yet another short(er) chapter of my first ever 'Vampire Knight' fanfiction told from Zero Kiryuu's point of view about his life with Yuuki Cross.

disclamation: I do not own the 'Vampire Knight' anime in any way, shape, or form. trust me when I say that if I did, I would give Viz Media a real whiplashing for the way they had the gall to end the anime before its time. ahem, the manga's ownership rights are reserved for Matsuri Hino-san.

I will never forget the next time I saw Yuuki the following night after I first drank her blood. I had heard from the headmaster that that Kaname Kuran was planning to transfer me into the Night Class. I could not accept that to happen to me, so I made my choice to make a run for it and leave the academy forever. Sure, it was the actions of a coward, but this coward was running away for the sake of others instead of himself.

That was what I planned to do until I saw the picture of me with my dear Yuuki. The girl I was so completely drawn towards, yet managed to make into my first ever victim as a vampire. I just could not live with the fact that I caused such irreparable harm to the one in the world I cared the most about. There was no way I deserved to even be alive, anymore.

I sat back onto my bed, and I readied my 'Bloody Rose' vampire hunter's gun. I raised it to my temple as I remembered the headmaster's precise words from when he gave it to me.

flashback

The headmaster gave me the gun upon becoming a prefect.

Headmaster: As a Disciplinary Committee prefect, I would like to have this, but use it only when necessary. This gun will have absolutely no affect on normal humans, but it will do serious harm to vampires.

end of flashback

I was just about ready to pull the trigger when my bedroom door opened to reveal…

Yuuki: Zero.

She then noticed what I was trying to do to myself and ran into the room to stop me.

Yuuki: What are you doing?!

My dear Yuuki landed on my bed to get me away from my gun, but I managed to place it into her hand instead and pointed it at myself.

Yours Truly: Shoot me… before I turn into a Level E. I want to die, and I want you to kill me.

My dearest Yuuki only shook her head 'no' at even the idea. Of course, she did not want to do it. I plucked the bandage off from over the side of her neck which I had attacked the night prior.

Yours Truly: You heard it, too. I know you did, the sound of me drinking your blood. You can't pretend like everything's OK, not after going through something as awful as that.

I reached my fingers towards the tiny bumps that my own fangs made in her neck, tracing over them, scornful towards myself for what I finally gave into.

Yuuki: Zero, listen…

Yours Truly: I tried, but I could no longer control the part of me that wanted your blood. I'm afraid this is going to happen again and when it does, I'll end up killing that person.

I raised her hand which held my gun closer to me.

Yours Truly: So, shoot me. Admit it! You're afraid of me right now, aren't you?

My dearest Yuuki just continued shaking her head 'no'.

Yuuki: I can't do it. I just can't.

I looked into her eyes for the first time that day, and fully realized that she meant it. If Yuuki could not kill me, there was no more point in even continuing to go to Cross Academy. I had no choice left but to go back to my original plan to run away. I just let go of my 'Bloody Rose' vampire hunter's gun and of my dear Yuuki's hand and grabbed my bags.

Yours Truly: Fine. Then, leave me alone.

And with that, I and headed straight out the door to my room, leaving my dearest Yuuki behind.