Chapter 7: The Wolf Spirit

Why is Sam here?

Sam of all people. If someone would have come, I would assume it would be Embry or Quil.

Sam and Rosalie were having a stare down while Bella was asking Jacob, "What's going on? Why are you guys acting this way?" Jacob didn't respond to her like he was still processing what just happened. He just simply stared confused at her as he kept opening and closing his mouth.

Rosalie growled, "I can tolerate the baby mutt because Bella trusts him, and he has been proven useful these few times even though I want to rip his tail off for forcing himself on a girl. But, the alpha wolf here? Definitely not, especially when he mauled his own imprint's face (Sam's face winced in despair for that comment). Whatever Quileute magic went down with between Ale, its not natural! It just doesn't feel right to send her to them."

I carefully put my hand on Rosalie's arm, and told her, "Rosalie, its okay. They won't hurt me...Jacob isn't my favorite person at the moment, but I still trust them." Rosalie stiffened in response.

Carlisle then intervene and said, "Rosalie. Let Ale go. We must not fight with the Quileutes. We need their help." Rosalie finally stepped aside, but she still continues to glare at Sam and Jacob.

Carlislie turned to Sam and asked, "What happened?"

Sam paused, and said carefully, "I am not sure what exactly happened and why it is happening. It is definitely not imprinting, but it was like my wolf recognized her as pack. I feel drawn to protect her like I am with my Emily, but not as strong."

The theory that I might be an imprint might be truer than I thought. Maybe this is a sign that I was meant to be with the Quileutes..I guess my fate is going to be sealed to this world.. I might not be able to return my timeline any time soon..

Jacob said, "So, it's not an imprint? But, why do I feel protective of her too?"

I said, "Maybe because you're the alpha Sam, and Jacob is the rightful alpha, so the wolf recognizes me too?" Jacob stiffened at my last statement.

Sam said, "Possibly, but we would have to look into the legends to see if there is anything regarding this, and the best person to ask is Old Quil."

Carlisle, "Oh on that thought, we brought Ale with us today because we wanted to see if you would let her come to the reservation to see if your people have legends or history that can help her. Maybe she could talk to Old Quil to see if he knows anything about her case."

Jacob asked, "Why?"

Edward proceeds to tell both Sam and Jacob my dream, and the plan to keep me at the reservation during the newborn fight. Sam looked deep in thought until he said, "I don't know who this individual that spoke to Ale and why he brought her here. He might be a spirit or an ancestor of ours. I don't know who is that individual that messed with our lives. I just don't know, but I will allow Ale to come to the reservation. If Old Quil is willing to meet her, I can ask an audience with him on Ale's behalf. I can ask Emily if she is okay with housing Ale for the night, and if not, Jacob still has his sister's old room. I can ask the Chief to see if he is willing to take her in for the night. Nevertheless, we will figure something out for Ale".

I was shocked that it didn't take that much convincing to allow me into the reservation from how he acted the night before.

Sam finishes, "I will take Ale back with me to the reservation, and Jacob will stay back and do the other plan with Bella."

Carlisle nodded. Esme and Alice both said bye to me while Rosalie said, "Be careful. Here, take this blackberry phone. If you need anything, call us or if you find anything, call us."

I thanked Rosalie, put the phone in my pocket, grabbed my backpack and followed behind Sam as we went into the woods. I looked back one last time, and I saw that Jacob was looking at both Edward and Bella attentively. He could see that something was up between them since Bella was few feet away from Edward ignoring him, and Edward was looking rather distraught.

As we walked in the forest, Sam was walking fast until he slowed down for me to catch up to him. It seemed like Sam was a man of few words. There was an awkward silence between us, so I initiated a conversation. I asked, "If you don't mind me asking, how come you came with Jacob, Sam?"

Sam glanced down at me and kept walking before he said, "I feel like I need to apologize to you for how we, well I, treated you last night. After we got back from the training sessions with the Cullens, Emily gave me quite an earful. She made me realize that I was harsh to you, and she helped me see reason that you were innocent. Then, when we saw you having an episode, I came to realize that you were just a human girl that needs as much protection like ..Bella. In comparison to Bella, you didn't choose to get involve with the supernatural. Not only that, from the stunt that Jacob pulled on Bella. It would be best to keep an eye on him to not anger the Cullens in case he does something else to anger Edward. We don't need to start a war over a human who wants to become a vampire."

I nodded as I was struggling to catch up to him. Sam noticed and extended his elbow for me to hold onto as we walked toward the reservation. Sam remained silent majority of the way until I told him empathically, "It's great that you are willing to keep the peace and treaty between y'all and the Cullens. I can't imagine how much pressure it is to be alpha when you didn't ask to be a shapeshifter and to be a leader."

Sam said, "It wasn't the life that I wanted, nor I want for anyone regardless how much honor it brings to the council. Only the council and those in the secret knows the sacrifices that my pack makes on a daily basis, and the rest of the community don't have a clue what we do for them. We were forced to grow up in a short period of time when we didn't get the chance to live out our teenager years." On the last part, Sam said it brokenly.

I said, "Oh I'm sorry to hear that."

"Don't be. I…I eventually accept my fate. Well, I had to accept it," He said.

I asked, "What do you mean you had to, if you don't mind me asking?"

Sam stopped and when he looked at me, his eyes were lighting up silver, "I had to be at peace with the wolf in me in order to keep my sanity and lead the pack with a semi-clear mind."

He continued, "When I first phased, I thought I was losing my mind. I was so terrified of what I had become that the wolf spirit in me had to take over to keep me alive. I hunted and lived as a wolf for a month. I couldn't differentiate whether it was me or the wolf while I was in my wolf form. It is not like the wolf directly speaks to me, but I would get its urges, emotions, occasional thought here and there. Over time, I was able to discern, and I was finally able to phase back. Not only I didn't know how to phase back, but I was also completely terrified of the wolf spirit in me, so it took longer for me to phase back into my human form."

"When I hurt my Emily, it was I who lost control not the wolf. The wolf knows not to harm the imprint, but as a new wolf, I was still upset and angry with my fate. I was overwhelmed with the emotions of the wolf, and when I had that argument with Emily, I lost it. The wolf was very upset with me..I, I was so distraught with myself that I tried to force myself to fall off the cliff to kill myself, but the wolf spirit didn't let me. As the alpha, the wolf was very dominate over me, and I felt I didn't have any control of my own body. The wolf didn't want to leave Emily behind. Even though Emily didn't want to be near us, the wolf still wanted to protect Emily in any shape or form. Because I was at odd with the wolf, I was getting more short tempered. I was constantly in debate with the wolf. I was losing with my cool with Jared, and Jared had to go to Old Quil to see what he can to help me. Old Quil suggested to go on a spirit walk to re-acquainted with my wolf and to be at peace with the wolf. I was up in the mountains over a week. I lost tremendous amount of weight, and I was able to come into an agreement with the wolf spirit in me. We still argue here and there, but at least we are trying to take control over one another like before. That is also another reason why I 'disappeared' while Emily was recuperating from the injuries that I gave her. I am still upset with myself for what I did to her, but not like I how used to be when the accident first occurred."

I was shocked to hear this from Sam. This wasn't from the books at all. Meyers never explored in detail what happened to Sam. Maybe she didn't even know herself. However, now it makes sense why Sam is so loyal to the elders because they truly helped me in ways that I can't imagine. No wonder when the council said that the secrets only be told to the imprints and those part of the council, Sam followed it faithfully. However, it was still wrong to keep secrets from Leah and the immediate family members of those who became part of the pack. It only added problems to the wolves' lives, and it made things harder for the shifters to even fulfill their duties when their family are constantly after them and questioning them.

Sam's silver eyes faded away and we kept on walking in the forest.

Then it hit me. Is that why Jacob's personality took a huge turn after he became a wolf? I thought incredibly. I thought it was just a method that Meyers did to destroy Jacob's character.

I asked unsurely, "Is Jacob fighting against with the wolf in him?"

He sighed, "Yes. He still hasn't accepted his role as a shapeshifter nor being the rightful alpha. His wolf is very dominant as it is so as the rightful alpha. The wolf spirit in him is very angry with him, and because Jacob is still a young wolf, he doesn't know how to push aside the parts of the wolf. The wolf's emotions and urges are bleeding over Jacob's personality. Jacob gets confused at times. For example, when he forcibly kissed Bella. It was both his desire, and the wolf's anger for constantly being rejected by a human who prefers a vampire over him. The wolf spirit in him want to show his dominance not only to Bella but also Jacob. Even though Bella is not his imprint, the wolf spirit took it personal of her rejection toward him. It still does not excuse his behavior."

I asked in shock, "Have you tried to help?"

Sam said exasperatedly, "Yes, but he is so stubborn. I tried to help him to be at peace with the wolf spirit because I know from firsthands how terrible it feels. But, he is having none of it. His father tried to speak to him, Quil and Embry tried to talk some sense in him. He keeps dodging it from me. I am afraid that in a close future, the wolf spirit will no longer be patient with Jacob, lash out to others and will take the role of the alpha by force from me. Jacob believes that his love for Bella will be enough to be in control over the wolf spirit in him. At first, I doubted him, but he is still sane, so maybe they are strong for him to keep his sanity. Nevertheless, who knows how long he can keep that going?"

This information was overwhelming that instead of answering some questions, now I have a lot more questions about what happened in Breaking Dawn. The weeks that Jacob disappeared after he got the wedding invitation from Edward. Where exactly did he go? Was it really Jacob who lost it, or the wolf? Did Jacob make peace with his wolf? No, if he did then he wouldn't have lost it when Bella told him that she is going to have sex with Edward during the wedding reception. That doesn't make sense, then why we didn't see any sign of Jacob's struggle with the wolf spirit in Breaking Dawn? In Breaking Dawn, there was part of the book where it was on Jacob's point of view. Unless it did happen, but Meyers purposely didn't mention it for what? Why did she do that? What exactly happened to Jacob during those few weeks?

Because I was so deep in thought, I didn't realize that I was already at the front porch of what it seems to be his house? Oh no, I'm already here. I'm not ready to be imprinted on. I should've used the time that I was questioning about Jacob to mentally prepare myself to meet the pack. I could feel myself getting anxious until I felt a hand on my shoulder, and I looked up. Sam looked down on me, gave me a small smile, and chuckled, "Don't be anxious. We wont bite. I promise."

Sam walked in the house as I meekly followed behind him. There was a woman in the kitchen cleaning, and as if she heard him walked in, she glanced up and smiled lovingly toward Sam. I recognized immediately that who I was looking at was Emily. Emily saw me behind me, and looked questionably, "Are you perhaps Ale?"

I nodded, "Yes. Nice to meet you Emily."

Emily gave me a polite smile, and Sam spoke, "Ale is going to spend the night here at the reservation during the newborn fight. Is it okay if she stays here with us?"

Emily said, "Oh! not a problem! Good thing we have a guest room for you. Here let me show you your room for the night."

Sam spins her around and kissed her at her temple. He also said, "thank you" and Emily giggled.

Behind me, I heard bunch of guys talking loudly over one another. When I turned around, all of the guys stopped in front of me. I could see Leah by the doorway watching wearily at me. Her eyes briefly light up silver. One by one, I looked at each of their eyes. Each one of them had a quick flash of silver in their eyes, until I came across one of them. His eyes flashed brightly of silver and his whole expression changed.

Then I felt it. It was my whole world changed as if millions of threads latching onto him, becoming untied with him. All of my fears and worries imprinting had been turned down on a notch. I felt I could be safe with him. I also saw a quick glance of the future between us. I saw him cradling my huge pregnant belly and kissing my neck. The future him said, "I am glad you stayed for me".

Without realizing, I cried, "No". The guys gasped. This does not make sense. I shouldn't be his imprint. He should've been someone else's. It wasn't suppose to me..I thought it was either Embry or Seth who would have possibly imprinted me.

The timeline has changed once again.

Paul wasn't supposed to imprint on me.

Author's Note:

Sorry for the tease in the last chapter. I finally got Ale to imprint. It took a lot of buildup. I hope it was worthwhile.

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