Chapter7:Update

Hey guys! I apologize if people were expecting a proper chapter. I decided to go for an actual update to inform everyone of what is happening and where I've been.

First off, I made an Archive of Our Own(Ao3) account! So, if anyone is interested I am set up there as well. It took a long time for the verification email. Next up, for all the FF people, don't worry I will continue to cross post all my future stories and chapters here as well. I just liked Ao3's feature of being able to respond to comments, it's such nice way to interact with people.

The account is SunWukong85.

Next, I've just been busy with classes as well, got swamped with work.

Finally, this is spoilers for canon so I recommend not reading this if your an anime only and just leaving..

Those leaks...they killed my drive and stomped all over it. Attack on Titans original ending was mediocre and disappointing but, not horrendous. This new ending turned it horrendous, it revoked the last thing Eren had going for him("Killing all the Titans.") and just as an extra "fuck you" Isayama has Mikasa move on and start a family with Jean/Farmer-kun 2.0. This new ending really just fucks with Eren hard, his death becomes meaningless and to kick him one last time, he has the girl he loved move on. There's still people defending this ending and it's not even shocking to see who they are, it's Mikasa fans. I see a good of chunk Mikasa fans argue against it, which is great. The ones saying it's "good" are saying this is "realistic" but, there's also a whole slew of other problems that would happen if you want true "realism". I know I shouldn't completely believe these leaks but, after the fiasco with chapter 139 I don't have a lot of hope here. Then we have those panels that look legit, obviously, anyone can copy an art style but it's still hard to ignore.

This ending truly is one last "fuck you" to Eren. He's gone through so much shit without any shred of happiness in his life and just to laugh at him one last time Isayama goes "btw your girl moved on and started a family with another dude lol." Eren took so many L's in his life and took one final L in death. It also doesn't help that in the AoT Lost Girls OVA featuring Mikasa, Mikasa comes to terms with the fact, no matter which reality or alternate universe she's in, Eren will die and continue to move forward. So that essentially makes me feel like every fanfic out there, including my own, will probably have Eren die after the story concludes. Does that sound stupid? Of course. But, it leaves a bad taste in my mouth thinking that no matter what, Eren will fucking die and Mikasa always move onto Jean/Farmer-kun 2.0.

Now onto major reason why I can't write anymore.

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I dislike Mikasa greatly now.

That sounds stupid, I know.

I never was a too big of a fan of her character, sure, she's a badass and an awesome female protagonist but, I always personally felt she was overrated. (I also know she's Isyama's favorite along with Armin and Isyama has stated in the past he hates Eren, so this ending doesn't shock me too much.) BUT NOW, I genuinely can't look her at the same anymore. Whenever I decide to re-read AoT, It will leave a bad taste in my mouth knowing that Jean/Farmer-kun 2.0 is going to be the one for her.

It also sounds stupid for getting angry at her, for moving on, because Eren wanted her to. This poor guy even when he was suffering thought about her being happy. The whiney panel is now even more depressing. But, this annoyance of mine cycles back to everything in Eren's story. It really feels like that final kick in the face to the him. The poor guy got no happiness in his life and he was extremely depressed in last 4 years of life. Now, the "what am I to you?" panel makes me even more depressed reading it because Eren tried one last time to be happy, he tried to see if maybe he could be with Mikasa but, no. When she chickens out, Eren realizes he isn't the one for her.

I am now on the Eren x Mina train. Get ready for my Eren and Mina fanfiction y'all!!!

I'm just kidding lol.

But yes, this is the main reason I can't write Eren x Mikasa anymore, looking at her annoys me a lot.

Eren will die in whichever universe he's in. Eren will never be the one for her, Jean/Farmer-kun 2.0 will be.

She doesn't deserve that scarf.

It will take me awhile to get out of this funk but I will try my best to "move forward." and come back. I will probably be back when those leaks become official, which is June 9th I believe.