CHAPTER 32 - New apartment.

BPOV

Previously...

He gently caressed my cheeks and wiped my tears with his thumbs, then he kissed me.

It just felt right.

Fuck the billboards and signs. I knew I was right where I was meant to be.

This Chapter...

I don't know how or when, but we were now making out in Edward's apartment against his main door. There were no complaints from me...

EPOV

I could feel her and I needed her like I needed air... god knows how I've lived so long without her... and as much as I wanted to continue and explore this - I realized that seconds ago she had been crying and we had just fought...

"Bella wait." I gently nudged her away. "We cannot do this... not now..."

"Edward I want this... I don't want to lose you." Her eyes were brimming with tears.

"Bella when we will finally be together, it will not be because you're scared or we had a fight... also you can never lose me... I might've been sad, but I now see that I can't always understand things... and you need time... so I'll always be there to at least try to understand... and keep loving you."

She smiled at that.

"I really love you... you know that."

"I figured... after all you did come all this way for me." I said cheekily, with my arms caging her against the door.

"Stop that." She lightly punched my shoulder.

"What?" I asked, playing innocent.

"Fine be like that Edward... but this restriction you put on yourself might become permanent if you don't shut it."

My face must've shown some signs of discomfort or horror, because Bella laughed... such a beautiful sound... she herself is so beautiful.

"Such a horndog... I thought you loved me."

"I do... and the other... stuff is secondary. Although you better tell me all these rules and restrictions now, so I can prepare myself."

"Shut up Edward, and I was not the one that stopped or restricted us." We were laughing again. I still had her caged to the door, so when she laughed I could almost feel her entirely..

Fuck... I might not last, but I'd do anything for this woman... dying of blue balls was a hell of a way to go, you had to admit.

"What is it?" She asked. I must've been staring at her.

"You are so beautiful... I love you." This time when I kissed her, it was slower and I felt like all my feelings were poured into that one kiss.

I don't know how, but this woman could take me from exasperated to happy and then to passionate, all in a matter of seconds.

Did I mention that she owned my heart.

"Edward we have to stop." She finally broke away. "You were the one that said so."

"I'm stupid."

"No you're caring, considerate and a beautiful man, inside and out... also more importantly you are right. I love you and I know we're ready but maybe we need time to be... a couple - before we get into that aspect."

"I will do anything for you my Bella..."

"I know you will... I love that you are amazing... but I'm also scared that you will not want me... I mean physically, I'm the most boring and unnoticeable person... I've not yet reached my goal yet maybe -"

I pressed myself against her, up until this point I had her caged, keeping majority of my weight off her, but after she started spewing nonsense, I pinned her against the door. "Feel that Bella." She nodded and blushed. She could feel me entirely, and what she was doing to me.

"I know you don't believe me... but you're so beautiful... I know your goal is what you desire to achieve and I'm happy for you... but people notice you Bella... you are smart, kind, beautiful... you may not acknowledge this... but there are so many people who notice you... I notice you... reaching your goal is one thing... but you are beautiful regardless of what you believe. I love you." I gave her a kiss, making sure not to prolong it, because when I am with her, I find that it's easy to forget everything around me.

Bella blushed intensely. I really wanted to see till where her blush reached... but I promised her and myself... to let us first be and then see how it goes.

"Anyways... you want to eat something?" I asked trying to get my mind off of things. "Plus we can talk some more... I love spending my time with you... Chinese?"

"Yes that's perfect Edward."

BPOV

It had been a week since Edward and I had discussed things and that super hot make-out session. It was also when I felt him fully and realized that I affect him as much as he affects me.

I had spoken to Rose and Alice all about it. Rose was excited... Alice was grossed out. That was her little brother. In hindsight that was not a good move...

But they both seemed genuinely happy for me. Rose was herself, fully smitten with Em, and he with her, so much so that he asked her to move in. I was super happy for them... but that meant our dreams of becoming roommates once again would not be possible.

Rose almost declined Em's offer for me... I knew it would be selfish to let her do so. So I put my foot down and said no.

I've ever since then been apartment hunting, because I figured, a lot of shit went down in this current apartment. Roommate or not, I cannot and should not live here anymore.

Kate, in my last visit with her, said that this change would be healthy for me. So I've been dragging along Edward with me for apartment hunting, since Rose was busy shifting into her new home and Alice was out of town on a business meeting.

"Bella, are you sure this is not the one?"

"I'm telling you Edward... this great place doesn't feel like it should be rented out for so cheap... my guess is something is wrong with apartment."

"Maybe... I guess you're right. But you're going to have to make a decision soon... we've seen nearly 20 places and your lease is almost up."

"Yeah... but all the good places are way over budget without a roommate... and the other places don't really make any sense and have no facilities or proximity to anything... ughhh this is so fucking frustrating."

"I'm sorry I didn't mean to make you anxious... Calm down love." Edward was rubbing my back, trying to get me to relax.

I took a deep breath -

"I'm sorry Edward... you shouldn't have to be here... you can leave anytime -"

"Move in with me." My eyes widened at his statement. "I know it's very early and we've barely even gone out properly... but I have an extra room and... just move in with me Bella..."

I think I lost all ability to speak.

A/N:

Hello readers. I'm sorry for the delays in posting. In order to articulate my chapters better and deal with my busy schedule - I have decided to post new chapters every other day, or on alternate days (mostly, otherwise whenever I can I will post every day.)

Thank you for your patience and understanding.

Hope you enjoyed this chapter!