A/N:
Ashley Barbosa: Well, I'm sorta glad you cried since that was what i was going for. But this chapter is a lot more laid back and chill - so lay back and relax. Not much angst here.
Bay45220: I'm glad you like it so far. Aang will blow up on Katara, trust me, he's got a lot to say - but in due time. SYTFAD is directly linked to this story, though in the way many of you seem to think. It'll all make sense soon. But yeh, I'm glad you like it so far. I hope you enjoy this chapter too.
TheQuietReader23: Yeah, I liked Jin and Aang as well but the show must go on. Aang is an idiot, and he will continue to be as the story progresses lol, though not as much. Well, we've made some progress with Katara here. In SYTFAD, this chapter takes place around the time Katara begins to realise she's falling for Aang, which then leads to her jealous and so on and so forth. But, it will not follow SYTFAD exactly. This story will have a different ending and it will tie in with the other story in a different way. Yep, you're two predictions were correct lol; Katara's happy about the breakup and Ty Lee was next lol. Katara's confession and Aang's reaction will be one hell of a chapter!
nateC183: Thanks, I'm glad you enjoyed it. The poem isn't over just yet, and yeh, I get you. I wish Jin and Aang could work out but we need more drama... so we need more Kataangst :)
jonners2314: yeah, I like the way you handled JinxAang breakup too. It worked. Here it was much more dramtic but it needed to happen if Aang was to spirial out of control. Yeah, ending will be happy. Just wait and see!
Leave a review if yall got some suggestions or if there's some questions you'd like to ask. I always respond to reviews and PM's :) Anyways, enjoy.
Chapter 6: Ignoring The Red
"Look, I know that… last time we didn't leave on the best of terms…"
"Its fine, Katara," I responded, noting the few beads of sweat that were running down her face and bare shoulders as she sat up.
Funny; you'd think that after residing the Fire Nation for about 2 years, one would become accustomed to the heat – or at least learn to tolerate it.
'I don't think she's sweating because of the heat – at least, not the weather per say.'
Actually, from the way I caught her ogling at me a few moments ago – and the fact that I had caught and stopped her from leaning in to kiss me – I would have to say that's a fair assumption.
I bet she's regretting all of it now…
"Still, I'm sorry for last time. I shouldn't have lost my temper." Almost as an afterthought, she added, "And I'm sorry about Jin… too."
I had to stifle a chuckle; from the way she tried to hide her excitement when I first mentioned my recent breakup, and from the way her eyes twinkled with something just shy of hope just now, I could tell that she definitely wasn't 'sorry' regarding Jin and I.
"I'm sorry too," I replied, smiling inwardly as she donned a confused expression, "I'm sorry he can only last a minute and a half, you're probably frustrated…"
"AANG!" I laughed openly as Katara blushed beet red and slapped my shoulder playfully before hiding her face in her hands. Laughing my ass off, I fell back and rolled around on the grass, holding my stomach as I tried to contain my laughter to no avail.
'Okay, that was a good one. If people read the other story they'd understand the reference.'
Other story? Are you on cactus juice again?
'Nah, though I wouldn't mind some cocaine and hookers right about now…'
What the fuck are you on about?
"Zuko doesn't – I don't know what – How did you even know that!? I thought you took the furthest room so you wouldn't be able to hear us?!" Katara yelled, more out of embarrassment rather than anger.
"Katara, I'm an airbender," I deadpanned, however, when she still seemed unsure as to what I was insinuating, I elaborated. "Soundwaves travel through walls and doors, even if they're muffled, due to my heightened senses and tremendous power," I spoke somewhat smugly, "I can sense them and listen as if I were in the room myself."
I cringed at the last bit, as did she.
'Smooth move…'
Shut the fuck up.
Before it became too awkward, I tried to dissolve the sudden tension by teasing her again, "Besides, judging by how quickly the sound waves were lost to me, I'd say I didn't have to suffer long."
"AANG!" Katara playfully hit me again, except this time, she straddled me as I laid on the grassy plane, laughing at her face as she tried to hide her embarrassment.
She tried to contain it, but as I continued to laugh, she couldn't stifle her own giggles – my breath hitched. For a minute there, everything that had been done to me faded to black. All my mind registered – the only thing I allowed to be replayed in my blank state was her chiming giggles. And so, for a moment there, I felt like my 12-year-old self again – naïve and stupidly in love. Back then, I never knew how lucky I was; the uncertainty of whether Katara felt the same about me was in actuality a blessing in disguise. At the time it felt like a nuisance – torture even. Now though, it seems like nothing of the sort, ignorance is bliss I guess; back then I could fantasise about it all. I could dream of the day she'd say 'I love you' back, the day I finally get to kiss her, the day we'd get married, the day we'd play with the little waterbenders and airbenders we'd call our children – I could imagine her loving me with all her heart and nothing could taint that delusion.
However, now, since I knew the truth – that dream like state – or delusion – could never be attained. She didn't love me, she never did, and she wasn't going to now.
'Are you sure about that? She's not treating you like a kid anymore. She seemed relieved when you mentioned your breakup with Jin. She even flirted with you earlier, and she tried to kiss you. Hell, she's straddling you now… what if she is in love with you. What are you going to do then?'
"I'm going to shut her down."
'Do you truly believe that?'
"She made her choice long ago. I will shut her down."
'People change – you have, so can she.'
"I will shut her down."
'You sound like you're convincing yourself…'
No shit, retard. I'm talking to you; thus, I'm talking to myself.
"Thank you for coming, Aang… this is the best birthday I've had in… well, forever." Katara spoke softly, tracing the arrow on my hand as she held onto it while her other hand laid flat on my half-naked chest.
"You're my best friend, Katara… I wouldn't have missed it for the world."
I hadn't taken my breakup with Jin well; nights spent drunk-bending and drunk-fighting with Toph were beginning to take a toll on me. So, when Suki mentioned that she, Sokka, Toph and her boyfriend Satoru would be visiting the Fire Nation for Katara's birthday, I decided to tag along – not like I had a choice in the matter as Suki was ready to chi-block and drag me there if need be. Though, it clearly wasn't necessary. Other than the fact that I missed Katara dearly – not in that sense, I'm over her, she's simply my best friend – but either way, I needed the distraction.
Even though I understood that ending things with Jin was the best thing I could have done for her, I still couldn't shake off the loneliness. Even with my friends around me, I couldn't shake that shadow; the one that reminded me that no matter who I chose to be with, I'd only end up hurting them because they weren't….
'Go on. Finish that thought.'
…
'Pussy.'
Shaking away my thoughts, I refocused on Katara, only to notice that she was still straddling me and that her hand was now absentmindedly tracing my chest and shoulders. Her eyes were darker than usual, I knew that look all too well, it was never something she had given me before, but I couldn't supress a shit-eating smirk of victory and pride as I allowed her to continue before embarrassing her again.
"Since you like tracing my muscles so much, how about I earthbend a sculpture of me for you to ogle at as a birthday present?" I asked smoothly, wiggling my eyebrows and smirking as she finally caught on to what she was doing and blushed heavily.
"I – I'm sorry," she muttered lowly as she got off me and I sat up, still smirking at her.
Even though I was usually merciful, I decided I wanted to tease her some more, "Sorry?" I spoke innocently and softly, "For what?"
When her eyes grew wide, clearly surprised that I would be daring enough to test her temper by further embarrassing her, I laughed my ass off again when she stuttered uncontrollably. Clearly, I had a much more of an effect on her than I had guessed, and judging by how she mirrored my old yet young, stuttering and blushing 12-year-old self just now, I'd say that the tables have definitely turned.
When my laughter subsided, we both called it a night and left to return to the others. Katara returned to the room she was sharing with Zuko, Toph was in her sleeping quarters and so were Sokka and Suki. It was around midnight, and yet, I wasn't tired. So, after rolling around in my empty bed for half an hour, I decided to get in some late-night training instead of mindlessly and hopelessly trying to fall asleep. However, as I made my way over to the training grounds just a few steps away from the sleeping quarters, I halted when I approached the Royal Gardens. The natural beauty of the place stung me now just as it had after the war – though I couldn't appreciate then as I was too busy trying to glue back the pieces of my broken heart.
'Was that meant to be funny?'
I don't know, depends on your sense of humour.
'You need a distraction, from everything around you and yourself.'
Nearing the steps, I sat down on the last few as my eyes glossed over the various delicate flowers. I wasn't sure what had dragged me out of bed tonight. Maybe it was the full moon, or maybe it was because I had gotten used to staying up late to talk to Jin since I had spent the entire day in meetings. Funny enough, even though I missed her, I didn't feel as bad or even as sad as I thought I would. What does that say about me? That I just used her to forget about Katara? That she never really meant a whole lot to me – at least not as much as I had thought? Was I even capable of being –
"Couldn't sleep?" I heard a familiar voice from behind me, making me smile inwardly as it was also a person whom I had missed dearly.
Knowing exactly how much this would annoy her, I glanced back and grinned at her approaching figure, "No. I just hate myself so much that I thought I'd die from sleep deprivation."
"What did I tell you about being sarcastic with me?" She spoke in playful anger as she sat beside me.
"I recall you saying something along the lines of: 'If you ever start with that sarcastic bull crap of yours again then I'll chi-block your entire body limp and get Toph to strip you naked and throw you into a council meeting without a second thought.'" I finished, exhaling and inhaling heavily as I chuckled, "A bit overboard, don't you think?"
Suki shrugged while smiling in amusement, "Maybe… but clearly you think my threats are a joke, so maybe…" She trailed off as she got into position to chi-block me, and I faked shock and exasperation.
"You wouldn't attack and humiliate your idol, would you?"
"You may be Avatar Kyoshi's reincarnation, but you still don't have half the balls she does."
Laughing alongside her, I smiled as I retorted, "And how would you know that? Does Sokka know that you've been peeking through my window?"
Suki made a face of pure disgust while I laughed at her expression, "Aang! EWW!"
"Hey! You started it."
"Be that as it may," she smiled, waving it off as she too chuckled at our banter, "You're still an asshole."
"Wow," I donned a fake hurt expression as I placed my hand against my heart. "Well, since I'm such an asshole, I guess it'll be perfectly within my nature to never reappear as Kyoshi, so that way, you'll never get to meet your idol again and – "
"No! Aang! Don't… I'm…" She trailed off, glaring at my smug expression as I playfully drew closer.
"Go on, say it Suki."
"I'm…" she sighed, "I'm sorry."
"Good, was that so hard?" She playfully slapped my shoulder as we both chuckled, "Now, bow to your idol," I spoke in a fake stern and commanding voice.
Suki simply snorted, "Kiss my ass, Avatar."
I simply snorted back as I gave her the victory grin; something she knew, that once I had donned, I was going to say something that would influence her to harbour murderous intent towards me.
"I'd rather not kiss something that I know Sokka's been all over."
"AANG!" Suki shoved me away as I laughed my ass off again.
"You and Katara just make it too easy," I continued laughing while Suki glared at me, though I could tell it was a façade.
Ever since the war, I had gotten close to all my friends – save for Zuko and Katara; Zuko – well, that one's pretty obvious – and Katara because we were already best friends, so, it was hard for us to get any closer than we already were. Not to mention the fact that we rarely got to see each other because she had decided to ditch all of us and move to the Fire Nation for her stupid, scar-faced, emo-looking, dark haired, awkward puppy-like, short-tempered, hot-headed boyfriend.
'Right. And you totally don't hold a grudge against Zuko?'
No, I totally don't.
'Right.'
Anyways, I had gotten closer to all my friends, Suki especially. While Jin did help me deal with my 'now resolved' feelings for Katara, Suki was the one who held me up and held me close most of the time. She was the one who told Toph to set me up with Jin during the celebrations before she left for her date with Sokka. She was the one who knew when and why I'd waterbend alone, yet she never mentioned it to me or anyone else. Though, Suki did tell me she spoke to Katara about it because she had asked her, but I was fine with that. Although I was glad our friendship had survived, I no longer cared whether Katara was concerned about my wellbeing or not.
'At least that's what you tell yourself.'
"What do you mean Katara and I make it too easy?" Suki cut me off from my thoughts again, "What did you speak to her about earlier?"
"Oh, I was just teasing her about Zuko and…" I trailed off before I it waved it off, not wanting to disclose how she was ogling me half the time and leaning in to kiss me the other half. "It was nothing, just some friendly banter."
"I'm glad you two are still friends," she smiled. I knew she meant nothing by it, and I don't know why I took it the wrong way, but I did.
"Why wouldn't we still be friends?" I asked, raising and eyebrow as I turned to face her completely. "What? Am I too much of an immature child? Can I not maintain a friendship when it doesn't go my way? What are you –"
"You're not immature, Aang," Suki inserted sternly, looking me in the eye as she declared: "You're not a child. You're more mature than you should be for your young age."
"Then what? What is it?" When she tried to wave it off as nothing, I continued to push. "No, I've seen that look before. You want to say something… so say it."
She sighed, clearly not liking where this conversation was going yet accepting that it had to be discussed, "I've noticed that you're more explosive nowadays; you blow-up and overreact more so than you used to."
"How do you mean?" I tried to play dumb, but she saw through it – as always.
"Just now was a prime example; you blew up on me and started making assumptions before even knowing what I was trying to say."
I was quiet for a moment. She didn't say anything I didn't already know; I had been explosive ever since my talk with Katara a few months ago – when we were searching for Zuko's mother. Something that day snapped in me, and ever since then it had just gotten worse. The breakup with Jin, Katara's sudden infatuation with me… it was all too much too soon, and I was often lashing out on people who didn't deserve it.
After a short silence, which I knew Suki took as me agreeing with her as I often did, I asked in a voice just above a whisper, "So, what did you mean?'
"I know how much you love her – "
"Loved her," I interrupted, attempting to correct her – Suki gave it no thought.
"Its hard to maintain a relationship as complicated as yours, and its even harder to uphold that friendship – what I'm saying is … I'm proud of you."
The next day wasn't as exciting as the first. Zuko seemed to be in a sour mood for some reason – so was Katara, until we took a ride on Appa and waterbended for a bit. Sokka and the others were planning on leaving that day, but when Suki told me how depressed Katara seemed without me, I hardened my heart and decided that I'd stay for a couple days more.
Don't get the wrong idea; I wasn't in love with her – I cared for her.
'Sure, keep telling yourself that. Your constant denial won't turn a lie into the truth.'
You may not believe it, but its true to me.
'Why?! You and I both know you're still in love! You said so yourself in that poem –'
That was in the heat of the moment. Katara – while we were searching for Ursa – she just got to me. That doesn't mean that I love her.
'Why deny it? Who are you trying to fool?'
Myself.
'Okay, now we're getting somewhere. Why?'
…
'We're finally making progress, don't shut yourself off now.'
…
'This is getting really annoying.'
Get used to it. If I don't want to talk, then I won't. Its as simple as that.
The next day was slightly more interesting than the previous; Sokka, Suki and Toph were leaving via that boat Mai and Ty Lee had arrived in. Mai was apparently visiting her family – though, I didn't know why since she's made it clear they annoy her to no end – and Ty Lee was here on Kyoshi Warrior duty; to be a part of Zuko's personal guard.
Since I had spent most of my day with Katara, trying to cheer her up as she had yet another fight with Zuko the night prior – I seriously don't know what she sees in him – I didn't have to chance to greet Mai nor Ty Lee. Mai had left for her parent's house as soon as their ship docked, and I didn't know where Ty Lee was. Though, I did find her later that night. We were all dining, and Zuko and Katara had to leave early due to an emergency meeting with the Fire Sages. Ty Lee, who surprisingly wasn't wearing her make up, showed up late to dinner. So, while I was making my way out, she bumped into me.
"Oh, I'm so sorry I didn't – Aang?"
"Hey, Ty." I smiled at her warmly – trying to make up for my cold behaviour towards her last time on Kyoshi Island.
"Aang!"
She flung her arms around me as she embraced me. I was partially surprised by her sudden outburst of physical contact, but then I remembered two things: she was an openly affectionate person – like Katara – and she had a major crush on me – so, if she found any excuse to get close to me, she would gladly use it. Before, I would be slightly annoyed by this, now however, I was more open to the idea.
"Its good to see you again, Aang!"
She didn't pull away, so I just held her while she ug her face into my chest – purposefully digging herself into my bare shoulder rather than my covered one. She thought I wouldn't noticed, I smirked.
"Good to see you to Ty." Shortly after, when I cleared my throat after having amused myself enough, she reluctantly pulled away. "So, how have you been?"
"Great! And you?!"
"Peachy, though, I could be better…" I trailed off.
"Anything I can help you with?" She asked, raising her eyebrow and smirking at me while smirked back.
"Well, that depends."
"On what?"
"Your skillset," I folded my arms while smiling at her – to which she blushed but didn't try to hide it. "What can you do?"
I knew she was catching onto what I was implying, as when I winked at her, she drew closer and trailed her finger around me half-naked chest – drawing small circles on my right peck while whispering seductively.
"My skillset is varied," she drew closer, her eyes half-lidded and smile seductive. "Would you like a demonstration… after dinner maybe?"
I grinned at her as I too drew closer, my eyes also half-lidded, "I've already ate."
"Oh," she smirked at me again as she leaned back, acting as if she was trying to leave. "Then I'm assuming you're not hungry anymore."
I didn't allow her to escape as I drew water from the air, created a whip, wrapped it around her midriff and pulled her towards me. When she collided against me, I wrapped my arms around her waist while hers resting on my shoulders.
Her eyes were wide, the twinkle in them conveying both surprise and amusement – clearly she hadn't expected me to be so assertive, and yet, I could tell she enjoyed it.
As my lips hovered over hers, my hot breath making her shiver pleasantly, I whispered huskily before leaning in further, "I haven't had desert yet."
When our lips collided, it wasn't soft at all, it was rough – and by the way she moaned when my hands gripped onto her plump ass cheeks, I could tell she greatly enjoyed being manhandled like this. As my tongue plunged into her mouth, doing battle with hers, she trailed her hand to wrap around my neck – tugging me closer while the other traced the outlines of my chest.
I don't know for how long we were making out, but it was long enough for someone to walk by and take interest – that someone being Katara. Though I normally wouldn't be able to distinguish her heartbeat from others, since I had just spent three entire days with her, I had grown accustomed to sensing her. Normally, around me, her heartbeat was fast – steady, but fast. Now however, using my seismic sense, I noticed that it seemed erratic.
Ty Lee and I were making out by the doorway while Katara was standing in the middle of the hallway. Her body heat was quickly rising, and she despite being glued to her position, I recognised that she was also slightly trembling. I didn't know if she was horrified by what she was seeing or if she was turned on. So, I decided to experiment.
Needing some air, I pulled away from Ty Lee's lips while I trailed my own down her neck, kissing my way along her jawline as I sucked on a few spots I understood to be sensitive. When she moaned lowly, Katara's heartbeat quickened, and her body heat rose again. However, it wasn't until I sucked on Ty Lee's collarbone did I get a real reaction out of both girls.
"Aang," Ty Lee moaned, gliding her hands around my back, tugging me closer as she trailed backwards until I had her pinned against the wall.
Just then, Katara's heartbeat and body heat spike as she sighed longingly. Apparently, it was loud enough for both Ty Lee and I to notice since we pulled away and glanced towards where she stood. Luckily for her, Katara had the foresight to rush to hide behind a corner as she left the hallway. I could still sense her and call her out on it. But I decided to save her the embarrassment.
Being as impatient as ever, Ty Lee pulled me towards her lips again as she murmured, "I want you, Aang."
The next few days were somewhat hazy; Katara was acting somewhat weird around me – almost even seeming hostile towards Ty Lee whenever the Kyoshi Warrior joined us. I definitely noticed it, but I paid it no thought.
Every night that she didn't spend guarding Zuko, Ty Lee spent with me, tangled in my arms. Yet, even when she was on duty, she couldn't pass up the opportunity. Laying in the bed now, with her sleeping soundly against my chest, I remember how it all had transpired.
"Ladies," I called out as I approached the three Kyoshi Warriors, "The Fire Sages have requested your assistance." I lied. "They have requested for you fine warriors to accompany the guards in a routine check up of Princess Azula's cell."
Azula was in a mental institution, which was several yards away from the Royal Palace – yeah, I had thought this through.
The three warriors shared a look before shrugging it off. They were currently guarding Zuko and Katara's shared room, and though the thought almost caused me to gag, I persevered through when I got a good look at Ty Lee in her Warrior Uniform. Just as they began walking, I called out for her, "Not you… Ty Lee, is it?"
Realising that I was up to something, Ty Lee turned around smiling, "Yes, Avatar Aang?"
"You should stay, they only need to of you to help. Plus, we wouldn't want to leave our poor Fire Lord unguarded now, would we?"
With the other two warriors unable to see her expression, Ty Lee smirked at me as she nodded and walked back towards the door she was guarding. "Of course not, Avatar Aang. I'll be happy to accompany you."
The other two warriors shared another look before they shrugged it off again and took off. Using my seismic sense, as soon as I had sensed that they'd left the building, I pulled Ty Lee towards me and brought her into a searing kiss. She immediately wrapped her arms around me neck as I pinned her against the wall.
"I shouldn't be… distracted… while on duty… Avatar Aang…" Ty Lee seductively whispered between kisses, her breathing becoming heavy when I trailed hot, open mouthed kisses down her pale neck.
"Zuko can take care of himself," I retorted huskily. "Your attention is needed elsewhere."
When I nipped at the sensitive spots on her neck, she moaned out loudly – half expecting me to cover her mouth so that she wouldn't wake Zuko or Katara. Though, when I nipped at her neck again, and didn't cover her mouth, she tried to hold it in… and I couldn't allow her to do that.
Trailing my hands down her body, I tore open the first few buttons of her warrior robe as I sucked on her collarbone. She was still trying to stifle her moans, however, when my hands began kneading her round breasts through her bindings, she was having difficulty with her current self-obtained task.
"A-Aang… y-you're too m-much… t-they might wake u-up…" She tried to reason, but I shut her up with another kiss.
While one of my hands continued kneading her breast, the other trailed downwards and found her now damped lower bindings. I slowly rubbed her clothed womanhood and trailed my thumbs against her hardened nipples – as soon as I heard her loud moan erupting, I detached my lips from hers and allowed her to verbally exclaim her pleasure.
"Ohhh Aang… you're doing t-this on purpose…" When I firebended her lower bindings open without hurting her and rubbed my thumb against her little bump while tracing her lower lips, she hissed in bliss. "Yes… you – y-you're amazing… don't s-stop."
Adhering to her request, I plunged two fingers inside her while my thumb continued to play with her clit. She moaned and writhed against me, her hands grasping onto the back on my head when I returned to kissing her neck. Initially, it was nice and slow – the problem arose when I grew cocky (pun intended) and quickened my pace because that's when her head crashed against the door, thus echoing a loud thud that awake Zuko.
"Ohhh Aang… s-stop… h-he's awa-"
"Do you really want me to stop?" I cut her off, threatening to stop my antics when instead I only sped up the pace of my fingers diving in and out of her furthermore – thus causing her to moan loudly again as she begged for me.
"No! Don't stop. D-don't you ever s-stop!"
I smirked and returned to kissing her neck, ignoring the muffled calls of a certain firebender, "Ty Lee? Wh – What's going on out there?"
When Ty Lee didn't respond, I slowed my pace slightly to allow her to catch her breath before she answered, "E-everything's fine, Z-Zuko. Go b-back to s-sleep."
As I opened Ty Lee's upper bindings, thus allowing her breasts to jiggle out of their restraints, I latched onto her left nipple and bit down before sucking on it with power. She let out a pleasant shriek which certainly got the attention of Zuko as he once again attempted to spoil our fun, though, I have to say, the idea of being caught by either Zuko, Katara or any random person roaming the halls this late at night certainly excited me, I'm sure it excited her just as much too.
"Ty Lee? Are you okay? Your breathing, its –"
"I'm f-fine, Zuko," Ty Lee almost shouted when I pinched her right nipple before sucking on it too. "Its just b-been a l-long day. I'm f-fine."
When I sensed Zuko give up and retreat back to the bed, I also noticed that Ty Lee was about to finish – and knowing her, she was most definitely not going to be subtle. So, with a few finger thrusts, her juices burst like a dam as they dripped down my fingers. Knowing it was coming, I had already placed my hand over her mouth, so when she moaned, it was muffled and barely recognisable.
"You…" she tried to catch her breath, "you're e-evil, Aang." She tried to sound convincing, but the look of pure bliss on her face and her short chuckled was more than enough for me recognised just how much she too got a kick out of this.
"Let's continue this in your room," was the last thing I heard her say before she dragged me away.
Laying beside her now, I had explained to her the first time we hooked up that I was not looking for another relationship. She said she understood and at first I believed it… yet, that night, when we had sex… she almost treated it like we were making love. And for some reason, that didn't sit well with me.
Gently laying her beside me, I sat up and grabbed onto the scroll sitting on my bedside table. Firebending a small fire in my palm, I reminded myself of the day it all went to shit – I don't know why I do it, but I just do. It feels good, somehow – therapeutic, almost.
I asked you a question on a warm fleeting night,
Even the sunset could see my desperation for your love seeking life,
I needed you to understand, you wouldn't hear me out,
Now I'll cut you outta' my mind, until I bleed you out.
I worried if you were okay, the moon as my witness,
You were getting busy with someone else, while I drowned in my sickness,
Your love was a poison, I hadn't figured it out,
But now I'll cut you outta' my veins, until I bleed you out.
I said I was happy for you, Spirits know I meant it,
Didn't tell you that I loved you, didn't know if you would resent it,
My acceptance made you happy, for that I was proud,
I'll just cut you outta' my heart, until I bleed you out.
Your small velvet smile, your curly chocolate strands,
Your chiming little giggles, and your cute, warm hands,
They haunt me in my sleep, and taunt me when you're around,
Now, I'll have to cut them outta' my dreams, until I bleed you out.
Your persistent, comforting nature, your radiating, honest spirit,
Your childlike mischief, your outspoken, angered lyrics,
You're insecure about your flaws, I'd rather you wear em' like a crown,
You don't need to bleed for me, but I'll have to bleed you out…"
I wonder if I can, is it already too late,
Like the waves you command, am I lost in your fate?
This blood that I have spilt, in it I'll probably drown,
For how can I cut you out, when you're the only love I've ever found?
Noticing Ty Lee pressing against my torso as she wraps her arm around my abdomen in her sleep, I grip onto my pen, dab it in ink and write a new stanza. One that perfectly explains my current predicament.
I wish I could bend it out, but your love has left me leaking,
I try to ignore the spillage, but even these girls can see I'm bleeding,
I warn them not to catch feelings, and if they do, don't show them to me,
I don't want to be reminded of what I can't have, all because she's woven to me.