Drift POV
We ended up falling asleep; I'm glad I have my arms around Jamie as she lies on me.
I wake up feeling her trying to break free. She gives up once she realizes I'm awake and rests her head on my chest. With Crosshairs still asleep, I carry Jamie to my room.
I sit on my bed and hug her close to me.
"I don't know what to do, but give up," Jamie mumbles and puts her arms around me. I know tears are rolling down her face.
This isn't like you to give up, Jamie.
Either way, my girl is going to struggle, and I hate it. Hound's idea is a good one, but Prime is right; it'll also cause more problems.
"Come on, let's get some food," I suggest as I carry Jamie out of the room and downstairs.
Ratchet and Prime are already in the kitchen eating lunch. I don't know if they know what she did this morning or not. Perhaps they do, considering Prime takes Jamie from me and walks out of the kitchen.
"He knows," Ratchet confirms. I sit on the stool beside Ratchet and sigh, "Sunstreaker told us as he left to get his bipedal form."
"I'm sorry, but Prime had to know," Sunstreaker says as he walks in and gets a plate of the chicken and cheese fries Cogman made, I didn't know he got me a plate until he put it in front of me.
Optimus Prime POV
I carried Jamie to my room even though it's on the third floor, passing Sideswipe, who looks concerned.
I hate to make her cry again, but we need to talk about what she did this morning.
Sitting on the bed, I hug her trying to think about what to say. I failed her; now, she has permanent emotional and mental sounds. I know it is partly how humans in her dimension do nothing about bullying or don't seem to care about mental health, but I could have found a way for us to help her better. Seems like the simple action of having Crosshairs and Drift here sooner would have helped, but I didn't order them to come to Earth. There was no way I could have given them the order. I doubt we wouldn't be dealing with this shit if they were here sooner.
I sigh, hating how I'm going to make Jamie cry again, "Jamie, I don't approve of what you did this morning. You scared all of us."
"No, I'm just extra work for everyone. Even if I didn't have this fragging medical condition, my emotional and mental shit keeps everyone busy. Maybe humans back home aren't jerks but smart."
Hearing Jamie say this and watching tears roll down her face hurts.
"No, Jamie, you're not a burden. You know how much Ratchet has researched with the help of Bulma to find ways to treat the condition, and he's trying to find a way to cure you. How could Drift think you're a burden and fall for you?"
I could go on, but this should be enough for her to hopefully understand even with the depression. I knew she'd start crying.
"You know how much we all care about you. As I said, you scared us using your instant transmission this morning."
Sunstreaker POV
I lean on the wall by the door, hearing everything even though the door is left open only a crack. It's enough for me to hear what's going on in the room. I walk in aware I may get in trouble. I want to show Jamie the art I've been working on.
"Let me take her," I insist.
I can tell Prime isn't sure about this, but he hands Jamie to me. I don't think she cares who's she with since she wraps her arms around my neck and rests her head on my shoulder.
I go to my room, sit on my bed and rub her back. She's not crying like this morning, but I want to try to get her to stop crying. Sideswipe walks in two minutes later and sits on the bed beside me.
"Come on, Jamie, you know how much we all care about you. You have Sunstreaker — who hates most humans — caring about you that you scared him when you used your instant transmission this morning," Sideswipe explains.
As much as I'd rather Sideswipe not tell Jamie I was scared she left to end her life, maybe it's a good thing she knows I was scared. I have Sideswipe take Jamie, so I can show her the art I've been working on; a portrait of her, Crosshairs, and Drift. Though I used a photo I took as a reference, I know she loves my art, and a piece of her two mechs would really make her happy.
"I'm not done yet, but I know you'll love this."
I show her the picture and immediately get a smile.
"When are you going to do a portrait of us for her?" Sideswipe sulks. I deck him on the head with a paintbrush, "ouch," he whines, making Jamie laugh.
Jamie and Sideswipe go play video games downstairs while I finish this piece. Maybe she's starting to get out of this depressed period, but for how long?
Sideswipe POV
Crosshairs and Drift are about to go upstairs as Jamie, and I are heading down the stairs.
They are happy Jamie wants to play video games with me. We wonder if she's getting out of this depression period and for how long? I don't feel like she's out of it; I feel like this is more like a break which probably doesn't make sense.
Drift POV
I'm happy Jamie wants to do something, but I think this is more like a break from feeling depressed than out of this depressed period.
It's amazing how much Sideswipe paid attention in the year; he's spent time with Jamie and knows how to get Jamie to laugh.
"How did playing video games turn into this?" Crosshairs asks, watching Sideswipe and Jamie.
"I have no idea," I reply, smiling.
This fun lasts ten minutes before Prime walks in. He watches the fun for a few minutes before telling us dinner is ready.
I'm glad Jamie is eating more for dinner tonight, and we watch T.V. with the others like we usually do until two in the morning. By then, Jamie has fallen asleep. Better than being up until six or seven in the morning.
Even though it's two in the morning, Optimus wants to talk about what Jamie did this morning and how she was during the afternoon. I hate talking about this, especially when there's nothing we can do to help Jamie, but we have to. I sit on the sectional with Jamie on my lap, covered with a blanket. I dread what Prime has to say, seeing how displeased he is. What else happened today that I don't know about?
Optimus Prime POV
I hate telling Cade, Bee, and Hound what Jamie did this morning and telling everyone what she told me.
Bumblebee POV
I can't believe Jamie thinks this way. She's hurt more emotionally and mentally than I thought. Things just keep getting more complicated. We failed her just like the adults in her dimension all those years ago.
Hound POV
I've only known Jamie for eight years, but this hurts more than learning about her past before we met.
Cade POV
Damn, and this is what humans think is the better way. Glad Tessa didn't have to deal with this shit. It's hard enough trying to help Jamie, and now to hear she thinks she's extra work for all of us instead of a friend we care about.
Crosshairs POV
This hurts hearing what Jamie told Prime. Damn, humans talk about needing more love and compassion in the world, but humans who deal with emotional struggles or mental health struggles should be ignored and keep quiet. Unbelievable then people like her mom who say get over the cause of most of this shit. Amazingly Sunstreaker leaves the room without raging. The others — aside from Drift — also leave the room. I sit beside Drift, who is hugging Jamie close to him, and hug him.
"I can't believe she's thinking this way," Drift says in a sad tone.
"I know, you know we all hate it. Come on, let's put Jamie to bed."
It's going to be another rough night, and I'd rather Drift isn't holding Jamie as we talk. Not sure if his crying will wake her up.
I don't like how Ratchet and Prime are waiting for us. Drift is not liking that he can't stay in Jamie's room though I'd be making him leave even if we didn't have to talk to Ratchet and Prime.
"You know what she did this morning," he argues.
"She sleeps all night," I argue.
Drift looks at his sleeping girl in his arms and sighs before putting her to bed. He sits on the floor by the door that's open enough for him to see Jamie. I sit next to him and side hug him.
"Jamie will be ok," Primer tries to assure Drift, though I think he's talking to both of us, "we can keep her safe."
"I think it's time to reconsider our rule of not forcing Jamie to stay with us," I suggest to Drift.
"No, after what she told me today, I think we need to show her she can stay here since we've made her stay the past couple of times we've felt she needs to be watched," Prime explains, "I'm going to talk to Lennox and Prowl about you two taking some time off."
"Good luck with that," Ratchet comments, "it's probably a good idea to get the others involved."
The challenge is this is exactly what Jamie hates is happening, but we need to make sure she's safe.
"I'll stay with her,' Sunstreaker jumps In.
I didn't think Drift would get up and get in Sunstreaker's face.
"No!" He yells before going into Jamie's room and closing the door. Sunstreaker is furious; his eyes turn red.
"Leave him alone," Optimus insists," I think staying with Jamie helps him not have nightmares."
"I hope so, or we'll have another problem on our hands."
Everyone goes to their rooms while I go into Jamie's room.
Drift sits at the edge of the bed, not liking what Prime told us.
"I-I...," he can't say anything without crying.
"This is why you shouldn't stay here, come on."
Drift comes with me to my room.
We sit on my bed; he lets himself cry while I hug him. It's getting harder not to fall apart hearing him cry. This is scary; our friend thinks she's too much trouble, she has us thinking she wants to end her life. She'd never tell us. It's harder for Drift to consider the one he loves wants to die.
"I want the girl I fell in love with back," Drift sobs.
It's been hard watching Jamie go downhill emotionally and mentally. Even if she's not becoming like Sunstreaker, it's hard watching her cry more often and now for her to think she's too much work for us.
"This is going to be a challenge this time, but we'll get through this."
Twenty minutes pass before Drift is asleep.
Well, I'll be right here when he has a nightmare. I fear this is going to be a problem for a while. Jamie is our complicated friend, and we need to show her the love she needs, and maybe we can figure out how to help her make friends back in her dimension. It would be great if we could help her and she has friends in every dimension she travels to and her home dimension.