A/n I don't own twilight or the characters
it's the strangest feeling
Midnight, I'm not leaving
No, for once, I think I'll stay (oh)
I say your name, just listen
Doesn't it sound different?
Never whispered it this way
It's gonna take me a minute
But I could get used to this
The feeling of your fingertips
The feeling of another kiss
It's gonna take me a minute (oh)
But I could get used to this (oh)
Like every tattoo on your skin
I'm memorizing every inch
I could get used to this (oh, oh
Used to this - Camila Cabello
Bella POV
Me and Jacob was in the car on the way to sams place, it was quiet in the car, after we had gotten the text from Alice we were right back at being distant with each other.
It wasn't that I wanted to push Jacob away, but we just resolved things between us, and the very thing or person rather that have been causing a problem between us is suddenly showing up tonight .
I was being distinct cause I was nervous, I don't know how I'm gonna to react to seeing Edward, just last night I made the decisions To move on, put Edward behind me but Im worried that seeing him will change my mind, that Jacob would just vanish like we never happen,
Also there's the whole vampires trying to kill me my blood being special to all vampires around the word. I forget that part .
I didn't know why Jacob was being distiant, though I'm guessing it had to do with my same fears, I reached out my hand to his
His eyes glanced to my hand back to the road, his hand took my hand in his, feeling his warmth instantly calmed my nerves, but the energy was still tense,
We pulled up to sams house, of course Emily had a big breakfast spread out smelling delicious, me and Jake walked in hand in hand
"Jacob Bella come in take a seat while I heat up the syrup for your pancakes" Emily said as we walked in the kitchen
Jacob's brothers were already sitting down eating like they haven't eaten in days, lead was near the back exit leaning against the counter with her arms crossed, I've noticed the energy between Leah and Emily was pretty awkward, I always wanted to mention it to Jacob but never had a movement to,
Now that me and Leah was in a good place I'm guessing I could ask her,
"Thanks em" Jake said bringing me out of my thoughts jake sat down bringing to sit next to him never letting go of my hand, but I didn't mind I was happy to feel some type of closeness with him, " looks amazing Emily thank you" I said to her
"No problem at all you know your always welcomed here Bella" Emily said smiling at me
I returned the smile.
Jacob cleared his throat " so I have something to tell you guys I need your attention"
"Bro we don't need you to announce you and Bella dating we got the replay last night remeber" Paul said smirking
I looked at Jacob confused,
Replay? Replay of what ? And why would it show that me and Jacob was together?
then it hit me...Jacob shares a mind with all these 6 boys infront of me then suddenly Leahs remark came to mind " i am in Jacob's head on a Dailey I know what he likes" , "I'm talking about write your name in his notebook thinks about you 24/7"
Jacob obviously thought our...erm ...time together from yesterday they seen and heard everything.
I seen Jacob give me a Apologetic look when he seen I figured out what they was talking about
"Oh my god" I said putting my head in my hands, I didn't wanna look like a loser but I couldn't keep the tears that formed in my eyes.falling into my palms, that was my first intimate excpirence and I was not expecting to share it with seven people, especially six of them being Jacob's brothers,
"Paul you idiot that wasn't what I was talking about what the hell is wrong with you embarrassing Bella like that" Jake said growling the sound made me snap my head up quickly wiping my tears away, he was standing. up hovering over Paul baring his teeth to Paul, "now apologize for embracing her and if I hear you or any of you motherfuckers talk about Bella in that matter again I will rip your throats out with out hesitation understand? " Jacob voice was full of Authority and a bit scary to be honest
"Jacob calm down it's not that big of a deal I just wasn't expecting that is all" I said rubbing my hand up and down his arm, trying to calm him down
"No bells they need to show some respect talking to you like that was not acceptable apologize now Paul "
"I'm sorry Bella I shouldn't have said that's can't be stupid sometimes " Paul said sincerely while looking down
"It's okay Paul really can we just move on from this topic please" I said I looked around the kitchen and seen everyone wide eyed, everyone expected sam he was staring at Jacob he had a curious look on his face
Jacob huffed and sat back down taking my hand back into his
"Now are you all ready to take this serous or what "
They all nodded
" okay so the fourtune telling leech contacted Bella this morning she got a vision and is coming back in town biting the whole bloodsucking family with her " I felt Jacob's arms shake I squeezed his hand
He squeezed his eyes shut t ook a few deep breath his shaking stopped "and appearently the redheaded leech wasn't lying about Bella blood singing to Edward we still don't know if her blood sings to other bloodsucker but I plan to found out"
"How do we find that out throw her infront of a bunch of vampires and see what happens ?" Leah asked sarcastically
"Yeah and is Bella suppose to just be on the run all her night that just Dosnt seem fair" Jared said
"We will figure that out when we cross that bridge right now our main focus is to figure out what to do with the coven of leech's coming in town " sam said
I felt a bit uncomfortable having a opinion on what to do but it was my life that they was talking about " I think we would have to talk to Carlisle he's been around a lot of vampires and knows how to study on genetics and gifts he did it for Edward Alice and jasper"
"You want me to let you around those bloodsuckers after what they did to you Bella and let them take samples of your blood knowing it can be powerful he could snap at any minute"Jacob said growling at me
I glared at him " first of all your not gonna let me do anything I make my own decisions Jacob and if I trust that Carlisle can do it then you should trust me and know it will be fine and second they have names I understand that you do not like them especially after what they done to me but i won't let you talk about them like that just as I wouldn't let them talk badly about you all I'm saying is that we can use all the help we can get we have no idea if Victoria telling the truth and it's not like I can go to a normal doctor and ask if my blood is powerful and attracts vampires now can I "
"She's right Jacob that lee-... the leader of the coven worked at the forks hospital I think we should meet up with them talk about the treaty sample Bella blood and see what we can find out it's the only way Jake " sam said with his arms crossed leaning against his chair " there could be a big threat coming and as much as I don't like it I think forming an alliance would be good if they truly wanna help Bella "
I nodded my head agreeing with Sam " you guys barley sleep you have school to handle family's to take care of it's not right to have so much burden on you all " I said looking down I felt guilty
"Bells this isn't your fault you know that I do trust you I just wanna make sure your safe"
"I will be safe jake I was thinking you come with me so I wouldn't be alone not that I'm scared but it's a little nerv wrecking seeing them again"
"Well all be there Bella your pack now we take care of our own that right guys " embry said
They all nodded in agreement,I felt my heart swell At embry words I am pack I realized it didn't just gain Jacob as a boyfriend I gained brothers and sisters as well
"Okay so it's settled we'll meet up with the vamps later on how's midnight ? You think you can sneak up bells?" Jacob asked
"I'm sure with your help it wouldn't be a problem " I said
After everyone ate breakfast Jacob told me he had to run his shift for patrol I gave him a kiss goodbye got in my truck
Before I pulled out Leah popped up next to my window
"Hey uhm Bella ...do you got any plans for today ?" She asked looking at the ground chewing on her cheek
"No not really I was gonna go home do some laundry read a book maybe...did you wanna do hang out " I asked awkwardly to an outsider lestin in to the conversation you could tell we didn't do this much .
"Well I had to go shopping I sorta shedded all my clothes I need sundresses you know easy to put on after I phase plus I grew a few inches again" she said rolling her eyes. "Did you wanna go uhm with me to kill a few hours we don't have to meet up with the pack till a few hours"
I hate shopping but I seen that Leah needed a friend and she was reaching out to me, plus if I could survive a shopping trip with Alice Leah would be a breeze.
"Yea sure jump in we'll head down to port angles see what we can find"
I texted Charlie letting him know I'd be out for the day me and Leah stop at a few stores She some how got me to buy some new clothes as well,
I had bought me two pairs of tight fitted jeans one dark wash and one light wash, five tops, a pair of flat sandals, I even got me 3 summer dresses that Leah said made my ass look good her words not mine,
Leah had gotten all summer dresses,tank tops and shorts, then she pulled me to Victoria secret, I was not going in there
"Leah I'm not going in there I get my under clothes from target" I said crossing my arms
" oh come on swan every women shops here and there called bras and panties grow up a little" she said laughing
"No no wa-.." I tried to say no way is this gonna happen but Leah cut me off with
"Oh come on Bella you and I both know your realationship with Jacob gonna turn more and more phisical don't you want to look hot when it happens ? Plus it makes you feel powerful and sexy when you wear there...what did you call them? Under clothes" she said raising a eyebrow
Okay so she was right when me and Jake did cross that road I didn't wanna be wearing my Cookie Monster underwear so I walked in .
I end up buys 5 matching sets.
One was black witch Leah said Jacob was gonna love sue to his name,
One was red with lace orl over that barley cover my ass, apparently you don't have to wear just thongs for that to happen, I think the name were cheekers ?
One green one that was just like the red .
One purple one with sparkle sequence all over with the matching thong .
And last a white lace with blue bows at the center of my chest, and on my hip bones I'm pretty sure Leah had a heart attack and growled at the one female trying to buy the last one that was in my size ,
" what the hell leah why would you growl at that women" I said finding my face
"Omg Bella you don't understand I found the perfect bra and panties set it's looks exactly like it did in his head " she said smiling
" what are you talking about and who's head"
She smiled mischiefly "Jacob's"
" wait a minute Jacob's had like thoughts about me...sexually " I asked blushing
Leah look like I had five head three arms and wings behind my back " Bella ... he's a sixteen year old boy who's inlove with you and think your the best thing that was ever made he has thoughts, dreams, fantasies, daydreams you name it he dose it"
I felt my cheeks grow hotter, I knew Jacob liked me but to know he lusted over me...well that was a whole another thing on its own, it made me feel...powerful, wanted, desireable, I suddenly wish he was infront of me, to kiss him and make him tell me every Fantasy.
Leah looked at me with a eyebrow raised "so your telling me that you thought just about holding her hand and walking off in the sunset...well actually he dose think about that to but he thinks about the other stuff more"
"I..- I didn't think I was worth thinking about like that I'm just so plain" I said wincing at the last
Leah looked at me in disbielf " wait wait so you and popsicle dick never did anything with each other you were dating for a while "
"Uhm no he..-he never expressed those feelings to me I just always assumed he didn't like me like that we would barley kiss cause he was afriad he was gonna hurt me or lose control but like to say he had thoughts about me like that I seriously doubt it and I mean who can blame him like I said I'm not pretty like other girls so why would he " I said shrugging one of my shoulders
"Bella what are you even talking about your gorgeous you know half the pack had a crush on you right? hell Jake beats the shit out of Seth and Quil all the time because of it popsicle boy just didn't know what the hell he was doing come on I wanna try something "
She pulled me in a hair and nail salons
"Leah what are we doing " I asked her a bit panick
"We're gonna make you feel beautful Bella just relax " she said walking to the receptionist
By the time we was doing I had cut a few inches off my hair gotten layers and side bang, got a pedicure and manicure , (witch I would always just do at home) painted them a pretty peachy pink colour gotten an eyebrow wax, (again useally did home).
But Leah was right I did feel pretty and with the knowledge of Jacob disiring me in that way I felt amazing and told Leah so
"Good I'm happy I could help you out but you do know you don't have to be wanted by Jacob or any man to know your beautful Bella grow some more confidence your hot shit so act like it " Leah said smiling
We decided to get a early dinner since shopping whipped us out
"So what's the deal with you and Emily I seen you two not exactly getting along" I asked Leah badl, after all the talking and laughing we did today I figured I could ask her this now.
She started couching on her bite of pizza " fuck swan you just went for it huh?." Leah said in a bittertone, but I just simple stared at her waiting for her to continue, I knew it was hard for Leah to open up that I could tell easily I just wanted to know why.
She sighed putting her pizza down, " you know Emily is sams imprint right? " I nodded my head " well before...- before that he was my fiancé Emily is my second cousin sister really " I couldn't help the gasp I let out. How could Emily do that to Leah if they were that close ? How could Sam just get up and leave his fiancé? " to answer all those questions that are popping in her head there wasn't much they could have done about it there was some force something bigger then me and Sam that came between us...there's some things you don't know Bella about being a werewolf and it's really not my place to tell you this you gotta ask Jacob but that's why I'm so bitter and distiant towards Sam and Emily it hurts a lot being around then and now I'm stuck in his head when we phase i think that's the worst part because I seen he still loves me still wants me but the tie to Emily is to strong it makes it blurry his feeling for me" she said bitting her lip
I couldn't help the fear coming in my body what if that force happen to me and Jacob what if I ended up just like Leah
"Bella don't be afriad to give Jacob an chance he's not like Sam he's stronger and so inlove with you just me when I say your the only girl he thinks about okay? Now can I finish my pizza before I cry in it"
I just nodded my head fishing my pizza .
It was wired how Leah knew what I was thinking, what I was feeling maybe my face gave away my thoughts to much .
After we finished eating we headed back to my place I put left over pizza in the fridge for Charlie
"I'm gonna head home swan gonna try to get in a nap I have a feeling we're gonna have a long ass night thanks for today see you later "
"I had fun today thanks for the call see you later clearwater"
I heard Leah chuckle walking out the door .
Okay time to get ready to my shapeshiting werewolf boyfriend can pick me up to take me to my ex vampire boyfriend and his family to figure out why every vampire gonna wanna kill me ...simple right ?
Man my life is fucken wired .
A/N what you think ? Thank for reading