"What's up with you?" Caroline says eyeing me.
Pulling my blanket over me, I groan. "I haven't been getting a lot of sleep lately, i'm knackered and in need of coffee" The words leave my tongue thickly and I feel Caroline shift at the end of my bed.
I haven't left my house ever since halloween and Caroline's been dropping off my assignments. I felt so bad for creating all these unnecessary problems. And feeling all these confusing feelings. Like, Elena was supposed to have everyone at her feet!
Caroline pulls my blanket and I hiss at the sun. Ignoring my dramatics, she hops in the bed with me and gets comfortable in the blanket.
"Tell mama bear what's wrong" This makes me snort. Mama bear?
"I'm a harlot is what's wrong. Tricking myself all through town"
Scrunching her face up, she eyes me before squinting her eyes. "What are you talking about? Is it the whole making out with Stefan thing?"
Nodding my head, I groan again and cover my face.
"What's so bad about that? Everyone knows he likes you and you like him too."
Huffing I shake my head. "Damon is what, women! I've almost kissed him like twenty times already but didn't. Then one look at Stefan and we're making out on the roof"
Gasping, her wide blue eyes look at me. "Roof? What roof?"
"Oh. The school roof, the night of halloween. It was romantic and everything" Now that I think about it, it felt like a first date.
"I can't believe you forgot to share these details! And you and Damon almost kissed how many times?!"
So I tell her.
I tell her about us in my lake and when we were making breakfast in my kitchen. I tell her all of our moments that had me swooning and almost giving in. By the end she's just laying here looking at me like I said I made out with Justin Bieber and went on tour with him for two months.
After some silence, she smacks me right in the dome and I curse. "Bloody hell, Care! You know i'm sensitive" I rub my head from the impact of her man hands. What women can hit that hard? She only works out when it's cheerleading.
Christ, her and Elena are strong for no reason. But could barely fight off enemies sometimes.
"I don't care. You kept a secret from me. I thought we were besties" She pouts and I sigh before pulling her into a hug. Well since we're laying down it's more like a cuddle.
"I'm sorry I don't really talk to anyone about anything. I trust you and you are my bestie. I'm just built different" I earn a giggle and a eye roll at my words.
Looking into my dark blue orbs, she bats her lashes. "You know this is the part in movies where we would have a lesbian kiss"
Of course she would think about something like that during a serious bonding moment. Smirking though, I play with her blonde ends. "Is that so?" Arching a brow playfully, I lean forward and hear a quiet gasp leave her.
As soon as I almost kiss her, I push her out of the bed and she yelps. Laughing out loud, I sit up and stick my tongue out.
"That's for wacking my forehead, meanie!"
Watching her glare at me with her evil eyes, I quickly get out of bed just as soon as she reaches to grab me. Laughing, I run to my door to escape and slide down the hallway almost tripping. My feet move quickly and loudly down the hall and i'm thankful my dad is at the office for the day.
Hearing Caroline get closer, I move quickly down the stairs just in time for the doorbell to ring. Jumping down the bottom, I unlock the door in one motion and swing it open to see my visitor.
Caroline pauses almost bumping into me and her words die on her lips. "I'm gonna kill y-"
"Stefan. What are you doing here?" I'm shocked and regret opening the door. Memories of kissing him and feeling his lips against my own cloud my mind and I can feel my cheeks blush and my skin get hot.
Looking down at me with his hands behind his back, he smiles at me. "I came to check on you. I noticed you haven't been to school and were ignoring my calls" His eyes drift to Caroline. "Am I interrupting something?"
Holding his gaze I shake my head. "No, not at all. Um- i'm just surprised to see you"
Before he can reply, Caroline speaks up. "Well, i'm gonna head out. Let you guys talk and whatnot, bye Stefan. I'll see you, Ama"
"Yeah" I awkwardly say not wanting her to leave. I stayed home so I wouldn't have to see Stefan and be tempted again. Like- seriously! Why must his lips be so kissable?!
"Am I able to come in?" I don't know, having one vampire invited in was enough: But two? Surely my father would definitely kill me then.
Contemplating it, I bite my lip. "I don't know, Stefan. My dad doesn't want me to invite any vampires in and one is enough."
He gives me the puppy eyes stepping closer. I can smell his soap and cologne strongly. Swallowing, I breathe deeper at the intensity of his eyes that now look gray from the dark morning sky. It was gonna rain today. I just know it.
"Please, I won't be long I promise" Oh I can't say no to that face. Nodding my head I do a quick prayer and invite him in.
"You can come inside my humble abode, Stef." Moving aside I let him in and he goes straight to the living room. Closing and locking my door, cause i'm not like these other folks in town. Heading to the living room, I notice he took a liking to my chair.
It is pretty comfy. Deciding to sit next to him I move and sit in my dads chair but sit sideways on my legs. Using support on the armrest, I stare at the Salvatore.
He gives me a small smile. "These are for you" They were beautiful flowers. Unique really cause some people don't normally get these ones. It's usually daisies and roses and all that.
"Blue 'forget me nots' these are very pretty" Small but cute. These flowers had deep meaning to them and it made me look at Stefan with a hesitant look.
What was he trying to say? Grabbing my hands, he laces out fingers together holding my gaze. "I know you've been avoiding me because of the guilt for kissing me, knowing of my brothers true feelings. Truth is that I cared about you since I first laid eyes on you. There's always been this pull we've had."
Knitting my brows, I nod listening. He continues.
"I want you to know that these mean that I will never forget you because of how special you are. I'll always be truthful with you and respect you. I don't think I can be with anyone else because you may be it for me, Amatheia. But I know you and my brother have some chemistry and maybe your what he needs or wants for right now. And as a man I can say that I want you to see where your heart is with Damon. Go ahead and give him a chance, but just know one thing-" I'm shocked at his words. A tiny 'what' leaves my mouth. "In the end i'll be there for you, ready to stand at your side"
Okay this was weird. I know Stefan shocked us all by choosing to let Damon win Elena in the show and even gave his respects, but this is different. He's letting me be with his brother but he doesn't expect it to be for long. Nodding my head silently, I don't know what to say.
"Stefan, this is- new to me. I never meant to like you and Damon it just happened. Then the whole blood thing happened and I think it messed with my head because I normally am dramatic...just not that dramatic. Me and Damon do have something but I can't do what you ask me to do, it's wrong"
He strokes my chin and it gives me warmth. "It's right in your heart. I'm not giving you up or anything, just giving you the space and ability to explore what you need."
This was too perfect of him to do. The fact that he trusts me and is so confident, it reminds me of how Ripper Stefan acted on the show. That Stefan was hot, my absolute favorite over everyone any day.
Suddenly I wrap my arms around him and rest my head on his chest. "It's wrong, Stefan. Just because you gave me the okay i'm not gonna run to your brother so easily. I'll make a choice eventually, but trust I won't use you in the process" Hearing me not running to his brother, I swear I hear him let out a small sigh of relief.
His strong arms return my embrace and I inhale his old spice smell. I don't know how long we stay like this, but it's long enough for me to zone out for a bit lost in his embrace. My phone rings interrupting us and as I get ready to answer it, my head lifts up centimeters away from his own. His eyes pierced into my own and I feel his hands squeeze around my thighs.
Resting my head on his forehead, I bite my lip and move my head timidly to his own. Closing my eyes, I feel his lips kiss my own and pull away with a smack. Grabbing the back of his head I pull him back to me and kiss him again.
Stefan grunts and pulls me closer by my waist and I let out a moan. His tongue enters my mouth hesitantly and I suck on it before feeling the positions change. My back hits the couch and I scrape my nails through the back of his hair.
I didn't know I wanted this. I thought I would've clicked with Damon more and did this with him instead of Stefan. Hell I even thought I was gonna give Elena a chance. It's hard saying no to those doe eyes she has. But this felt good, his body on my own and his lips kissing me with so much passion it made my head spin.
The ringing in the background stops before it rings again. This makes Stefan growl and suddenly I hear my phone being shoved under the couch cushions to muffle it. Pulling away, I look at him breathing heavy. I raise a thick brow and he kisses my nose.
"What? Did you want me to break it instead?"
Shaking my head I feel him kiss me again and wrap my legs around his body.
Standing on the tip of my toes, I peck Stefan's lips with flushed skin. He smiles down at me before leaving and I close the door resting my back against it. Moments later there's a knock and it makes me jump. Turning the knob again, I see Elena looking at me with angry eyes and look confused at her.
"Elena. What's the matter?"
Pushing past me she stands in the foyer and shows me her phone. It shows five outgoing calls to my number and I inhale a sharp breath. "Oh that was you. Sorry about that I-"
Looking at me, she comes up with a conclusion. "Was getting busy with Stefan."
My face turns red and I shake my head. "Not busy, just kissing. You know I don't really have to explain myself to you"
A small scoff leaves her. "Your right because it's not like you ever acted like you were ever affected by me and thought about something more"
"Elena-"
She walks toward me and corners me against the wall. "No, you don't get what it's like feeling what I feel. Wanting so badly to be with someone you know your not supposed to and then see them not even give you the chance to be with them. Watch them laugh at some guys joke and go on fancy dates. It makes you wish you were the guy they're going out with or kissing"
Her words make me shift and I look away feeling guilt. Practically shaking, Elena looks at me with watery eyes. "I'm so sorry, I never meant to hurt you...ever."
Her head shakes and she sniffles. "No, it's okay. I shouldn't have fell in love with you." Backing away from me, she leaves and as the door slams it makes me tense. Feeling my own eyes water, I wipe the tears that fall and look at my door again.
I can't let her leave like that. Opening my door again, I step out into the sunlight and run after her. Running in the direction of the end of my driveway, I run as fast as I can wondering how's she got out of here so fast. However I can't dwell on it long because suddenly something covers my mouth and I scream letting it into my lungs.
Then everything goes black...
When I wake up I realize that this is my first time in a dangerous situation. Looking around I realize exactly where I am. The motel. Looking down at me, Anna eyes me like i'm a display item and it makes me shift.
"The way the Salvatore's are fascinated with you i'm surprised they leave you alone so easily." She points out.
Nervously I now understand why everyone thought the bitch was a weirdo. Sitting up from the bed I jump not realizing Ben was eyeing me like a medium rare steak. "Yeah um, what do you want with me?"
She speeds infront of me. "Your my way to get Damon to open the tomb. He has this weird obsession with you when he should've been obsessing opening the tomb and be reunited with Katherine."
"Well I didn't tell Damon to look at me like i'm a shiny new toy. And he still cares about Katherine" Even I don't believe the words coming out of my mouth because of how he acted around me.
Anna was right but I was gonna play the oblivious card.
Rolling her eyes she smiles. "It's okay to like the attention. Plus him liking you a human means your weaker than me. I can hurt you in a lot of ways to get what I want"
Fuck, that really makes me wish I did let Damon get the things to release Katherine and followed the plot more. Only I had the things to open the tomb and only I knew where they were.
Swallowing I back away from her and feel myself caged in between her and Ben. The freak was practically drooling over my neck making me tense.
"Take her phone and call Elena." He snatches the phone out my pocket and looks for her in my contacts. I can't wait till we get the phones with passcodes more.
He puts it on speaker and looks ready to eat me up. Anna grips my arms carefully and I hear Elena answer. "I'm only answering because i'm sure you called to apologize" She says.
Getting ready to speak, my mouth is covered and I scream against the hand.
"Ama?" Elena asks.
Ben chuckles. "Your best friend is a little occupied right now. She's with me preparing for dinner, by the way she's the meal"
Gasping Elena starts screaming. "Who is this?! Let go of her!"
Anna snatches the phone away and looks at Ben like he's a dumbass. "Don't worry about who we are. Worry about what we're gonna do to your girlfriend. Tell the Salvatore's Anna wants the tomb open tonight and if they try anything Amatheia's head will be delivered personally"
She hangs up and sets my phone down. Looking at me, she looks like she's hatching a plan in her head. Suddenly she grabs me by my hair and I can't wait to surprise them with the fact that I have powers. I feel like my hair was dangling by a thread on my scalp and hoped she didn't pull any out.
As she holds my head in a fist, I watch as Ben gets upset and I start to squirm. Immediately, Anna turns my neck and Bens mouth is close to it. "What the hell?" I say through clenched teeth.
"This is just to show that I am very serious" Her voice is too calm it creeps me out. She takes my phone again and then I feel pain and the sudden flash of my camera going off.
Running, my legs feel tired and I lean against the cool surface. I was almost home free. I had to get out of here right away. Pushing myself off the wall with my shoulder, I stumble down the stairs making my way down the street. Suddenly, blue eyes look at me and strong pale arms grab me.
"D-Damon. How'd you find me?" Leaves my lips and I feel my legs leave the ground. He picked me up.
Damon is silent for a second as he concentrates and I suddenly feel my back hit car seats. "Your bleeding. Did Anna do this?" He growls and I watch his face harden in an almost animalistic expression.
I almost feel scared even though he wasn't hurting me. "I'm okay, I got away. Can we get out of here, please?"
He nods. "I'm taking you to the boarding house."
That's the last thing I heard before I closed my eyes.
When I wake up again i'm laying in comfortable sheets and I feel a bit better. My dark blue eyes notice shadows from the crack of the door and it makes me sit up. Rubbing my eyes, I stretch and wince feeling my neck. A small bandage was over it and suddenly I feel a gust of wind.
"Your awake, thank god" Stefan's voice vibrates against my skin as he hugs me. I feel him kiss my face before he kisses my lips softly. Closing my eyes, I return it and realize I thought I wasn't gonna feel these lips again.
Another presence makes me pull away from him. Damon was standing by the door with his arms crossed. His eyes meet mines right away and I give him an awkward smile. Thank you I mouth to him.
He gives me a nod and a small smile. "Couldn't have you dying on us, Snowflake"
"Don't worry, i'm not going anywhere" I say flashings grin at them.
Stefan looks at me with care in his eyes and strokes my arm affectionately while Damon answers. "You better not"
"Are you hungry?" Stefan asks me making me look at him. I did feel a empty stomach.
"Yeah I can eat."
He stands up. "I'll make you something" He leaves the room leaving me and Damon alone.
I feel awkward because of the last time we saw each other. I hurt his feelings and he let it be known to me very clearly. Biting my lip, I mess with my hands and feel weight being pressed down by my feet. Damon sits down and puts my feet in his lap.
"I was kind of a dick to you the other day and i'm sorry for that. As long as your in my life it doesn't matter what kind of relationship we have. Just know you'll want me eventually" He has to add at the end. He wiggles his brows and I roll my eyes while my mouth twitches.
Placing my hand on his, I give him a sweet smile. "I appreciate you respecting my decision. I know it isn't in your character to so it really means a lot."
Damon looks at me suspiciously. "How do you know it's not in my character"
Because I watched about eight years of your life behind a screen. "Just trust me" I tell him winking.
He rolls his eyes and it makes me laugh and I watch the corner of his mouth upturn. I almost got him to smile! Damon's face turns serious and he looks at me carefully and his expression makes me try to suppress my grin by biting my lip. Noticing this, he looks downward at them and I blush clearing my throat.
"So Anna and Ben shouldn't be a problem for now. But they will in the future"
He gets out of his trance. "What'd you do break their necks?"
I frown. "No i'm not strong enough to do that. It's harder than it looks."
"Then what'd you do?"
Swallowing I shrug. "You know, knocked them out with some vervain. The only way you can knock someone out without super strength"
I hope I wasn't showing that I was lying.
He doesn't say anything else because then Stefan comes in the room. "I made you some soup and crackers. That was the only food I could make in such a short amount of time."
His green eyes flicker to Damon and I take it he doesn't trust him with me. I can understand that.
"Thank you." I take the plate with the soup and sit it on top of me. Stefan gives me a smile and takes a seat close to me studying me carefully.
Silence washes over the room as I eat and I notice the tension between the brothers. When i'm done eating, Stefan speaks up. "I was thinking about going back to the motel, to see if Anna and Ben left a trace or any clues there"
"They didn't-" I snap suddenly making them look at me. Rubbing my face, I shake my head. "I mean, they were talking about getting in contact with some witch name Gloria or something to get the tomb opened. Anna said she met her in-"
Stefan cuts me off. "Chicago"
Letting out a shocked breath I slap a confused face on. "Yeah how did you know that?"
"I remember going there. It was a long time ago and during a time I don't remember a lot of things, the things I do I regret" He lets me know.
Nodding I hope I lured them away from focusing on the tomb for now and in the right direction. If I can get them to find out about the sacrifice and then the fact that Katherine isn't in the tomb because of what's needed in the sacrifice...then my plan should work. Speeding things along the right way and eliminating things in the most oblivious ways possible.
Damon stands up. "So we go to Chicago and chase their asses down."
"Then what? She isn't gonna stop until she opens the tomb" I remind him. Hopefully what I spilled to Anna back at the motel will actually make her go there when she's 'free'.
Damon's eyes stare at me mockingly. "I know that Snowflake. That's when we do open the tomb but no one in gets out" He smirks and it makes me and Stefan make eye contact.
We're gonna leave for Chicago soon then probably.
"Lets say your plan works fine, but what about after that? Everything's gonna be okay? I hate to be a Debbie Downer but this can bite us in the ass" I say bluntly.
Stefan looks at me with care in his eyes along with reassurance. "I'll protect you, we'll protect you"
Damon silently nods and him and Stefan share a look before he stands. "I'll go ahead and get everything ready for the trip. You should tell your father your leaving town"
This makes me bite my lip. "How? If I say it has to do with college i'll have to drag someone with me"
Rolling his eyes, Damon shrugs. "I don't know figure it out, I can't plan everything"
Dick. Rolling my eyes back at him, Stefan decided to speak up. "How about you bring someone who isn't gonna ask too many questions about it?"
"You want to go to Chicago with me?" Caroline questions closing the locker.
I nod and link my arms with her. "I talked to my dad and he wants me to focus on leaving this town behind when I graduate. Chicago is a really big city with so many opportunities. We can spend a few days there and be back before we miss too much school"
She beams at this. "I always wanted to shop downtown there!"
"See it'll be fun, i'll make sure you have an excuse and everything and we can forge these papers for your mom and everything" I convince her even more and decide to add. "You know you'll love to get away from everything Elena and the boring sights here"
"Your right. I'll go with you, plus it'll give us the girl time we haven't had in so long" Realizing something, she pauses. "Wait who's our supervisor? My mom wouldn't let me step foot out of town with it being just us on the road"
Wincing I avoid her eyes. "Yeah, about that-"
Stefan walks up to us with his fists shiver in his pockets. "Hey, is she joining us?"
Caroline widens her eyes. "So, you two talked enough for him to be joining us?" One of her perfect brows are raised and she unlinks our arms. Staring me down, she taps her foot and I swallow.
"Yup, everything is fixed. Now let's get to class. Anything else i'll let you know later, can't be late to chemistry" I ramble running away. She calls my name but i'm already down the hall.
Walking to the bleachers for lunch, I set my bag and stuff down before joining it. Watching everyone chatting amongst their friends I notice Caroline might be eating inside. Getting ready to send her a quick text, a shadow looms over me making me look up.
"Oh, hey" Elena stands above me and I give her a small wave.
She waves back before sitting down. "I'm glad your safe" That's right the last time we talked was when I got kidnapped.
The brunette was worried for me. "Me too, I wanna talk to you about that day. I never want you to feel like i'm using you or anything" Lowering my voice, I give her a small smile. "You know your right, I do return your feelings even a little bit Elena- and it scares the hell out of me."
"It scared me too at first, then I realized things and learned that support and time plays a big part in being happy with myself. I had a talk with Jenna about who I am and who I want to be with and she told me to do whatever makes me happy" Letting out a breath, she fiddles with her hands. "I didn't think that was the reaction I would get. I kept telling myself 'be prepared to get kicked out and having to get your GED, Elena' Just because of how stuck up this town is"
Putting a hand on her knee, I give it a squeeze. "I'll always be here for you, Elena. This all may confuse me and we may always have something...but just know if things don't work out well with men for me you'll be the first I call"
This makes her smile. "I'll be counting on that or i'll be forced to get a hot lesbian vampire girlfriend"
"If i'm having any lesbian related feelings you'll be the first I go too" I let her know. She blushes before giving me a wink and my mouth twitches.
We both laugh at this and i'm glad we had this talk. It was long overdue and honestly we have just each other to talk about these feelings with. Just until we can talk to Bonnie and Caroline about it. She grabs my hand and I don't stop her just glad she isn't mad at me.
When I leave the school, it's later than everyone else because my teacher decided to surprise us with a quiz. I totally didn't know some of the material off the bat and had to actually focus on it to get a decent grade. It took me twenty mins after school ending to be done meaning everyone was gone.
I couldn't text anyone back meaning if I had the chance to get a ride home it was too late. Pulling my skirt down, I look down at my phone sending a text to Stefan letting him know I was just now leaving school. He tells me he's at the motel seeing if he can pick up Anna's scent and it makes me think if he really thinks he can do that. Well I know he can but he's a vampire who's on a furry diet.
"Aren't you a sight for sore eyes" My eyes look up seeing Damon and I tense.
"If your waiting for the cheerleaders i'm afraid you missed them. There's no practice today" I say dryly brushing past him.
He grabs my elbow pulling me back to him and I stagger now infront of him. "Whoa, Snowflake. Someone's in a little feisty mood"
This makes me sigh. "Yes well, being forced after school to finish a test will do that to you. Now why are you here?"
"What? I can't see my favorite person?" I try to ignore the butterflies at the comment but my blush doesn't help.
He smirks wider at this and I suck my teeth. "You can just, don't do this Damon"
Feigning innocence, he steps into my personal space. "Do what?" His hand presses on the roof of his car making me back into it. This gives him leverage so he caved me in on both sides. "I'm just having an innocent chat with my friend."
God, why does he have to do this? I'm basically with Stefan now and I can't do this...right? I mean we haven't said the 'couple' word yet but I already vowed I wouldn't do that to Stefan. Be with the both of them. The pull I have with this damn Salvatore though...I can't control that. This stupid universe made me attached to both of them.
Putting my hands on his chest I lightly pull him away. "You know what's wrong with this...I can't-Stefan-"
"Isn't here right now. He's probably off drinking form Thumper and the mice that was in Cinderella"
Ignoring his words I try not to look at him. "Damon friends give each other personal space"
Then, his voice lowers. "Are you sure this is what you want? To just be...friends" He licks his lips and it makes me look at them. They were so pink. For some reason my breath hitches and I remember how they felt on my skin as he drank my blood.
The excitement I felt, the rush I got from also drinking his. Remembering the taste of his blood made me practically drool and I quickly blink to get out of the trance. I couldn't take his blood, but that wasn't cheating right?
"Tell me what you want? I can give it to you" He whispers in my ear. When did he get close enough? I inhale his scent and it makes the memory of us in my lake flicker to my mind. Drinking from each other under the moonlight.
I hear the sound of flesh tearing and my eyes find it, he bit into his wrist. Blood drops from the wound and I part my lips. "I- Damon." I try not to give in, my eyes meet his before flickering back to the blood dripping down his arm being wasted on the ground.
He drags his finger across his wrist capturing some blood and puts it to my lips. Without any warning at all it touches my lips and it felt like impulse. My lips suck on his finger and I lick the blood clean off. He takes his finger out and I lick all around my mouth letting out a small moan.
I need more.
I don't notice Damon biting into his wrist again for me, because I waste no time grabbing it and drinking. He groans but it falls on death ears as I drink. The taste pulls me down further and I feel my heart spike up. My breathing gets heavier and my eyes start to droop.
Euphoric was a pretty damn good feeling and that's exactly what I felt tasting his blood. The sky looked brighter and everything seems clear. Whatever he was saying was echoing and bouncing off my ears like it was a hazy dream. Is this what it felt like being high? If so I could love this feeling. Never want it to stop.
A large hand holds my head coaxing me to drink and take as much as I wanted. I didn't need to be told twice.