HONEYMAREN'S POV

"Honeymaren, do you think this is going to take too much longer?" Liam demanded. Impatient. Grating.

My teeth clenched together.

Like anyone in the pack, Liam knew everything. He knew why I came here—to the very edge of the earth and sky and sea. To be alone. He knew this was all I wanted. Just to be alone.

But Liam was going to force his company on me, anyway.

Besides being crazy annoyed, I did feel smug for a brief second. Because I didn't even have to think about controlling my temper. It was easy now, something I just did, natural. The red haze didn't wash over my eyes. The heat didn't shiver down my spine. My voice was calm when I answered.

"Jump off a cliff, Liam." I pointed to the one at my feet.

"Really, kid." He ignored me, throwing himself into a sprawl on the ground next to me. "You have no idea how hard this is for me."

"For you?" It took me a minute to believe he was serious. "You have to be the most self-absorbed person alive, Liam. I'd hate to shatter the dream world you live in—the one where the sun is orbiting the place where you stand—so I won't tell you how little I care what your problem is.Go. Away."

"Just look at this from my perspective for a minute, okay?" he continued as if I hadn't said anything.

If he was trying to break my mood, it worked. I started laughing. The sound hurt in strange ways.

"Stop snorting and pay attention." He snapped.

"If I pretend to listen, will you leave?" I asked, glancing over at the permanent scowl on his face. I wasn't sure if he had any other expression anymore.

I remembered back to when I used to think that Liam was handsome, maybe even beautiful. That was a long time ago. No one thought of him that way now. Except for Kristoff. He was never going to forgive himself. Like it was his fault that he'd turned Liam into this bitter shell of who he used to be.

His scowl heated up, as if he could guess what I was thinking. Probably could.

"This is making me sick, Honeymaren. Can you imagine what this feels like tome? I don't even like Elsa Winters. And you've got me grieving over this leech-lover like I'm in love with her, too. Can you see where that might make my life more difficult than it already is? I mean, I dreamed about kissing her last night! What the hell am I supposed to do withthat?"

"Do I care?"

"I can't stand being in your head anymore! Get over her already! She's going to marry that thing. She's going to become one of them someday! Time to move on, Girl."

"Shut up," I growled.

It would be wrong to strike back. I knew that. I was biting my tongue. But he'd be sorry if he didn't walk away. Now.

"She'll probably just kill her anyway," Liam said. Sneering. "All the stories say that happens more often than not. Maybe a funeral will be better closure than a wedding. Ha."

This time I had to work. I closed my eyes and fought the hot taste in my mouth. I pushed and shoved against the slide of fire down my back, wrestling to keep my shape together while my body tried to shake apart.

When I was in control again, I glowered at him. He was watching my hands as the tremors slowed. Smiling.

Some joke.

"You'd think you'd be a little more sympathetic to someone who had their heart broken, Liam…," I said. Slow, emphasizing each word. "Someone who got cast aside for someone else." I shrugged. "And now getting on my case about how I feel about Elsa, I mean, how do you think the rest of us like looking at Kristoff through your eyes? It's bad enough that Emily has to deal withyourfixation. She doesn't need all us guys panting after him, too."

Pissed as I was, I still felt guilty when I watched the spasm of pain shoot across his face.

He scrambled to his feet—pausing only to spit in my direction—and ran for the trees, vibrating like a tuning fork.

I laughed darkly. "You missed."

Kristoff was going to give me hell for that, but it was worth it. Liam wouldn't bug me anymore. I didn't feel bad… Even if it was a disgustingly low blow.

But I didn't feel bad because his words were still there, scratching themselves into my brain, the pain of it so strong that I could hardly breathe.

It didn't matter so much that Elsa'd chosen someone else over me. That agony was nothing at all. That agony I could live with for the rest of my stupid, too long, stretched-out life.

But it did matter that she was giving up everything—that she was letting her heart stop and her skin ice over and her mind twisted into some crystallized predator's head. A monster. A stranger.

I would have thought there was nothing worse than that, nothing more painful in the whole world.

But, if she killed Elsa...…

Again, I had to fight the rage. Maybe, if not for Liam, it would be good to let the heat change me into a creature who could deal with it better. A creature with instincts so much stronger than human emotions. An animal who couldn't feel pain in the same way. A different pain. Some variety, at least. But Liam was running now, and I didn't want to share his thoughts. I cussed him under my breath for taking away that escape, too.

My hands were shaking in spite of me. What shook them? Anger? Agony? I wasn't sure what I was fighting now.

I had to believe that Elsa, would survive. But that required trust—a trust I didn't want to feel, a trust in that bloodsucker's ability to keep her alive.

She would be different, and I wondered how that would affect me. Would it be the same as if she had died, to see her standing there like stone? Like ice? When her scent burned in my nostrils and triggered the instinct to rip, to tear… How could that be? Could I want to killAnna? Could I not want to kill one ofthem?

I watched the swells roll toward the beach. They disappeared from sight under the edge of the cliff, but I heard them beat against the sand. I watched them until it was late, long after dark.

Going home was probably a bad idea. But I was hungry, and I couldn't think of another plan.

I made a face as I pulled my arm through the stupid sling and grabbed my crutches. If only Agnarr hadn't seen me that day and spread the word of my "motorcycle accident." Stupid props. I hated them.

Going hungry started to look better when I walked in the house and got a look at my dad's face. He had something on his mind. It was easy to tell — he always overdid it. Acted all casual.

He also talked too much. He was rambling about his day before I could get to the table. He never jabbered like this unless there was something that he didn't want to say. I ignored him as best I could, concentrating on the food. The faster I choked it down…

"…and Sue stopped by today." My dad's voice was loud. Hard to ignore. As always. "Amazing woman. She's tougher than grizzlies, that one. I don't know how she deals with that oldest boy of hers, though. Liam's more like a wolverine than a wolf." He chuckled at his own joke.

He waited briefly for my response, but didn't seem to see my blank, bored-out-of-my-mind expression. Most days that bugged him. I wished he would shut up about Liam. I was trying not to think about him.

"Olaf's a lot easier. Younger kids usually are, I think. You were easier than your sisters, too, until… well, you have more to deal with than they did."

I sighed, long and deep, and stared out the window.

Billy was quiet for a second too long. "We got a letter today."

I could tell that this was the subject he'd been avoiding.

"A letter?"

"A… wedding invitation."

Every muscle in my body locked into place. A feather of heat seemed to brush down my back. I held onto the table to keep my hands steady.

Billy went on like he hadn't noticed. "There's a note inside that's addressed to you. I didn't read it."

He pulled a thick ivory envelope from where it was wedged between his leg and the side of his wheelchair. He laid it on the table between us.

"You probably don't need to read it. Doesn't really matter what it says."

Stupid reverse psychology. I yanked the envelope off the table.

It was some heavy, stiff paper. Expensive. Too fancy for Forks. The card inside was the same, too done-up and formal. Elsa'd had nothing to do with this. There was no sign of her personal taste in the layers of see-through, ivy-printed pages. I'd bet she didn't like it at all. I didn't read the words, not even to see the date. I didn't care.

There was a piece of the thick ivory paper folded in half with my name handwritten in black ink on the back. I didn't recognize the handwriting, but it was as fancy as the rest of it. For half a second, I wondered if the bloodsucker was into gloating.

I flipped it open.

Honeymaren,

I'm breaking the rules by sending you this. She was afraid of hurting you, and she didn't want to make you feel obligated in any way. But I know that, if things had gone the other way, I would have wanted the choice.

I promise I will take care of her, Honeymaren. Thank you—for her—for everything.

Anna

"Honeymaren, we only have the one table," Billy said. He was staring at my left hand.

My fingers were clamped down on the wood hard enough that it really was in danger. I loosened them one by one, concentrating on that action alone, and then clenched my hands together so I couldn't break anything.

"Yeah, doesn't matter anyway," Billy muttered.

I got up from the table, shrugging out of my t-shirt as I stood. Hopefully Liam had gone home by now.

"Not too late," Billy mumbled as I punched the front door out of my way.

I was running before I hit the trees, my clothes strewn out behind me like a trail of crumbs—as if I wanted to find my way back. It was almost too easy now to phase. I didn't have to think. My body already knew where I was going and, before I asked it to, it gave me what I wanted.

I had four legs now, and I was flying.

The trees blurred into a sea of black flowing around me. My muscles bunched and released in an effortless rhythm. I could run like this for days and I would not be tired. Maybe, this time, I wouldn't stop.

But I wasn't alone.

So sorry, Sven whispered in my head.

I could see through his eyes. He was far away, to the north, but he had wheeled around and was racing to join me. I growled and pushed myself faster.

Wait for us, Quil complained. He was closer, just starting out from the village.

Leave me alone, I snarled.

I could feel their worry in my head, trying hard as I might to drown it in the sound of the wind and the forest. This was what I hated most—seeing myself through their eyes, worse now that their eyes were full of pity. They saw the hate, but they kept running after me.

A new voice sounded in my head.

Let him go.Kristoff's thought was soft, but still an order. Sven and Quil slowed to a walk.

If only I could stop hearing, stop seeing what they saw. My head was so crowded, but the only way to be alone again was to be human, and I couldn't stand the pain.

Phase back, Kristoff directed them.I'll pick you up, Sven.

First one, then another awareness faded into silence. Only Kristoff was left.

Thank you, I managed to think.

Come home when you can. The words were faint, trailing off into blank emptiness as he left, too. And I was alone.

So much better. Now I could hear the faint rustle of the matted leaves beneath my claws, the whisper of an owl's wings above me, the ocean—far, far in the west—moaning against the beach. Hear this, and nothing more. Feel nothing but speed, nothing but the pull of muscle, sinew, and bone, working together in harmony as the miles disappeared behind me.

If the silence in my head lasted, I would never go back. I wouldn't be the first one to choose this form over the other. Maybe, if I ran far enough away, I would never have to hear again…

I pushed my legs faster, letting Honeymaren Black disappear behind me.

aww poor Honeymaren. I'm sure you guys probably feel sorry for her but this is Elsa and Anna story. Anyway what did you guys think of the last chapters. And are you guys ready for breaking Dawn :) tell me in the reviews. well at least she will end up together with their unborn son