One week later
''I can't believe you said yes!'' Santana exclaims running her hand through her hair as she walks into their bedroom, Brittany sighs dropping her head hearing the anger in her girlfriends voice and looks up from packing her bag.
''I didn't have a choice San, I will be back in four days maybe a week.''
''What if it takes longer? Summer break starts in a month Brittany!'' Santana tells her sighing angrily, Brittany shakes her head shoving her last uniform in her bag and bites her lip.
''It won't take longer babe, but they need me.'' She drops her bag after zipping it close and faces her girlfriend. ''Please lower your voice.'' She tells her softly because Bella is in the room across the hall.
''They need you in the field Brittany, you will risk your fucking life with this assignment! You can't be sure if it will take a week!''
''Mami, mama?''
Brittany sighs watching her girlfriend drop her head as Bella's tired voice breaks through the tension and leans to the side to look at the little girl forcing a smile. ''Hey sweetie, go back to bed.''
Bella rubs her eyes frowning and yawns. ''Is mami sad that you have to go again?''
Santana turns on her heels after shooting her girlfriend a glare silently telling her that they aren't finished yet and looks down at her daughter smiling slightly. ''I am a bit mija but mama will be here for breakfast tomorrow before we drive her to the airport right?'' She walks to her as she nods her head yawning again and scoops her up in her arms kissing her head as she cuddles into her. ''Let's get you back into bed, say good night mama.''
Bella nuzzles her face in her mami's shoulder looking at her mama and smiles tiredly. ''Night mama, te amo.''
''Good night sweetie, I love you too.'' Santana walks out of the room after she heard Brittany's reply and crosses the hallway walking back into her daughters room, she places her back down in her bed tucking her in and kisses her forehead.
''Go back to sleep mi corazón.'' She runs her hand through her dark locks smiling lovingly as she sees tired blue eyes slowly flutter shut and leans down kissing her forehead once again. ''Te amo mija, sleep well.''
She slowly stands back up smiling lovingly as she sees her grab the worn out tiger Brittany gave her three years ago to cuddle with in her sleep and walks out of the room running her hand through her hair, she closes the door behind her after turning the night light on and walks back into their bedroom.
''Is she asleep?'' Brittany asks softly as she hangs her uniform for the next day on the closet door, Santana hums slipping past her to grab a shirt to sleep in and sighs.
''Yeah, let's go to bed too.'' She mumbles grabbing the shirt she is searching for, Brittany shakes her head turning to look at her and bites her lip.
''Think we can talk without you raising your voice?''
Santana shakes her head and gulps. ''I don't want to talk anymore Britt, let's just go to bed.''
Brittany groans softly slowly reaching out knowing her girlfriend is trying to pull away from her and sighs as she shrugs her hand off. ''San no, please don't do this again.''
''Do what?'' Santana asks turning to look at her.
''Pull away from me, you do this every time something happens you don't like. Just talk to me, but don't ignore me!''
''What do you want me to say Brittany?''
''Come on San you know that this is my job and that I can't say no when they call and tell me it's urgent, you can't be angry with me just because I am doing my job!''
''You got called to find someone who puts bombs under cars Brittany! What happens when a bomb is under your car huh? What if you get injured or worse? What if you don't come home?'' Santana asks her voice raising as tears fill her eyes, she throws her shirt on the bed walking over to the window and gulps. ''I sometimes fucking hate your job you know that? Every time you leave I am scared that it is the last time I kissed you, the last time that Bella hugged you, that you won't come home because…'' She cuts herself off shaking her head and sniffles.
''Baby.'' Brittany murmurs softly, she slowly walks over to her wrapping her arms around her waist from behind and bites her lip. ''Why don't you talk to me?''
''What would you do against it Britt? You can't do anything because it is your job!''
Brittany turns her around in her hold and pulls her into a hug as she breaks down, she places her lips on the top of her head ignoring her hitting her sides trying to break away from her and sighs sadly.
''Let me go.'' Santana murmurs sadly.
Brittany shakes her head cupping her cheek and pulls her head up, she sighs inwardly as she avoids eye contact and kisses her forehead. ''I know that I can't promise you to come back uninjured but I will come home Santana, I will come home.'' She catches a tear with her thumb wiping it off of her cheek and licks her lips her heartbreaking as she notices just how much her girlfriend is hurting. ''Do you want me to stay home?''
''I would like to say yes but I know you can't and I don't want you to because I know you love your job.''
''But I love you and Bell's more, babe if it's really hurting you this much, my job doesn't matter as long as I have you and little B.'' Brittany tells her softly.
Santana shakes her head slowly looking up at her and gulps as she sees the truth spark brightly in her girlfriends blue orbs. ''They are waiting for you and I know you already told them that you would come in tomorrow instead of tonight to spend the evening and morning with me and Bell's, they need you Britt.'' She sighs gazing into her girlfriends bright blue eyes slowly calming down and bites her lip. ''It just sucks, you have vacation and they call you in for one of the dangerous assignments you ever had.''
''I won't be in the fields the whole time, I will be in an office tracking most of the activities.'' Brittany tells her softly.
''That doesn't really calm me down Britt-Britt, you are still in DC where bombs explode.'' Santana murmurs sniffling.
Brittany sighs sadly kissing the top of her head and walks over to their bed sitting down, she pulls Santana in her lap tilting her head as she nuzzles her face in her neck and runs her hand up her naked thigh. ''I will call every night to say Bella good night and to talk with you love, I will write you as soon as something happened or will have someone contact you and I promise you that I will be home within a week.''
''You can…''
''I can promise that because I told my boss that I will only be there for a week, I promised you and Bell's to be home more after I was gone for three months and even though this assignment is in the middle of my vacation I will only help them for a bit and come home next week.''
''Can you promise me that you will take care of yourself? That you will eat and that you will try to stay out of harms way?'' Santana asks softly knowing her girlfriend forgets to eat whenever she is away for her job, Brittany slowly nods her head and kisses the top of her head again.
''I promise, I'll try.''
Santana nods her head slowly pulling back and looks at the time. ''It's time to go to bed Britt-Britt and you still have to shower.''
Brittany nods her head and sighs softly. ''Yeah I will stand up a bit earlier tomorrow morning and shower then.'' She scoots up their bed pulling Santana with her and bites her lip. ''Now I just want to cuddle and sleep.''
Santana hums softly cuddling into her side and kisses her shoulder. ''That sounds amazing.'' She tilts her head up to look at her and sighs softly slowly cupping her cheek. ''I love you Brittany and I just can't bare the thought of something happening to you or to lose you.''
Brittany slowly reaches for her hand squeezing it softly and dips her head kissing her softly. ''I love you too Santana and I will come home. I promise.''