetite still not back completely yet.
"How was your session with doctor Raynor?" Bucky asked me, not looking up from his plate
"Same as usual, asked how I was feeling, sleeping, how training was going, If I had managed to use my powers again, writing in her note book, god how I hate the fucking book" I groaned
"I know the feeling doll, I hate the note book more and more every session" Bucky smirked at me
"Honestly its like she doesn't believe me when I say i'm fine, that i'm doing okay, said PTSD can be a tricky for someone my age" I rolled my eyes looking down at my food, "she's even arranged a session for next week with my parents"
"Hey at least you get your parents, I had Steve and Sam in a few of my sessions, that was not fun" Bucky grumbled, i laughed at that, I could just imagine the three of them in a session with Dr Raynor, I'm surprised it had been more then once, the three of them together can be a nightmare
"What's so funny?"
"You three in a therapy session" I sniggered "bet she would've needed therapy after that" I was full blown laughing now
"We are not that bad" Bucky muttered into his food as I continued to laugh at him, Bucky raised his hand to grab the waitress attention
"Is everything okay for you both" She smiled looking between us
"Yeah its great, could we get the bill once you get the chance" Bucky flashed her a smile
"Sure thing, I'll be right back" She smiled back at Bucky.
"I bet you $10 she gives you her number" I smirked at Bucky
"your on doll" Bucky winked at me, I could feel the heat rising again in my cheeks, looking round the small restaurant while we waited on the check, I spotted a man watching us in the back corner, meeting his eyes, my heart beat started to increase, his eyes where almost white, he smirked at me, my blood ran cold, I couldn't move
"Liv? you alright?" Bucky asked, placing his gloved hand over mine, breaking eye contact I looked back at Bucky and shook my head, "what is it? whats wrong"
"He's here" I whispered
"Who's here?" Bucky asked
"The..the one who" I could feel myself starting to panic, Bucky caught on, dropping money on the table and grabbing my arm, pulling me up from my seat leading me back out on to the street, I looked over at him again, he smiled and waved, tears clouded my vision as I followed Bucky,
once we where outside Bucky placed his arm round my waist, keeping me pressed into his side as we walked back to my car
"Doll, give me your keys"
I reached into my bag, grabbing my keys and giving them to Bucky, he unlocked the doors and guided me into the passenger side, reaching for the seat belt and strapping me in before walking round the car and climbing in the drives side, starting the car and pulling away, half way back to the compound was pitch black apart from the head lights from my car, Bucky kept one hand on my thigh the whole way home,
we pulled up in the garage, Bucky helped me out the car, "Come on doll, lets get you inside" I nodded, Bucky laced his fingers through mine as we walked back into the building, I couldn't focus as we walked up to the rooms, stopping outside mine, Bucky unlocked my door, guiding me inside, I stood in the middle of the room, Bucky sat a glass of water down on my bedside table
"I'm just down the hall, shout if you need anything" Bucky smiled cupping my cheek before walking to the door
"Bucky wait" I reached for his hand "Please don't go, stay with me tonight, please..I can't" I took a deep breath "I don't want to be alone"
"Sure doll, just let me go get changed and i'll be back" I nodded as Bucky closed the door behind him, opening my drawers I grabbed some pyjama bottles and a vest top, walking to the small bathroom, I got changed, removed my make up, just as I was brushing the curls from my hair Bucky walked back in, dressed in a pair of lounge pants and a white vest
"Hey, thank's for this" I smiled looking down "I don't want to be a bother"
Bucky hooked his finger under my chin "Never a bother Liv"
I smiled up at him, as he went to lie on the couch "Bucky, there is no way your sleeping there, that couch bearly fits me sleeping on it, the bed is big enough we can share"
"if your sure doll"
"i'm sure" I stated climbing into my side of the bed, Bucky walked round the other side climbing in next to me, "Night Bucky"
"Night Liv"