Kilgrave pov

I tried my best and pull myself together. The information I found out couldn't stop me from finding Alice and I had a feeling I needed to hurry. I was attempting to think straight while my mind was putting pieces of this puzzle together. The things she told me under the influence of my control seemed like a gibberish at the time but now it was making perfect sense. She was twenty four when her family or husband, as her surname had two parts, one of which she chose to forget, had sold her for the experiments. She mentioned suitcase with money as one of the last memories of getting her powers. It was two hundread years prior. I still couldn't get over it.

So they carried out experiments and treatments for years which must have fixed something in her body that it refused to age. Lobotomy wasn't invented until late 19th century so her brain capacity must have started running out driving her crazy, giving her maniac and hysteria episodes. Then they figured it out, the only way to contain her was to erase her memories.

Regulary.

All the docomentation was only confirming my theory. I spotted a dirty bag in the corner and I rushed to throw all the evidence from the room in there. As I was clearing the drawers out, my hand stumbled upon a soft fabric of familiar scent. I pulled it out to find her red dress from the previous evening. She was here. And someone had taken it off her. I boiled inside and gritted my teeth. 'You'll pay for it' I growled to myself and I took all the cassetes, cds, files, everything that could help her to understand who she really is and why all this misery had happened to her. I threw the bag over my shoulder and wandered deeper inside the facility through a glass door. Where the hell was she? 'Alice?! Come here!' I called out into the darkness as I sped through a long corridor. No responce.

It led me to a huge werehouse like space with high ceiling of dirty idygo colour. It smelled like bleach everywhere and I had to cover my nose with a sleeve to avoid coughing and unpleasant sensation burning my nostrils. I whinced as it sting my eyes and saw a transparent glass wall separating a part of the room, something like a cube for smokers at the airports. It was pretty damn dark everywhere and the place seemed deserted until I realised big led lights were on inside the cube. I placed the bag on the floor carefully and slowly sneaked closer to the strange source of light. My heart started beating faster and I held my breath taking all the courage to peek inside. There she was. A screen was covering what looked like a metal table she was lying on. She was wearing a white hospital gown and her hands were chained down. Her long raven hair was nearly reaching the floor. 'Alice' I whispered and found the doorknob. As I was about to twist it, I detected a movement coming from behind the screen. I stepped away into the darkness and watched.

The man inside was strikingly similar to his bastard brother who killed himself on my porch. He took his lab coat off and his face was twisted in sinister grin. I gulped and my stomach squeezed hard making me nearly throw up as the man started pulling Alice's underwear down, while he rapidly kissed her lips. She was uncontious. I felt so deeply disgusted I was ready to rip his guts out with my own hands. I almost jumped to the doorknob and twisted it, to my own relief the door let go easily and the man froze, looking up at me. 'Stop it right now you dirty pig' I spitted out as I approached him and breathed heavily in anger and fright. His laughter echoed across the glass walls. 'You killed my brother but you're too late. She won't have a clue who the hell you are. She belongs to me. Always had' his grin wouldn't disappear even though he was standing still. I should have killed him long time ago. I tried not to show how much his words hurt me. Was I really too late? 'Why she wouldn't remember me, tell me the truth' I commanded even though deep down I knew the answer already. He looked to the side nodding at a long piece of metal, a needle all covered in blood. 'Because I personally made sure she wouldn't remember a thing' his thick accent shuttered my last bits of hope. 'I will need to find a fitting response to that' I swallowed saliva holding back strong waves of nosia going through my body. I glanced over at her face. Her lip was cut and her cheek heavily buised with purple and yellow stains. I gulped. I hit her, I let her get kidnapped, I didn't protect her like I promised I would. She nearly got raped because of me. 'F-first you'll fix her' I hated the stutter escaping my lips. All I wanted to do is burst into tears and kill myself but no. I couldn't show my weakness again. 'You will carry out the last operation on Alice Ruth. You will bring back all the good memories you can and you will make her mortal again. Make her human' I ordered and assumed everything I listed was possible as this bastard didn't point out otherwise. 'Now' He glared at me but grabbed his tools and got to work straight away. I couldn't look but I had to supervise him so he doesn't hurt her.

It look him three hours. Alice woke up twice during the prosedure. Her eyes had no shine in them, they looked like matt blue discs with no expression. She would mumble something just to black out again. I sighed heavily and had a look at his equipment. I wanted to search through it to find some morphine she could need later but the only thing I found was a leather belt with bite marks on it. It made me nearly faint as I realised what he used it for so I gave up on further searching.

'I did what I could' he spoke up and I took a shaky breath in as she looked so dead, if not soft rising and falling of her chest I would have thought she was gone. 'Step out' I followed him outside the cube and I froze, as I was about to do something I never did in my cowadly life. 'You are not allowed to defend yourself' I took off my suit jacket and rolled up my sleeves as I approached him giving him a solid punch in the face. It hurt my wrist but I couldn't resist it. Couple of his teeth feel out as he groaned in pain.

I kept punching and kicking his ribcage until he was covered in blood, my knuckles were bruised and my white shirt was covered in his own blood. I wouldn't let him pass out. I returned to the cube and took the very needle he used on my love. 'This is for Alice' I whispered and pierced both of his eyes with the sharper end, then I cut his throat and stabbed his chest without realising which one was first. He was long dead before I managed to calm down and stop abusing his disgusting corpse.

I panted and let go of the red dripping needle. It hit the floor. I looked at my blood stained clothes and hands. All of this for nothing. She would never remember me again. I gathered up my jacket and the bag with Alice's files. I took the key I found around and set her purple wrists free of the cold chains and cuffs weighing her down. Then I carefully picked her up and carried in my arms until we left the building. I didn't even remember how I found the exit.

I placed her gently on the backseats of my car and I drove her to a posh area of New York. I didn't think she would gain her contious any time soon.

I wanted her to start over. Without any pain and struggle. Without anyone breathing on her neck, myself included. It was breaking me but I was determined to give her what I failed to before. Safety. I rented a nice apartment on the top floor where she would be comfortable. It was quick and easy with my powers. I made it looked as if she was always living there, fully equipped with any furniture and everyday products she would need. I managed to get some morphine which I injected to her thin arm so I could wash and dress her up without her waking up. I lyed her gently in the bed. I studied all the files I found before I placed them in her drawers. I took a drive home and back to bring her all the belongings she left at my place. I left the antient pocket watch she liked so much on her nightstand so its ticking would sooth her down when she wakes up. I also returned the money she stole from the pub such a long time ago.

'You'll be happy here, Ruth' I whispered to her once everything was set up. She had enough money to live for as long as she wanted to. I took one last look at her beautiful face so badly abused. I placed a kiss on her pale forhead. And I left.

I entered my bedroom, feeling like in a pure nightmare. The house was still and quiet. I was cold, the walls seemed to be looking upon me with dead expression. I knew everything about Alice Ruth I ever wanted to know yet I never felt more empty in my life.

I sat on the edge of my bed, covered my face with my hands.

And I let out a sob as tears ran down my face.