It's been weeks. Maybe. Probably. I'm not sure. Time has no meaning lately.
They say you're going to be brought out of your coma soon.
Jeevak has long since been declared missing. No one will find his body anyways. Not that anyone would care other than to arrest him. He doesn't deserve any care. Any other way would be too fair to him. Scum of the Earth.
It is so good that he will not be able to hurt you ever again. I would not be able to live, knowing that he had the potential to come back and hurt you.
It was unfair of him to challenge you to a duel by taking your other half. To take Yubel and then say you would duel him was the absolute worst of the worst. And he deserved to die. There, it's been said. I agree with that. Yubel agrees. Manjome won't say it, but he surely must agree. He saw what happened when Yubel and I confronted him.
He knows what he deserved. Jeevak didn't deserve anything after what he did to you.
I can't wait to see you when you wake up. But I also worry. Will you be mad at me? I know I didn't come visit you. But, I saw your face. I saw you fall off the side of the building. I saw your head collide with the concrete below. I heard your skull crack. I saw the life go out of you. I just couldn't bear to see it again. To be reminded of your pain. It hurt me too much.
Please forgive me. Forgive us. Yubel is struggling, too. We both care about you more than life itself. You have to forgive us. We may have been at lower points, but never as physically as you have been these past few months.
But you know what, I believe in you. I've been scared for the longest time. But now, I feel the hope that comes from Yubel. I know it. You'll be okay.
Physical therapy. That'll be different. It'll be difficult. Your face may not work the same as it did before. It may not move fully again. It may be permanently scarred. Your teeth are probably too sensitive to eat and they still think your jaw isn't properly set. Manjome says that your face is still shades of purple from blood underneath. And that your face is still pretty swollen.
But it'll be okay. You'll be okay. We'll figure something out. And I'll still love you for all that you are and that person that you are every day. It's been a long journey back, from your darkest depths. From my darkest depths.
You know what? Fuck it. I'm going to go see you.
I'm going to be there when you wake up.
I need to see you. Yubel needs to see you. I need to tell you what has happened. What I've done. What I've done for you.
I know it'll be hard. I know you probably won't be able to see and won't be able to speak.
But, I'm going to hold you and hug you and kiss you. It's been too long. Sleeping on the floor has been the worst. Sleeping at other people's houses is not the same. Their floors are even worse than ours.
But, the hospital recliner will work. Or couch, or whatever chair they have for me. Manjome can leave and Asuka and Fubuki don't need to come.
I'll be there for you. Just like I should have been from the start.
I can't make up for not being there with you. I can't go back in time. But, I'll be there now.
I'm going to give you this letter in person. And when you read this line, Judai, I will tell you how much I love you and how I will always be there for you. As will Yubel.
We will both be here for you. Now, and for the rest of our lives.
Well, that's the end of this little series. I appreciate everyone reading this. I did not originally intend for this to end positively and it was going to be really bad for both Johan and Judai. But, I felt like the story progressed and that a happier(ish) ending was deserved. If anyone wants to hear about the darker ending, I'd enjoy talking about it as well. Who knows, maybe I'll write it out one day. But for now, thanks for reading these series of letters and I will be posting a new chapter of Small Victories hopefully today, but for sure by the end of the week.