" Please tell me, this isn't happening?" Tara asked herself as she kept looking at the pregnancy test, she took two minutes ago. For over a week now Tara has been late also not to mention she's been sick as well. The test came out positive, but she's not ready yet. As much as she loves Jax and Abel, Tara is still not ready to be a mother or pregnant for that matter. Taking a deep breath, Tara threw the pregnancy box into the trash and hid the test in the medicine cabinet for now. She wanted to wait until Jax came home from the club run, to show him.

Just last week Jared wanted Tara dead for the murder of Clay, and Tara wanted Jared dead for the murder of her mom. But she realized death wasn't going to solve anything and it definitely wasn't going to bring them back either. so Tara made a deal with Jared. She promised not to kill anymore of his brothers as long as he promised to never send them to Charming for her, and he agreed. Jared and the guys left a few days later.

Walking out of the bathroom as she shut the light off. Tara walked into Abel's nursery and walked over to his crib. While she watched Abel sleep peacefully, Tara then gently placed her hand against her stomach as she closed her eyes for a moment and smiles little. Taking another deep breath, Tara looked down at Abel once more and walked out of the nursery heading down stairs into the kitchen.

After checking on the chicken she's cooking in the oven. She turned the fire down on the pasta and then added sauce over the pasta. The moment she heard the front door open, Tara set the wooden spoon down and walked out of the kitchen to greet Jax.

" Hey babe." Jax says after he took off his cut and hangs it up on the hook and walked over to her." What's for dinner?" He asked after he gave her a quick kiss before walking into the kitchen and towards the fridge to grab a beer.

" Pasta, barbecue chicken and salad." Tara responded as she followed him into the kitchen." How was Portland?" She asked as she sat down at the kitchen table.

" We had a few issues, but other than that everything was fine." Jax responded back as he took a drink of his beer." How was Abel?" He asked as he walked over and sat across from her." He didn't give you trouble, did he?" He asked with a chuckle.

" Some, but not much." Tara says with a small smile." I um... got something to tell you." Tara says as she took a deep breath and started what she wanted to tell him." Remember when I wasn't feeling well all week?"

Jax nods his head." How you feeling now?"

" I am fine... for now."

" What's that supposed to mean?" Jax asked in confusion.

" The reason why I haven't been feeling well and why I've been throwing up so much lately, well, it's because I am pregnant." Tara says looking at him for a moment.

" Are you serious?"

Tara just nods her head. She then gasps the moment she felt Jax lifting her up from her chair and spins her around. " Put me down Teller." Tara says as she wanted him to stop spinning her around.

" What's wrong?" Jax asked as he sets Tara down on her feet.

Tara just shook her head as she placed both hands against his chest as she looks up at him." Was just thinking that's all." She said with a small smile.

" About what?"

Tara knew she couldn't tell Jax she's not really ready to become a mother. Well for now she can't tell him especially when he's seem to be so happy to have another one on the way." I was just thinking, maybe we can look for bigger place."

Jax just nods his head in agreement." We can start looking as soon as possible." He says as he grabbed her face with both hands and lift her face up as he kisses her deeply and passionately and smirks against her lips." I love you so much babe." Jax then dropped on his knees and kisses her stomach." You too, son."

" Or daughter."

" Or daughter." Jax says with a smirk as he kisses her stomach once more before getting up and kisses her once more.

" I gotta get the chicken out, before burns." Tara says as she walked over to the stove and opened the oven door to take out the chicken. After serving dinner. Both Jax and Tara spent an hour or two talking about their future daughter or son. Tara then sighs as she pinched the bridge of her nose.

" Can't we just talk about something else?" Tara asked in frustration.

" What's wrong?"

" It's nothing... it's just the baby won't be here for the next nine months Jax, and your getting a little bit a head of yourself." Tara says as she reaches over and placed her hand against his face." We got plenty of time for everything. I just want to enjoy these moments with you and Abel."

Jax nods his head as he turned his head and kisses the palm of her hand." I got no problem with that babe."

Pulling up into Lyla and Happy's driveway the next morning. When she noticed Happy's Dyna wasn't in the driveway, Tara sighs in relief. As much as Tara loves her best friend. This conversation she would rather have with her other best friend. Besides she already knows that Happy is just gonna end up judging her, and that's the last thing Tara really needs.

" Hey, Lyla are you up?" Tara asked as she walked in and closed the door behind her.

" Yeah, in the kitchen." Lyla called out.

" Morning." Tara says as she walked into the kitchen." Is Happy at the clubhouse?" Tara asked as she sat down at the kitchen table.

" Yeah, he said one of the mechanics never showed up in time this morning and they are like really backed up." Lyla responded as she poured two cups of coffee and set one down in front of Tara.

" That explains why JT called Jax this morning." Tara says as she takes a drink of her coffee. Early this morning JT called Jax saying they were really backed up in the garage. So Jax had to get to the garage right away.

" Where's Abel?"

" I just dropped him off at daycare." Tara takes another drink of her coffee and then sets it back down." I am pregnant." She blurted out.

" Oh, my God Tara!" Lyla exclaimed in excitement."That's amazing. I'm so happy for you and Jax."

" Thanks." Tara responded back with a small smile.

" You don't seem to be too happy about it."

Tara chuckled as she shook her head." No, I am happy about it. That's not the problem though."

" Then, what is the problem?" Lyla asked shaking her head.

" Problem is that, I don't know if I'm really ready to be a mother. I mean don't get me wrong, I love Abel and I love taking care of him. But the thought of raising my own son or daughter is kinda freaking me out a little."

" That's perfectly normal to feel that way, but the moment that little one is in your arms, you will fall in love." Lyla says as she nods her head." Have you talked to Jax about all of this?"

" No, I couldn't. When I told him I was pregnant. He was so happy that he was going to be a father again, that I couldn't bring myself to tell him, how scare I am about the whole thing. So I just told him we should probably start looking for a bigger place."

After Tara spent all morning talking to Lyla. She decided to stop by the clubhouse and talk to Jax. She's not sure how she's gonna tell him how she really feels about this whole pregnancy thing, she just hopes he will be understanding. Which she knows he will be.