Jennie
I woke in the morning and immediately remembered last night, I smiled and giggled quietly. My body was aching a little but it actually felt nice, like a little reminder of her. I rolled over to see that her side of the bed was empty again, my heart stopped until I noticed on her pillow there was a folded piece of paper and a yellow tulip. I sat up and smiled running my finger over the waxy petals, yellow tulips were my favourite flowers, her Mom grew them in their back garden. My heart skipped a beat when I thought of her going over to her garden to pick me the flower then sneaking back into my house, God she is such a sweet girl! I picked up the note
Jennie,
I've gone to help Yoon clean up after the party, his house was a bit of a mess apparently. Give me a call when you wake up, we need to talk about us being friends and what happened last night.
Lisa
My heart stopped again, we need to talk about last night and us being friends, what the hell? Oh God she was regretting it! I knew what she was going to say, it shouldn't have happened, she didn't like me in that way, she didn't want a girlfriend, it shouldn't happen again. I couldn't breathe, I knew this was coming so why did it hurt so much? I shook my head trying to clear it, it's ok Jennie everything will work out fine and you can still be friends with your best friend but this needs to stop, it can't happen again or the friendship wont be able to get over it.
I climbed out of the bed stretching my body like a cat, my leg and hip muscles were tight but not painful. I walked into the bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror. My hair was sticking up in all directions and had a big knot in the back from our exerts last night, and my lips were slightly puffy from all the kissing and I had a huge love bite on my neck. I switched on the shower and stood under it for a long time trying desperately not to get upset. Last night was incredible and I wouldn't have changed it for the world at least I get to keep that forever and still have my best friend.
Once my muscles were relaxed enough I got out and went back to my bedroom. I decide to call Lisa, as I picked up my phone I saw I had three new texts, all from GD.
11:03 pm - I'm really sorry Jailbait, I really like you and want to try, I promise I wont say anything about Lisa, please call me when you get this, your phone is turned off.
1:12am - Please Jennie, can you at least talk to me? I'm going crazy! Your phone is still off or maybe your avoiding me? Please call me.
10:12am - Jennie, I'm really sorry, please call me I can get over it I promise, I really think this could work between us.
I frowned, wow he is really into me, I know I like him but not in the way that I like Lisa, but I can't keep thinking about Lisa, damn it! I need to move on so that things don't get awkward and maybe GD can help me with that. I sighed and pulled on some clothes and sat back on the bed staring at my phone with Lisa's number on the screen, I need to call her and get this sorted quickly.
I took a deep breath and pressed call, "Hey Jennie bear." She chirped when she answered, she sounded happy and my heart squeezed at the sound. How did this happen? How the hell did I fall in love with my best friend?
"Hey Lisa, how's the cleaning going?" I asked cautiously not knowing how to start the awkward and painful conversation.
"Yeah good we're nearly done, good job too his Mom's due back in an hour," she said with a chuckle, I smiled.
Ok lets get this done quickly like pulling off a band aid. "Lisa about last night," I said trying to sound confident.
"Yeah," she said huskily making my body go crazy again, I pushed the feelings away.
"It can't happen again Lisa." I said a tear falling down my cheek, she didn't say anything so I pushed on with my prepared speech. "It's gonna ruin our friendship and I wont allow that, I need you in my life and if this keeps happening it's gonna be too hard for us to stay friends." I said wiping the tears off of my face. The pain was unbearable I clenched my fist as tight as I could trying to think of something else other than the pain that was threatening to crush me. "Lisa promise me this won't happen again I couldn't stand to lose you, I just couldn't." I said quietly closing my eyes, she was still silent I heard her draw a shaky breath.
"Jennie, I promise, I won't do that again it was my fault, I shouldn't have." She said, I could hear the pain in her voice, she was really regretting it.
"It's not anyone's fault Lisa but you're my best friend in the world and I want it to stay that way, ok?" I said smiling now. I could do this, I could get past this and we would be fine.
"Fine.. Well, listen Jennie I gotta go." She said quietly.
"Ok, bye Lisa." I said smiling. That's done, we can still be friends, I don't care how hard this is I need to have her with me I'll do anything it takes, even if it rips out my heart.
I hung up and laid back on my bed looking at my ceiling, my phone rang and I answered it without looking at the caller id expecting it to be Rosé, she usually rang the morning after a party to tell me all about any hook ups from the night before. "Hey Rosé" I said with a small smile, maybe some gossiping would bring me out of the depression I could feel myself slipping into.
"No Jailbait it's me," GD said uncomfortably, I sat up quickly, shit what the hell am I gonna say? After what happened last night with Lisa I gasped and squirmed uncomfortably.
"Oh.. hi G," I said with wide eyes.
"Did you get my messages?" he asked quietly.
"Um, yeah I just got them a couple of minutes ago." I said nervously.
"Well, do you think I could come over and we could talk?" he asked a little hopefully. I looked at the clock it was just after 12.
"Um sure, my Mom and stepdad are leaving at two why don't you come over after that?" I said biting my lip hoping he would say no. I just didn't want this, I wanted Lisa.
My Mom and Brian were driving to a friends wedding this afternoon and were making a weekend of it staying in a hotel until Monday so I had all weekend on my own. My parents had asked Lisa to come and stay with me so I wasn't in the house on my own which was going to be awkward as hell tonight, I sighed at the thought. "Yeah ok, I'll come over about half two then," he said excited, "See ya Jailbait." he said.
"Okay, bye." I said closing my eyes again. I pushed myself up off of the bed and went downstairs to spend some time with my parents before they left and tried my best to forget everything that happened last night.
At exactly two thirty the doorbell rang, I answered it to see GD standing there with a big grin and a bunch of flowers, I smiled, he's so sweet. "Hey jailbait," he said walking in a little awkwardly handing me the flowers.
"Hey, thanks you but shouldn't have," I said smelling them and heading to the kitchen to put them in a vase.
"I wanted to, I needed to apologise for being an ass." he said rubbing his hand on the small of my back gently.
"Well, you're forgiven." I said with a smile, he stepped forward then and kissed me hard. I didn't kiss him back at first I was too shocked, Lisa's face flashed in my mind but I pushed it away and kissed him back.
The kiss felt nice but wrong, this wasn't how I was meant to be kissed a small part of me was saying. I reached my hand up and tangled my hands in his hair, he put his hands on my hips and lifted me onto the kitchen counter stepping forwards so his body was between my legs. He moaned as I sucked on his lip ring, he ran his hands slowly up my thighs until he got to the top of my legs then moved them to the small of my back pulling me closer to him. He broke the kiss only to place little kisses down my neck, he stopped suddenly and pulled back.
"What the fuck is that?" he said frowning looking at my neck, oh crap the love bite!
"That's nothing, just a joke Lisa did it for a laugh, it's kinda her thing. She's done it since we were kids." I said uncomfortably shifting around on the counter.
"She gave you a love bite for a joke?" he asked shaking his head in disbelief and slamming his hands down on the counter either side of me angrily making me jump. Holy crap he's got a short fuse!
"G, it was a joke last night at the party that's all, nothing was meant by it, we are just friends." I said the last part slowly emphasising each word. He bit his lip looking torn, I could see the jealousy and anger clear on his face but he was trying hard not to let it out. "Listen, Lisa and I have a very close friendship, I've known her since I was four years old, you have nothing to be jealous of, if you want to try to make this work then you're gonna need to get used to it, Lisa is always gonna be there." I said sternly. Half of me was praying that he would just turn and walk out.
I didn't like doing this, it felt wrong, made me feel cheap and used to be with someone when I wasn't into it. But another part of me wanted him to tell me that it's ok, to make me forget Lisa, to make me want to be with him and stop me hurting and wanting my best friend when she didn't want me. I had a feeling that if I tried hard enough I could easily fall for this guy, he was sweet, hot, funny and easy to be with. I bit my lip and waited for him to speak.
"It's just weird that's all, I'm not used to having to share a girl's attention, but then again I'm not used to wanting to be with a girl other than for sex." He said rubbing his jaw nervously. He stepped forwards to me again and the selfish part of me that wanted to feel better rejoiced. "I really like you Jennie, but we're gonna have a lot of problems, your age for one thing, it's actually not legal for me to do anything with you until your 18." he said frowning. I pulled his face to mine and kissed him, he responded immediately with a small moan pulling me to him again sliding his hands up my sides to cup my breasts, he squeezed them roughly moaning again. Ok ouch they are attached jeez!
"This sort of thing isn't allowed then?" I asked as he kissed down my neck again licking my skin, I felt him sigh.
"This is allowed but I can't actually go all the way with you, I'm allowed to do everything else." he said looking at me with a wicked grin that made me gulp. Ok, I wasn't expecting things to move on that fast.
"Um, what about Lisa?" I asked trying to change the subject, the look in his eye told me he wanted to jump here and now and it scared me a little. I wasn't ready for things to move this quickly with him, Lisa on the other hand I would have sex with right now.
NO! Stop torturing yourself, Lisa doesn't want you like that.
He sighed looking slightly angry again, "Well I told you I'll just have to deal with it." he said bending forward to kiss me hard again.
I held my breath, is he saying he wants us to have a relationship or he wants to use me? I pushed him back and climbed off the counter, "We're not done talking, stud." I said walking into the living room and plopping on the couch, he sat next to me looking confused.
"Well, what else is there to talk about?" he asked nuzzling my neck.
"I wont be used, I'm not gonna sleep with you, if you want to be with me then we take things slow," I said sternly. He looked a little taken aback but nodded slowly, "I'm assuming that you being a player means that you've never been in a real relationship before right?" I asked smiling at the thought, bless him he's an emotional virgin.
"Um yeah, I've never really had a girlfriend." he said honestly looking a little embarrassed about it.
I nodded again, "Ok well here's how it works then, you need to trust me, and I won't let you cheat on me, if you want to be with other girls go be with them, if you want to be with me then you commit to it." I said, he smiled at that.
"I haven't even looked at another girl for the last 6 weeks." he said proudly. Wow.. does he honestly think that that's gonna impress me? I giggled.
"Six weeks isn't a long time G" I said giggling again.
"Hey it is for me, I'm usually with a different girl every other night but since I met you I just don't want anyone else, it might not sound like a big deal to you but trust me that has never happened to me before." he said defensively, I guess that is quite sweet in a weird man-whore kind of way.
"Ok then I get it, you've refrained from sex for six weeks I'm impressed," I said rolling my eyes a little, he chuckled and kissed my neck, "Still not done stud." I said pushing him back again.
"Jeez what more is there?" he asked throwing his hands up theatrically.
"I'm a virgin." I said quietly trying not to blush, his eyes widened in shock.
"You're kidding me," he said a small smile playing on his lips.
"Nope not kidding." I said frowning, why the hell is he smiling at me like that? "What's so funny?" I asked annoyed, was he laughing at me? He pushed me down onto the couch and laid on top of me smiling his ass off as he kissed me again. What the hell is up with him?
I pushed him back, "What?" asked a little breathless from the kiss.
"I've never been with a virgin before," he said kissing down my neck. I closed my eyes and tried not to wince at the thought of being with him, letting him do the things that Lisa had done, go further even. The thought scared me, I wanted Lisa so badly, I wanted her to be my first and that feeling hadn't gone away at all, but hopefully in time it would. I would just have to keep trying to forget her and take things slow.
"Slow down stud, you're getting way ahead of yourself there." I said chuckling as he bit my ear lobe.
"Well, you're just gonna have to tell me how fast you want to go, this virgin and minor thing is all new to me." he said sounding excited.
"Oh great so now I'm some kind of project?" I asked laughing, he laughed too and rolled off me onto his side so that we were facing each other and wrapped his arm around me. It felt nice, different but still nice.
"You're not a project, I just don't want to do anything you don't want me to," he said running his hand up my side smiling at me. We chatted easily for a while, he was really easy to get along with and actually quite funny, but I just couldn't shake the feeling that this was wrong, that he was wrong, my body and soul ached for Lisa to be here with me like this.
About an hour later we were making out on the couch, he had his hand up my top and was massaging my breasts, he'd taken his top off and I was slowly trailing my hands down his chest being careful not to go too far down to give him the wrong impression. This already felt like we were moving way too fast, but doing this was almost keeping my mind off of Lisa. I say almost as I still couldn't help comparing everything to Lisa, his body, his taste, how he moved his hands. He was a lot rougher than Lisa, more forceful and demanding, not tender or loving.
He had a tattoo on his arm of some sort of dragon thing and he had one of his nipples pierced. We didn't hear the front door open but I heard someone gasp, GD jumped off of me quickly. I looked up to see Lisa standing there, her hands clenched into tight fists, her eyes shooting murderous looks at GD.
"What the hell are you doing Jennie?" She almost screamed but not looking at me, she was still looking angrily at GD.
"Hey Lis, I might be mistaken but I thought you lived next door." GD said smugly with a chuckle as he pulled on his t-shirt, I got up off the sofa blushing like crazy.
"GD I swear to God." Lisa started to say as she stepped forwards looking like she wanted to beat the life out of him.
"Lisa, I didn't hear you come in." I said weakly trying to diffuse some of her anger, her eyes snapped to me.
"Of course you didn't Jennie, you were too busy getting it on with this piece of shit." She said nodding her head in GD's direction but not taking her eyes off of mine. They looked hurt and something else, jealous maybe? She wouldn't be jealous though that's stupid, Lisa didn't get jealous over girls, she just used them like she used me last night.
I stepped forwards, "Lisa I wasn't getting it on with him, and for God sake I thought you promised you would let this grudge go." I said waving a hand between the two of them.
She took a deep breath, "Whatever, I just came back to tell you that I'm going out with Irene tonight." She said with a sneer. I flinched and tried to hide the jealousy. I felt that she was gonna be with that skank and that she would definitely have her hands on Lisa and probably more than that, bile rose in my throat.
"What time will you be back?" I asked weakly my voice breaking slightly as I looked at the most gorgeous face in the world, her eyes flashed something like hurt or sorrow before she shook her head violently.
"That's the point, I'm not coming back, I'll be staying at hers." She said nastily. My breath caught in my throat, she wasn't staying here? She was going to leave me on my own so she could go sleep with some whore? I never thought Lisa would ever do that to me. She knew I'd be scared on my own, and Saturday night was always our night, always.
"Lisa, my Mom and Brian aren't here this weekend, you promised you'd stay so I won't be in the house on my own." I said weakly, desperately trying not to cry while my heart was breaking. My best friend and the girl I was in love with was choosing a meaningless one night stand with some other girl over me.
"I'm sure GD will stay with you if you ask him." She said, and with that she turned on her heel and stormed off.
I just stood there staring after her, she had never looked so angry with me, I felt sick, I felt an arm go around me and suddenly GD was there with his cocky grin. "I will definitely stay if you ask me." he said his eyes shining with excitement. I didn't want him to touch me, my world was falling apart, the pain in my chest felt like it was killing me. I needed to get him to leave, I wanted to be on my own I didn't know how long I could keep the tears away.
"No, thanks stud that would definitely be too fast for me, but thanks for the offer." I said patting his chest. "Look, you should go, Rosé's coming over in a bit and we're gonna watch a movie so I need to get changed and stuff." I lied kissing his cheek and taking his hand to lead him to the door.
He looked sad as he agreed and kissed me goodbye promising to call me tomorrow and that if I changed my mind and needed him tonight that he would gladly be here, yeah I bet he would. I smiled at him and closed the door, as soon as I heard his car drive away I couldn't hold it anymore. My heart broke into a million pieces and I slid to the floor crying helplessly.