Chapter 5

When I wake up, my mind is completely clear. I remember everything, and I want to scream.

I jump out of bed, noticing that I'm still wearing the robe from last night. The sudden movement makes me aware of a deep inner soreness, and my lower body tightens at the memory of how I got to be that sore. I can still feel her fullness inside me, and I shudder at the recollection.

I am sickened and disgusted with myself. What is wrong with me? How could I have just lain there and let Lisa have sex with me? How could I have found pleasure in her embrace?

Yes, she's good-looking, but that's no excuse. She's evil. I know it. I sensed it from the very beginning. Her outer beauty hides a darkness inside.

I have a feeling she's only begun to reveal her true nature to me.

Yesterday I had been too frightened, too traumatized to pay attention to my surroundings. I'm feeling much better today, so I carefully study this room.

There is a window. It's covered by thick ivory shades, but I can still see a little sunlight peeking through.

I rush to it, pulling open the shades, and blink at the sudden bright light. It takes a few seconds for my eyes to adjust, and then I look outside.

The bottom drops out of my stomach.

The window is not hermetically sealed or anything like that. In fact, it looks like I could easily open it and climb out. This room is on the second floor, so I could maybe even make it to the ground without breaking anything.

No, the window is not the problem.

It's the view outside.

I can see palm trees and a white sandy beach. Beyond it, there is a large body of water, blue and shimmering in the bright sun.

It's beautiful and tropical.

And about as different as possible from my little town in the Midwest.

I'm cold again. So cold that I'm shivering. I know it's from stress because the temperature must be somewhere in the eighties.

I'm pacing up and down the room, occasionally pausing to look out the window.

Every time I look, it's like a punch to the stomach.

I don't know what I'd been hoping. I honestly hadn't had a chance to think about my location. I'd just sort of assumed that she would keep me somewhere in the area, maybe near Chicago where we'd first met. I'd thought that all I had to do in order to escape is find a way out of this house.

Now I realize it's far more complicated than that.

I try the door again. It's locked.

A few minutes ago, I had discovered a small bathroom attached to this room. I used it to take care of my basic needs and to brush my teeth. It had been a nice distraction.

Now I'm pacing like a caged animal, growing more terrified and angry with every minute that passes.

Finally, the door opens, and a woman comes inside.

I'm so shocked that I simply stare. She's fairly young—and pretty.

She's holding a tray of food and smiling at me. Her hair is blonde, and her eyes are a soft brown color. She's taller than me. She's dressed very casually, in a pair of jean shorts and a white tank top, with flip-flops on her feet.

I think about attacking her. She's a woman, and I have a small chance of winning against her in a fight. I have no chance against Lisa.

Her smile widens, as though she's reading my mind. "Please don't jump me," she says, and I can hear the amusement in her voice. "It's quite pointless, I promise. I know you want to escape, but there is really nowhere to go. We're on a private island in the middle of the Pacific Ocean."

The sinking feeling in my stomach worsens. "Whose private island?" I ask, though I already know the answer.

"Why, Lisa's, of course."

"Who is she? Who are you people?" My voice is relatively steady as I speak to her. She doesn't make me nervous the way Lisa does.

She puts down the tray. "You'll learn everything in due time. I'm here to take care of you and the property. My name is Sorn, by the way."

I take a deep breath. "Why am I here, Sorn?"

"You're here because Lisa wants you."

"And you don't see anything wrong with that?" I can hear the hysterical edge in my tone. I don't understand how this woman is going along with that madman, how she's acting like this is normal.

She shrugs. "Lisa does whatever she wants. It's not for me to judge."

"Why not?"

"Because I owe her my life," she says seriously and walks out of the room.

I eat the food Sorn brought me. It's pretty good actually, even though it's not traditional breakfast food. There is grilled fish in some kind of mushroom sauce and roasted potatoes with a side of green salad. For dessert, there's some cut-up mango. Local fruit, I'm guessing.

Despite my inner turmoil, I manage to eat everything. If I were less of a coward, I would resist by refusing to eat her food—but I fear hunger as much as I fear pain.

So far she hasn't really hurt me. Well, it did hurt when she put her cock inside me, but she hadn't been purposefully rough. I suspect it would've hurt the first time regardless of the circumstances.

The first time. It suddenly dawns on me that it had been my first time. Now I'm no longer a virgin.

Strangely, I don't feel like I lost anything. The thin membrane inside me had never held any particular meaning for me. I never intended to wait until marriage or anything else like that. I regret that my first time was with a monster, but I don't mourn the loss of the 'virgin' designation. I would've gladly gone all the way with Hanbin, if I'd only had a chance.

Hanbin! My stomach lurches. I can't believe I haven't thought about him since Lisa told me he was safe. The guy I've been crazy about for months had been the furthest thing from my mind when I was in the arms of my captor.

Hot shame burns inside me. Shouldn't I have been thinking of Hanbin last night? Shouldn't I have been picturing his face when Lisa touched me so intimately? If I truly wanted Hanbin, shouldn't he have been the one on my mind during my forced sexual encounter?

I'm suddenly filled with bitter hatred for the woman who did this to me—the woman who shattered my illusions about the world, about myself. I'd never thought much about what I would do if I got kidnapped, how I would react. Who thinks about stuff like that? But I guess I'd always assumed I would be brave, fighting to my last breath. Isn't that what they do in all the books and movies? Fight, even when it's useless, even when doing so means getting hurt? Shouldn't I have done that too? Yes, she's stronger than me, but I didn't have to give in so easily. She didn't tie me up; she didn't threaten me with a knife or a gun. All she'd done was chase me down when I tried to run.

That run had been the grand total of my resistance thus far.

I don't recognize this person who had given in so easily. And yet I know she's me. A part of me that had never come to light before. A part of me that I would've never known if Lisa hadn't taken me.

Thinking about this is so upsetting that I focus on my captor instead. Who is she? How can someone afford to have an entire private island? How does Sorn owe her her life? And, most importantly, what does she intend to do with me?

A million different scenarios run through my mind, each one more horrifying than the next. I know there's such a thing as human trafficking. It happens all the time, especially to women from poorer countries. Is that the fate that awaits me? Am I going to end up in a brothel somewhere, drugged out of my mind and used daily by dozens of men? Is Lisa simply sampling the merchandise before she delivers it to its final destination?

Before panic can take over my mind, I inhale deeply and try to think logically. While the human trafficking is a possibility, it doesn't seem likely to me. For one thing, Lisa appears to be very possessive of me—far too possessive for someone just testing out the merchandise. And besides, why bring me here, to her private island, if she's just planning to sell me?

My pet, she had called me. Is that just a meaningless endearment, or is that how she sees me? Does she have some fetish that involves keeping women captive? I think about it for a while, and decide that she probably does. Why else would a wealthy, good-looking woman do this? Surely she has no problem getting dates the usual way. In fact, I might've gone out with her myself if I hadn't gotten that strange vibe from her in the club.

If she hadn't touched me like she owned me.

Is that her thing? Ownership? Does she want a sex slave? If so, why did she choose me? Was it because of my reaction to her at the club? Did she guess that I would be a coward, that I would let her do whatever she wanted to me? Did I somehow bring this upon myself?

The thought is so sickening that I push it away and get up, determined to explore my prison further.

The door is still locked, which doesn't surprise me. I'm able to open the window, and warm, ocean-scented air fills the room.

I can't open the screen on the window, though. I would need to do that in order to climb out. I don't try too hard. If Sorn is to be believed, escaping from this room wouldn't help me at all.

I look for something that could be used as a weapon. There's no knife, but there's a fork left over from my meal. Sorn would probably notice if I hide it. Still, I take a chance and do it, concealing the utensil behind a stack of books on a tall bookshelf that lines one of the walls.

Next I explore the bathroom, hoping to find a bottle of hairspray or something else along those lines. But there's only soap, toothbrush, and toothpaste. In the shower stall, I find body wash, shampoo, and conditioner—all nice, expensive brands. My captor is clearly not stingy.

Then again, anyone who owns a private island can probably afford a fifty-dollar shampoo. She might even be able to afford a thousand-dollar shampoo, if such a thing exists.

The fact that I'm thinking about shampoo amazes me. Shouldn't I be screaming and crying? Oh, wait, I did that yesterday. I guess there's only so much crying a person can do. I seem to be all out of tears, at least for now.

After exploring every nook and cranny of the room, I get bored, so I take one of the books from the bookshelf. A Sidney Sheldon novel, something about a woman betrayed who seeks revenge on her enemies.

It's engrossing enough that I'm able to mentally escape my prison for the next couple of hours.

Sorn comes and brings me lunch. She also brings me some clothes, folded in a stack.

I'm glad. I've been wearing the bathrobe all morning, and I would like to dress normally.

When she puts the clothes on the dresser, I again think about tackling her and trying to escape. Maybe using the fork I've got stashed away.

"Jennie, give me the fork," she says.

I jump a little and give her a startled look. Could she actually be a mind-reader?

And then I realize that she's simply looking at the empty tray and noticing that the utensil is missing.

I decide to play dumb. "What fork?"

She lets out a sigh. "You know what fork. The one you hid behind the books. Give it to me."

Another one of my assumptions proven wrong. I don't know why I'd thought I had any privacy.

I look up at the ceiling, studying it carefully, but I can't see where the cameras are.

"Jennie . . ." Sorn prompts.

I retrieve the fork and throw it at her. I think I'm secretly hoping it spears her in the eye.

But Sorn catches it and shakes her head at me, as though disappointed in my behavior. "I was hoping you wouldn't act this way," she says.

"Act what way? Like a victim of kidnapping?" I really, really want to hit her right now.

"Like a spoiled brat," she clarifies, putting the fork in her pocket. "You think it's so awful, being here on this beautiful island? You think you're suffering by being in Lisa's bed?"

I stare at her like she's a lunatic. Does she honestly expect me to be okay with this situation? To meekly go along with this and never utter a word of protest?

She stares back at me, and for the first time, I notice some lines on her face. "You don't know the real meaning of suffering, little girl," she says softly, "and I hope you never find out. Be nice to Lisa, and you just might be able to continue living a charmed life."

She leaves the room, and I swallow to get rid of the sudden dryness in my throat.

For some reason, her words make my hands shake.