The Colour of Your Eyes

by Robot Zombie Pineapples

When Ranger returns from his last mission with less than he had when he left, Steph and his friends pile in to help him regain what was lost, but can she continue to put on a brave face for him with the weight of the world on her shoulders? A story of the lengths one goes to to preserve love. Babe HEA.

7. Losing You

Chapter 7

Dear Babe,

I lost my memories, and now I'm losing you too. It feels like everything is slipping away from me, and every time I try to snatch it back, to clutch it to my chest, it just soars further out of reach. She's replacing you. In my head, the silhouette that I knew, even without being able to make out the details, was you has been erased, and all I see now when I close my eyes is her face. That outrageous mop of curls, those supple pink lips, and those beautiful blue orbs staring back at me. Imploring. And nothing I do, nothing I think of, none of the feelings you gave me, that kept me sane even when I thought I was losing it, none of it can bring you back to me.

My every thought is taken over by Steph and I don't know how to make her stop. I don't know how to evict her from my brain any more than I know how to uncover my missing memories.

And isn't that just the root of all my problems?

Her words from yesterday wont stop circling my head.

"There's nothing about Trenton that feels like home?"

No, there's not, but as soon as she asked, I thought of you. Only, your eyes were still hers.

I told her I'd be returning to Florida as soon as the new office was up and running, forgetting that everything I know is a decade out of date, and Babe, her reply rocked me to my core. She said the Trenton office has been up and running for ten years now. And I'm still there. Still in Trenton! Still close enough to my family that they would expect me to visit them at least once a month.

It has to be you, Babe. I can't think of any other reason I would have stuck around so long.

She knows. I know she does. She knows so much about me, she must know who you are too. I feel like one more session with her could have unlocked all the secrets I've been keeping from myself. But she left. Just took off without warning. Now I know how you felt when I would hang up without saying goodbye.

I need to go. Whatever I'm forgetting, whatever Steph wants me to remember, whatever you are to me, all roads lead to Trenton. That's where I'll find my answers.

Don't go crazy, Babe. I'm coming.

Carlos