Hello guys.
The twilight saga will be quoted and some part of the books will be use. I do not own any of it. All characters belong to Stephenie Meyer.
I heard Esme yelled. I needed to get to Bella. How could i done that to her, yes I won't denied I thought of leaving but… why did I had to say those things.
"Let go of me Alice!"- I growled at my sister who kept clawing at my face. My whole family was shocked at the events.
"I never would've left without saying goodbye Edward, I would've stop you, you took advantage of the fact I was more focused on Jazz…fucking selfish prick"
"It didn't happen, I need to get to her", I kept trying to get away from Alice, finally Jasper got to us. — "Ali, baby let him go, Bella needs him" – "Edward talk to her, she's in shock". I tried to help her but she's not letting me in, it's like she's blocking me
Rosalie and Emmett disappear not before dragging me down.
"I hope she kicks his ass, idiot all the trouble we when threw, all for him to throw everything away in the most shittiest way"
"Why didn't we fight him? Did we really just left?"
My mother was holding Bella in her lap, while my father took her vitals— "It's a severe panic attack", Son she could have a heart attack"
I knelt in front of her— "Bella, love I need you to come back to me. What happen in the book won't happen in this reality"— I don't know when I started sobbing – "Please Love come back to me" Her breathing started getting even, and her body still trembling started to relax. – "You left"
"I'm sorry baby I'm so sorry" –
"Why did you do it?", she sobbed. I extended my arms towards her… please baby take them. She jumped to them.
" Come Esme, let's go find the rest of our children"
"Bella, baby you don't need to talk just listen, I love you more than anything or anyone. You brought peace to my… soul. Since the moment we meet I have wanted you.
The first couple of days of our relationship my mind was chaos, your scent, new emotions, my fears, your lack of fear, Alice visions. Yes there has been so many times where I've thought about leaving and I'm sorry for ever doubting your love. I'm not trying to justify my actions in the book but I'm sure that after the events of your birthday my mind was not in the right place.
My worst nightmare is someone from my family or myself threating your life. I'm not justifying my words … the things I said I'm sure hurt me as much as they hurt you. I will forever be asking for your forgiveness.
We just sat there, rocking her, it took her about an hour to finally come back— "It hurts"— she whispered— "I know baby, I'm sorry"
"It just that it makes sense", I stared at her confused.— " You not loving me"
What the fuck is she talking about? — "ISABELLA, never doubt of my love and devotion for you, I love everything about you"
She looked deep in thought. — "Bella what are you thinking, please don't Edit"
"You don't show it. I mean yes I understand that you love me, care for me but sometimes when you reject me it makes me realize perhaps I'm not what you need.
FUCK!
I have to fix this; I can't have my Bella feeling like that.
"I don't want or need anyone but you, I reject you because I would like for us to be intimate in the right way. Perhaps you find it old fashion but it's how I was raised. I desire you; everything in your body calls me. Your eyes, when you bite your lips when you touch me, god you don't know the things it does to me. I love your curves and thank god for vampire speed because you would catch me staring at your ass, even your walking, your tripping is sexy"— she was blushing. So fucking adorable.
"Bella baby I have a vivid imagination and I don't sleep I desire you in your bed, in the meadow, the Volvo. I don't show it not because I don't want you it's just…"— she started cleaning her tears with the sleeves of her sweater.—"Why Edward why?"— I sigh because I'm a prude
"Because in my time it was wrong to do such things with women who were not your wife. Women were to be respected plus the sexual drive for us vampires is strong; if I get carried away I might not realize and crash you."
She looked pensive— "Do you think we could practice" – "Practice?" – I asked concerned
"Yeah, like touching we can handle that right?"
Could I handle it…?-"Yeah Edward I need it, the sexual tension is killing me"—I know baby— "nothing to intense Bella and if I say stop we stop"— she nodded.
"We will try"— I said kissing her.
"Let's get back to the book"
"Are you sure if it's too much…? someone else could read it"
"No, it's about us we should be here"
I started calling the others, fifteen minutes later we were all back in our seats.
-"I'm sorry Edward"— Alice said, I'm not sorry you fucking deserve it, fucking prick
-"It's alright Alice, Bella wants to continue if it's alright with all of you"— they all turn around to see her.
- "It didn't happen"— my angel said
-"Oh Bella why did you followed him, it's dangerous"— Emm said. You know what bro forget what I said earlier if you hurt the little girl next to you I will burn the pieces myself.
"Sam Uley, that name sounds familiar"- Rosalie said
"Oh Bella, you most of scared Charlie"
"Uley! Edward wasn't he part of the treaty?"- Rosalie looked at me, does it mean we have wolfs again?
Well leave it to Bella to find the wolfs.
"Lighting bone fires is a little too much"- my angel said
"We didn't even tell her goodbye"— Alice started sobbing making Bella cry. "Shh Angel its ok" – I told her while she hold on to my shirt for dear life.
What in the heavens made me do this; I took the photos and the cd hurting her. I turned to look at my angel— "Mom could you make her some tea"-
Carlisle stopped— "There's a time laps, it says October, November, December, and January"— Bella gasped— "Four months, you really did leave"
why?
"Chapter 4 waking up"
"I'm sending you to Rene"
" I wouldn't leave"— Bella said with too much conviction
Oh Bella, you couldn't even talk to someone… even after the pain, you're still protecting us" – Esme sobbed – "Your my family. Charlie is yelling at me"— Bella said sounding surprise— "Not even after the Phoenix accident he yell, it must be bad"- she said the last part in a whisper
The pain Charlie must be in, my poor daughter is dying because we abandon her.
I just left; you made me Edward I hope you're fucking happy, I warned you…
I've seen this symptoms Edward, in Marcus, she suffering her mate's loss I don't think she will make it, unless you return.
My mother was right we abandon her. I was a coward.
In situation like these you don't befriend people like Jessica"— Jasper said
"Looking back at the four men with a sense of déjà vu"
"What are you doing?"— I asked her, she shrugged— "How should I know"
"I wasn't suicidal. Even in the beginning when death would have been a relief"
"No Bella, please don't ever think about that"— Emmett said
"Bella, stop this right now! (…) it was his voice"
"Very Hypocrite of you Edward"— Rosalie said, I glared at her— "What? You spent months telling her how you were going to keep her safe but instead you abandon her" – I let my head down, she was right.
"So I lost it"— Bella asked me— " You left and I went crazy"
"It's the Bond"— jasper said— "You're probably hallucinating, when a vampire losses their mate they get consume with grieve they desperately need to find a connection, a way to find peace. It's that or going wild. Both cases grieve kills you"
Bella blanched— "That isn't going to happen", I told her.
"Jazzy love, maybe you should've said it a little bit more nicely"— jasper looked at us sheepishly— "My apologies"
"You knew this and left"— Bella accused, I was about to defend myself— "You regard my love so little and I was so into my…- she stared at me, what I would give to hear her. She shook her head and talked to jasper— "If I was like that, how was Edward?"
"The same, he probably stopped feeding. – Bella nodded very slowly
"Oh how right is Jessica she doesn't know you"
"I feel bad for her, Book me put her in danger"
She's clearly depressed, I hope she survives. Edward maybe you should start preparing to read Bella's death. I stared at Jasper; he was discussing my angel's death like it meant nothing. I'm an empath Edward I deal with emotion a lot better trust me, you freaking out isn't going to help her, she's not very stable.
Chapter 5, cheater"
"Black bears don't get that big (…) big as a horse, pitch black"
Yeah! Finally some good hunting"
I've seen what they are describing – "The wolfs are back"
Rosalie growled – "Fantastic more problems"
"We don't know that Rose"— my father said. "There's a reason we have a treaty"
Rosalie rolled her eyes— "Yeah but we didn't had a human with us last time.
I wouldn't say it out loud but Rosalie was right Chief swan was friends with them. Bella looked between me and Rosalie— "I'm doing it again aren't I? Making more complications"
"Yes"
"No"— I glared at my sister.
"There no problems yet, we just have to add three more names to the treaty, we don't even know if they have started the change, this happens until January"— Esme said.
"Really Bella motorcycles"— Bella said to her book self— "Yep definitely gone crazy"
"The truck won't run for ever, it's dying"— Rosalie told her, there's a limit to what I can do.
"I want to visit Jacob"
"Oh fuck me" – I said. Everyone stared at me in shock. Great I leave and she runs to the fucking wolfs. Not any wolf a kid that clearly wants my Bella. – "How improper Edward, in front of the ladies"— she mocked me
I glared and pointed at her— "You are a danger magnet you're going right to the wolfs den"
What's with this girl and supernatural creatures?
I don't think this is going to end well, Edward you should prepare for some loving between her and this Jacob— Emmett's thought burned, would Bella fall in love with someone else?
"Hey Jacob (…) you grew again (…) six five"
"Bella you got a puppy"— Emmett said— "Hey don't be rude, Jake is a good kid" – she's defending him. I growled she's defending him it's not like she knows him; she turned around raising and eyebrow.
"Eddie is jealous"— I shook my head at Emmett's words.
"Yes he is" – stupid Jasper
"Edward love, there's no one else but you left so whatever book Bella does is your fault"
Ha! Take that I hope she hooks up with him. That would teach Edward some respect…
I didn't even realize I had attack her until I heard Emmett
"EDWARD LET GO OF MY WIFE, Damn babe what did you say?"
"You should stay out of my head"— "when you stop being a fucking bitch"— she looked surprise at my words. I was really getting tired of her shit.
"Edward Cullen, let her go and apologize"— I threw Rosalie to the ground and went back to Bella's side— "Are you alright" – I nodded at her to angry to speak.
"He's only sixteen? Too young to have such responsibilities of being a wolf"
"I'm seventeen Esme"— I said, she turned around with an amused look
You're also sounding like one; stop being jealous honey Bella loves you. Please control your anger towards your sister I don't like it when you fight.
I rolled my eyes at her; the only thing Rosalie and I have been doing since she joined us, is fight.
"Why did he had to say date like that, why can't I just be friends with him?"— Bella said
"You spent your college fun in trash bikes?" – Emmett asked her— "so?"
"I'm not just a pretty face sis, I've been to college a phew times. College is important"— I chuckled at his tone— "What if I don't want to go to college?" – Bella challenged him— "we are not asking" – Emmett said.
"Do any of you have bikes?"— She asked
"Yes I have a Ducati 1000RR and a Harley Low rider"— jasper was proud of his motorcycles— "The first one is a new model right"— I turned to see her surprised that she actually knew this. — "I saw it on a magazine Rosalie has in the garage"
"The one that had all the new models of Bike and cars for this year?"— Emmett asked.— "Yes, there was this Audi t something it was cute" – she covered her mouth realizing her mistake.
Your welcome bro.
I can only imagine how big my smile looked, Bella's Christmas present had been decided an Audi TT.
She will fight at first but she would like it eventually, maybe you have to ask Charlie first. I frown at Alice words. Charlie is her father Edward I see him putting up a fight.
"Edward I can see you thinking about the damn car, I don't need a new car" –
"Why do you want to be alone with Jacob, Bella"— I glared at Rosalie. She's definitely going to lose a limb tonight. – "There will never be anyone but your brother Rosalie"— Ha take that sis.
"You destroyed my stereo"— Emmett said sounding hurt— " Sorry"
"I'm going to teach you how to change a tire"— I told her
"The wolfs are being sloppy"— jasper said
Bella was crying again— "Sweetheart whats wrong?"
"You weren't here for our anniversary"— she murmured— "Our anniversary is the day we went to the meadow"— she shook her head— "No it's that day in biology" – "why?"— I really hated that day.
"Because it was the day my life changed"
"So January nineteenth, the day I almost killed you and thought of killing in entire class room is the day to celebrate our love?"
"Yes"