I get out at the Van Der Woodsen's building. It's still weird to me that my dad lives here.

I thought about coming to live here too, and I'm more than welcome, I can stay in the guest bedroom if I want to. But I always come to the conclusion that I would miss my home.

I walk into the doors and greet Vanya, he's always so sweet.

I get in the elevator and up to the top I go to the penthouse.

"Jenny!", my dad says excitedly as I come in the door. "We're so happy you're here".

"Hey dad, hey Lily", I say. It's really nice to see them.

"Come here darling", Lily pulls me in for a hug, I haven't seen her in a while. "Your father told me you weren't feeling well".

"Yeah just felt a bit nauseas, but a bit better now", I say and we walk into the dining room.

"Hey guys", I say to Serena and Eric.

"Jenny hey!", Serena looks happy. "Come sit down".

I come sit right beside Eric.

"Didn't see you at school, I was wondering where you were", Eric says.

"Yeah just went home early", I say shrugging.

"Jenny if it's nervousness at all or if the girls are bullying you, let me know", Serena says. "I know how those girls are".

"No, don't worry, no one was that bad at all", I say and grab a piece of bread from the basket on the table.

Rufus and Lily come back in.

"Okay so the sushi will be arriving shortly!", Lily says happily.

"Sushi?", I ask. Uh oh. I'm not supposed to eat that now.

"Yes! It was Serena's idea", Lily says.

"You like sushi, Jen", Dad says.

"Yeah, yeah you're right. I just don't really feel like it tonight", I say casually. "It's okay, I'll just have bread".

Everyone seems to accept it.

"So where's Dan?", Eric asks.

"Late class tonight, right Jenny?", my dad asks.

"Yeah, late class", I almost laugh out loud knowing where Dan really is.

"Well thats good, at least he is in school", Lily crosses her arms and sighs.

"Mom, you could at least try to cover up the disappointment act", Serena sulks getting up from the table.

"Oh Serena! Don't go. I'm just upset, it's a big thing you deciding not to go to Brown", Lily groans.

"It's fine, I'm supposed to go to Blair's anyway".

The 4 of us stare at each other while Serena leaves.

"I'm starting to be over her dramatics", Lily leans back in her chair sighing.

"She'll come around", Dad consoles. "Besides she'll go next year Lil".

"Her, me and Jenny can go together when Serena is ready", Eric chimes in and I nod.

Will I go to school after high school? Will I even graduate high school?

Tonight does not seem like a good time to bring up my news. Not that I was really planning to tonight anyway.

"So Jenny, what did you get up to this summer?", Lily changes the subject.

Oh you know. Just got pregnant after having sex once with my crush who probably sees me as a child. The usual summer fun.

"Um, not too much. Worked on my designs more, me and Eric had fun", I smile.

"Jenny hung around with Nate a lot", Eric says and I shoot him a look.

"Aw that's great. Nate is such a nice young man", Lily says contently.

Sure, hold on to that because you guys might not think that soon.

"Yeah, it was fun!", I say casually.

We finish up dinner and my dad and Lily go to clean up, so I realize I'm able to talk to Eric.

"Eric can we go to your room? I have to tell you something", I say in a hushed voice.

"Yeah sure".

Me and Eric get up and go to his room. I sit down on the bed.

"Okay what is going on? I'm scared", Eric says confused.

"I'm pregnant", I say throwing it out there.

"Oh. My. God", Eric sits down on the bed beside me. "Seriously?".

"Yes seriously! Why would I lie about that!?", I roll my eyes.

"I just can't believe... you and Nate?", the shock shows on his face.

"Yeah", I say.

"Have you told him?", Eric asked.

"Yeah just before I come here", I say. "It went fairly good, I'm just trying to decide what to do".

"Well that's good, at least Nate is a good guy", Eric says and I nod.

"I just cannot believe you're actually pregnant!", Eric says a bit too loudly. "Like with a baby!".

"Shush!", I warn.

"Sorry I just... your dad is gonna be so mad", Eric says.

"I know", I groan. "I just never ever thought this would be happening. It's like everything turned upside down in one day".

"I know", Eric says. "But I'm here for you Jenny. I can be the best uncle ever!"

I laugh.

"Yeah you would be", I smile.

"Or I can be the best abortion accompaniment ever too", Eric adds. "If that's what you want".

I sigh. "I don't know what I want".

"Do you know what Nate wants to do?", Eric asks.

"No, I'm not even sure if he does. I don't think he wanted to try to steer me in one direction. I have to make the decision for myself", I sigh. "At least I know he'll be supportive".

"Nate would be a pretty good dad", Eric says and laughs. "As long as the kid's not around Chuck too much".

I laugh, but then remember the direness of my situation.

"I'm so scared Eric", I confess looking him straight in the eyes, my tears forming.

"I know", his eyes soften. "Maybe you should tell my mom... I mean she got pregnant at 18 and it was unplanned".

"Yeah eventually I'll tell her and my dad, my dad is going to go ballistic".

"Well I'm always here for you Jenny, any time, and I know the rest of the family will be too", Eric smiles.

"Wanna watch tv with me to get my mind off everything?", I lay on one of Eric's pillows.

"Real Housewives?", Eric smiles.

"Yeah... the housewives take my mind off anything", I laugh and we settle in beside each other.

The show partially works, but there's still a voice in the back of my head that won't let me relax.

When the episode is over, it's already almost 9 and I should get going.

I say goodbye to Eric and Lily, and my dad walks me down to the lobby to catch a cab.

"Is everything okay Jenny? You seemed quiet at dinner", my Dad says.

"No, I'm fine dad, just not feeling the best".

"Honey, I miss you... don't you want to live here with me and Lily maybe? Eric's here", I can see my dad's sadness in his eyes. "I mean you're just 16, you should be with your family".

"Thanks dad, but me and Dan work well together as roommates... besides, you know I love Brooklyn", I say. "I know I'm 16, but I'm probably the oldest 16 year old I know".

"I know you want your independence, and I respect that. I just love you honey", my dad pulls me in for a hug.

"I love you too dad, so much".

I didn't know how badly I needed a hug from my dad. For some reason, I wanted to pull him into the cab with me and we could go back to Brooklyn and he'd tuck me into bed like when I was little. And I'd wake up to the smell of waffles cooking and just know everything was going to be okay.

But that wasn't how life worked. His life was partially here now. And I had grown up.

We get to the cab.

"Be careful sweetie, I'll text Dan to meet you out front".

"Bye dad", I wave.

Somehow the cab ride feels like some of the loneliest few minutes of my life.

Until my phone beeps.

N: Hey. Did you get home safe?

I smile and reply sarcastically.

J: On my way home right now, Dad.

N: Very funny. I've just been thinking of you and want to make sure you're okay. You are right?

J: I will be. I just need some time to think.

N: I understand. Talk soon. Sleep well Jenny.

J: You too.

I sigh. We reach the building, I pay and thank the driver and get out.

Dan is standing in the lobby waiting to walk up together when I see he's holding something.

I walk closer to him.

"What the hell is this?", he's holding one of my many pregnancy test wrappers.

Shit.