Chapter 7

WARNING- THIS STORY CONTAINS MATURE THEMES SUCH AS SELF HARM AND ABUSE, PLEASE DO NOT READ IF THIS MAY UPSET OR TRIGGER YOU IN AN WAY

I have suffered with self harming before not long ago, and please if you or any of your friends/family are going through it, get help and just remember it DOES get better and you're not alone. I'm always here if you need any help I'll understand xx

Disclaimer- I do not own 'Twilight' or any of the other books written by Stephanie Meyer. All characters mentioned in this fanfic belong to the wonderful author and not me (although I wish Jacob aka Taylor Lautner belonged to me )

This story is set in New Moon, just after Edward left Bella and she is depressed and lonely.

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Btw, this chapter does have a POV from Alice for people who are fans of her character 3

Jacob's POV

I knew something was up when Bella didn't turn up at my house at the usual time she had been coming at for weeks. I tried to ring her to see where she was, but she didn't answer any of my calls and it kept going back to voicemail. I started to panic slightly when she still hadn't arrived and I hadn't heard anything from her in over twenty minutes. I imagined all the different scenarios she could be in inside my head; Bella lying bleeding in the street, strange men leering over her and trying to get her do stuff she didn't want to do, Bella stuck in a car crash in the middle of the road, her head smashed against the broken windscreen and Bella locked in her bedroom, Charlie beating her to a pulp whilst she cries uncontrollably.

Ugh, I shake my thoughts away, telling myself that Bella will be ok and that she's probably just forgotten to come. Deep down though, I know this couldn't be true, as she had confessed to me in private that coming round to my house allowed her to escape from Charlie and that she felt safe when she was with me. So why the hell wouldn't she turn up and not let me know why?

I grab my keys hurriedly off the bonnet of the car I'm currently working on in the garage, and run to my truck, slamming the door and driving to Bella's house. When I get there, all the lights are turned off still from last night, and there appears to be no-one in as Charlie must be at work.

I know that Bella must be in the house somewhere though, and I walk up the driveway, making sure that Charlie's car isn't there. I then slip my hand underneath the doormat and when I lift my hand out, I've got the silver spare key for the house in my palm. Bella had once told me where she kept the spare key to the house, just in case of emergencies. I hadn't thought that I would ever have to use it at the time, but hey, I guess this counted as an emergency. I didn't actually know what the emergency was yet though, but I knew that something was wrong as soon as I opened the door and walked into the house.

Every single light, including the lamps, were switched off, and the whole house was covered in darkness. I quickly switched the main light on, and I had an uneasy feeling, like something bad had happened to Bella, I don't know exactly how to explain it. All I knew was that something was seriously wrong and that I was going to find out what it was.

Alice's POV

Edward had been telling me to keep an eye on Bella for months now, but no matter how hard I tried to look, I couldn't see anything of Bella. I even got Edward to try checking her human friends minds' from a distance but there was nothing about Bella in them; Jessica's mind was full of sex and Mike Newton, Angela's mind was full of cats, shoes, dresses and her boyfriend Ben and that nasty Lauren girl's mind was full of hateful thoughts about Bella but nothing that gave him any information on how she was getting along. It was a load of catty remarks like 'that Bella girl's such a bitch' or 'I don't know why Jessica was ever friends with her in the first place' and 'she was a total weirdo who liked the Cullens'.

I kept telling Edward this, but I could tell he was becoming more and more worried about if Bella was ok. I tried to reassure him that she was fine and that my 'vampire abilities' weren't always the best or the most reliable but my efforts were wasted as he would still constantly fuss about her.

I don't honestly know why he ever broke up with her in the first place, yes he was always concerned about her living a normal human life and he didn't want us vampires to get in the way of that but it was so obvious that he still loved her. He'd tell us to shut up whenever we even mentioned Bella's name in a conversation and he'd go all moony-eyed and stare into space longingly.

He cared about her safety, and that was why he'd persuaded all of us to move away and let Bella live her life without us interfering. But, the reality was that someone like Bella could never be safe, she was a complete and utter clutz and was always tripping over and getting herself into danger accidentally. At least when we lived in Forks with her, one of us were always there to protect her when she needed us, but now she was all on her own, with no abnormally strong vampires to save her when she was in trouble.

Edward was driving us all crazy, he would constantly be in a depressed mood, floating around lifelessly, the once joyful glint in his bronze eyes now a dull, lonely abyss of darkness. Whenever anyone would try and talk to him, he'd give us one-word answers and then go back to his sulking all by himself. Esme and Carslisle were extremely worried about him, they kept murmuring things like 'we should have knew something like this would happen' and 'we should have never let him leave her'.

We all knew that Bella was Edward's true one and only soulmate. She was his other half, just like mine was Jasper and Rosalie's was Emmet. I can't imagine what my life would be like without Jasper, it wouldn't be complete and I wouldn't feel truly happy. I truly sympathise with Edward and can understand how much he is missing Bella but what I can't understand is why he can't just go back to Forks, apologize to her, and then be with her again.

It's been months now, but I know that Bella wouldn't have forgot about Edward yet. From the minute I first met her, I could tell how much Bella really loved him and that nothing would ever stop her from that. Edward was certain that humans' minds were like sivs and that she'd soon forget about him and carry on with her life like normal but I wasn't so sure.

Edward kept trying to reassure himself that he'd done the right thing in leaving Bella and that it was for the best, but even he was losing hope now. He was heartbroken and I knew it. It was hard to watch, your big brother that you care about loads, slowly losing his faith and moping around all day, showing no emotion like a robot.

It was a brave thing to do though, leaving the person you love most just so you can you protect them, and I totally respect him for that. Even though he knew how much he'd miss her and how much it would hurt him, he still left her, so she would be safe. I honestly don't think I could have done the same thing if it was Jasper, and that's why I love Edward so much. He's selfless and only cares about the people he loves.

I was in the kitchen, setting up a new vase of flowers for decoration when my mind went blank and I had a vision. The image in my mind shocked me, and I dropped the glass vase, the splinters of glass flying everywhere, clattering on the floor loudly. The whole family came running in after they'd heard the noise, and Jasper was by my side instantly, I ignored him though and focused on the image that was haunting my mind.

There, in my mind, was Bella. She was sitting on the bathroom floor, tears running down her cheeks. She looked absolutely crushed and she reached for a sharp, silver thing from the cupboard. It appears to be some kind of blade and I gasp in horror. She drags it down her wrists over and over, blood everywhere and slash marks running up her pale wrist. Then, she tries to wash the blood off with tissues, but her cuts continue bleeding and a panicked expression appears on her face. After a few minutes, her eyes begin to glaze over and she collapses on the floor, hitting her head.

"What is it?" Jasper asks, worriedly.

I stare ahead, in a silent trance. Sweet, innocent Bella cutting herself? But she was so happy and in love only a few months ago! Judging by my horrific vision, I knew that the Bella I had seen six months ago before we left was not the same as the terrified, vulnerable girl I saw now. Something had changed massively, and I couldn't believe the difference.

I couldn't understand why Bella was hurting herself like this, but what I did know was that she was in serious danger and that she had probably been doing this for months now all alone. I instantly feel guilty for leaving her when she needed me the most, I had always loved Bella like a sister and it made me upset to know that she was feeling so bad that she had resulted to causing herself pain purposely in an attempt to make it better. I wasn't stupid, I knew all about self harm and how it effected people, with Carslisle being a doctor. I had learnt why people did it to themselves, and I found it hard to believe that someone I knew so well was suffering from something so terrible. I felt the need to go back to Forks and give Bella a great big hug and comfort her, but I knew that Edward probably wouldn't allow that.

Still, Bella needed help urgently, she was unconscious alone in her house, and Charlie didn't get back from work until late and knowing him, he probably wouldn't even notice as he got back and usually went straight to bed so he could get up early in the morning.

"Alice?" Carslisle calls out, uncertaintly.

I am brought away from my thoughts and I look up to see 6 concerned faces looking back at me. My eyes shift over to Edward's and I wonder how I am going to tell him that the girl he loves more than anything is self harming.

He must see something in my expression though, as his entire face pales (even though it's super pale anyway) and he looks at me, scared and worried.

"Is it Bella?" he asks, urgently.

I nod silently and he starts to panic wildly, his facial expression fearful.

"Is she ok?" he pleads.

I watch as Edward's whole facial expression changes to one of agony, and he stares at me, pure terror in his eyes, in reaction to the horrifying image that is now in his head. His shoulders rack with sobs and he looks so guilty and tortured that I wish he hadn't had to see the whole scene of Bella cutting her wrist for himself and that I could just explain the problem to him like I would have to for the others. Sometimes Edward's mind-reading abilities were a curse.

"What's wrong with Bella, Alice?" Esme asks, confused as to what's going on.

"Just sit down, all of you" I say, the vision of Bella still scaring me.

The whole family sits down and they all look worried about Bella, even Rosalie, who hasn't bothered to hide her dislike for Bella in the past.

I take a deep breath, bracing myself on how to tell them.

Jacob's POV

I race up the staircase, calling Bella's name urgently. There is no reply, and I wonder what has happened. I search Charlie's room and her bedroom, but she isn't in either of them and the house is still eerily silent.

I go to check the bathroom, but when I push the door, it doesn't open. I realise that someone has locked it and is still inside there. My thoughts immediately go to Bella and I put my ear to the door, listening. There is no sound though, not even the whooshing sound of running water from the shower or the buzzing noise of an electric toothbrush and I know that Bella is in trouble.

I try the door one more time, and when it doesn't budge, I kick the door down determinedly, desperate to know if Bella was ok or not. However, I am not prepared for the gruesome scene I see, and I gasp in shock and fear. Lying on the bathroom floor is Bella's lifeless body, blood leaking out of both her arms and making a messy dark red pool on the floor. Panicking, I lean in towards her chest, and sigh in relief when I find what I was begging to hear: a heartbeat. It was faint and slowly fading, but it was still there, thank God.

I hurriedly call 911, not knowing what else to do. I wait while it rings, occasionally glancing over at Bella fearfully, making sure she's still alive and breathing.

"911, what's your emergency?" the dispatcher asks.

"My friend is unconscious and bleeding out on the floor" I answer, the scary reality of the situation sinking in.

"What is your friend's age?"

"18"

"Is she breathing?"

"Yeah, but barely" I answer, tears forming in my eyes.

The dispatcher must hear the sadness in my voice because they reassure me.

"The best thing to do right now is to keep calm and try not to panic. We're coming over now, what's the address?"

"775 K St, Forks" I answer as quickly as I can.

"Ok, stay with her and make sure she keeps breathing"

"I will"

The call ends abruptly, and I'm glad that the ambulance is on their way. I crawl over to Bella on the floor, and glance over at the blood that's everywhere. As I look closer, I notice that the blood is coming from her wrists.

'Her wrists? How could her wrists be bleeding unless….?'

'No, there's no way that Bella had done this to herself, surely if she felt like this, then she would have told me? We are best friends after all… aren't we? ' I wonder, faltering.

As I examine her wrists more closely, I notice the deep red, puckered scars that cover her arms, from her wrist to her elbow. They are all different kinds of shapes and sizes, some horizontal and some vertical. I gently lift up her sleeve, revealing tonnes more scars, a few of them are really deep and look like they would have needed stitches.

'What the hell?' my eyes widen in terror.

Hi, sorry I haven't updated for a while, I've been going through a lot lately, my friend is threatening to commit suicide and I have lost all control and started self harming again. I am going to start trying harder to stop now though, as I don't want to hurt my friends who have been nothing but kind and supportive to me since the start. Anyway, I hope this chapter makes up for it, it's a lot longer than the others, as it's 2695 words and 8 pages lol! Please review and tell me what you think as this took me literally over 2 hours x

Oh yeah and btw, I will do a Edward POV in the next chapter so you can know exactly how Edward felt when he found out that Bella is self harming x