HINATA
"Do we have to do this?" asks Kageyama.
"Yes," I reply. He sounds like a child right about now. I am on my way to see Kenma and Kuroo. I mostly need to talk to Kuroo. I have to tell him about what is happening. I am sure he was laughing at me soon as this drama hit the news. In the event the video is released of us I need him to know. Kageyama shoves his hands in his pockets. He has a meeting with the Olympic management team later today. I am not expecting anything good out of that meeting. I knock on Kenma door. He opened the door immediately as if he was standing there.
"Hey, how you guys holding up?" he asks. Kenma is dressed in some casual house clothes letting me know he hasn't gone anywhere. I expect nothing more from my home body friend.
"We are good," I reply. "I would have preferred to kept my sexual preference private."
"I get it," replies Kenma. "You don't have to explain to me. I would be mortified if I was in your shoes. Let me grab Tetsuro. He is in the bedroom." Kenma walks away and I look at Kageyama. I can see the stress on his face.
"Babe, we are doing the right thing," I reply grabbing his hand. Kageyama stares at me smiling.
"I really like when you call me that," he replies. I smirk stepping into his personal space still holding his hand.
"You sound so happy about that," I reply. Kageyama leans down close enough to kiss me.
"Of course I am," he replies. "The man I love called me babe….." Kageyama kisses me. I groan because as stressed as I am feeling this is much welcome. I hear Kenma clear his voice causing me to quickly pull away. Kuroo is glaring at me.
"I am surprised you two are stressing out about being all over the news," he replies. He glares at Kageyama. I can see the envy behind his eyes. "They haven't fired you yet. Hmmm I am surprised."
"Tetsuro," says Kenma warningly.
"It's fine," I reply. "Our PR is coming up with something at the moment. I am coming here because what is happening could affect you." Kenma looks confused.
"How so?" asks Kenma.
"Kuroo did you want to discuss this alone?" I inquire carefully.
"No, you can talk in front of my man," he replies grabbing Kenma's hand. "I got nothing to hide." Kageyama sighs in agitation. I'm so annoyed because I know for a fact Kenma doesn't know about what Kuroo and I had going on.
"There were cameras installed in the training facility," I reply. "The camera captured us having sex and it might be released."
"What!" exclaims Kenma with his face dropping. He looks from me to Kageyama. Kuroo begins blushing. That doesn't last long as I seen the anger enter his eyes.
"What the hell!" he barks. "Are you fucking serious!"
"I would not be here if it wasn't," I reply. Kuroo looks at Kageyama.
"This is your fault isn't it!" he yells.
"No, it's not," I reply. "Tobio ex-wife is trying to use it as leverage in the divorce."
"How is that not his fault?" asks Kuroo sounding angrier. Kenma is shaking his head pulling his hand away from Kuroo.
"You guys were fucking?" he asks. I don't even know what to say.
"That is all it was," replies Kuroo.
"No, it wasn't," snaps Kenma. He starts pointing at me. "You fucking loved him. I can't….I can't believe you."
"I didn't do anything wrong," replies Kuroo with his voice softening.
"You had so many times to tell me, yet you didn't say shit," he replies. Kenma glances at me. "I know why you didn't speak up Hinata. Kageyama, did you know about this?"
"I did but not right away," he admits. "I'm the one who saw the video of them. If not for that I would have never known." Kenma glares at Kuroo.
"Why are you mad?" Kuroo asks.
"We were best friends," Kenma replies sounding hurt. "I really don't understand why you would hide this from me."
"I wasn't hiding it," defends Kuroo.
"Whatever," says Kenma glaring away from him. "Is there anything we need to do?"
"I will be talking to the Olympic management and owners this evening," replies Kageyama. "The video is basically Olympic business. I am sure they will hit my soon to be ex wife with legal action."
"I'm sure she doesn't want that kind of heat," I add in. Hyuna tends to act like she is invincible. I hope Olympic management fucking destroys her. Kenma nods in agreement.
"Hinata can I talk to you alone?" he asks.
"Of course," I reply not having to think it over. Kuroo folds his arms not liking this.
"I need some air," replies Kenma walking over to his balcony door. He opens it with me following closing the door behind me. Kenma leans on the rail staring up at the sky as the wind blows making his hair swirl. "You hide it so well. Whatever it was with Kuroo."
"I'm sorry for not telling you," I reply. "I didn't want anyone to know I was gay. I was trying to protect myself and my privacy."
"Um hm," hums Kenma not looking at me. "How long? When did it start? How?" He drops his head. "I have so many questions…."
"It went on for 3 years," I reply. "I didn't want a relationship. Kuroo knew this from the beginning. I stopped when I realized his feelings were evolving. Sadly, it was too late and I hurt him."
"He still loves you," replies Kenma staring at me. He stands up straight with his eyes watering.
"Kenma….." I say slowly with my heart breaking. I never meant to hurt him or Kuroo. I definitely didn't want to hurt my best friend. Kenma covers his mouth sobbing.
"It's not your fault," he whispers. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry. I need a moment." Kenma begins to cry, and I hug him because he is my friend. I know he needs a moment, but I still want to comfort him. He calms down pulling out of my arms. "Fuck…..maybe dating Kuroo is mistake."
"It's not a mistake," I reply grabbing his hands. "I know Kuroo would not date anyone if he doesn't like them. Love is not something you can get over easily." I sigh. "I have loved Kageyama since our 1st year in high school. I tried so hard to let him go. At that point in time all I knew is he was straight, and he would never love me. I never dated anyone. Yes I lost my virginity to someone I trusted but every time I tried to connect on an emotional level I couldn't. Kuroo is not doing that to you. He is really trying with you romantically."
"Were you seriously in love with Kageyama that long?" he asks.
"Yeah," I reply. "Kageyama accepted the fact he was bi just this year. He had a hard time coming to terms with everything. I think he has always been bi but was in denial." I sigh. "I have never spoken on this but Tobio was depressed. I think he was on the verge of suicide." Kenma eyes widen as he squeezes my hand.
"Are you sure?" he asks.
"I know Kageyama well," I reply. "He was headed that way. He opened to me about his thoughts. He didn't say he would, but he didn't have to." My voice begins to shake causing me to stop talking. I have never admitted this out loud. I take a deep breath. "I couldn't stand by and watch that so I started helping him in any way I could. I watched him become alive again. Tobio started learning new hobbies, tapping back into the things that made him happy. Next thing I know he is flirting with me." I chuckle. "Funny thing is I thought I was just imagining him hitting on me. I know that now to not be true." Kenma appears amazed.
"How did you guys end up…how do I say this….having sex…." he says lowly.
"It wasn't planned at all," I explain. "One night we ran into each other a restaurant. His wife asked for separation at that point. That night we had sex for the first time." I start blushing. "He knew then I loved him from that moment. He wanted to make sure though. We had sex once more but stopped after that. Not until the night he told his wife the marriage was over."
"The divorce is not finalized," states Kenma. He sighs. "You guys should have held out."
"I know, I know," I sigh releasing his hand.
"I understand though," states Kenma. "The man you loved all your life began to love you back." I see jealousy flash in his eyes for just a moment.
"We were suppose to wait but when he came to see me I couldn't turn him away," I reply. "I'm so happy and so is he. His wife just wants to be taken care of. I don't like to talk negatively about anyone, but she is the absolute worst. I think she knew she was in danger of not getting what she wanted in the divorce, so she released this story." Kenma folds his arms.
"That is fucked up," he replies. He glances back inside his apartment. "At least the guys aren't fighting. Thank god because I am not in the mood to deal with the bullshit today." He looks back at me. "Is Kageyama okay now?"
"He is getting there," I reply. "He has also been seeing a counselor. He decided to do that on his own." I begin to smile. "He's want to be happy, healthy, a good father."
"From what I have seen and heard he is an amazing dad," says Kenma with a smirk. I feel so proud hearing that.
"Him and Minhyuk will be moving in with me," I reply.
"That is for the best," encourages Kenma. "It seems that Kageyama needs to be out of that environment." I fold my arms.
"Totally," I reply. "He barely went home when she was there. He hasn't slept in their bed in months. They haven't had sex even longer than that." Kenma giggles surprising me. "What?"
"Was you having sex with him at that point?" he inquiries.
"Not right away!" I exclaim. I laugh lightly. Kenma starts laughing with me.
"He must have already been in love with you to not have sex with his legal wife," he replies.
"Kenma," I say shyly. I chuckle anxiously. "Kuroo was saying something like that."
"I wasn't around Kageyama like that so I wouldn't know," he replies. "I could see it when he came to see you yesterday. When he called you, he sounded so concerned. I can tell you right now that man in there would die for you. He is dedicated to you." I nod my head yes because I believe it. I know Kageyama loves me. There is no one else for him. Just me. "Thanks, I feel so much better."
"I'm glad," I reply. "Try not to be too mad at Kuroo." Kenma rolls his eyes.
"It just hurts," he reply. "I mean why not tell me. It feels…..wrong you know. It's like he was trying to hide a part of himself."
"Trying to hide his broken heart," I sigh. "If you have any more questions, I will answer. Long as they are within reason."
"I won't have any," he replies. "Tell Kageyama to do whatever he can to keep that video from coming out."
"Oh, I will," I reply. "We are dealing with enough. I definitely don't want to deal with that shit too." Kenma nods opening the door walking back inside. I close the balcony door behind me.
"Where's Tetsuro?" asks Kenma.
"He went to the bedroom I think," replies Kageyama. "Are you okay?"
"I'm fine," he replies. "Thanks for coming by to explain all of this."
"I would not do something like this over the phone," I reply as Kageyama grabs my hand.
"How is Minhyuk?" asks Kenma. "Is he doing okay?"
"He was fine this morning," replies Kageyama. "He is with Tsukishima and Yamaguchi at the moment. He is not old enough to be alone yet."
"He will be there before you know it," replies Kenma with a smile.
"Tell me about it," replies Kageyama. "I'm sorry that my issues have caused you some stress."
"Not so much," he replies. "I know you are being reasonable during your divorce process. Sounds like that ex wife of yours isn't playing fair….."
"Sounds like you have been a fly on the wall during our meetings with the lawyers," he replies making me chuckle.
"If she is willing to go this far with the video, I know she is being difficult," states Kenma. "If you guys need anything please let me know."
"Thank you," replies Kageyama. I glance Kageyama.
"Ready?" I ask.
"If you are," he replies. We say goodbye to Kenma heading out the door. I am thankful he didn't try to drag Kuroo out the room. He is not ready to talk to me or Kageyama clearly. Kageyama doesn't say another word until we are in the car. "Did you know he was in love with Kuroo?"
"No," I replied. "Just like you had no idea I was in love with you. We are good at how hiding how we really feel." Kageyama starts up the car.
"Touché," he replies. "Did you want me to pick up Minhyuk?"
"Why are you asking me?" I inquire.
"I have my meeting to go to," he replies. "I wasn't sure if you wanted to be alone or whatever."
"I'm not Hyuna," I reply. "If Minhyuk is ready for us to pick him up that's fine." Kageyama smiles nodding as he hit the speaker on his car wheel calling Yamaguchi. I cross my legs looking out the window. My life is about to change. I am more than ready. I have the man I love and the child I always wanted. I don't need anything else.