POV Jellal:
It is the second half of October.
The day I don't like has come, which is a check-up with a Psychiatrist.
This doctor will decide what to do next about my treatment, but I have to tell him right away that I have side effects, medication.
"Mr. Fernandes?" The nurse called me, so I got up from the chair in the waiting room.
Without a word or paying attention to other people in the clinic who looked at me as if I was a circus freak, I walked inside the office.
The doctor greeted me, took my health record from a bright bookcase, covered with advertisements. He scribbled in hard to read handwriting my details and the date of my visit.
"The sound of fast typing irritates me terribly. My teeth hurt from that."
I turned off completely, which has never happened to me so often, but only got back, mentally, to myself when he asked me a question.
" How do you feel?"
"... What? Oh, sorry. I thought a little bit" I smiled in embarrassment
"No problem, it's completely natural."
"I get it already."
"Something has happened recently, some fears or a lack of control?"
"Let me put it this way. Once it's okay, I can concentrate and I'm full of energy, and once it's bad and I can't do anything."
"Please don't worry, this is just the beginning of your treatment." He gently stated.
"Beginning? Then when can I expect the end?"
"Your case is very complicated to say now. It takes at least six months for the so-called Medicine Vacation." He didn't cheer me up too much.
"Because of it all, I have to be very careful about what I drink. Even my tea has to be checked."
"Here, please don't panic. The only tea that could harm you is St. John's Wort. It is hallucinogenic and in the worst case, there is a risk of death."
"I understand that I should quit the missions?" I did not hide the fact that I felt unnecessary.
"You can go on missions, but be gentler so that you don't lose control of yourself."
"... Fine. I'll make some right decision." I sighed heavily.
"You are well on your way to partial recovery. Tell me what's the matter with Siegrain? "
At this point, I burst out laughing.
I explained to him that me and Siegrain were trying to get along in some way, but we weren't always successful.
However, the doctor explained to me what exactly is going on : We both create a kind of System composed of two different identities. I don't understand it at all, it seems ridiculous, irrational to me. Me and Siegrain, we have established patterns of perception, establishing relationships and thinking about the environment and ourselves.
It is possible that he himself has a separate personality that is tormenting him, neither I nor he about its existence.
It was also stunningly strange for me how the specialist added that we both have different preferences, both in terms of food, style of dress and sex.
"Oh fuck. Now I know why I ate the pancakes I did not remember, I pierced my ears, I have two tattoos that somehow heal nicely, and in my wardrobe, there are new clothes that made my cash disappear. The answer to this is very simple ... Siegrain's whims."
The Machine of Making Sins is spinning.
I admit that I quite like it, just to be without exaggeration.
We have one thing in common: Traumatic Childhood
" But one more thing puzzles me, why Siegrain lied about being a Demon? I'm not stupid, I just didn't want to show it for a lack of courage. His play on emotions is both derogatory and immature... No wonder Erik is afraid to come near me. "
...
November X793.
The first snow has already appeared, and with it, my well-being has plummeted downward.
There is nothing can do about it when you feel the weather aura changes.
Erza moved in with me two weeks earlier, unpacking, she only had a problem with where to hide her armors and weapons. Our beloved, famous neighbor from the sixth floor came to the rescue. Her name is Detty, she often comes to us for coffee and cake, both girls have become friends.
Rumors spread about our meetings among other neighbors ("Very nosy and extremely mean neighbors. ") They make up such things that there are not enough words to describe it logically.
These stubborn, probably bored with their lives, people called us "Stoned blue pimp and his two whores."
Once, the three of us acted out such an ambiguous scene that their eyes turned white. When we got back to the apartment, Erza and Detty couldn't help but laugh.
"I didn't regret anything. I will have something to tell my grandchildren about one day. "
...
The day came when I was on the train with the Crime Sorciere.
Both cold inside and outside, it's good that Meredy had a thermos with a hot drink with her.
"Salvation!" Sorano was glad
"I told you to dress warmer." I interjected.
"Jellal, you're not my dad, goddamn it!" As usual, she emphasized my alleged fatherly behavior.
"You sweetened it, Meredy!" Sawyer was complaining
"That chocolate was like that!" Meredy explained herself.
"I don't like milk chocolate!"
"Then don't drink what doesn't suit you!" She hit him with her bag "
"I like it very much because this warmth reaches my heart, like love." The only one Richard appreciated it.
"Then love is sick." Sawyer bent the string hard.
"Could you please stop? My head aches from your stupidity." Macbeth caused a sudden silence.
"I'm puking because of all of you in a moment." Poor Erik was huddled by the window.
When I was trying to fall asleep on the trip, Macbeth handed me a green envelope sealed with a shimmering purple wax.
" What is this?" I was surprised
"That girl who burned you with ivy told me to pass it on to you."
It was a letter from Nika, my younger sister.
She asked me to visit her because she wanted to talk to me about things from the past.
"I'm afraid of my memories, but I have to face it."
...
We arrived at the palace of Queen Hisui. There was dangerous ice under our feet that we could just break from.
"Be careful on the stairs. They are very slippery, that's a warning also for people with heels."
" Damn it!" Sorano was indignant.
"Hah, you underestimate my shoes, bitch." Macbeth was gracefully going upstairs. "
" ...Oh my God." I was stunned.
"Model!" Erik finished.
"Big things to me! Jellal had the higher." Here Meredy fired like a firecracker.
"Wait! I've never had high heels!" I was defending myself.
"Correction. They were almost higher."
" Whatever!" I was pouting.
"Hahahaha, Bi Vibes!" Erik and Sawyer made fun of me.
"Fuck you jerks! He at least looks divine when he fights." Sorano only added fuel to the fire.
"Get me out of here! "
The Queen welcomed us with a ceremonial dinner.
We were treated as if we were never criminals. We serve her faithfully.
The whole conversation went well until we got the information that stuck us in the chairs.
"I must warn you. The New Magic Council is watching you. Be careful."
"What? What do they want from us ?!" Meredy was terrified
"Your Majesty. What does this mean?" Macbeth showed a clear interest.
"They change the Magic Law. They gave an ultimatum to all independent that either they act on their rules ..."
"...Or?" Erik swallowed hard.
"They'll take the wanted posters."
" ...I don't agree." I crushed the glass in anger.
"Jellal, what have you done ?!" Meredy took a napkin to stem the initial bleeding.
"Summon a medic! Immediately!" I heard the scream of Arcadius, the Queen's adviser.
"... I'll be fine. I am so sorry, Your Majesty. I shouldn't do this. I am extremely ashamed of that. "
"I honestly understand your bitterness." The Queen forgave me by showing her mercy.
"You absolutely need to rest, Jellal." Macbeth knows it.
"... You're right. I have to announce something. I want the Queen to witness it. I'm leaving the Crime Sorciere for a while."
" What?!" Everyone was shocked.
"Listen carefully. Like I said ... I'm only going away for a while, I'm not sure how much, but I have to fix my life."
"So who's gonna be in charge of us now ?! Sawyer frowned
"Macbeth and Meredy" I ruled
"Why are you appointing me?" Macbeth's eyes widened.
" And me?" Meredy the same.
"Because only you are reasonably well-coordinated in Our Little Family."
"We will try not to disappoint you." They both said, holding my hand.
"I'm sure of it one hundred percent"
"For my part, you can be sure of one thing ... I will protect you because you deserve respect and not unfounded control. I won't hand you over to the Magic Council, even if they kill me! You've all suffered enough."
I believe that her speech stuck deeply into the hearts of the Crime Sorciere
"We are grateful to You, Your Majesty." Richard started crying.
"It's an honor for me to be able to protect you. I still have something to say to one of you ... Jellal Fernandes?"
"Yes, Your Majesty? ..." I got up out of politeness.
"Live and enjoy it"
"I will. Thank you."
...
As I was walking into downtown Crocus, I called Erza not to worry about me.
I informed her that I was going to meet the sister she already knew about and that I could, at worst, come back on the first train of the night.
The letter Nika sent me included a map leading to the tenement house where she lives. Once there, I slowly climbed the creaky old stairs, and on top of that, a large, white fluffy dog with black eyes was running straight at me but instead of biting me, he wanted to chase me to death.
"I don't kiss dogs!"
This quite cute beast did not want to let go until the owner came.
"So this is her doggy. "
"Mimi, let him go! Bad dog! Don't worry, Jellal. He's harmless."
"I had time to notice it." I was wiping saliva from my nose.
"What happened to your hand?" Nika looked worried.
" Long story."
"Are you cold?" She opened the door to the house.
" No. It's good."
...
"Sorry to have a mess, but the rituals made me forget to clean up." She laughed embarrassed.
"Your home, your business."
"Tea or Coffee?"
"Coffee, please. I feel a little sleepy."
" I know why."
"I'll tell you everything in a moment."
"Okay! Take your time. We have all night for this." She bent me with that sentence.
She put down coffee and homemade cinnamon cookies. With curiosity, I looked at her things that she keeps everywhere in the room. They seemed familiar to me.
"I can see you like my Sacred Spaces."
"I see a lot of wolves here."
"I am following in the footsteps of our mother." I almost choked on drinking when she said that.
"... Do you know about her?"
"The local witches knew her. They told me what she was like and what she did for you."
"So it's true after all?"
"Yes. They said she sacrificed her soul to the Demon Goddess in exchange for having you born. The mark on your face is proof of it."
"Say what ?!" I felt I was going crazy.
"It was a very powerful spell, it cost everything. After her death, she couldn't interfere with your life, she couldn't be with you."
...
It's over. I have lost my rationality of thinking.
Bad memories came back.
...You made fun of me in front of the whole Army! ... My father?
...You don't understand, Armand! I did it to save our son! I love him more than my own life! ... My mother?
...This something ?! A freak of nature for which I will be ashamed!
...Stop drinking that alcohol!
...Fuck off, devilish bitch!
...Daddy, please! Don't hurt mommy! ...It's me? That little boy?
...Don't be afraid, my son. Nothing happens! ... She wanted to protect me so much.
I can not stand this!
Siegrain ... turn me off ... Dad yells at me ... Turn me off ... Turn me off !
...
"Shhh ... It's okay, it's over." He was hugging me
"You're crying too! Are you afraid?"
"... It just hurts me too. You hid those memories in me."
"That's why you tricked me."
"Yes! Sorry, I was sick of your childhood!"
"Forgive me, Siegrain."
"You took advantage of me, but it doesn't matter anymore. We're free, thanks to your sister."
"What does Nika have to do with this?"
"Wake up and you will find out."
...
"Jellal? Jellal ... Jellal, open your eyes."
"Oh ... I'm alive."
"Put a tear on this candle."
" For what?"
" Trust me."
I did what she asked me to do.
"Ritual of letting go. Enjoy your freedom. By the way ... I knew you wouldn't tell me at one point, so I preferred to prepare."
"You smart witch." I couldn't hold back and laughed.
"Got it after someone."
"She would be proud of you."
"I suggest you go to bed early today."
"Great idea, little sister."
Nika brought me the sheets.
Not paying attention to what she's doing with the cards, I decided to calm down in myself and not think about anything.
"This is my time. Patronage me, Hell Lady. I am not afraid of sin. "
... The End.
This topic was too hard to explain.
Sorry, but I was crying myself as I wrote this.