I didn't say anything as Draco pulled me into his room and I looked around as Draco paced the room, it was surprisingly comfortable. It was a little bigger than mine, black plush carpet lay on the floor and black curtains to match. A double bed dressed in dark red and black lay along the back wall and the walls were lined with built-in bookcases filled with numerous books and a couple of high backed armchairs dotted the room. Similar to mine but it was his.

"Is my father insane? Having The Dark Lord stay here?!" Draco finally asked, his eyes wide. He was scared.

I took hold of one of his hands, pulling him to a stop "Draco, he only said that The Dark Lord will spend some time here, it's not like the guy is moving in. Plus he's not going to kill us"

"Why didn't you tell me on the train?" Draco asked, quickly moving on from our newest problem. "Despite the situation that's all I can focus on, Dia"

"Because I wanted to tell you when we got here, but then your father offered to help"

"So you remember everything?" I met Draco's eyes and nodded, "Then can I ask you a question and I want complete honesty"

My heart was pounding in my chest as Draco's arm slid around my waist and pulled me closer, I tilted my head back slightly to meet his eyes, "Sure" I said quietly.

"Is it true?" Draco asked, his eyes searching mine, "Is what Pansy said true?"

"I don't know what you mean?" I said quickly, my stomach flipped when Draco's arm tightened around me.

"Don't do that," Draco said quietly, "Don't try and dodge, I've wanted to ask you that for four months, tell me the truth. Do you love me? Or was Pansy just fucking with me?"

"Draco, I-"

Draco let me go quickly and backed away from me a little bit, "Because if she was just fucking with me then I'm going to lose my mind, I've gone through every conversation we've had a thousand times wondering where I could have missed it. The last four months have been rough knowing there might have been a chance I could have lost you forever and that scared the shit out of me-"

"Draco!" I cut in and quickly took his face in my hands, "It's true, I do love you! It wasn't my intention to fall for you but I did and I didn't say anything because I know there is no chance you could ever feel the same for me-"

Draco cupped my face in his hands and leaned in until his lips covered mine, I almost stumbled back but Draco's hand went down my shoulder and wrapped around my waist to pull me closer. My heart tripled in speed when my fingers tangled with his hair and my eyes slid shut. Draco's other hand went into my hair as he took the lead in the kiss and his head tilted a little bit to deepen the kiss.

I was out of breath when Draco pulled back, his nose brushing mine lightly. His face was flushed and his eyes shining, "You could have just told me to shut up" I breathed out and Draco smirked.

"Shut up because I do feel the same, I love you, Dia," Draco said softly, his thumb running across my cheekbone gently, leaving my skin covered in goosebumps, "Why else did you think I didn't want you with anyone else?"

"I don't know" I admitted, "I guess I didn't think anyone could really love me" My face was burning underneath Draco's gaze, his hand on my face setting every nerve on fire.

"How could I not fall for you when you smile at me like that?" Draco said his fingertip running along my lips, I didn't even realise I was smiling until he said it, "But I'm-"

"Not boyfriend material" I sighed and looked down, "I remember" I stepped back from Draco and took a breath, trying to ease the lump in my throat.

"We'd never work, you know that right? It'd be a mess and I can't lose you. Not again" Draco said softly avoiding my eyes, my chest tightened and my eyes stung. "I don't want to hurt you"

"Bit late," I said dryly and Draco's eyes snapped to me, "You don't know if we'd work or not. You've gone and made that decision by yourself. That's how you hurt someone, Draco."

Draco went to reply but a knock on his bedroom door made his mouth snap shut, I turned to the door to see Narcissa pop her head in, "Dinner's on the table-Oh. Have I just interrupted something?"

"Not at all, Narcissa," I said, faking a smile and I turned back to Draco with my eyes still stinging from tears I refused to let fall, "We're done" Draco looked down at the floor and his shoulders slumped.

Dinner had an air of awkwardness, Lucius and Narcissa both frowned when I sat down next to Narcissa rather than Draco but they didn't say anything other than share a look between them. I pushed my food around the plate, only taking a little bit here and there, I couldn't feel the hunger.

I went through months of people telling me what happened in two years while I was still under the charm, relived every single moment I had with Draco. All so I could remember him, all that just for Draco to say we wouldn't work. How does he know that we wouldn't work? Two years of harmless flirting, I spent two years falling for him and he'd already made that choice. If he was convinced we'd never work then why kiss me at the Yule Ball? Why act like a jealous ass when someone else was talking to me? Why would he make me think I had a chance just to be shot down?

I put my fork down and twisted my ring around my finger a few times, I looked up at Draco and his eyes were already on my hands, watching me spin it around my finger. I straightened the ring and clenched my hands into fists and bought them under the table, Draco looked up and met my eyes for a brief moment before I turned to look at Lucius.

"Can I be excused, please?" I asked and Lucius tilted his head slightly, "I'm not that hungry" I could feel Draco's eyes on the side of my face but I refused to acknowledge it.

"Of course, Adria," Narcissa said and sent her husband a look, Lucius glanced at his son briefly before nodding.

"Would it be too much to ask if I can use an owl?" I asked, rising from my seat, "I promised Pansy and Blaise I'd write"

"You can," Lucius said with a nod, "You're friends are welcome here if you wish to invite them"

I blinked a few times before smiling slightly, "Thank you, Lucius" He nodded at me and I made my way across the room, I hesitated slightly when I heard another chair scrape across the floor.

"Draco" I heard Narcissa say softly, "Leave her be"

"But-"

"Listen to your mother, Draco!" Lucius said sharply and Draco sighed. I bit the inside of my cheek as my eyes stung once again and I walked quickly to my room. I shut my door and walked across the room to the desk that lay in a corner and sat down, I rested my elbows on the table and placed my head in my hands. I let the tears fall silently, I couldn't fight them off anymore.

To say it hurts is an understatement, someone might have well just stuck a knife in my chest. Draco had gotten past all of my walls claimed my heart as his own and then crushed it in a matter of seconds. No one is immune to heartbreak and when it hits. It hits hard.

I picked up the quill and dipped it in some ink and quickly wrote a short note to Blaise just to tell him I was at the Manor and everything was okay. It wasn't okay, nothing was okay, but I didn't want to cause a rift between the boys, Draco was friends with Blaise before I was. I wrote a different note to Pansy.

Pans,

Can you come to the Manor? Lucius has already said it's okay, but something happened between Draco and me and I don't know what to do. Don't tell Blaise, I'm leaving him out of this.

Adria.

I sealed the letters and addressed them, I quickly made my way through the halls to the Manor's little Owlery and sent the letters on their way. I tried to make it back to my room quickly but Draco was already waiting by my door and I had to suppress a sigh. I opened my door and Draco caught my wrist before I could walk in.

"Dia, wait a second" Draco pleaded softly and I straightened up before turning to face him, not even caring about my bloodshot eyes. "I'm sorry, but it's what's best for you, I'd only ruin you"

"It's not up to you to decide what is best for me, Draco!" I snapped and pulled my wrist from his grip, "You don't get to decide that! I do. It's my choice!"

"I don't want to end up hurting you," Draco said quietly and I scoffed.

"You already have, Draco! Don't you get that?!" I stopped myself and took a deep breath. My heart was aching and anger coursed through my veins. "What was best for me was not to fall in love with you"

"No," Draco said quietly, my heart broke at the unshed tears in his eyes and a look of complete agony on his face "Dia, you can't mean that" Draco came closer towards me but I just stepped back and into my room, the hurt clear on his face at my action. "Dia, please-"

"Just leave me alone, Draco" I sighed, not meeting his eyes. I closed my door on Draco's pained face and the tears fell again. Hard. I slid down the wall next to the door and let myself cry.

I completely crumbled, the pain in my chest was almost unbearable. I didn't bother to hide my sobs. I didn't care who heard me. I was broken. I was damaged all over again.

I leaned forward and grabbed my bag from my bed and while sitting on the floor I picked up my notebook and a quill and started to write. I didn't think about what I wrote, I just poured my heart out onto a page.

Nothing hurts more than being disappointed by the one person who you thought would never hurt you. I feel shattered and broken because the only time I gave love a chance I end up feeling heartbroken, I'm scared and sad because I don't think I'll ever recover from this pain.

I wish I could hurt you the way you hurt me. But I know that if I had the chance...I wouldn't do it. You broke my heart...but I still love you with all the pieces and I cannot love anyone else the way I love you. It's just impossible.

Have you ever been so sad that it physically hurts inside? Because if you have then you know what you've done to me. I never meant to fall in love with you, Draco, but I did. I didn't fall in love with you because I was lonely or lost, I fell in love with you after getting to know you, I realized that I wanted to make you a permanent part of my world. The happiest I've ever felt was that moment I discovered you loved me too.

I gave you my heart...I just didn't expect to get it back in pieces.