Hello everyone! SO so sorry about the delay things will start coming out more frequently! I finally got a new laptop! Thank you all for your patience and impatience while I was on Hiatus!
This chapter is going to be a flash back during Kirito's transformation and how she becomes more accepting of her situation. Some of you wanted to know what exactly happened. SO HERE YOU GO! Hope you enjoy the ride.
I do not own SAO or it's characters just my messed up ideas!

Kazuta trembled hearing his nice leather shoes patter down the hall. She teared up in fear as it neared her door. 'Please don't come in here.' She thought trembling. Sugou walked in smiling at her with a tray of breakfast. "Good morning my love how did you sleep?"

"I slept fine." She said glaring at him.

"Really? Oh Good how long are you going to speak to me like this?" Sugou asked setting the tray down next to her seeing her pull away ever so slightly.

"I don't understand I'm just talking." Kazuta said and pulled away at his touch when he barely grazed her arm setting the tray down.

Sugou was getting tired of her behavior and grabbed her by her hair roughly forcing her to look at him. "What do you think this is a little game Kazuta you belong to me. You will treat me with respect or else Do you understand me little bird?" Kazuta cried out in pain when he grabbed her hair. Something on Sugou's face changed. Rage was all she could see, and something darker was burning.

"No! I won't live like this! You can't force me to be a woman! I hate you!" She screamed and tried to get out of his grip. The next thing she knew was being forced face first into the pillows. Her arms painfully yanked up and tied to the headboard. She pulled her head up panting, turning her head she saw Sugou's belt free from his pants. "No what are you doing...Sugou...please. I don't hurt me.." Kazuta whimpered out.

"You made this choice my little bird." He said with no remorse bringing the belt, buckle and all, down on her back. Kazuta screamed having never felt such pain biting her skin as that. "You little bitch! I've given you everything and all you want to do is throw it in my face like a ungrateful child. I will teach you lessons you will never forget!" Sugou was losing control so much so Kazuta was losing consciousness. The guards pulled Sugou from her as he screamed while being dragged out. A guard looked at her sadly before closing the door.

Kazuta gasped from her night mare trying to sit up but she was still on her stomach. Hands tied to the head board. Tears started to flow not knowing she wasn't alone. Sugou was sitting in a chair in the corner. He was watching a new doctor he hired to clean her up. Kazuta cried out a fearful scream feeling the doctor touch her shoulders. "Shh it's okay dear. I'm just cleaning your back." Kazuta slowly relaxed. "This will be painful but necessary. Can you endure it for me?"

"Yes ma'am. I can do that for you." Kazuta said and froze when she heard Sugou scoff. She swallowed hard and looked over slowly at Sugou. "M-m-my love. There y-you a-a-are." She said shaking slightly.

"Sounds like you finally learned some manners. Took you long enough." He said with no usual lovey way he usually spoke to her. It was cold and sharp, and somehow made her even more scared of the beating. No kindness. No compassion. No love. He didn't even call her a little bird, she had truly angered him.

"Yes my love I have, thank you, for your lesson..." He cut her off.

"No form of flattery will make me forgive you. You need to show it through action." He said frowning. "You can untie her, I'll get her some food." The doctor watched him get up and leave. She undid the bindings and went back to treating the wounds.

"I have some friends...people who can help with abusive husbands..." The doctor said helping her sit up so she could see the wounds a bit clearer in the light. "He can't get away with.."

"Don't. Even if I got away he'd find me." Kazuta said tearing up. "He's willing to do anything so before he hurts you just do what he's paying for and forget you ever saw me." She said sadly. "You don't want to mess with him." The doctor frowned and nodded slowly finishing up the stitches. "Thank you for this. The kindness is appreciated.

"You're welcome dear. Just let me know if you truly do need anything. I'll leave my card with you." She said tucking it away. Sugou walked back in after the doctor had sat back. "She's all patched up sir. I'll be sending you my bill double the usual for being quiet."

"That's fine pack your things and leave. If I find anything that shouldn't be here. She'll look worse than what she does now." He said frowning. The doctor hurried up and packed her things before leaving without a glance back. "Trying to get help from people to escape?"

"No master I wasn't she wanted to but I told her no, she wouldn't listen." Kazuta handed him the card the doctor left. "I know only you would be able to accept me for who you made me." Kazuta said sadly.

Sugou laughed at her. "That's adorable. I don't think you've really learned your lesson. Eat and meet me in the bedroom three doors down. You'll truly prove that in there if not I'll punish you again." He got up and left the room leaving the door open to her. Kazuta stared at the food and slowly ate tearing up. She waited a half hour before stumbling to the room. Sugou wasn't inside but the toys, whips and other things she didn't have a name for covered the room. He had told her he had built this room but she didn't think he'd actually use it on her.

Sugou walked in and smiled. "You're earlier than I thought. Good girl. Now get naked and walk over to the pole." Kazuta teared up and started to walk over to the pole in the corner of the room. She undressed and held herself feeling so confused as the strange She looked at the manacles above her head in fear. "You're scared good you should be."

"Wait what? I thought you said I wasn't being punished." She said trying to escape but he quickly pressed her against the pole. He used the manacles to keep her in place and smiled. "So cute look at you squirming." He said caressing Kazuta's hips as he debated on what to do to her. He let go and grabbed a gag. "You're too loud." He said not putting it on quite yet. He grabbed a vibrator and slipped it inside her pussy. She winced scratching at the post.

"Too big." She whimpered as he turned it on. "My love please I'm sorry..." She begged shaking and cried out muffled cries as he gagged her. Sugou chuckled and lubed her ass before slamming into her without any prep. She screamed in pain slumping into the pole soon slamming into it as Sugou roughly took her from behind blood slowly falling down her legs. He cursed her and said cruel things into her ear. She trembled as he fed her word after word her mind spinning. Kazuta lost count how many times they did it like that. Her wrists were raw, and purple from bruises. Semen, and blood drained steadily from her after he pulled out. He uncuffed her and carried her to their room.

"What have you learned?" He asked not treating her gently even now.

"That I belong to you and my body is yours to play with however you want." She said blankly.

"And?" He asked

"That I'm your precious female." She said feeling hot tears fall down her already tear stained face. "And that I love you Sugou."

"That's my girl." He cooed and set her on the bed. "Let me get you some pajamas." Sugou hummed. Kazuta slowly sat up, but couldn't hold herself up long, slumping against the sheets. He came out with a wash cloth. He cleaned her gently sliding on a baby doll lingerie and lacy underwear. She had gotten used to the strange fabrics that felt soft and itched occasionally. She flinched when he climbed into bed and pulled her close. Kazuta pretended to sleep knowing he would eventually get up and go work. When he did she waited till he left before crying into the pillows.

Once the adrenaline stopped pumping through her it was hard to stay conscious from the pain. There was so many kinds her head just spun, dull, sharp, sudden spikes. She ended up passing out and unknown to her didn't wake for two days. Sugou was sitting next to the bed watching her when Kazuta slowly woke. Looking around as her head pounded she froze seeing Sugou.

He smiled. "Morning little bird." He said smiling and handed her some pain medicine. She looked at the pills hesitantly, she had been tricked before, and of course she wouldn't trust him so easily. "It's really pain medicine, you are in no condition for sex for a couple days." Sugou said smiling and sighed when she still didn't take it. He held her jaw roughly till she opened her mouth for him. He sighed and gave her the pills and held a glass of water to her lips. She didn't fight and finally swallowed the pills.

Kazuta whimpered looking down at the floor and closed her eyes. "Thank you Sugou." She said softly. "Am I allowed breakfast?"

"Of course dear it should be brought up soon I wasn't sure when you would be awake." He called down to the servant, who did bring up a tray of breakfast. The servant handed it to Sugou and promptly excused himself. Sugou propped up Kazuta and started to feed her.

Kazuta didn't dare resist him one more second the punishment still fresh on her mind. Taking a shaky breath she looked at her captor. "Sugou, if I accept being a female, and I give myself to you. Do you promise to never hurt me like that again?" She asked gently grabbing his hand. She had started to cry scared he would deny it or punish her again. Sugou thought for a moment, looking between her hand and her tear stained face.

"If you give yourself to me fully, and never deny me. I will not hurt you like I did." He said and sighed. "So you agree to marry me?"

"What ever you desire Su...my love." Kazuta said softly and looked up into his face. She flinched at his touch as he moved his hand to cup her cheek, at first, but leaned into the soft hand. "Sorry." She whispered.

"It's quite alright my dear just finish eating and slowly get used to our new life. Tomorrow we'll make love in game, so your body can heal properly. Doesn't that sound wonderful?"

"Yes my love. I'm really tired from the medicine can I sleep?" Kazuta asked just wanting to have some peace.

"No you need to finish eating and it will be better if you stay awake. I need to head into the office to deal with some business, but I want to make sure you eat. You haven't eaten very much and I can't have you getting sick from that." Sugou said and chuckled at the pout she gave him. He fed her till the plate was empty. "Thank you little bird now you can get some rest." He said laying her down gently.

Kazuta leaned into his hand as he caressed her cheek. "Are you going to leave?" She asked.

"I do have some work to take care of but you will fine here, yes?" He asked. "After all it's not like you can move much currently." He said softly. "Sleep well Kazuta." He said seeing that the medicine was putting her to sleep. He kissed her forehead and left to get some things set up. He didn't trust her fully. She would have to prove to him that this wasn't just some tactic to escape.

Kazuta watched him and struggled to keep her eyes open. 'He's going to kill me if I don't give in.' She thought before falling asleep.