A/N: Just a warning. Meer's character changes a bit based on her emotions and experiences. Cagalli and Athrun will too. Maybe I am stating the obvious here. I am expecting that there will be Meer fans reading this story too. Please don't be upset if the changes are more drastic than you expect. I don't think they are.

A few months later...

Meer's POV

Athrun stepped into the baby's room as I held my new baby girl in my arms. "She's so beautiful…"

I smiled warmly, now that she had finally fallen asleep. "We make beautiful children."

Athrun wanted to hold her, but I was too attached to her. I didn't want to let go. I birthed her so I had no guilt. This wasn't Cagalli's daughter, it was mine.

Athrun smiled warmly at me. "You can put her in the bed. She won't break."

I realized how clingy I looked. I put her down and gently caressed her sleeping form. I was in love.

"Ally, do you mind if I borrow your mother for a while?" Athrun joked like he needed Ally's permission to spend time with his wife.

I giggled.

He picked me up in his strong arms and carried me to bed, closing the door. The room filled with sounds of love making and passion.

As soon as I climaxed, I heard Ally cry out for me.

I jumped out of bed and ran to her, leaving Athrun there alone. He noticed I ran out naked and left the door wide open. He slid on some clothes and pulled my robe along with him.

He dressed me in the robe, while I nursed her tenderly like she was the only person in the world.

"Mommy?!" Chase burst into the baby's room. "Lizzy bit my cookie."

"Nuh uh!" Lizzy defended with chocolate smeared on the tip of her mouth.

Athrun turned to me. "Why don't you spend some time with the kids. I can look after her."

"You don't have breasts, Athrun. I need to feed her."

"You have been with her every single moment. You need rest." Athrun argued.

"She needs me." How can he not understand that I need to be near her if she calls?

"Cagalli… you are acting like this is your first child. She will be fine."

"I am not leaving her." I growled. I don't know why I felt this way, but I had to defend my right to keep my daughter. Perhaps deep down, I knew this was wrong. Taking Athrun to bed over and over, under the pretense that I was Cagalli, his wife. That was not important to me as much as this little baby girl. I didn't want fate to punish me and take Ally away from me. Not even by Athrun.

"And what about your other children? Do they not matter to you as well?" Athrun had ushered the children out of the room so that they would not have to hear my answer.

"They don't need me"

Athrun slammed his hand down on the bed frame railing quietly. "Of course they do. You are their mother."

"I am her mother." I defended weakly.

"Yes, but they need you too." Athrun argued.

I refused to move, because of fear and attachment… I coveted her.

Athrun left to give me time to think through what he said.

Months passed and I spent almost every waking minute with my little girl. Sure I took care of every little job around the house and fed the children, but it was Ally that I wanted to have quality time with.

I heard outside the door little Chase's voice. "Will mommy play with us again?"

Athrun's voice soothed him. "Come, squirt. You and your sister, we will have fun, even if mommy doesn't join us."

"But I want mommy to come…"

"I know… I know…"

I felt the guilt slide up my spine, but I looked back at those adorable little angel eyes and I couldn't leave her. When she looked like she wasn't breathing, I would panic. Maybe I was spending a bit too much time in here, more than I wanted to admit.

When they had left I thought I would surprise him. Make it up to Athrun. I pulled little petals from the neighbours roses and scattered them through the halls, leading to the bedroom. I missed the pleasure that Athrun gave me. We hadn't had sex much since Ally became so precious to me. I still had those urges, but he didn't want to anymore.

I dressed in my most sexy lingerie and waited on our bed. As I had hoped, Athrun dropped the children at Kira and Lacus' house, which also made me think he already knew what I was doing.

He opened the door but an unimpressed look appeared on his face. "Really?"

"Don't you want me?"

"Not after ignoring the children like you have been."

"I am not ignoring them."

"No, you are just neglecting them." Athrun grabbed the pillow and returned to the door. "I think it is best if I sleep on the couch tonight."

"What? Why? I did this for you!" I put so much effort into making him turn on, but he rejected me? But I am his wife, he should sex me up whenever I ask for it! That is what a husband is for!

Athrun didn't answer and just left the room.

Athrun continued to punish me with his abstinence. Was he doing someone else? Why would he refuse to sleep with me every night? I felt like our connection was dissolving… It had been happening for a while, now that I think about it. He and the two children spent most of their time away from home and I didn't care about that. But I needed to have sex, my body demanded it.

I decided to take action. I was going to get him in the mood. I was getting laid tonight. I bought Viagra from the store, some instant sex drive, or that is what it says on the label. (I don't exactly know how this product works, so if I exaggerate it in any way, just pretend this product is something different and let me know in the comments)

I mixed it up in the blender with some of his favorite fruits. If he drinks it in the afternoon, he should be horney by the evening.

For extra measure, I put on some of Cagalli's old clothes and dumbed down my makeup, to nothing. I was willing to be 'her' if that meant he would make love to me again.

I waited all day in anticipation, with Ally in my lap.

Finally the hour drew near and I felt wet lips on my neck. He kissed me passionately like he used to. He stood up tall, picked up Ally and put her in her bed. "I don't know what came over me. I am still mad at you."

I responded by kissing his neck.

He twisted around and I felt him get hard. I smiled in success. It worked.

Our kissing got so passionate that we ended up on the floor in the baby's room.

We heard the kids coming up the stairs and unlike usual, Athrun just kicked the door closed, not wanting to stop surging into me. He thrust harder and harder. It was stronger than I remembered him to be. I liked it and moaned loudly in response.

He didn't want to stop after the release.

I was in a bliss, so glad to be reignited by my highschool crush. I loved his body… every part of it.

Once he was done, he rolled over panting in bliss. "I'm still mad at you…"

"If that is what your anger feels like, give me more."

He stood up and put his clothes back on. "I am not kidding. You are playing favorites. I won't sit here and pretend to be okay with that." He put his shirt back on.

I pulled my clothes and dressed myself.

Athrun stared at me with joyful tears. "You're wearing those again…" I heard a rising hope in his voice as he studied my face. "Does this mean…?

"I know you like it when I wear them." I answered, thinking it was considerate.

He dropped the hope. "I see… next time... wear them for yourself." He left the room and continued on with his other daily routine.

I don't get it. Why is he still mad? I thought he liked these clothes.

Day after day, cold shoulders and strong sexual encounters, that also ended in cold shoulders, I felt like my world was falling apart. I even tried to care about the other kids, but it seemed that Athrun and I, despite our strong routine love making, were growing apart. I felt like we were becoming more like disgruntled roommates who f*ck.

I wanted to feel better and see what was being said about me behind my back too. I called Lacus, who was the only person here who could care about me. I used my new cellphone that I bought a little while ago, since the old one had that pesky password. "... look I know what Athrun is saying about me…"

The children entered the kitchen. Lizzy pointed to the bottle of Viagra. "Daddy's favorite. Mommy puts it in all of his shakes."

"... He hasn't said anything? I find that hard to believe." I growled while my back was turned to the children's mischief.

"I wanna try it." Chase stood there in plain view.

"... I'm sorry… I just can't take it anymore… He hasn't been talking to me and it is driving me insane… I mean, of course we are still having sex, but he sleeps on the couch every night… What do I do?" I whined pathetically.

Lizzy pulled a chair quietly, fully aware that she wasn't allowed up to the cabinets. She pulled the bottle down and snuck off to her room quickly.

I nearly tripped on the chair that was left in my way and I noticed where it stood. I looked up to see that the Viagra was missing. "Shit! I gotta go." I dropped the phone and ran to Lizzy's room. I saw the bottle was discarded on the carpet with only a little bit left in there. They both had tea cups with liquid in them and there was liquid everywhere.

Lizzy held up her other teacup to me. "Mommy, do you want some tea?"

"No!" I rushed to grab all the teacups and the tea pot. That meant pulling away the cup in Chase's hand.

Chase started crying.

"Did you drink any of this?!" I panicked. I don't know what Viagra would do to a child and especially that much of it. I didn't want to find out either.

Lizzy shook her head, knowing she was in trouble.

"Did your brother drink any?! Answer Me, Lizzy!" I felt all the fear rising. I couldn't be responsible for the death of Athrun's children and what if he finds out about the Viagra?

Lizzy shrugged.

I pulled Chase into my arms and rushed him to the car. I drove them all to the hospital as quickly as I could. Chase was admitted immediately and I awaited the impending results of my guilt.

Miriallia brought Chase to me with a smile after the tests were completed. "He is clear of any drugs. The doctor says he is in perfect health."

"Thanks, Mir…" I breathed out my relief. That was too close.

Miriallia took a good look at Ally. "She is such a sweetie. And growing quite nicely."

"Yes, she is." I was so relieved that I nearly cheered.

I rushed home, hoping to get there before Athrun did, but his car was in the driveway. He was standing there leaned back against its frame, eyebrows furrowed and his arms crossed.

I pulled up next to him, ready for another lecture.

Athrun took the children in the house and then slammed the door before I could enter. "Why didn't you tell me our son was in the hospital?"

"What makes you think we were at the hospital?" I played casually.

He was beyond insulted. "And you would lie to my face."

"I didn't lie. I just hadn't told you the truth yet."

"A technicality is basically a lie."

"How do you know that we were at the hospital?" I played dumb.

"Because after the last couple of instances, where you so inconveniently lost your phone, I asked Miriallia to call me if any of you should ever end up there."

"I'm sorry." My phone rang in my bag.

"Glad to see your phone still works." Athrun turned to his car. "I can't be around you right now." He drove away and left my heart throbbing.

Athrun had the Viagra in his system, quite a large amount too. If he is so driven, he will sleep with another girl tonight. He needs to be in my bed. This can't be happening. I felt the pain of his affair already, believing it was inevitable.

I sobbed in my room thinking about his betrayal but also considering that it wasn't my place to feel betrayed.

A small knock at the door broke me from my thoughts.

"Mommy, you okay?" Lizzy asked tenderly.

"Is Daddy, bye bye?" Chase started to cry.

I opened the door. "Of course not. He just wants to hang out with his friends."

"Promise?" Lizzy begged.

"Sure…"

Chase embraced me and then so did Lizzy.

"I'm sorry, Mommy… I'm sorry…" Lizzy cried too.

"It will be okay." I put them both to bed.

If Athrun was going to be with another woman then why can't I be with another man?

It felt good to funnel my anger into revenge. I called up Auel and he was happy to come over. We f*cked and it felt like I was getting back at Athrun and he couldn't be angry because he did the same thing to me. There was an allure about being with someone other than Athrun again. Athrun was amazing in bed though.

Auel left the house after ravishing my body and I lay there with a grin on my face. It wasn't like I said the wedding vows. So Athrun and I aren't technically married, but it was my wish… it's complicated.

Athrun's car drove up shortly after and he slumped down on the couch.

I woke up in the morning, walking past Athrun on the couch with disdain. I made my way to the fridge to start making the shake that I made for him every day with the promise it would help him stay in shape. I looked inside and there was the shake I made for him yesterday. "You never drank this?"

Athrun grabbed a couple things from around the kitchen to eat. "Someone knocked their coffee over Kira's lunch, so we went out instead."

My eyes went wide, realizing the only person to have an affair was me. "Oh… is that so?"

Athrun sat down at the table. "Why does it matter? I'll drink it this afternoon."

"No reason."

Athrun didn't really believe me, but there was something else on his mind. "We need to talk about yesterday."

I sat down next to him, ready for yet another scolding.

"We are married. I dedicated my life to you and you did that for me. That means we don't keep secrets, we don't lie and we communicate. We are partners. I haven't felt like we have been doing any of those things."

I thought about Auel and how much Athrun would hate me after he learned of it. "I agree." I felt like that was what he wanted to hear.

"Be honest… do you regret marrying me?" Athrun asked.

"No! Athrun, I love you."

"You don't listen to me, you don't include me and frankly, I feel like you don't care. I feel like we are locked in a loveless marriage… The weird part is, I am still in love with you."

"Athrun… what are you saying..?" It feels like he is bringing up a divorce.

"I'm saying… prove me wrong. Please."

I stood up. "Okay."

Athrun saw the old clothes I was wearing. "I do like you better in those clothes. It feels like you are becoming your true self again."

"Of course." The person he loves is not me. Because Cagalli's true self is not me. I stepped towards the fridge wiping away a tear in my eye and opened it. I removed the smoothie and poured it down the drain.

"Why would you waste that? I said I was going to drink that later." Athrun griped.

"There was a bug in it. It was swimming around… didn't think you would want it anymore."

"Tell me the truth." Athrun approached me sternly. "You did not walk all the way over to the fridge to throw out a bug that you saw earlier."

"Alright… I may have put something in the drink to tease you. In light of everything, I don't think you would find it that amusing."

Athrun lightened up. "That was considerate. Thank you for doing that."

"Sure."

"Please don't put anything in my drinks, ever."

"Never again."

Athrun kissed my cheek. "I want to still believe in us. I hope you do also."

"I do." Do I really believe that? Athrun can't find out about Auel. Not even Athrun would still believe in us after learning about that.

Cagalli's POV

I left Clotho at the hotel, our plane got in this morning and I couldn't wait another minute to see my family. I missed them so much. I had spent this last year flying here and there trying to gain access to Orb and because of the war that has recently started among their countries, getting here had seemed to be impossible.

If it hadn't been for our plane getting shot down, we would never have been rescued by the Orb barge. Fate finally gave me a smile. It was a very terrifying experience when it happened. I had passed out. So it didn't effect me as much as Clotho.

I got into the cab and gave the driver my address. The streets wreaked of familiarity. I felt my heart skip when we drove past Athrun's shop and even more so at seeing the hospital. How I missed being a surgeon. Saving lives rather than the flashing of cameras.

We drove past Kira and Lacus' house and I felt my body start trembling with nervousness. I was so excited to see them again, that I didn't even consider what I should say.

We stopped across the street from the big beige and marble house in the suburbs. There it was, my home.

Athrun's car pulled into the driveway. He stepped out and took bags of groceries from the car.

My heart fluttered. "Athrun…" Tears filled my eyes as if this was only a dream. What he must have thought all these months… while I was gone… I stepped out of the car to see that my children jumped out of the car immediately after him and then… it was her. Me… but her! I felt like a semi truck crashed right into my heart. Athrun has been with Meer this whole time?! And she never told him?! She has been sleeping with my husband and taking advantage of his relationship with me?! I'M GONNA KILL HER!

Athrun picked up a small baby and my heart sank as I drew closer in a pit of rage. She was impregnated by Athrun too?! SHE IS SO DEAD! Athrun and the children were in the house and she was carrying in the rest of the groceries when I lost control of myself, every fiber in my being wanted to destroy her.

I hastened my pace towards my house. I launched myself at her and tried to strangle her to death. I didn't care at the moment that it was actually me that I was strangling. I hated her so much.

"Cag-alli…" She choked out as she barely fought back.

"How dare you sleep with my husband! I'm gonna kill you!" I fought her without the thought of consequence.

Athrun came around the corner, horrified by my actions. "Cagalli!" He pulled me off and held me tightly from behind, while I was kicking and screaming.

Meer breathed heavily, gasping for air. Her eyes grew wide in guilt and shame for her selfishness.

Athrun threw me outside. I nearly fell on my face.

"Stay away from my wife! If you come anywhere near her again, I will call the police!" Athrun threatened in a protective rage.

I felt his words strike me like a flaming dagger. In his mind, he was protecting me, I couldn't be mad at him for that, but the rage and hatred I felt towards Meer grew even more. That fire burned so strongly that I could barely cope. "Athrun… she isn't who you think she is!"

Athrun slammed the door in my face.

I noticed my neighbour standing there with his hand on his gun. "Is there a problem?"

There were definitely disadvantages to living next door to a police officer.

"I'm leaving…" I turned, feeling my heart transforming into stone. I had to fight for my family, but I didn't even know how to do that. I needed someone who would believe me and help me explain myself to Athrun… before it was too late.

There was only one couple that would believe my story and that took me to Kira's front door.

Lacus answered and gave me a big hug. "Meer?! You're back! I was afraid I would never see you again. I watched the wars on the news and… I thought…" She cried as she clutched onto me tightly. I love Lacus like a sister… but right now, any love towards Meer, just churned my stomach.

"I am not Meer."

Kira came around the corner just in time to hear my confession.

"What do you mean?" Lacus froze, not sure what was being said.

"My name is Cagalli Yula Zala… and Meer stole my husband." I burst into tears.

"Can you prove that?" Kira was skeptical, to be expected. It was hard to believe.

Lacus was caught between wanting to hug me and wanting to slap me.

I straightened out. "I can tell you anything you want to know. Anything that Cagalli would know." It wasn't hard to prove it and as I had hoped they chose to believe me. I told them about what I had gone through and how I got here.

Lacus was nearly in tears. "I'm so sorry… If I had known, maybe I could have…"

"She fooled you like the rest of us. I want Athrun back. I want Lizzy and Chase…"

"You don't know about Ally…?" Lacus spoke cautiously.

"That's the name she gave her…?" Bitterness welled up inside.

Kira spoke firmly. "Meer may have birthed her, but she is your daughter, not hers."

It didn't make me feel any better but I did appreciate his efforts. "I need your help. Athrun trusts you. He will give me the chance to explain, if you can convince him to listen."

"I will do my best. I think Athrun would be relieved to know the truth…" Kira regretted saying that last part.

"Why?! What has she done to him?!" I shot up from the couch in a protective panic.

"I've said too much. Sorry about that."

"You have to tell me!" I couldn't stand knowing something was happening to him that I didn't know about.

"Cagalli… Meer lost your medical license… she was being sued for malpractice." Lacus explained.

It wasn't bad enough that she took my husband and children, giving birth to their own, but she had to screw over my entire career?! I fell back in my seat and everything went black.

Meer's POV

Athrun was so sweet trying to comfort me as I now held my daughter closer than before. The guilt was consuming me and I was so selfish I chose to believe whatever I wanted to make myself enjoy this life. Now I couldn't hide behind those lies anymore. Athrun was my greatest dream and our daughter my reality. I had never been in love with something or someone, like I had been for her. It had been the craziest year, trying to figure out how I could live with Athrun and not just as Cagalli. But I had to realize, Athrun wasn't in love with me, even if I am in her body. He is being forced to be good to me out of his own desire to be a good husband. Many times it felt like he wanted a divorce. He tried to work it out with me and accept my changes, but it pained him, I could see it in his eyes. It made me feel miserable.

Athrun stayed out late most nights and I figured he was having an affair. What other reason would he stay out so late? I didn't want to ask… because I would make it so much worse. That's what we are now, roommates who drive each other mad, and f*ck other people. The last time we slept together was while Athrun was filling himself with viagra unknowingly.

I didn't change my behaviors because I couldn't until I gave up myself and became Cagalli and especially now that she was back… there was no way I could bring myself to pretend anymore.

I thought about it, till it was consuming me.

I went to his office to make a small peace offering. When I entered his shop, there was that sweet little Meyrin greeting me.

"Cagalli? It has been a long time. How are you?" She smiled sincerely.

"You work here now?" I tried not to show how angry that made me.

"You were home so much, I no longer got called to babysit. My other jobs weren't paying well enough so Athrun offered me this job. He didn't tell you?"

"No." I bet Meyrin is the woman he has been sleeping with.

"I thought you knew. I am so thankful to be working here."

"That's great… Can I see him? Is he in?"

"No… he is in a meeting. I can take him a message for you, if you would like." Meyrin kept her innocence.

Honestly, how could she act like that when clearly she is sleeping with my husband. Part of me wanted to kill her.

"I know what you are doing?" I accused angrily.

Meyrin was shocked by my weird statement. "I don't know what you mean…"

"You and Athrun…?" I held to my accusation.

"Cagalli, are you insinuating that we are in a relationship?" Meyrin felt tears well in her eyes. "We have been friends for years and you seriously think I would do that to you?"

"Aren't you though?" I pushed.

"I can't believe you would even ask that." Meyrin glared at me. "I suggest you leave. Athrun and I are only professional. Athrun would be so hurt to see how much you distrust him."

"If he would come home like normal, perhaps I wouldn't have any reason to doubt him."

"You need to talk to Athrun about it. He isn't trying to hide anything from you, but you obviously haven't asked him."

"I know he is with another woman and I am going to find out who she is."

"You are unbelievable." Meyrin growled. "Leave. Now. Don't bother coming back in until you are done acting this way."

"Fine." I left quite suddenly and headed home. The children were still in school, so I had time to think about everything. I hated to admit it but Meyrin seemed genuine. He must be seeing someone else.

A knock on my door, took my attention away from my festering thoughts. I saw it was Auel with a lovely bouquet of roses. My heart skipped with relief and excitement. "What are you doing here?"

"You never called me back, so I came to see you. Interested?"

"You know I can't accept those."

Auel shrugged his shoulders. "They served their purpose." He tossed them into his car.

"Alright, but you need to be gone by 2." I hurried him inside and to my bed.

It felt so good to have a man inside me again. I had needs and if Athrun wasn't going to do his husbandly duties then someone had to. It wasn't like he was being faithful.

Auel's touch made me feel special. Then he dressed himself, while I was in my bliss. My child begged for my attention as always. I snapped Auel a kiss before he exited my room to leave. "Same time tomorrow?"

"Definitely." And then he was gone.

Cagalli's POV

Kira and Lacus helped me up after I awoke. I looked around to see that I had passed out in their house and was placed in their guest bedroom.

"Lacus… Kira…" Hot tears fell as I started to remember what they had told me. "Is Athrun happy?"

Lacus looked down at the floor. "He's miserable…"

Kira shuddered. "She refuses to work so Athrun is selling the shop. He is working two jobs, just to make the payments."

I locked eyes with Kira's in horror. "That shop was Athrun's dream? He was going to start a big gaming computer company… we almost had enough saved." I complained through tears.

"That isn't going to happen… I'm sorry…" Kira looked away.

"No… she has destroyed our lives."

"You both have." Lacus spoke solidly.

My eyes grew wide.

Kira turned to his wife in shock. "Lacus?"

"It's true. Meer dreamed of being a famous movie star. Being a well renowned singer was going to get her there."

"You are taking her side." I couldn't believe her.

"I am on no one's side. You both are different people striving for different things. Each of your lives are not compatible with the other's. That is how life is. Trying to live someone else's life just hurts us and the people around us." Lacus was hinting to something and I was starting to understand what she meant.

"I made a wish… on a shooting star… I didn't even realize that I had… Meer's life seemed so easy. She could have everything she wanted and when she wanted, with no responsibilities. I couldn't remember the last time I did anything for myself. I barely saw Athrun or the children because of my work. Being at your wedding made me realize just how much I missed them." I confessed.

"But that isn't true, is it?" Lacus spoke knowingly.

"No… Meer's life is much harder than I thought. The things that make her happy are hardly desirable anymore. Everywhere she goes, people are watching her, trying to tell her embarrassing stories to their readers. The fans swarm her everywhere she goes. I hate the spotlight and yet I couldn't get away from it."

Kira locked eyes with me. "And?"

"I can understand why Meer would find my life desirable… but that still doesn't mean I accept what she did."

"Of course not. We need to set things right. Life won't be the same. Things must change, but we can make them better."

"How?" I hoped Kira had an idea.

"You wished on a star. Maybe you can wish things back to normal." Lacus answered.

"Of course!" I shot up from the bed and looked out the window. "It's so obvious." I hadn't seen another shooting star… secretly I watched every night sky, hoping things could change back. I didn't really think about it.

Kira stood up. "I invited Athrun to lunch. We can start by explaining this to him."

"Thank you." I had wondered what Meer was doing in my body, but I didn't allow myself to think about it because I would be consumed with fears and doubt. Athrun needed me to be strong. Also, I never dreamed that Meer would be that selfish.

Athrun entered Kira's house in complete exhaustion. He sat down at the table set for everyone.

I stayed in the other room to be properly introduced so Athrun wouldn't run.

"You don't look so good." Lacus wore a pained expression after studying his.

Athrun straightened out. "Sorry… I've been working really hard to keep the business running. I'm really tired. I don't see the kids anymore and Cagalli… maybe it is best if I give her space." Athrun stood up. "I think I should go. Get what little rest I am able. Sorry. Thanks for inviting me over. I appreciate it."

"Wait… Athrun there's something we need to talk about." Kira stopped him from leaving.

"O-kay…" Athrun turned back to the table.

I couldn't hold myself back any more. My body moved on its own, drawn by my empathy for Athrun's suffering. "I love you, Athrun…" My eyes widened in horror as I realized what words came out of my mouth. "I can explain."

Athrun shot up, defensively after being cornered. "I have nothing to say to you." He grabbed his jacket and headed straight for the door. "What were you thinking, bringing her here, Kira?"

Kira followed, while I stayed back knowing that I just ruined everything. My heart betrayed me, desiring to comfort him at the cost of my own happiness.

Athrun locked eyes with me, with pain and anger. "Stay away from me." He said through gritted teeth and slammed the door.

My tears burst forth and I fell to my knees.

Lacus swooped in and hugged me tightly.

"What have I done…?" I cried.

Kira just watched me, nearly breaking down himself as the car drove away, leaving a shrieking sound in its wake.

"I want Athrun back… I want him back…" I sobbed like a child.

Lacus met Kira's gaze in worry. They had not expected Athrun to react so harshly.

I gained my senses after a long cry. "I attacked Meer. I was just so angry. I hated her for taking everything from me…" I pulled away and locked eyes with Kira. "Is Athrun going to divorce me?"

"He promised he wouldn't. He has tried to accept her the way she is now, but honestly, their marriage has been over for months."

I felt hot tears drain from my cheeks. "No… Athrun please don't give up?"

Athrun pulled up to his house where he expected to get a quick nap in before his next shift.

The officer next door got his attention. "This isn't really my business, but you have a right to know. There has been frequent visits by a young man."

Athrun clenched his fists and gritted his teeth. "I appreciate the concern. I will speak with her about it." He entered the house and fell to the floor. Was it true? Was she having relations with another man? He found no rest here, not knowing where his wife even was right now.

Ally wasn't in her bed and the kids were still at school. Athrun picked up his phone, dialing her. He needed to know the truth. She had her phone turned off. Athrun jumped back in the car and drove back to work. Whatever he was going to do, he had to do it later.