Chapter 7 - Resignation

Eventually however, all good things must come to an end and I decided to quit the Shattersteel Detachment and stop roleplaying for a time. I initially thought it would just be temporary. Other things happened however and I never ended up going back to roleplaying. Maybe I'll return at some point in the future. Don't know yet. This part is an in character message I had written as Greva's resignation from the Detachment.

To my fellow members of the Shattersteel Detachment,

I'll not try to talk around the main point of this message. I will be taking my leave for a while. I will not be leaving the Legions though.
This is just something I feel I need to do and I'll explain why.

As some of you have noticed, I've not been in a very positive mood as of late. There are several causes to that.

My past has not been an easy one and when the Ember warband fell apart and my sister, Reisha, decided to leave the Legions... I might not have shown it, but that hit me pretty hard.
In any event, I was happy when Legionnaire Stormblade accepted me in the Storm warband. After a while I felt at home there, since I already knew him, Renali Stormhide and Canterbane Stormfang quite well.

After a short while though, Renali fell ill and still is, to my knowledge. Soon after Stormblade fell ill as well. The issue though, he never told anyone that. We only heard where he disappeared to after he returned.

At that point, Canterbane had disappeared as well and Stormblade started to disappear more often and slack in his duties as a Legionnaire. I felt history was repeating itself. I felt the warband was once again falling apart because of a slacking Legionnaire. Just like my previous two warbands.

Shortly before Stormblade's return I also learned that Storm had been merged into Howl. I had never been told about any of that at all. Howlmane and Stormblade had decided that on their own, without consulting any of the bandmates before the decision had been made. Stormblade has told me about his reasons, but I don't agree with the way it had been handled at all.

About the result of the merge itself, Canterbane is gone, Renali still ill, Stormblade and Howlmane I barely trust anymore. I only know a couple of the other members of Howl. The others I barely know at all and most of them I am unsure if they're actually in Howl or not. It does not feel like a warband at all to me anymore. I don't feel I am where I need to be.

Then there comes another personal issue. As is quite well known by now, I want to keep serving the Legions and have not left them and do not intend to. One of my main concerns about the Legions though, is that in general, too many Charr despise Magic. Some respect it to some extent, like Howlmane, but then don't seem to feel any need to learn how best to put it to use. A lot of Charr are born with the talent for a particular type of Magic, but most are discouraged to delve into it and never learn about the potential they have. As a result of all that, I've seen a lot of Charr die and missions fail because of that ignorance. What I aim for to bring the use of Magic back to the Legions. To have Charr once more respect and utilize it to its full extent.

The problem with all that, though, lies in the fact that my own knowledge of magic is still severely lacking. Every day I learn more and more how far my own ignorance of magic goes (which at the same time strengthens my before described belief). The few users of Magic among the Charr I meet that are capable of teaching me, often have other obligations and duties that make it near impossible for them to teach me anything other than a short subject every once in a while.

With all that said, however, I do realize all of this has built a lot of stress and frustration within myself. I realize that part of the problems might not be the fault of those I am blaming, but my own. Spending more time among others of the Detachment, or in the High Legions in general for that matter, is not going to help me get rid of that stress and frustration, though.

This is why I approached Legionnaire Stormblade about all the above and he gave me permission to go on a leave for a while. To go on a "quest" if you will to come at peace with everything that has happened, learn more about magic and to try and find my place in the world.

As such, I thought it best to seek out one of the other races. Since the humans are obviously out of the question, the Norn would probably not be that suited for my pursuit and the fact that I see most Sylvari I've met are just useless twigs, I have decided to seek out the Asura. I know they can be quite a pawful and what not, but if I am going to try and learn the most I can of magic (and myself while I am at it), Asura seems the best choice. My sister, Reisha Emberclaw, had an acquaintance Asura that helped cure my leg that was poisoned by a Krait in my fight in the Bane. He was a Necromancer himself and I'll probably start by finding him.

So, for now, I'll say goodbye to all of you.

Signed,
Greva Bonestorm
Howl warband
Blood Legion