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p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #222222;"em style="box-sizing: border-box;"Those/emem style="box-sizing: border-box;" /emem style="box-sizing: border-box;"bloody/emem style="box-sizing: border-box;" /emem style="box-sizing: border-box;"Grievers/emem style="box-sizing: border-box;", /emhe thought now and then. The memory of the day she was left outside from the Glade, the way her lifeless body looked like came back like a blade stabbing his brain, he felt himself loosing control. He stopped thinking by moving his right leg side to side, letting the pain bring tears out of his eyes./p
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