CHAPTER 8
After Sam's erupt exit out of Buck's room, she took a few moments to get herself together.
'Why am I letting him get to me that easily? I don't know but I'm at work and this can't be happening.' Sam thought
Sam did go back to check on him after her moment of anger and Dr. Harrison was already there looking over his chart. He ordered Buck to get checked out to see if they missed anything that might need surgery
Buck wasn't fond of the idea but he listened to Harrison. Buck did not hesitate to rub it in her face when everything came back clear. He was in the green and was discharged later that afternoon. Sam's made sure he wasn't able to find her on his way out.
Sam caught Gigi up on everything she has been feeling and her attempt in trying to avoid Buck. She frowned when Sam told her.
"Why are you trying so hard to avoid him? He seems decent" Gigi said.
"Unless there's someone else who has your interest" she continues
"Decent isn't good enough and no there isn't someone else." I told her.
Who wants to be with a decent guy? That won't benefit me. She shrugged and continued eating her lunch.
It was almost the end of her shift and Sam was ready to meet her bed. On her way out she was stopped by Victor. He seemed anxious, hands on his hips. Hopefully he wasn't about to tell her she needed to stay a bit longer tonight.
"On your way out?" He asks. Sam gives him a soft 'mhm.'
"Uh well I had a quick question" here it comes. Sam prepares herself for him to ask if she can stay to help with something. She was ready to say yes but a whole other question came out of his mouth.
"Would you like to go to dinner sometime this week? With me of course" his hand rubs the back of his neck.
'Oh. That is not what I was expecting. At all. This isn't happening to me right now. My attending is asking me to go out to dinner. Me and him. Alone.' Sam thought
"Dinner? Me and you?" Sam's hand does a weird gesture as she points between them.
"If you want" he shrugs, "as friends of course" Victor continues
"Sure. I'd love to" Sam answered
Relief flushes over Victor, his body is less tense and a smile splits his lips. He was probably expecting a rejection.
"Great. Okay. Umm how does Friday sound?" Victor asks.
"Good" Sam say without thinking.
"Great. I'll uh pick you up then" he said
"Okay" Sam answered
there's a small moment of awkwardness as they both try to take this all in. They are going out to dinner.
On Friday. He's most likely shocked as much as she is
Sam can't believe their doing this.
'Well Sam, you're doing an amazing job at staying away from guys!' Sam thought
"I'm going to go home now" Sam's point to the door.
"Yeah sorry. Have a good night, I'll see you Friday"
"See you" Sam say as she walks past him. Sam don't dare to look over her shoulder.
The first thing she do when she got home is call Gigi. The volume of her voice when Sam broke the news to her was incredibly high. She couldn't believe her ears.
"HE WHAT? YOU AND RUSSELL? DINNER? ON FRIDAY ARE YOU KIDDING?" Question after question.
"Yessss! I was going to say no-" Sam replied
"Thank god you didn't! Sam! Russell is stupid hot. But how are you guys going to go about this without anyone finding out?" Her guess is as good as mines.
"That I have not thought about. But it's not a date. We're going as friends." Sam said and Gigi roars out a laughter.
"Seriously? Dinner as friends, yeah okay!" Gigi said
"Gigi I'm serious. I can't be in a romantic relationship with my attending. I am a first year-" Sam said
"And the attending has his eyes set on you, damn. Not going to lie I'm jealous" Gigi replied
"Why?" Sam asks.
"Because you have a fine ass firefighter who wants you AND your attending is falling for you. Lucky bitch!" Gigi answered
Sam mouth falls open.
"First of all, Buck does not want me. He wants my goddess between my legs. Victor on the other hand. I don't know" Sam bring her hand up to her forehead, gently rubbing it.
"I don't know Sam. Maybe you should experiment" Gigi said
Sam can imagine she has her thumb in between her teeth right now, she always does that when she usually has an idea in mind.
"Experiment?" Sam asks.
"Go on a date with both of them. Not at the same time obviously." Gigi said
"And get to know both of them. See who's your better match" she continues
"I'm not going on a date with Victor and I will definitely not be going on a date with Buck!" Sam replied
"Do you hear yourself? You call him Victor. I call him Russell. And what the hell did Buck even do to you that you're so hard on him and refuse to let the man get a chance? You keep shutting him down based on rumors you've heard about him. From what I hear it's been a while since Buck has slept around. Yes, his past doesn't seem great but that's the last. No one should be judged based on choices they made in the past. There's room for change and he could've done just that but you're refusing to find out. It's not fair to him and you know that." Gigi said
Sam opens her mouth to say something but quickly close it. Guilt takes over her as she thinks over Gigi words.
'Maybe I have been hard on Buck but I'm afraid if I even dare consider giving him a chance, he'll mess it up.' Sam thought
Sam flip onto her back and stare at the ceiling, a sigh falling from her mouth.
"See my point?" Gigi says after a moment of silence. "Buck has done nothing wrong to you. You're just being stuck up and judgey!" She adds.
"I am not" Sam try defending herself. "Buck can be cocky sometimes" Sam's adds.
"Judgey" she cuts her off, Sam can hear the smirk in her voice.
"Gigi!" Sam's shouts
"Whatever floats your boat. I'm just saying, you have two guys wanting your attention. Doesn't hurt to sample" she giggles.
"I'm not looking for a relationship Gigi" Sam complain. But life is making everything hard for her.
"But it's looking for you!" She laughs like a maniac. Her laugh is obnoxious sometimes.
"I hate you" Sam joke.
"You love me" she taunts me.
"Fine! Maybe your right. Its unfair to him. I judge him so early that I didn't know him yet." Sam said
"After my dinner with Victor. And I saw Buck again I'll talk to him. Just give me sometime" Sam added.
"I'm going to bed. I'll see you at work"
"Sweet dreams, try not to dream about both of your boyfriends" Gigi said
Sam hang up the call.
SAM'S P.O.V
'They are not my boyfriends nor will they be. Victor and I are friends and Buck are just a guy I've slept with. Twice. And I can't trust his words.' Sam thought
'Even if they were true, I don't have time for relationships. Do you want Buck's words to be true? ' Sam ask herself.
No. Absolutely not going to think about him. The sex was great. Super great. I try to shake the memories back. The little trick he does with his tongue. How he flicks it, the way he intertwined his fingers with mine, his hot breath against my skin, those circles he does with his hips when he's buried deep-
Damn these flashbacks! I need to get ready for bed and keep my mind off men.
After a nice hot shower I throw on a big t-shirt and crawl into bed. Sleep greets me in within minutes.