Present- Edward

After the initial shock wore off, the pain started to settle into my body. The soreness from the crash and the pain I was beginning to feel from whatever injuries I had were intense, but nothing was as deep as the pain my mind and heart were feeling right now. I knew my anxiety and blood pressure were skyrocketing, even as the nurses and on call doctors kept telling me to calm down. But how do you calm down after something like this?

I didn't give a fuck at the moment about my arm and the fact that this will more than likely be a late start in my baseball season. I didn't give a fuck about my car or the fact that I had just gotten it a few months ago and it was a brand new, top of the line Mercedes. No, all I cared about right now was the hole in my chest, ripping open at the thought of my best friend being gone and having no idea what is happening to my other one.

Both Jake and Bells were my life. I know everyone thinks that baseball is my end all be all, and on some level it is. It got me through a lot of shit and saved my ass more times than I can count. Baseball pushed me to be better than I was and I'm proud of how much I have accomplished. But it wasn't my life.

Even my family, I love them more than anything in this world. My mom and dad were my rocks, and they backed my every move. Even if it they didn't agree, they always supported me. My twin sister, Alice, hell she got on my nerves, but she was always there for me too. Alice never missed a game, important event, or a success in my life. But even through all of that, in my heart none of them held a candle to Jake and Bella. That probably sounds messed up, but there were certain things that your best friends could be there for that your family couldn't. I would just never tell my sister that or she'd have my balls.

My family never minded, and they always included Jake and his dad into everything we did. When Bella came along, it was like that's how it had always been.

"Edward!" My dad came barreling through the Emergency Room doors, throwing on his white coat in haste to get to my bedside. The other nurses and doctors moved out of the way for him and suddenly he was in charge here. Most the time he was only in doctor mode, but when it came to his kids and being in both doctor and dad mode, it was never easy for him. "What happened?!"

"I'm fine, dad."

"Hardly!" He spoke harshly, his nerves showing. "Where are you feeling pain?" His eyes moved quickly over my body before looking at the monitor, noticing my erratic heartbeat and rising blood pressure. I tried to calm myself down, knowing that if I didn't, he'd probably have me sedated or some shit.

"My arm," I slightly shifted the one in question, "And my head. Everything else just feels sore, I guess."

He nods, grabbing my chart from a nurse who handed it to him. I see the tired and stressed look on his face and immediately feel guilty for having to worry him. With my parents, I never had to worry or stress that they wouldn't be there, 100% focused on us kids. They always gave us their all, and I always felt bad anytime I caused them grief. Alice was the good twin; I was the wild card.

Dad started speaking in rushed tones to his staff, yammering about CT scans, full blood panel work up and more. He would spare no expense or trouble for his family. He had worked at Forks Memorial Hospital his entire career after residency and quickly worked his way up to chief, so the staff was at his mercy.

"Dad?" I spoke quietly, nervousness seeping into my stomach, "Jake and Bells were in the car with me… Jake... He didn't..." I couldn't finish the sentence as my dad's eyes widened bigger than I had ever seen before. His hand cupped his mouth in awe and shock of the news as tears instantly welled in his eyes. To him and my mom? Jake was just as much their son as I was.

"Oh God… And Bella?" He swallowed, but a nurse answered for me which I was thankful.

"Bella Swan has just been rushed to surgery sir. She has a pretty bad head contusion, broken leg, and some internal bleeding. They are working on her now."

"My God…" Dad quickly wipes a hand over his face, subtly wiping away any tears in the process. "Does Charlie know?" He asks me.

"I'm not sure. He was watching Avery tonight so we could all go out. I asked them to get Billy here. I need to tell him dad."

"Absolutely not son, I will handle this. You need to focus on you."

"But dad,"

"No Edward, you will focus on your healing. Let me take care of Charlie and Billy. I need to call your mom and Ali while they take you for CT. I will see you soon son, I love you and I'm so thankful you're okay." He grabbed my good hand, squeezing gently before stepping back and letting them wheel me away.

I couldn't be sure, but I thought I heard him break down behind me as they wheeled me away.

Sometime later, once all my dad's ridiculous scans, x-rays, and tests were done, I was settled into a room where I would wait for results to see if I needed further action including surgery on my arm. Everyone seemed in a panic over me and my arm, but I just didn't care. I even made my dad promise not to let this get leaked and absolutely do not fucking tell my manager. I would deal with baseball a different day. Today, it didn't matter. Sometimes I hated being from a small town but things like this are what makes it worth it. The townsfolk of Forks kept to their own and protected their people.

I had been begging anyone who would listen to tell me what was going on with Bella, but all anyone would tell me is that she was still in surgery. I was tired of that absolute bullshit answer and was so close to roaming the halls by myself. My heart was clawing at my chest to check on her and make sure she was okay. I couldn't do this.

The door slammed open and in ran the sobbing mess of my mother, Esme Cullen. Ever the pristine matriarch of our family, seeing her as a mumbling crying mess as she launched herself to my good side was interesting. Alice and her fiancé Jasper quietly followed in behind her, my sisters face marred with pain and sadness.

"Oh Edward!" My mom cried and I rolled my eyes and while patting her awkwardly with my good arm.

"Ma, I'm fine cut the shit."

"Don't you dare say you're fine and watch your mouth," I smiled. She always hated cursing.

Mom backed up, wiping the tears from under her eyes before going into full blown mom mode and checking over my injuries. His hands flitted everywhere trying to see where I was injured. "Where are you hurt? Have you had an x-ray, CT scan? What about internal bleeding? Oh my gosh, do you need surgery?"

"I thought I was the doctor in the family dear," My dad said smiling as he walked in and closed the door behind him. He quickly gave Alice a hug before coming to stand near my mother beside the bed. "He's going to be fine Esme, he has no internal bleeding, CT scan came back clean. The only thing is a slight concussion and of course his arm."

"What needs to be done to his arm? Thank God it's not your throwing arm, the Mariners would never want you!" Alice says, sending me a smile. I chuckle a little and roll my eyes.

"It's broken. Not a clean break we would love to see so, it will require a minor surgery. All in all, Edward was extremely luck tonight." My mother and sister sighed in relief simultaneously.

I only grunted and shrugged in response. I didn't care about me, there is only one person I cared about.

"How's Bella?" I asked him. Alice gasped and I looked at her. Concern was etched on her face and Jasper's was one of confusion. They didn't know.

"Bella's here?" My sister asked dad.

"I hadn't had a chance to tell them yet," My father sighed, looking from me to my mother. "Jacob and Bella were in the car with him. It was their-"

"Annual Christmas outing." She finished for him.

My mother looked between both of us. Dad was hesitating and I understood why. He had told other families many times that their loved ones had been injured or passed away but never his own.

"Carlisle?" Mom asked him, placing her hand on his chest. "What happened?"

"Bella was in the back of the car while Jacob rode on the passenger side. A drunk driver ran a red light and hit the passenger side of the car." My mother sucks in a big breath of air and Jasper pulls Alice closer to his side, "Jacob… He died on impact it would seem. Bella, she sustained multiple injuries and is currently in surgery."

Both my sister and mother crumpled into their respective partners, and I felt my eyes sting with tears. I swallowed thickly and laid my head back on my pillow. The room was filled with the sounds of sorrow and pain.

My mom loved Jacob since he was a little boy. She helped him, took care of cuts and scrapes, and even helped him through the pain of not growing up with a mother. He and Billy spent many nights, holidays, and milestones in our home.

"Oh, my boy!" She cried and clung to my father as he soothed her hair down. Jasper held Alice as she sobbed into his chest.

A knock quietly sounded in the room and a nurse snuck in, looking for my father.

"I'm sorry Dr. Cullen, but you asked me to inform you when Billy and Charlie arrived. They're both here, along with Avery." She had a sad look in her eyes. She had been working here a while, she knew everyone very well.

"Oh Avery… Carlisle, Alice and I will look after her while you talk to them if that's alright? Jasper, will you accompany Carlisle?" Mom looked to each of us. Jasper nodded quickly, his background as a therapist would serve him well here.

Before they all left the room, each of them gave me a hug and told me how glad they were that I was okay. The only thing I could do was nod my head. Everything else seemed insignificant.

As my mom began to exit the room, I stopped her. I had one request.

"Mom? Can you find out about Bella for me? I need to… I just need to know she's okay." I looked at her as desperately as I could. She softly smiled and nodded with a knowing look in her eye before leaving me alone to lay in the wake and pain I felt clawing its way to the surface.

All I could do now is pray. Pray that Bella would be okay, and that Charlie and Billy wouldn't hate me.

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