I'm 7 weeks pregnant and it's finally time to tell Kazue the big secret. I didn't want to tell her too early because I didn't know whether or not I may miscarry. People always say that it's better to tell your friends and family many weeks later in case a miscarriage does happen in the first few weeks.
"Kazue…" my daughter stopped playing with her toys and ran over to me and Bokuto as we sat on the couch. "I have a surprise to tell you!" I gently smiled at her.
Bokuto took Kazue in his arms, making her face me. We had huge smiles. We can't wait to see Kazue's expression when we tell her the news. There's 100% that she's going to be confused but it's okay. She'll be happy in due time.
"Sweetie, mommy has a baby in her stomach." I pointed at my flat stomach which will grow to be huge in the next few months.
"A baby?"
I nodded my head. "Yes a baby. You're going to be a big sister!"
Her eyes widened as excitement filled them. She curled her fists and cheerfully yelled at the top of her lungs. Bokuto and I leaned away from her for a split second to save our eardrums. Her sharp voice really punched our poor ears.
"A big sister! Yayyy!"
Kazue jumped out of Bokuto's arms as she ran around the house, telling the world that she's going to be a big sister. Her little mind doesn't know what she's actually saying, but I'm glad she's excited rather than being jealous.
Bokuto chuckled at the sight of Kazue. "Heh… She's going to be a good sister, Mayu." He intertwined our hands together and pulled me into his body.
I laid on him as my ear was against his chest, hearing his loving heart beating. His heart rhythm was smooth but gentle. It's like a soothing lullaby.
"Mayu, when we're out of high school, I'm going to marry you." He lifted our intertwined hands up and kissed the back of my hand with his soft lips. "Not because you're the mother of my child, but because I see a big future with you!"
My heart fluttered from his sincere words as a smile glued on my face. He really saw the future with me? I feel so loved and cared for. Unconsciously, my eyes began to tear up and I cried on his chest. Stream of tears slipped down and stained his t-shirt.
Bokuto's hyperactive ears already caught on with my emotions. "Mayu, don't cry." His hands stroked my head, planting kisses to soothe my small pain.
"Really? You really want to commit your whole life to me?" It sounded too good to be true. Nonetheless, it makes me happy to know he wants a future with me, that's all I can ask for. Bokuto won't abandon me like Oikawa did.
"Yes, I do!"
Later at dinner, Bokuto ate with my family. Although he hadn't known them for a long time, he wasn't shy about being quiet. He talked to my parents about anything. He's a social butterfly, and sometimes I wondered how I even got him.
"Oh! Mayu, you know how we lost at nationals right?"
"Yeah, what about it?" When Bokuto lost nationals, he wasn't dejected. Actually, he was proud and pumped to continue his volleyball career. It's such a big change for his teammates and I to see because he easily gets sad. It usually took me or Akaashi to cheer him up.
A toothy grin appeared on his face. His eyes were smiling, holding big news to surprise me. "I got scouted to play on MSBY Black Jackal!"
This news excited everyone at the table. We all congratulated him, but his offer came with a price.
Then a nervous look took over as he bit his lips. "I know it's great! But… I will have to move to Osaka."
My happy expression started to frown. I wanted to be happy for him but it's hard. We have a baby on the way.
"I might turn down the offer. I don't want to leave you in Tokyo—"
I grabbed his hand, shaking my head. "No Koutarou, I know how much volleyball means to you! If you turn it down now, I don't know if there's going to be another chance for you to get scouted again!" It hurts to sacrifice myself, but I'm going to have to do that. Volleyball is his passion. I can't take it away from him.
Bokuto frowned. "Mayu… please, I'm doing this for us. You mean the world to me. I won't choose volleyball over you."
Gosh he makes me wanna cry!
"Then why don't you negotiate with them?" Dad chimed in. "If they want you in their team, they will provide you enough money for your family to move and find a good house to live in. If they aren't willing to do that then you know what to do."
It surprised me that my dad voiced his opinion, but it also made me feel reassured because he cares for me, Kazue, and my unborn child. He's really putting aside his dislikement for volleyball players. Maybe he is changing to own up for his mistakes.
"I will let you know what happens!"
Later that night, Bokuto decided to sleep over. My parents were fine with it since he's my baby daddy and it's better for him to support me through this journey. Surprisingly Kazue didn't want to sleep in the middle of me and Bokuto, she wanted to sleep at the end of the bed. The lights were off and he spooned me in the dark. His arms were wrapped underneath my stomach as he cradled the small bump forming. Bokuto giggled to himself, still couldn't believe that he was going to be a dad. It sounded like his dream had been fulfilled.
"Mayu," He whispered in my ear. "I'm so in love with you. I can't wait for our child to grow and look just like you! I can't wait for my sisters to find out and congratulate you! I'm waiting for the day when I can finally be your husband and Kazue can be my daughter."
My lips quivered from his touching words. He referred to Kazue as his daughter. He didn't say 'step daughter' he said daughter. Damn I really can't wait for this long journey ahead of me. He's going to make me the happiest woman while he's going to be the best dad in the world. I no longer have to fear Bokuto leaving me. He sees his whole future with me, and he's not going to throw me to the side either. I feel special.
"You're going to look so beautiful when you're pregnant! I don't care if our child is a boy or girl because they'll be blessed with our genes!" Bokuto snuggled as he planted a kiss at the crook of my neck.
I giggled from his rambles about the future. It's so hard to tell what it's going to be like, but I don't have to worry. I have faith that it's going to be just fine. Bokuto will find a way to balance his volleyball career and his homelife. He's an amazing man. "I love you too, and I want our child to look more like you. You're so cute and handsome. I know your genes will overpower mine." I just knew in my guts that our child will inherit his looks. They already look dominating from the get-go. A little Bokuto running in the house would be so adorable. Kazue will be so in love with her new sibling.
"Haha! We'll see once they're born!"