AN: It's been such a journey to get here, to this chapter in particular that I've been imagining for such a long time. I've been stuck here since 2020; I'm so glad you're still here with me. With us, I suppose. Enjoy. May the Force be with us all. Thank you.
"Ah, Lieutenant!" Erithon swallowed hard against the wave of apprehension that was gathering in his throat as Duke Organa flagged him down. "A most splendid representative of our allies in the Republic. Come!"
He managed not to squirm like a cadet when the Duke clapped him on the shoulder, turning him toward the ballroom's grand stairway. It wasn't that he didn't like parties. This was just a few steps away from the usual military shindig: salute a few times, don't spill anything on the dress uniform. Nobility wasn't that far removed from the brass, right? Same kind of handshake deals that meant something a little different to each party, and something else altogether for the people under them. He shrugged inside the stiff sleeves of his jacket, not exactly uncomfortable, just… unfamiliar. It fit fine. But it didn't feel quite right. Like this whole scene.
"Ah, excellent," Organa drawled, slowing as a commotion drew everyone's attention. Flashes sparkled as various holocams swarmed like killiks around the newest arrival. The duke glanced sidelong at Erithon while the soldier craned his neck to get a better view, squinting past the glare.
He knew – obviously; he wasn't a complete nerf herder – that it would be his Jedi, the same way he knew when a blaster was about to overheat. He just knew. Was that how the Force worked? He didn't think so, and a question like that seemed so utterly childish he almost laughed aloud. Would she, if he asked? Nah, she wouldn't. She'd smile and offer him a gentle analogy like that morning, when he'd gathered enough nerve to ask her how he came to be sitting next to her on the transport and not in a body bag.
"Force healing is…" Aitahea had replied, their shoulders nudging companionably as the transport rumbled back toward the palace, "…hard to explain." Her cheeks had flushed a little, the darting glance from below her lowered lashes full of shy apology. "But I'll try." She'd explained her method, which to him didn't sound all that different from any other medical scanner he'd been in, only a lot more pleasant if his experience was any example.
"My sister on Brentaal is a nurse. Thought it was a little funny when we were younger. We always had medical droids to take care of everything, right?" The Jedi had bobbed her head, eager to hear his next thought. "But after I woke up in a kolto tank the first time alone, I mean, no personnel…" He'd flailed for some explanation of the isolation he'd felt, but it had been hard to recall while her shoulder had been jostling against his. He'd shrugged, grinned, and continued, "Now I think I prefer seeing someone friendly on waking."
She'd gazed at him with a solemn wonder that had quickened his breath, had him doing everything he could to memorize the ever-so-slight parting of her lips before they curled into a smile.
Just like they did now.
Erithon was so preoccupied with following her gaze that the sudden smile blooming in his direction took his breath away. Again. Aitahea was resplendent. Gossamer enshrouded, bound hair freed from utilitarian plaits and tumbling over her bare shoulders – he throttled back a ridiculous urge to elbow Duke Organa and point out that she had shoulders, and weren't they nice, too?
Organa smoothed his hands over his lapels, looking pleased with himself, while Erithon struggled to recall his higher vocabulary. "I expect the press will want a holo of our heroes."
"A holo of-" he began, but she floated over to them right then, luminous and exquisite. It became quite clear who the press would want a holo of. The Jedi offered the duke a generous curtesy, and Erithon found his looming panic - particularly at the words "press" and "holo" - replaced by fascination with the way her earrings brushed against her jawline. Duke Organa caught her hands as she rose and enfolded her in a paternal embrace.
"Thank you, it's beautiful," Erithon heard Aitahea whisper to the duke.
"Superb timing, my dear." The duke's eyes crinkled merrily around an affectionate smile. He turned to nod at Erithon, adroitly pressing one of Aitahea's hands into his, then stepped expertly into the background with a final, grand pronouncement: "Our Paladins!"
A cascade of flashes set Erithon's vision shimmering, but training swiftly rose to meet unfamiliarity, and he managed to remain stoic even as his heart clanged wildly against his ribs. Clever fellow, that Organa, he mused, and with a smirk as bold as he could muster, he deftly hooked his arm under the Jedi's hand and guided her away from the press. The Duke's laughter echoed through the hall behind them, but Erithon couldn't hear it and wouldn't have cared anyway; he was busy memorizing the sound of her restrained giggle at his shoulder.
"That was a bold move, diplomatically speaking, Lieutenant," she said playfully, drawing them to a stop to hold him at arm's length. Flashes sparkled again, unnoticed by either. Her scrutiny didn't bother him, and it did give him an opportunity to reciprocate.
"You're… you look amazing," he breathed, unable to push his awe aside. She could have been a daughter of any of the noble houses on Alderaan, only she couldn't because none of them were as radiant, as otherworldly. She couldn't, because even without her lightsaber (that he could tell, anyway), she remained a veritable force of nature. Unexplainable and irreplaceable, flushed cheeks and wide eyes and little white flowers caught up in her hair. Because when he'd said something as trite as 'you look amazing' her eyes lit up like she'd never heard anyone say it before this.
"Pardon me, Master Jedi? Lieutenant?" A fidgeting Haley Organa interrupted as politely as possible, bouncing on the balls of his feet. "We're ready for you."
Erithon blinked, overwhelmed with the sudden lurching feeling that he hadn't studied for a test. Hadn't he just deftly navigated them out of this nonsense? "For…us?"
Before the young page's nervousness could escalate to panic, Aitahea intervened: "An introduction. The formal presentation. It's mostly for the holonet, so they can put a name with your holo, and hopefully spell it correctly." Her brows lowered, and he caught a glimpse of solemn concern behind her light tone. "It shouldn't be unlike one of your military events."
He inclined his head, discomfort ebbing away. He didn't think it was a Jedi thing, not this time. "Smile, but not too much."
"Just so," she replied softly, reaching up to brush away some unseen particle from his collar. He straightened, willing his face back into a mask of quiet confidence. Her own features settled into practiced serenity, but her eyes, fixed on his, danced.
Just another kind of battlefield.
"Republic Lieutenant Erithon Zale of Havoc Squad and Master Aitahea Daviin of the Jedi Order."
The cluster of press at the foot of the grand stair disappeared momentarily behind the coruscation of flashes. Beyond them Aitahea briefly glimpsed, through the sea of elaborate costume and outlandish headwear, the dancers at the center of the hall. Over the buzz of voices, she could hear the notes of a familiar waltz. Haley Organa gave her a relieved smile as he slipped away to his next charges, leaving the Jedi and the soldier to descend the gauntlet together. Beneath her hand, Erithon's arm was reassuringly steady.
Uncertainty flickered in his eyes only once they reached the last stair and the press drew close again. Erithon looked down, one brow raised in a wordless plea: What now? Aitahea laughed and nudged him toward a knot of familiar faces.
"Guess we made an entrance," he admitted, sparing a last glance toward the lingering press, and turned toward Elara Dorne and Arik Jorgan, both in military dress like their commander, and a beaming Brant Sonn. "Hey, we know them."
They exchanged greetings; the more formal commentary was punctuated with the chatter of battlefield allies good-naturedly enjoying each other's company. Aitahea listened to the companions, struggling to keep her eyes on the others and not so frequently on Erithon. Grasping rather tenaciously to his arm was helping but had to be forsaken well too soon for her preference when Tharan and Holliday approached, asking that the Jedi make introductions for them, it wouldn't take but a moment.
"Of course," Aitahea agreed, all politeness, turning back to Erithon to excuse herself. He winked at her and caught her free hand in a quick squeeze when she began to pull away. Aitahea found herself suddenly and agreeably conscious that neither of their finery required gloves. His hands were warm.
"Hurry back," he said, eyes crinkling with mirth, and Aitahea nearly forgot to let go before being ushered away by a harassed-looking Tharan.
'Hurry' became three different conversations with seven different nobles from at least two houses and a science corporation headquartered on Organa lands. At last, Aitahea was finally able to withdraw from the conversation, wandering over to where dancers traded partners and minced steps rather than words or plans. It was one of her favorite court dances, learned and practiced enough in her youth that even now she felt muscles tensing for steps she hadn't taken in years. Orderly and precise, patterns were traced and rewritten, dancers finding each other again, over and over.
"Thought I'd find you here."
Aitahea was so entranced that she startled when Erithon spoke at her shoulder and laughed a little breathlessly. "Forgive me, I was so preoccupied with the dancers." He offered her his arm and another charming grin, and she accepted, grateful that only she knew how an adolescent glee had settled so comfortably under her superficial calm. "I haven't heard this since I was a girl – an initiate, in the enclave, that is." She winced at her rambling explanation.
"Pretty." He hadn't seemed to notice her discomfort, occupied with carefully watching as the dancers divided, exchanged partners for a cursory bow, then returned to join hands. "Do you know the dance, too?"
She nodded. Well, if you're going to be preposterously transparent may as well carry on, she thought vehemently, but her voice and expression remained blithe. "It's traditional on Alderaan. Are you familiar with it?"
He grimaced at the dancers, chagrin drawing his brows low. "Um, no. But," he offered cautiously, "I'm reasonably good at following orders. And you've kept me from embarrassing myself so far."
"I've never… I haven't in years, I don't know if I can recall all…" Aitahea focused determinedly on his eyes while she tried to hold fast the wild fluttering in her chest, something delicate and precious that had lingered, and after a moment she found she liked it there simply fine. She inhaled slowly, then asked, "You're certain?"
"I trust you."
Erithon had made his mind up to ask if she wanted to dance before he'd even spotted her. He might not have any empathic sensibilities, but he'd watched her seek out the dancers even while they were walking down the grand stairs. Even he could tell she'd wanted to be out there, and if he could just manage to stay on his feet long enough to give her the chance, he'd handle any ribbing from his crew later. She deserved it.
"Listen," she murmured over her shoulder as they waited, poised at the edge of the dance floor. "Can you hear the rhythm? One, two, three?"
"Mmhmm." He nodded, swallowing hard when she stepped back against him. "Got it." He shifted, hovering at her side, and hoping his heart wasn't thumping in her ear like it felt like it had to be. "I think."
Humming her amusement, she turned herself expertly into his arms and placed her left hand in his while she raised their right hands to her shoulder, fingers entwined. "Just start walking in time with the music." She tapped a finger into his left palm. "Begin with your left."
He took a breath and nodded. The dance was stately but leisurely, giving Erithon plenty of time to hear the next step whispered over Aitahea's shoulder. She made it effortless, her body easy to follow, featherlight touches guiding his motions.
Good thing that was all he had time to focus on.
After a few minutes of mostly successful instruction, Aitahea uttered a warning about the impending partner change. Erithon swallowed hard, nodded, and next thing he knew, he was tripping over the shoes of an unfortunate noblewoman with what looked like an entire miniature thranta nest perched precariously on a tower of powdered curls. Thankfully, the exchange ended quickly and Erithon was relieved to have Aitahea guiding him once again.
"I didn't think anyone in the whole Core was still powdering their hair," the Jedi bubbled unexpectedly into his ear. He laughed a little too loud and swept her gratefully – though perhaps a little too enthusiastically – back into the progression. He liked this part best, he'd quickly discovered. The leader – his role apparent, though he might have disagreed technically – picked up their partner for a little lift and turn. Aitahea had warned him verbally the first time, but the second time he'd wrapped his hands around her waist he'd been too busy looking into her eyes and had missed the lift.
Erithon was determined. This round he got everything perfect: an effortless lift gave him a few moments to enjoy when her eyes widened and smile bloomed. If he put her down a second or two late, she didn't seem to mind.
The song wasn't quite through when Aitahea's steps slowed, drifting out of the pattern. Erithon tensed, an arm already around her waist, and opened his mouth to ask if she was all right when she stumbled. He caught her easily; she was breathing much harder than one should be for a Jedi in fighting form – and the shadows beneath her eyes seemed suddenly more pronounced.
Alarm buzzed through him. "Are you okay?" She still had her feet under her, so he kept hold of one of her hands and curled the other arm securely around her waist. Just in case.
"Yes!" she exhaled quickly, leaning into him, and added a breathy laugh. "Perhaps we should get some air?"
"Here, come on." Guiding her past guards in Organa livery, the terrace appeared mercifully empty while the festivities continued inside. Erithon led Aitahea to one of the benches by an elbow, easing her down first before sitting beside her, keenly aware of his now-empty arms. "Better?"
"Much, thank you," she replied, swiping at her hairline with the back of one hand before she lifted her face to smile at him. "That was lovely. I'm so sorry it had to end that way, and so soon."
"Me too." He smiled, unexpectedly pleased with her response. "You learned that here, as a kid?"
She shifted, easing back against the stone. "Yes." She glanced sidelong at him, a droll smile playing across her lips. "No doubt the Duke has already regaled with you with mortifying stories from my youth."
"He didn't get to that," Erithon said with a roguish wink. "Not that I'd believe a word of it, of course." Erithon frowned back at her, worry wrinkling his brow. "You look tired."
She sighed noncommittally and closed her eyes, leaning back against the cool stone behind them. Underneath the surface flush, she was still pale, almost sallow. When she opened her eyes again, the glitter in them was past the dazzle of a party and looking almost feverish.
"Are you sure you're all right?" Erithon shifted uneasily as the silence stretched out, trying not to guess at her silence and just leave her some space to breathe.
"I am… carrying a burden." She paused, twisting her fingers while she seemed to search for words. "I'm shielding several masters who were infected with a Force plague, standing between them and madness, perhaps worse. Even my own master…" She trailed off, staring into her hands, dropping them to rest open in her lap.
"Anything I can do?" He meant anything. He'd face down more Sith, however many it took to disengage her from this burden and give her some peace. Anything.
Aitahea looked at him with eyes suddenly glittering with tears; her expression nearly stopped his heart. Her voice was a whisper, her eyes dancing again. "Erithon…" Her focus shifted, gaze flickering past him just as Erithon himself caught the sound of approaching footfalls. He ground his teeth to keep from muttering the curse he caught grumbling in his throat, instead giving Aitahea a bemused grimace as he rose and offered her a hand.
The Jedi was a portrait of ethereal serenity again, eyes that only moments before had shone with desperate anguish had shuttered, hiding the woman who'd whispered his name like a plea, leaving only the Jedi, glorious as she was, incandescent but incomplete.
"Ah, Master Jedi, I've been hoping to track you down all evening. I'm Hallam Organa, head of House Organa's diplomatic corps." The broad fellow made a brief bow, then indicated his companion. "This is my younger, more handsome brother, Lew."
Lew Organa gave his brother an indulgent look. "Please, Hallam. You do yourself an injustice." His lips twitched. "Your age gives you a stately difference."
"My lords, it's an honor to make your acquaintance," she replied, eyes crinkling with amusement, then turned to Erithon. "Allow me to introduce Lieutenant Erithon Zale of the Republic, commander of Havoc Squad."
"Ah, the liberator of the Spears! What an opportunity, having our newest Paladins side by side, such fine company!" Hallam exclaimed, offering Erithon a deep bow that Lew also made. Erithon glanced at Aitahea, uncertain how to respond, and she inclined her head, giving him an encouraging smile. He copied the motion, appreciative but still a bit mystified by all the pomp and circumstance.
Rising, Hallam returned his attention pointedly to Aitahea. "Master Jedi, I've been told you're seeking Master Sidonie Garen."
She hovered close to Erithon's side, her hand curled around his arm. "It's urgent that I speak with Master Sidonie as soon as possible."
"You just missed her, I'm afraid. She's already left for the peace summit," Hallam explained. "A peace summit on Alderaan! Imagine that!" He slapped his thigh, shaking his head incredulously at Lew, who nodded thoughtfully in response.
Erithon watched Aitahea's lips thin almost imperceptibly, but the next moment she was tilting her head, tranquil and erudite. "Indeed. Can you put me in contact with her?" Erithon could feel her tensing, fingers tightening on his sleeve. Master Sidonie must be one of the infected Jedi masters she'd mentioned a few moments ago.
"I can call her, certainly." Hallam flicked another glance at Erithon, considering. "The location of the summit is a secret for obvious reasons, but I'm sure she'd welcome your assistance. Meet us first thing tomorrow morning, diplomacy wing?"
He felt her shudder, but she nodded affirmation. "Thank you, my lord, the Council will be eager to hear any updates."
Their shoulders brushed again and again as they walked, sending her heart skipping every time. He hadn't let her go further than arm's reach since she'd stumbled out of the dance progression, nor as they wandered back to their suites after finishing the stilted conversation with Hallam and Lew Organa.
She slowed, eyes flickering to the nearby door of his suite, then back across the hall to her own door before she turned to face him. "We're here."
"Right." He caught up the hand she'd left lingering on his sleeve and offered one of those extraordinary lopsided smiles. "I'm glad we found each other again."
She returned the expression with delight. "As am I. Thank you for…" She began the elaborate thank-you she'd begun contriving as they'd walked back to the guest wing, but when he reached up with his free hand, twining one of her loose curls around a finger, every word fled her all at once. The silence between her heartbeats was impossibly sustained, well more than enough time for him to notice her gaze lingering on his mouth. When he drew closer still and smoothed his thumb over the curve of her cheek, she lost track of them entirely.
"Do you think we'll ever dream of each other again, like Taris?" he asked, low and earnest.
Some resolve she'd fashioned in the wake of their dearly-won victory, Yuon's coy encouragement, and the bravado of familiar surroundings fractured at his innocent question. The connection that often lingered after healing blazed with unfamiliar sensations that she hadn't the strength to unravel now. Even without the physical contact, even with all her practiced resolve and Jedi training, his emotions wound around and through her, as impossible for her to ignore or deny as a starship could the pull of a gravity well. Waiting for her answer had allowed him plenty of time to sweetly tilt her face up to his.
With an austere resolve she was distantly surprised to find intact, she pressed a hand to his chest, where not long ago she'd smoothed her palm over his bare skin in the wake of the most desperate healing she'd ever undertaken. Aitahea answered, her whisper breaking on a last fragment of jagged verity: "I never stopped."
She closed her eyes against the onslaught of overwhelming, unshielded, achingly reciprocated need, and pushed him away. She bit down hard on the soft sound of loss that threatened to escape her throat when he jolted back, the sudden distress and regret that tolled through her – no, him – no. Through them both. She struggled to inhale a tremulous breath.
When she could bear to open her eyes again, Erithon looked physically pained, his confusion and concern shearing through her own exhausted disappointment. He'd stepped back, hands open and empty, doubt beginning to tarnish the bright threads that had encircled them. "That was out of line, I'm sorry."
"No, I was… You – I'm not –" Aitahea pressed her lips together hard to keep them from trembling, but it couldn't stop the stinging in her eyes, the ache in her chest. "I'm sorry."
"No. No." He shook his head, vehement. "Don't be. Please." Erithon hesitated, trying to work up a friendly grin in contrast to his stiff posture, but only managed a wan quirk of his lips. "I told you on Taris that we'd do something better."
She exhaled in a rush and allowed a smile to flutter across her face. It didn't reach her eyes. "Yes, you did. Thank you." Better! It was wonderful. Too wonderful. I never wanted to stop. We should have finished the song. "I should… retire for the night… if I'm to pick up Master Sidonie's trail tomorrow." She glanced toward her door, promising the solace of isolation and hopefully sleep. She was exhausted, utterly, but couldn't resist one last watery smile. "Thank you, Erithon."
His usual ebullient charm at least marginally recovered, he offered her a bow as crisp and practiced as any noble in the castle. "Goodnight, Aitahea."
Aitahea waited for the door lock to engage before she sank back against it, hands over her face, about to release the pent-up sob clawing at the back of her throat.
On the suite's balcony, Qyzen Fess shifted carefully but deliberately, his armor creaking in the silence. The door rattled noisily as she flattened against it in disbelief, reaching for a lightsaber that was not there. Of course not.
"Apologize if I startle you, Herald."
Disquieted by her own panic, Aitahea bit back an uncharacteristically sharp retort, closing her eyes to draw a calming breath in its place. After releasing it, Aitahea raised a carefully neutral face to her friend. "I'm sorry, Qyzen, I wasn't expecting you. Well done, you successfully snuck up on a Jedi."
"Was not aware of such challenge."
She sighed. "An attempt at a joke, Qyzen. A failed attempt, apparently. To add to the rest I've made this mission." Aitahea sank gratefully into an overstuffed chair, letting the beautiful but unfamiliar shoes slip off her suddenly aching feet. "What changed your mind about the castle?"
"Mind not changed. Will return to ship after speaking." Qyzen hovered near the balcony doors, clearly uncomfortable and anxious to depart. "Must see how Scorekeeper's Herald fares."
Aitahea tenaciously schooled her expression to serene but was unable to shake the tendrils of failure and regret that clung like shadows. "Tired, Qyzen. Thank you for checking."
"Herald will rest." Aitahea couldn't decide if that was a question or suggestion, but either way, she agreed.
"Yes."
[Thank you to the ever-present, dependable, and brilliant Taraum for beta-reading.]