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He continues, "I give shit about her. I thought she understood my pain, but she was the cause of it. I am not in the 'best' place. I didn't think you would ever feel the same way... I don't deserve you. I tried to move on like Bell said. I don't love Angela."

"But you love me?" I question dumbfounded.

"Yes Oliva Benson, I do. I love you."

"Are you fucking kidding me?" Before I realize what's happened; I've slapped him hard on the cheek where his scar has been. The loud smack is surprisingly satisfying as it echoes throughout my apartment.

He touches the left side of his face, "Liv?"

I don't dignify him with a response.

"I suppose I had that one coming," He states.

"And then some. Well turns out we finally agree on something, detective."

"I'm sorry… I know I've hurt you… But it's true.. Liv, I lo.."

I stop him there, "Don't you dare Elliot Stabler. I'm not sure you know the meaning of the word. Did you feel that way the ten years without a call, text, email, or even a damn linked in invite?"

He sighs then answers, "Every day. Believe it or not. I thought of you every single damned day."

He's pacing around my living room he sees something out of the corner of his eye I wish that he hadn't, and he moves to pick up the object from my shelf, "Here's your proof that I have never put you out of my mind or heart. And it seems you haven't forgotten me completely either."

He fumbles with his old medal in his hand, turning it over.

I tell him, "Take it. It's yours."

He shakes his head, "Please, keep it. There is no one who's deserved this more than you. You're so brave. You have the biggest, most beautiful heart I have ever known. I gave this to you because you are the one person in the whole world I trust most to hold onto my honor, and to have my six."

I'm caught off my guard and he uses that momentary advantage to move closer to me and take me in his arms. I try to push him away by using my hands against his chest, but he will not let me go.

He just holds me and whispers so softly I almost don't hear, "I've missed you so much Liv. I can't lose you too. If you let me stay, I won't ever leave you again. I swear it."

My eyes uncontrollably begin tearing up, "Dammit. I love you too, El."