CHAPTER 29 - The real date

BPOV

I hardly got any sleep, so I decided to wake up and pour myself a cup of coffee.

My nerves were present, because today is Friday and that meant, I had to get ready for our date.

The "official" real date. After yesterday's mess and talking with Edward and his parents, I came to realize that - life is full of uncertainties... so you had to deal with it, rather than push it away. Plus I got Rose, Em and Edward to back off.

I agree that they did everything for me, but I needed to do things for me as well.

Kate agreed with that, although she wanted me to open up about how I'm feeling... in the future.

Flashback

"Hey Kate... I know I should not be calling you for everything that goes wrong in my life... but I needed to."

"Seriously Bella. That's literally my job description. Now spill."

"I kinda ended up in an argument with Edward over Victoria... or rather the feelings that the incident brought out within me..."

"What!!!! Why???"

"Because I'm scared. Not of everything... but of losing Edward. Or even what to expect of our relationship. My past relationships have not been this... I don't know... crazy before they even started!!".

"Ok and what is really scaring you about this??"

"I have never felt this way about anyone... Edward is different, better... I don't think I can live if I lose him. I'm falling for him.. hard. I don't think I can live with myself if I ever lose him."

"Well then Bella... your problem lies with the fact that you're overthinking and over complicating things.You need to learn to trust. Not just him and your probable relationship... but also yourself. Confidence is one thing.. but trusting... that's a whole new thing that you need to discover for yourself. And that's not possible till you fully open up. Things don't always have to work out great, but opening up and making mistakes do allow you to grow."

Her speech was oddly inspiring.

"You should write a book." I chuckled. She chuckled along.

"Already working on it. But seriously Bella I meant every word I said."

"Yeah I know... I'll try to do better. Thanks Kate. I'm already feeling lighter."

Currently

That conversation went pretty well. I knew Kate was right. So I was going to be more accepting of change and also try opening up to people I love and care about, more.

The day dragged on. I was a bag of nerves and anxiety...

Both - Edward and I, decided something casual or at least semi casual would make sense for our first real date.

I almost called it off after yesterday, but after Kate knocking some sense into me, plus Edward's revelations, I decided I should just go for it.

It was 5 pm. Edward would be picking me up at 6 or half past 6, so I decided to get ready.

I chose a navy blue dress, with spaghetti straps and a sweetheart neckline. The dress stopped mid thigh and was light as well as flowy. I paired this with a black clutch and black wedges.

For my hair, I decided to let it down in waves, with a half updo messy bun. My eyeliner was simple, but my lipstick was a little different from my usual basic style, as I chose a red color lip. I loved different colors of lipstick but hardly got to wear any, because I mostly did light makeup for work or didn't really go anywhere else. Also if I'm being honest - I was mostly lazy to touch up my makeup, most of the times.

I was ready. I felt as good as I looked. My workouts and yoga were definitely working, and the results were visible. I was more than pleased with myself and that fact.

It was ten minutes to 6. Now all I had to do is wait...

At exactly six, Edward knocked on my door.

I opened the door and Edward was standing there... looking like a model.

I couldn't speak. He was wearing a black blazer with the sleeves pushed up, a white shirt and dark jeans. He looked like sin... and I know he wasn't even trying too. This man...

"Bella... you look... wowww" I blushed. Apparently I left him as speechless he left me.

I finally found my words and spoke up - "you look amazing as well". I mentally patted myself on the back for forming proper words.

"These are for you." He brought up a bouquet of daisies, which I didn't even notice till now.

"I'll put them in the water, and we can leave." He just nodded.

The ride in his car, to the seafood place he was taking me to, was pretty silent... for the most part, only making small conversation about our day.

Once we had reached and were seated at the restaurant that he made a reservation for, things got a bit awkward.

We did order some appetizers and drinks, but after that - nothing, was really being said.

"Soooo..." I started.

"Sooo..."

We started laughing. We were really lame.

"Ok I'll be brave and start the conversation. Tell me about yourself... you already know way more about me then I do about you..."

A/N:

Sorry guys... another cliffhanger.

But next chapter, will be from Edward's perspective.

Hope you enjoyed this sneak peek, into their date!