HELLOOOO! I SUCK! So someone said they had trouble finding my fic on A03 and I am not sure why. I don't know if I gave you the right username it's AnemicChickenNugget so if you have any problems I am not sure what to tell you. You could try searching up the tags which are Love/Hate , love, intimate, Slow Burn, enemies to lovers, and put in Teen titans and Batman all media types. I would also put it as a relationship JasonTodd/Raven just to be sure. XOXO
Next day- Dick
I had mono once in high school, My body aches and my throat hurt. My head was always warm and sticky and I felt like if I were to get up I would fall over. I could never keep my eyes open for longer than a couple minutes and every time I coughed I felt like I would cough up my intentions and I was so dehydrated I needed fluids a couple times. I remember Alfred taking care of me, every time I was able to take in and remember my surroundings he was there.
Well that is kind of how this feels. I don't know why everything feels like this exactly. I am sure my body can't run on two people controlling it. When I think I am sleeping it's him awake, and I fight to wake back up not wanting Slade to have much control over my body for long, though he is getting stronger. I feel feverish when I am awake, shifting in and out trying to plant my feet here as to not fade away again.
Looking at Terra hurts somehow, like betrayal even though she has done this so often I don't even consider her a friend. I don't know how she has the power to betray me. But she does. As she laughs about my fight and threatens the life of my family. Jason wouldn't die easy but that doesn't mean he can't die. I know they want Raven dead as well, it seems too much work for them to try their old plan now. I know Slade as well, he knows he won't get what he wants. So now he wants revenge. I wonder if they know it's not me right now. Do they still think I am to blame? Do they still think I am the reason Terra was broken out? That I killed those guys? Sure it was my hands, but it wasn't me. Why didn't they believe me?
I fight again, pushing myself to wake from a simple darkness that takes way too much energy to know if I am even there or actually sleeping. I try to command my toes, to wiggle them, my fingers, and it begins to work as I am being pulled forward it feels like. The dark turning into a haze as the world slowly comes back into focus. I breath sharply feeling as though I am in control. I here Terra curse looking down at me from the desk she is always at.
"For fucks sake Dick. There is no use in trying to fight this" She says I can barely keep my eyes open now.
"Then stop this...I won't give up trying to take back my body. Trying to protect my family" I reply, I want it to sound commanding, threatening even though it just comes out breathy, weak.
"I don't know how many different ways I can say this to you Dick. You cannot stop us. No matter how many times you force Slade out he will come back stronger. You are being annoying at most. I hope the next time you come to is when you are feeling your brothers brains in your hands" She spits turning back to her work. I feel sick, I don't know if it's from the visual of me being the one to kill Jason or the fact that I am just getting worse.
"Don't tell me you are still hoping for some happily ever after with Slade." I bait, laughing slightly, she tenses gripping the pencil in her hand tightly. She Slams the pencil down on whatever she is working on looking over to me with pointed glares.
"Excuse me?" She asks lethally
"Well not only can you not find Rae and Gar, he doesn't want to raise a kid with you" I reply she looks to me fire in her eyes.
"What makes you think that?" She asks as if she knows something I don't.
"Has he asked about her?" I ask, I could be wrong about this. I don't know what they talk about. I can't really hear anything when I am pushed back. She sharply inhales, she slaps her hand through the air and jagged pieces of rock fly towards my face. I don't blink. She won't do it. "You won't kill me yet. You still need my body for whatever it is you plan on doing."
She shouts in frustration the rocks falling to the floor and breaking apart. I smirk closing my eyes for a rest. I need sleep. I need to go home. I need to warn everyone what they are planning. Terra jolts me awake holding a knife to my face, I try to look at her but my eyelids feel like they weigh a ton. I finally find the strength to look at her forcing my eyes to focus once again
"I may not be able to kill you but I can hurt you" She hisses pushing the blade into my cheek, it barely breaks skin, she isn't pushing too hard.
"Go ahead" I cough "You can't hurt me more than your betrayal did already. More than my life has already" I say her lip twitches as if it's her emotions trying to push their way out.
"My betrayal? You guys were waiting for me to leave again! None of you wanted me there. None of you trusted me" She spits, I scoff
"We loved you Terra. Kori talked all the time about how happy she was going to be when you would get married and got to watch. She wanted to raise a family at the same time as you. You were her best friend. Gar wanted to marry you! Victor thought of you like a little sister! I thought of you like family. Your Betrayal hurt all of us" I say she pulls the knife away standing to get away from me as if my words would attack her.
"You didn't mention Raven" She says I scoff
"All you have done since day 1 was try to compete with her when she had no interest in it. Gar was into you, she didn't want him anymore. They tried it and it didn't work. You had the ring. You were his." I reply she scoffs
"Even the man I cheated on him with wanted her first! Slade wanted her! Everyone I cared about wanted her!" She replied I sigh weakly
"Doesn't mean we didn't want you to Terra...we always wanted you" I reply drifting back into sleep as she lets out a small sniffle.
Present day-Raven '
Bruce didn't tell us what he wanted to talk to us about, Jason and I still show up to his temporary quarters. At first we both worry that maybe it's about the situation, maybe the league deciding that they want to give me up to Slade. Then I think Dr. Fate may have an update telling us both that Dick can't be saved and that because of me everyone here lost a member of their family. I have been trying to reach Dick's mind. The same way he reached mine when I needed him to find me. Though I haven't been able to find him through that way. Something has to be blocking my magic.
That isn't what he wanted as he directs for us both to sit. Sitting side by side on the small loveseat that is in this guest room. He stares at the two of us before putting both of his hands together in his lap and sucking in a deep breath.
"I have some questions for the two of you" He says he points to me "Mainly you"
"What do you want to know?" I ask
"Do you have a family?" He asks I shake my head and feel the squeeze of Jason's hand next to me. I swallow hard, is he going to try to have me stay somewhere else? Is the league going to kick me out again? This time make sure I have somewhere to go at least? I feel sick almost but none of it shows. My expression barely changes.
"Umm..My mom died when I was little and my dad is trapped in my forehead. So no" I reply tapping my gem in the middle of my forehead he nods
"Do either of you have a plan about the wedding?" He asks we both look at each other we hadn't really talked much about the wedding. Almost as soon as we got engaged did everything happen with Dick. We have been mostly enjoying being engaged.
"We haven't thought much about it Bruce" Jason replies Bruce nods clearing his throat.
"I...I want to pay for it. Whatever you guys choose I want to pay for it" He says Jason releases my hand looking to Bruce in shock.
"You don't have to do that Bruce. If you think you still prove to me that you want me here you don't I'm not going anywhere" he says, Bruce shakes his head.
"No it's not that. Usually the family of the Bride pays for it. However, if she had family I was going to ask them if I could pay for it because it would...it would be an honor to throw my son a wedding." He pushes out. I can see how hard talking about this is for Bruce. He isn't a mushy gushy type of guy. Not for this type of stuff.
"What if we just want something simple?" I ask
"Anything, a trip to the court house a big giant wedding. If you need to figure out your identity thing anything!" He says, I nod playing with my hands in my lap like a small child would in the principles office. We truly never thought about any of this.
"Well we don't know right now" Jason says and Bruce nods
"I know, I wanted to extend this offer before you guys got too much into planning. So you knew really anything you want. I have some places and I know someone you could go dress shopping with, umm a great suit tailor for Jason but he's been going to him all his life." Bruce explains I nod looking at Jason. He reads my face and nods.
"We really appreciate this Bruce" Jason replies, Bruce nods to himself and clapping.
"Okay! Well I am going to check on Alfred. Thank you for speaking with me" He says rushing to end this conversation. As we exit the room and begin to head to the living area I see Jason's confused expression. He sits on the couch his eyebrows furrowed in confusion.
"What do we even want for our wedding...I never thought about it before. Never thought I would ever get married" he admits, I nod in agreement.
"Me neither" I say he looks at me shocked.
"Okay, I know you told me that you never once thought you would even want to get married but like...you never thought about what it would be like?" He asks I shrug sitting down beside him and resting my knee on his thigh lightly my arm on the back of the couch.
"I thought once...but it was...the wrong Bat Boy" I admit he smirks
"Dick" He says I shake my head pressing my lips together hard. His eyes widen "No fucking way! No fucking way! Tim?"
"Shhh He was nice to me when I needed attention shut up" I say he smiles from ear to ear. "I'm not living this down am I?"
"No you are not. So let me get this straight you were in love with Dick for years but never thought about marrying him but Tim is nice to you once when you were 15 and you thought about it" He says laughing I playfully slap his arm.
"No one else was that nice! He was into books he was cute I thought about it for a second! Don't pretend you were never into Kori!" I reply he sucks in air through his teeth.
"I didn't want to marry her! She's hot!" he exclaims I laugh
"She is hot" I admit he closes his jaw looking at me in a perverse way. "No."
"I just wanna watch!" He exclaims as I get up from the couch shaking my head on my way into the kitchen
"You are such a man...she isn't into woman and she loves your brother" I say he nods
"Okay but listen to me...as you know who I used to imagine that All the time!" He says going to the kitchen himself I laugh
"You used to think about Kori and I?" I ask in disbelief "You didn't even like me back then"
"You have always been hot. I'm not blind." He replies I drop my jaw and roll my eyes. We sit in silence for a blissful moment "I should tell Tim"
"Don't you dare!"
Present day- Damian
Drake has left Pennyworth's side for all of ten minutes since we arrived at the Titan's Tower. Thomas doesn't go near the room as he mostly talks with the rip off kryptonian and the Alien Bug. It seems like no one is trying to figure out a plan to get Grayson back. If it is even possible to get him back. Jason and Raven have disappeared into her room. No doubt having sexual intercourse. I roam the halls of the tower memorizing the blueprint in case I need to get out of her quickly. Taking note of good places to hide. This place has many, their security needs to be amped as well. I wonder who I would talk to that about. Stone? Anders? Logan?
"Hello Damian" Anders says she looks down at me with a kind smile.
"Anders" I nod
"What are you doing?" she asks
"Looking around. This place isn't made from any metal from earth is it?" I ask she shakes her head
"It is made from a space craft that landed on earth" She explains, I squint at my surroundings. That makes sense why this metal is stronger and unlike any metal I have ever seen. I wonder if this is the best material on that alien planet as well. Anders looks down at me with a strange look on her face.
"Why are you staring at me like that?" I ask
"My apologies, I was trying to...how do you say read your face." She says, I scoff she wouldn't be able to read my emotions, I can hide them better than anyone "You are the worried about Dick"
"He'll be fine! I am not!" I say back she doesn't react only smiles once again
"I lived with Friend Raven for years...I can see beyond the mask you put on" She says I scoff, Raven isn't that good at hiding her emotions. No one is better at it than I am.
"She sucks at hiding her emotions" I retort Anders smiles giggling
"She wasn't always this emotional." Anders replies, somehow I find that hard to believe. Sure she is monotone mostly now that she has her powers back but, she still shows her emotions. At least sometimes. More often than I DO! "I am sorry, I don't mean to do the prying. If you would like a friend to talk to I am here. I miss him dearly"
"We need to come up with a plan to get him back! How are we going to just sit here in the tower and not go out and look for him!" I ask she nods in understanding as I speak, it bothers me but makes me feel listened to at the same time. Stop it.
"The Batman says we are waiting for the Dr. Fate to tell us information about his condition" she replies, I didn't know that part. No one has been telling me anything. Drake won't talk about anything other than how much he is angry about what happened to Pennyworth. "We have guests arriving soon"
"Who?" I ask
"Conner's family" She beams excusing herself.