They couldn't believe what they had just witnessed. It wasn't just anger, it was pure and utter rage. They had watched Kurt with Carol and Finn and how much he struggled to not hurt them. He heard him chanting to himself over and over again, begging himself not too. Kurt's arm was torn to pieces and he looked not one bit fazed by it.
Kurt stopped dead in his tracks when he seen them. He closed his eyes, feeling the pain slip away. His eyes was dead and lifeless and was flashing blood red. He could hear the dripping on the blood, spilling out on the floor. His skin was torn open like an open book. He felt nothing. He felt empty. His head was going light with the blood loss but he didn't care. He mouth was slightly open, leaving room for his fangs to sit comfortably on his lip. He was a wreck. He could hear them talking to him but he couldn't make out the words. It was muffled as he zoned out. He carried on walking and he lifted his good arm out and pushed passed them. He carried on walking. He heard them shouting after him but he carried on. He knew his arm would heal in time, as soon as he took the glass out. He walked in the kitchen, pulling the draws out. Nope. He felt movement behind him but he ignored it. He opened the top cupboard. Nope. He shut it loudly before turning round opening a draw next to it. Tweezers. Why the fuck was they in the kitchen? He pulled them out and threw them on the side. He heard the talking again and seen multiply hands on his body. He knew they was touching him but he just couldn't feel it. He lifted his good arm and held his bad and he lifted it up to the unit. Kurt hated gore. Two of his fingers was snapped and skinned and was mostly just bone. His wrist was intact and most likely why he hadn't passed out yet. His forearm had multiply gashes and slices. He could see bone, muscle, veins. It kind of reminded him of them pictures of them skinless bodies you would see in science. Glass was spread throughout and he couldn't even feel the pain. He started pulling glass out of his arm first, the big pieces. No hesitation, no anything. He threw the glass in the sink carelessly.
"Please let us fucking help you." A sob escaped Jeff's lips as he stared at his friend in horror. There was no expression on his face. He pulled the pieces out his arm like it wasn't his own.
"I think I'm going to be sick." David said breathing out turning away from Kurt and putting him hand over his mouth. He had never seen anything like it.
Nick had approached Kurt and placed a hand on his arm but he didn't move. He just carried on working on his arm. Nick turned towards his friends. He breathed out before shaking the tears away and started to move back towards his boyfriend.
Blaine was watching with silent tears in his eyes. He had tried to talk to Kurt, tried to stop him but he was to strong. He was a blank slate. Nothing there, empty. Wes walked over to Blaine, his hands was shaking. He reached down joint hands with him. They couldn't do anything so they just watched.
Kurt had taken most of the big pieces out. He opened and closed his fingers, seeing the open tendons move on his command. His thumb was broken. So he did what he had to do. He snapped it back into place. He heard them gasping but he didn't care.
"Please try something Wes. You're bonded with him." Blaine said hopeful and Wes nodded. He quickly made his way to Kurt and placed a hand on his face. Nothing. No moan, no gasp. Nothing.
"Please. Let us help you. You're badly hurt." Wes said softly. Wes was breaking. Seeing him like this, he was a different person. He was dead inside. Kurt stoped what he was doing and turned to Wes. He could feel Wes's erratic heartbeat thumping in his chest. He looked at him. He felt nothing. He tilted his head slightly and leaned in closer, there lips just barely touching.
"I don't fucking care."
Kurt pulled back and laughed. Wes was trying to keep the tears back but one fell. Kurt was looking right through him like he was nothing, like he meant nothing and that's when it clicked.
"You've turned it off. Haven't you?" Wes voice broke. They all looked at Kurt. He had turned off his humanity.
Blaine stepped forward. He needed to know for certain. He would know straight away after one little thing.
"I love you Kurt." Blaine said looking him in the eyes. Kurt smirked and nodded.
"Good for you Anderson."
Blaine walked back. Shocked. Everything Kurt is was his humanity and without it? He would be nothing. This is what they dreaded. Turning his humanity switch off.
Nick left the room quickly. He needed to do something and he hated himself for what did next. He pulled out his phone and dialled a number until he heard that voice he fucking hated.
Duval. What a lovely surprise.
There was silence for a few seconds.
Duval? Prank calls? Seriously? How fucking old are you?
"Kurt has turned his humanity off."
Nick heard the phone cut dead.
He quickly made his way back into the room. He didn't know what he called Sebastian but they was similar now. Sebastian might be a blessing in disguise. He looked over at him boyfriend who was trying to talk to Kurt.
"Come on baby. Let me help you." Jeff begged.
Blood was everywhere, all down Kurt, the kitchen unit, the sick and the floor. It was a blood bath. Kurt turned to Jeff in annoyance.
"Why the fuck see you still standing there whining? It's insufferable." Kurt grinned before putting an arm on Jeff and forcefully pushing him back. Nick jumped in and saved his boyfriend from going on the floor. They knew it was bad. Kurt would never lay a finger on Jeff. As Jeff was picked up the door opened and Sebastian walked through.
"Oh here he is! Boyfriend of the year! How you doing darling?"
Sebastian looked up in shock. He looked over to his arm and back to Kurt. Fuck me he's lost it. He turned to Wes and Blaine who was standing watching him.
"Can you help?" Blaine asked. It was the first time they had talked without screaming or trying to kill each other. Blaine looked traumatised. They all did. Sebastian nodded. He didn't know what else he could do.
Sebastian walked over and stood next to Kurt.
"Do you need a hand?"
"Nope. A new arm would be good though. Have you got any spare?" Kurt said bluntly, carrying on with what he was doing.
Sebastian eyes shot wide open and he quickly turned towards the others. He mouthed 'what the fuck' and they nodded. It was more than bad. It was evil. Seb turned back round so he was facing Kurt.
"Have you lost you marbles Hummel?"
Kurt laughed. Don't fucking start smythe
"I lost my boyfriend, I lost my dad and I lost my humanity. But by marbles? Intact." Kurt voice was level. It didn't shake not even when he mentioned his dad. He was gone.
Nick grabbed hold of Jeff. He didn't know what to do. Kurt was a monster without his humanity.
Wes had sat down with Blaine at the table, holding hands underneath it as they watched him unfold. He's gone hasn't he? Wes said to Blaine and he nodded. Our Kurt is gone
David still had his back turned facing the wall. He was listening to everything that was being said but he just couldn't look at him. It was painful to watch.
Sebastian tried again. He lifted his hand and placed it on his hand.
"You can stop with the games now Kurt. You're bleeding to death."
"You're one to talk about games. There your speciality, not mine sweetheart." Kurt voice was thick was venom. He spat the words out like they was setting fire to his tongue.
"Jesus." Sebastian said withdrawing his hand. He hadn't just turned it off he had stripped himself of everything.
"No, my name is Kurt." Kurt smirked as he started to tidy up the glass from the sink.
Sebastian turned around and shook his head and swallowed.
"He's gone. There's no way he's coming back from this."
He walked over and sat himself on the table with Wes and Blaine. Any other time there would be a fight but now? The only thing they all cared about was Kurt. They had to stick together, for him.
Kurt had started to bandage up his arm. Pushing his skin together while he wrapped the bandage tightly. He heard david gagging and he looked up.
"Do you need a bucket David? Or are you good?"
David was in shock. He really did not care. He picked up the courage to talk.
"I'm good man."
"Are you sure? You look rather sick." Kurt said sickeningly sweet and tilting his head to the side to get a better look at him. He felt nothing. He didn't care for none of them and for first time in ever he felt free. Free of all the pain and suffering.
David didn't answer him. He didn't want too. He didn't even know what to reply to it.
There was a knock on the kitchen door. They all heard the heartbeat. Blaine quickly stood up watching Kurt. He didn't seem fazed. He opened the door. Alex peters
Oh fuck no
He shouldn't be here right now. It was a cut off kitchen for a reason. A sign that said staff room was placed on the door so the students wouldn't answer.
"What's up Alex?" Blaine said casually.
"Came back early and seen you all running in here with Hummel. Everything good? There was like blood everywhere." Alex said trying to look in.
Before Blaine could answer Kurt was behind him and pushing Blaine out the way.
"You wanna come in?" Kurt smiled. It made Alex uneasy.
"Look man I'm sorry for the whole throwing the slushy in your face. That was out of line. I've been meaning to talk to you about it."
Kurt smirked. "It's all good Peters. Hey, just for the fun of it. Do you remember what flavour I said was better?"
They all started to panic.
"Alex doesn't wanna be playing games Kurt. He's just got back. You wanna chill out right man?" Wes said to Alex.
"Oh yeah right. I just wanted to see if everything was okay that's all." Alex turned to Kurt. "Why do you want to know?"
"Curiosity." Kurt shrugged.
"Blueberry right?"
Kurt smiled. He turned round to everyone in the room. "What was it Jeff?"
"Kurt please don-
"What was it?"
Jeff stood there. He felt like he was going to collapse. He hands starting shaking and he lifted his head up to stop the tears flowing.
"Knock it off Kurt." Nick said sternly
"What was it?" Kurt was still looking at Jeff. Waiting for an answer.
"What is going on guys? Seriou-
Kurt grabbed Alex's arm and dragged him into the kitchen and shut the door behind him.
"You need to calm down Kurt." Sebastian said stood quickly.
"I am calm. This is me calm. Wait till you see me angry." Kurt grinned before placing a hand round Alex's neck and placing his other on the bottom of his back.
"Kurt. Please stop this." Blaine pled but all he got was an eye roll. "Come on guys. Where's the fun?"
Alex started to shake. He didn't know what was happening.
"Kurt man, I'm sorry. Can you just let me go please?" Alex said as he tried to get out of his grasp but he couldn't.
Kurt ignored him and held on tighter and turned towards Jeff. "I'll ask again. What flavour was it?"
Jeff let out a sob and placed his hands on face and started to shake his head. "Please Kurt. For me just stop."
Kurt sighed before looking up and smiling sweetly. Kurt had wrapped a tighter hold around Alex. They thought Kurt was going to feed from him but what he did next was pure evil.
He pressed his hand until the bottom of Alex's back and they head a sickening snap.
"Paralysed from the knees down." Kurt whispered in Alex's ear. Alex cried out in pain.
Blaine went to jump forward Wes and Sebastian pulled him down. "If you get to right now he'll rip your heart out of your chest." Sebastian said quickly. Blaine nodded and sat back down.
Kurt laughed before turning towards Jeff again. "What flavour was it."
Jeff started to sob and lowered himself to the ground. "Please Kurt stop."
Kurt placed his hand on Alex's back and looked at Jeff straight in the eyes and he pushed hard, Alex cried out.
"Paralysed from the waist down." Kurt smirked as he felt Alex's weight drop.
Jeff started screaming.
"THAT'S ENOUGH KURT!" Nick screamed out.
"I'll ask you two more times Jeff. What flavour was it?"
Jeff couldn't breathe. His world was crashing and burning. He couldn't answer.
Kurt shook is head is disappointment before smiling. He pressed hard again but by the top of his spine. There was shouts and screams but he didn't care.
"Paralysed from the neck down." He whispered into Alex's ear. He was screaming out but he couldn't move.
"I can't move. I can't move help me." Alex said dumbly, he tried to move his legs but he couldn't.
Kurt rolled his eyes. "That's the whole point of it. You're not meant to be able too. Paralysed remember?"
Alex started to cry shamelessly. Nick couldn't take it anymore. He ran forward but kurt was quicker. He snapped his neck with one hand. Jeff screamed before crawling over to his boyfriend and dragging him back to safety.
Wes stood. "Kurt."
Kurt looked up and smiled. "Bonjour Partenaire."
Wes took a deep breath and stepped forward before Blaine and Sebastian could drag him down.
"You remember our time in here? Last night?" Wes said nervously.
"I lost my humanity wesley, not my fucking memory." Kurt spat out laughing.
"You remember what we talked about? That meal I cooked you? The bottle of wine we shared?" Wes asked, feeling his confidence rise.
"Mind games are not going to work sweetness." Kurt rolled his eyes. He arms was getting tired from holding dead weight. Do you have to be so fucking heavy?
"Do you remember me telling you how I felt about you when I seen you feed for the first time?" Wes asked taking another step forward.
"Do you remember the way you kissed me? The way we kissed?"
They thought they seen something in his eyes. Kurt blinked. Is he really trying to pull the bonded card?
"My arms are tired." Kurt smirked and leaned forward and whispered into Alex's ear. "I'll throw you a kindness, I'm feeling generous."
He quickly snapped Alex's neck and his body fell limp to cold floor. Wes looked up in disgust but he only got a smiled back. He turned to Jeff who was holding his boyfriend.
Raspberry Jeff. It was raspberry." Kurt smirked at the horror in Jeff's face.
"Have a wonderful day guys." Kurt saluted them before walking out.
It had been an hour. Jeff was sitting upright on the floor with tears rolling down his eyes, holding his boyfriend who hadn't woken up yet. David was still turned, leaning onto the wall for support. Blaine and Wes was sitting on the floor next to Alex and Sebastian was still sitting at the table staring at the wall.
They heard a gasp and turned to see Nick had woken up. He bolted upright and was gasping for air.
"It's okay Nicky, it's okay." Jeff was running his fingers through his hair trying to sooth him. Nick turned blinked a few times trying to come back to reality. Panic struck and he looked over to make sure his friends was okay and then he stopped Alex. Blaine looked up and shook his head to tell him he was dead.
"What the fuck happened?" Nick groggily said as he tried to sit up but was pulled back gently by his boyfriend.
They started to explain what had happened after his was out cold. Nick couldn't believe it.
"That's what he said? He was throwing him a kindness because he was feeling generous?"
Wes nodded. "He just did it. Snapped his neck and laughed about it afterwards. He's gone Nick. There's nothing left."
Nick leaned back into his boyfriend's arms. "What can we do?"
"There's nothing we can do. He's won't come back after what he's just done. It was pure evil. He won't ever let himself feel again." Sebastian said as he sat back on the chair and looked at Nick.
"Are you okay baby?" Nick turned around so he could see his boyfriend. He had never seen him this way not even when Kurt had left.
"He didn't care Nicky. There's nothing left. My Kurt is gone." Tears was streaming down his eyes but no sound was coming out. His voice was harsh from all the shouting and screaming. He shut his eyes to try and sooth them.
"I'm so sorry you had to go through that." Nick said trying to sooth him boyfriend.
"It's not me I'm worried about." Jeff sniffled up keeping his eyes closed. Nick pulled him in closer.
"Where is he now?" Nick questioned
"We haven't got a clue. We haven't moved since he left." Blaine said keeping his eyes on Alex.
"I don't want to sound bad but we are really gonna have to move the body and come up with a story." David said not looking at them.
"I'll do it." Sebastian stood and walked over to the body lying on the floor.
"Do you need help?"
Sebastian turned and seen it was Blaine who asked. He looked down and shook his head. "I've got it Anderson."
He lifted Alex effortlessly and with a blink of a eye he was gone. Blaine closed his eyes and laid down on the cold floor.
"I've seen people turn off their humanity before so many times. I've even experienced it but that was beyond turning off your humanity." Blaine said heartbroken as he closed his eyes.
"We'll get him back Blaine." Wes said looking at his friend. He wasn't sure if they could but he would die trying.
Kurt was sitting in the common room. Who knew turning off your humanity could be so relaxing? There was three bodies laying dead on the floor. He didn't even know there names but they was students. He didn't really care though. He had drained them all dry. He reached over and grabbed his glass full of vodka and he took a big gulp. Kurt didn't drink but now? It was very much enjoying it. A smile graced his lips and they liquid slipped down his throat. He slumped back into the chair and inhaled deeply, the scent of the dried up blood making him smirk.
"We should go and look for him." Blaine said turning to them all.
"Do you think that's a good idea right now Blaine? Wouldn't you think it'll be better leaving him to cool off for abit?" Nick asked his friend.
"The more we leave him the more distraction he's going to cause and it's going to be harder to pull him out of it."
They nodded in agreement.
"He's not in his room. I've just been passed there and he definitely wasn't there." Sebastian said leaning on the wall.
"We better go and look." Jeff said tiredly.
"Why don't you go and lay down? You look exhausted." Blaine said concerned as he looked for Nick for help.
"Babe, if anything changes you'll be the first to know I promise you." Nick said into his boyfriends ear. Jeff shook his head before standing up.
"I'm not doing anything till I know he's okay."
Nick nodded. There was no way Jeff would leave Kurt. No matter what he had said and done.
They all stood.
"Common room first?" Wes said and they all agreed.
Kurt had music playing. He had had never heard of before. He was pretty sure it was Wes's classic music. He rolled his eyes. He remembered what Wes said to him but he meant nothing. For the fun of it, he tried to feel something but he laughed when he realised he physically couldn't without turning it back on. There was no way on this earth he was ever turning it back on, ever. He drank the remainder of the vodka in his glass and he felt it wash over him. How much have I drank? He sat up and looked at the bottle. Nearly all gone. He laid his head back down on the back of the sofa, listening to the music playing in his ears. He heard the door open but he didn't look. He didn't care.
"Jesus fucking Christ Kurt." Blaine breathed out as he looked around. There was five bodies now, five students, all drained of their blood. Kurt was was pouring himself another drink.
"It's a shame you missed the party. It was delightful." Kurt said leaning back and lifting the drink to his mouth, drinking half it it quickly and burned the back of his throat making his eyes water.
"This isn't a party Kurt, this is a blood bath." Wes said looking round the room.
"Party? Blood bath? Same thing wesley." Kurt said tediously still not looking at them. He could feel the alcohol go to his head and he started to feel fuzzy.
"Are you drinking?" Sebastian asked looking at the nearly empty bottle of vodka sitting on the table.
"No Seb, I'm eating." Kurt smirked. His words was slurred and drawn out. Yep. He was drunk.
"Your fucking wasted." Nick said. Kurt hated alcohol. Maybe a one or two wines he would have on special occasions but he never touched the hard stuff.
"Ding ding ding and the prize goes to Nicky." Kurt slurred before turning to him. "I would offer you a wrist but we are all out. Next time, I owe you one."
Nick blew air out. He wasn't just drunk he was intoxicated. They watched the empty glass slip from his hand.
"This song nice." Kurt said out loud.
"Adagio For Strings." Wes said softly.
Kurt turned his head to meet him. "It's so beautiful." Kurt shut his eyes again and turned back around so his he was facing the ceiling.
"Did I ever tell you I play piano?"
Blaine was shocked. Where was this all coming from? He looked over to Nick. It's the alcohol man. Truth serum.
The drinking might be helping Kurt and it might help them. They needed to play along.
"No you never mentioned it Kurt." Blaine said smiling.
Kurt nodded. "I played for ten years."
"What did you like to play?" Jeff added quickly.
"Anything. Everything."
"I would love to hear you sometime." Jeff said truthfully. He never knew that about his friend. His personal life before he came to Dalton was still a mystery to them.
"You wanna play a game Kurt since you've been exquisitely good at them today." Sebastian said confidently.
"Why the fuck not."
They slowly approach Kurt. Stepping over the dead bodies and they all took a seat. They never sat by him. They didn't want to loose their head.
"twenty questions." Sebastian said quickly. They all looked at him. He might be a dickhead but he's playing the game smartly.
Kurt made a noise of agreement. "Anything?"
"Anything." Sebastian repeated.
Kurt laughed. "Only if you pour me another drink."
"How about shots?"
Kurt smirked at his answer and Sebastian stood and walking over to a cabinet and pulling out a brand new bottle of vodka and seven shot glasses and placing them in front of everybody and opening the bottle of vodka and placing it in front of them. They knew Kurt was already drunk so it'll be a lot easier to get answers from him.
"We all ask you and then you ask us six. Okay?"
Sebastian had changed the rules. Kurt was never into drinking games so he would know none of the wiser and he wants to drink so most of the questioned asked would be answered. Kurt nodded. He sat forward and placed his two hands on the table to steady himself.
"Fuck it." Kurt laughed out. The soft music was playing in his ears and it was magical.
"Apart from playing the piano, what other things did you do?" Nick asked. He didn't want to jump right in and he was extremely interested in anything Kurt told them. They knew nothing before Dalton. Sebastian poured Kurt a shot glass full.
"I sang." Kurt said before picking up the shot glass and shooting it back quickly.
"Seriously?" Nick added. Kurt nodded. "Countertenor."
"I fucking knew it. No way you talk like that and don't sing." Wes added in. He knew it.
"I had singing lessons till I was fourteen and then I started high school and I dropped out of it."
Nick nodded, satisfied with the answer. "Can we hear you?"
Kurt rolled his eyes. "Nope."
"What was your high school like before you came to Dalton?" Jeff asked softly. "You was only there a year right?"
Kurt laughed. "Hell."
"Why was it hell?"
Kurt didn't answer. He reached over and grabbed a ready made shot glass and shot it back.
"I was different. The spastics didn't like different so they tortured me for it."
Kurt looked at Jeff, he look incredibly upset. He didn't feel the need to comfort him though. He didn't even bother him that he was upset.
"What did they do to you Kurt?" Sebastian added.
"Is that another question? Because I don't see a drink in my hands."
Sebastian rolled his eyes before passing him his. He shot it back before answering the question.
"Name calling, being pushed against the lockers, getting beat up in the middle of the school and not one person helping. Including teachers. You know? Typical bullying." Kurt said flatly before sitting back in the chair.
"Is that everything?" Jeff asked. Kurt did answer. "Next question."
Wes didn't want to push him but he went for it. "Is that all they did to you?"
Kurt laughed and rolled his eyes. "Same question different context."
"Soooo you're not drinking then?" Wes added quickly. He felt bad. They was pushing answers out from him while he was vulnerable. Kurt took a shot and downed it quickly.
"They stripped me naked. Took my clothes. Made me walk through the school. Wrote fag all over me and bend me over and took pictures. Amongst other things."
"Jesus." Wes spat out. Kurt shrugged. "Next question."
"What was your biological mother like?" David asked quietly.
"She was beautiful. Kind, caring. Her voice was like silk, so soothing. I don't remember much about her anymore. I've started to forget her face." Kurt said emotionless and he leaned forward and grabbed another shot and downed it.
"How did it feel when you found your dad?" Blaine asked looking Kurt in the eyes. Kurt laughed lightly.
"You wanna sit here and talk about my feelings towards my dead dad?" Kurt rolled his eyes before lifting up his shot and drinking it. It started to burn and he coughed a little. Blaine nodded
"I wanted to die." Kurt said with a shrug. "I wanted to go into my dad's office, take out his shot gun and shook myself in the face."
Blaine looked up. There was nothing there. It was the truth but there was no feeling behind it. It made him sick.
"My go now right? To ask you all?" Kurt smiled.
"Yeah man." David sat trying to sit more comfortable
"Can I ask you anything?"
"Anything but only six."Sebastian added.
Kurt laughed. Anything, bad move smythe Kurt sat up straight and looked at Sebastian in the eyes.
"Why did you make me sleep with you? Why did you want to ruin Nicks life getting involved with the rapists and torturers who put him through hell for months? Why do you hate Blaine so much you felt the need in ruining the one thing that was good in his life?"
"Fucking stop Kurt." Sebastian said with panic in his eyes.
"Did you know you I could never want you on my own? Is that why you made me fuck you?" Kurt said louder.
"Shut the fuck to now Kurt." Sebastian said more stern standing up.
"No can do sweetie, I still have two fucking more questions." Kurt spat out. Kurt stood raising to his height.
"Did you relish in the moment when Blaine caught us?"
"You better stop or I'll snap your fucking neck." Sebastian said angrily
"WHY DID YOU RUIN MY FUCKING LIFE SEBASTIAN?" Kurt screamed in his face before pushing him down roughly on the floor. He grabbed his neck and started to squeeze.
"Did you crave it baby? Huh? Did you want me that badly? How desperate are you?"
Kurt was inches away from his face. He grip got tighter and Sebastian started to struggle to breath. He couldn't fight it.
"Does it turn you on me being without my humanity? You fucking love it don't you? This is always what you've wanted isn't it?" Kurt said emotionless as he pinned Sebastian harder to the floor. Kurt ran his hand down his body and placed it over his erection and he smirked. "It does doesn't it? You like being manhandled don't you?"
Kurt leaned in closer pressing his body into him. "You sick, twisted fuck."
Kurt squeezed hard and then pulled away, Sebastian started to cough violently trying to gasp for air. He pulled back and punched him in the face and he carried on doing so.
"You mean absolutely nothing to me!"
Punch
You are you reason I lost Blaine!"
Punch
"You are the reason I tried to kill myself!
Punch
"You are the reason I spent every day of the past year wanting to die!"
Punch
"You are the fucking reason I laid awake for hours crying myself to sleep!"
Punch
Kurt stopped. His humanity slipping through. He couldn't breathe.
"You are the reason why I hate myself and I fucking despise you for it."
A sob escaped his lips. Sebastian was clean out, his face disfigured. He lifted his broken, bloody shaky hands and started to cry hysterically. He felt someone dragging him back and laying him down but didn't know who. He felt like his lungs was going to collapse. He let himself be laid down as sobs rattled throughout his whole body. His hands raised up to cover his face but someone had grabbed them and pulled them down. He cried for everything. His dad, his life, the people who he had hurt. Everything.
"Make it stop." Kurt sobbed out. "Please make it stop."
It was the breakthrough they needed. They looked over to Sebastian's body. He had punched him to death. Blaine pinned one of his hands and Wes pinned the other holding him firmly down. Kurt needed to get it out. These are the words he's always needed to say. Jeff ran over and kneeled by his head holding it gently so he didn't hurt himself. The cries was heartbreaking, they had never heard anyone so broke before. Kurt tried to fight but the alcohol had weakened him and his struggle came to a stop. Kurt was tired. Tired of everything.
"Please just let me die."
It broke them hearing him say that. Blaine sobbed while he placed comforting hands on his face. Kurt felt helpless and that felt like the only way out. Jeff was placing kisses on his face while saying soothing words to him. Nick was sitting behind Jeff comforting him as he comforted Kurt. He was in bits and he hated every minute it.
"I killed Alex."
They all looked at him. He's remembering. "Oh god. I killed him. I killed Alex. I.. I snapped his neck." Kurt sobbed and he felt himself being pulled up and pulled into a hug.
"It's okay baby, it's okay. Just let it out." Blaine said as he kissed his head. Kurt started hyperventilating. He felt like the ground was opening up to swallow him. Wes burst out crying and let go and David looked up and ran round to his side. He wrapped his arm round his friend.
He's not reacting to us. He must be blacked out.
"I didn't mean it… I didn't mean to do it I'm sorry please forgive me." Kurt's cries became screams and his free arm Wes had hold of he lifted up and started to hit is head repeated, Jeff wasn't quick enough to catch it. Wes jumped forward and grabbed his hand but he was pulling to hard so David jumped in and they both pinned it down. They couldn't calm him down.
This is what you're for Wes. Do what you need to do
He looked and seen Blaine nodding at him, pleading him. There supernatural connection could be the only thing to stop it. Kurt was laying on his back, he started to fight.
"Nick, can you hold his hand?"
"Of course man."
Nick left Jeff and came over to David and took over from Wes. It was taking four of them to keep him down. That's the strength he had.
Wes looked at Blaine one more time. "Please Wes. I can't see him like this anymore."
Wes tiredly nodded before straddling Kurt while they had his arms pinned. Kurt was still sobbing. Wes wanted to try something.
"Don't be alarmed."
Wes grabbed his face forcefully and turned him so they was looking at eachother. Kurt was looking through him. He didn't know he was there. Wes lifted hand quickly and covered him mouth with force. Kurt gasped with the pressure and he struggled to breathe even more. Wes kept his hand there and leaned down.
"Breathe in Kurt. Through your nose."
Kurt heard his words. It was Wes. His Wes and a few seconds later he inhaled deeply, tears running down his face. He slowly let off the pressure on his mouth.
Breathe out. Through your mouth."
Kurt exhaled through his mouth shakily. Wes covered his mouth again but not as tight now, just enough to make him breathe through his nose.
"Breath in."
Kurt inhaled again and the guys slowly released his arms. He brought them up slowly and one gripped Wes's arm and the other grabbed the wrist that close to his mouth. Wes let go of his mouth with his and Kurt exhaled without being told to do so. He felt like he could breath again. He was sobbing still but it wasn't painful for him to breathe anymore.
"I do care Wes. I'm… I'm sorry." Kurt cried out looking straight into Wes's eyes but he couldn't keep them open.
"God I know Kurt. You don't have to tell me okay? I know you meant none of it." Wes gently grabbed his face this time. "Look at me."
Kurt let out a sob before turning his face and opening his eyes. His vision was blurred. Wes raised his hand and he ran this thumb down each one so they could fall. He leaned over and cupped Kurt's face with his hand.
He closed the rest of the gap and kissed him. Kurt's body had stopped shaking with the connection and instantly relaxed. After a moment his sobs stopped and so did his tears too. He let out a moan and his legs that where bent had relaxed too and slowly fell back down to lay flat against the carpet. He pulled back slowly and looked out for any indication that said he needed to help him breathe again but there wasn't anyway. Kurt had his eyes closed and little gasps was escaping his mouth.
"Do it again, please." Kurt said still with his eyes closed and he felt Kurt grip his arm.
He leaned over again and pressed his lips on his adding more pressure this time. Every time he kissed him the worries seem to slip away for the moment they was kissing. Wes pulled back again and looked at him.
"Thank you." Kurt breathed out.
"It's okay. Don't move. Just relax. You've had a hard day. Rest your body. We will give you some space." Wes said calmly before kissing him lovingly on the cheek and slowly moving away. They all backed up to give him soon room.
Thank god he's got you
Blaine had just said to Wes as he approached him and Blaine pulled him in for a hug.
David had started to move Sebastian. They had a room two floors down pasted the basement. The only way down was through an opening in the common room. Handy .You might as well just say prison. It would have been the last resort for Kurt if he kept his humanity switch off. He had dragged him down quickly and ignoring how clumsy he had been with the body. He threw him in the and locked the door. The whole room was full vervain. Burns vampires to the touch. Good luck with that one sweetheart.