It had been a few weeks since I had lost the twins. I hadn't really left the apartment. They had accepted our offer on the house we liked, but I hadn't really been interested in moving. I had gotten the keys and tried to decide how I wanted to decorate, but it was just doing it that was the issue.

I hadn't even gone back to work, leaving the girls to sort the store for me, because I was so depressed.

I barely spoke to Juice, well anyone really. I started to feel really bad for him, so I woke up the one morning and decided that it was time I sorted myself out.

Juice had gone to work early, so I decided to speak to my counsellor on the phone telling her I wanted to sort my life out. She said she was glad I had finally had the kick up the ass I needed to get back on track. She said not to rush into it because she didn't want me to have a set back, and I'd fall a hell of a lot harder if I did. She asked me how I was getting on with Juice. I told her that we were barely speaking and I'd shut myself off from him.

"well do you want to be in this relationship?" she asked.

"of course I do, I love him" I replied.

"then Alissa you need to stop pushing him away. He's hurting too. He also suffered a loss" she replied.

"I know. Today is a new day and it's time to make things right" I said.

"good. Now call me later and let me know how you get on" she said.

I had a shower and got ready. I still had to wear a moon boot from my broken leg, so I wore wet look trousers, an over sized t-shirt (that had purple rain prince on it). I wore my hair in a messy bun, my big gold hoop and did my basic makeup look, making it more glam with a pair of thick eyelashes and dark purple lipstick, which gave me a vampy look. I wore my chunky heeled boot on my good foot.

I grabbed my phone and my bag before heading out the door.

Kozik was on watch today, which was my favorite, because we had a laugh and he didn't speak to me like I was going to break.

I opened the door and saw him sat in the car as normal.

"well what do we owe this pleasure?" he asked.

"come on Hermie, we have big plans for today" I said climbing in shot gun.

"thank god for that. It's been so fucking boring here without fun time Lissie" he said.

"don't get excited, she's not back just yet" I smiled.

"well she's looking her old feisty self" he winked. "so where to Miss?"

"right first port of call is the shop, then wee need to go by the new house, then the diner, then TM and then furniture shopping." I said.

"busy, busy, busy then" he smiled.

We went right to my shop, the girls were so happy to see me, as it had been a good few weeks. They told me how things were going and that the suppliers had contacted them for the next seasons stock, meaning that I had to go for a meeting with them to pick the new stock. I spent an hour taking notes for what I needed to do for them.

"so who's he? " Trish asked.

"Kozik" I replied.

"is he single?" she asked.

"not sure" I lied.

"can you find out for me?" she asked.

"sure" I smiled.

It pissed me off massively, I don't even know why, I loved Juice with all my heart. So why was I so annoyed? That she asked me if he was single. What the hell was I playing at?