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I sit in the bathroom hung over the toilet spilling my stomach contents into the toilet. It's been about a week and a half since I took that test, a week and a half since I found out I was pregnant. Being pregnant at the age of 15 is not what I had planned for my life, living this life isn't what I had planned in my life. I know Kris is going to kill me, he's going to hurt me because being pregnant I can't work for him, I can't do what he wants me to do, he's going to kill me. There's pounding on the bathroom door as I continue to throw up in the toilet. "Jordyn, you little bitch! What the fuck are you doing in there, I have a job for you!" Kris yells as he pounds on the bathroom door.
"I will be right out," I say as I try to think of ways to get out of this, to break away from this life without getting killed, getting out of this life before Kris finds out about the baby growing inside of me. "I will be right out."
"Let's go, Jordyn, I have customers waiting for you, let's go," he says storming into the bathroom breaking my privacy. I stand up from the toilet, looking a mess, my hair all over the place, dressed in sweatpants and a cami. "Jordyn, what the fuck?" he asks as he looks into the toilet. "Are you sick?"
"I'm not feeling well, no" I say honestly as I pull myself together. I walk over to the sink and wash my face.
"So you're in this bathroom throwing up in MY toilet, keeping ME waiting, keeping my customers waiting? Is that all that's going on here or is there something you want to tell me about?"
"Kris," I say shaking my head in fear, "no, I'm not hiding anything from you."
"Then you wouldn't mind taking this then," he says pulling a pregnancy test out of his pocket.
"A pregnancy test?" I ask, "why would you want me to take a pregnancy test for?" I ask nervously.
"Do you think I'm stupid? You think I don't know your body, I don't know that you're putting on weight, that you haven't had your period and now you're throwing up in the bathroom, take the test," he says tossing it at me, "and I'm going to watch."
"Kris," I say picking the test up off the floor. "I don't need to take this."
"Take it, Jordyn." He crosses his arms and I know I have no way out of this. I let out a breath before I take the test. I pee on the stick and then wait with Kris for the results that I know are going to appear. It takes no time for that second pink line to appear as he picks up the test. "You little slut," he says, "you're pregnant," he says before hitting me across the face. "How am I supposed to work you in this condition now, is it mine?" he asks.
"You're the only one I have sex with that doesn't wear protection," I say honestly, "so yes the baby is yours."
"Son of a bitch," he says before he hits me again. I take it like a champ, it's not the first time and I know it's not the last time. "I don't want that little bastard," he says, "we're getting rid of it, and we're getting rid of it now."
"No," I protest, "I can't, no," I beg.
"Jordyn, I can't work you while you're pregnant and I don't want a bastard child. I don't want a baby," he says, "we're taking care of that right now."
"Please no," I beg, "please no," I say with tears in my eyes. As much as I don't want to be pregnant I don't want to get rid of it either.
"Shut up," he snaps before pulling me by the arm and pulling me out of the bathroom.
Kris begins his assault on me I scream out as he throws me into the wall, and then into the dresser of his bedroom. I fall to the ground. "I'm going to kill that little bastard," he says before kicking me in my stomach multiple times, hard swift kicks to my stomach as he tries to abort my child in a violent way because he can't take me to a clinic because then he risks me escaping, risking being caught as a trafficker. He would never take the risk. He keeps kicking and punching till he causes a miscarriage, till he murders our child. "You should have been on birth control, once I kill this bastard you will be on birth control," he promises as he continues his assault.
I cry out, "STOP! DON'T! STOP!" I beg.
"NO STOP!" I scream out as I wake up in a cold sweat in mine and Seth's hotel room we are staying in for Wrestlemania weekend. I try catching my breath as I think back to the time I found out I was pregnant with Jonah, Kris tried so hard to kill him but Jonah was a fighter, he even sold him off but somehow God brought Jonah back to me, Jonah was meant to be mine, meant to be with me so I could be who I am now, not who I was.
Tears stream from my eyes as I think about my nightmare as my stomach feels unsettled like it has the last few days. "Jordyn," says Seth, "are you okay?"
"I just had a nightmare," I say breathless, tears streaming from my eyes and my body shaking. "I'll be okay."
"You're shaking," he says with concern, "what was it about, what was your nightmare about?" he asks.
Before I can answer him I am pushing him away and running into the bathroom of our hotel room emptying my stomach contents into the toilet as I hang over it, nauseous and unsettled. Seth comes into the bathroom and gets down on the floor with me, rubbing my back softly as I throw up, he is always there every time I get sick which has been a lot lately. "Seth, go back to sleep," I say leaning against the tub. "You have a big day today," I say. "You got in late last night, you need to rest before you have to go to the arena, I will be all right."
"J, if you think I am going to leave your side you're wrong, you're sick, you're having nightmares, you've been sick and having nightmares for the last week, what's going on?"
"I wish I could answer that," I say, "but I can't." He nods, "it was so bad, Seth. Kris was such a monster."
"So it was about Kris, you haven't spoken to Kris for years since he signed his rights away to Jonah, why are you having nightmares about him all of a sudden?"
"I don't know, Seth," I say before I get sick again as he comforts me. "Maybe it's because Jonah has been asking so many questions about him, what am I supposed to tell him? Kris didn't even want him. He wanted to kill him in fact, the day he found out I was pregnant with Jonah he tried to kill him but Jonah was a fighter he held on and Kris hated that. He couldn't work me while I was pregnant and he didn't want a baby around so when Jonah was born he sold him off and how I got him back I will never know but Jonah has been fighting since he was inside of me," I say as he wraps his arm around me and I rest my head on his chest. "I don't know what to tell Jonah."
Seth kisses the top of my head as he holds me close, "maybe we should tell him the truth. Maybe he needs to know that Kris is in jail and that he was a terrible man, that gave up his rights so that I could adopt him and be the father he needs in his life."
"I guess," I say letting out a breath. "When we get back to Florida we can sit him down and talk to him about it and let him know the truth, maybe that will stifle his curiosity."
"We can only hope," he says. "And why are you so sick?"
"I wish I could answer that too but I can't," I say as we sit on the bathroom floor, my head on his chest. "You excited for today?"
"Nervous and excited," he says, "I have been wanting this for a while. I have worked really hard to get here, it's just I don't know if I am ready for all the appearances and heavier work schedule that's going to come along with this. Are we going to be okay?" he asks.
"We will be okay," I say with a smile. "I am incredibly proud of you. I know how much this means to you and I am so happy that I get to be front row to watch you win."
"I couldn't have done this without you by my side," he says with a soft smile. "I love you, Jordyn."
"I love you too," I say with a soft smile, "well, I am feeling better and I am tired so I think I want to go back to sleep for a little bit and you should get some rest too," I say, "it's your big day." We stand up and I flush the toilet, before I clean myself up and then we head off to bed to catch up on getting some sleep before Seth has to go to the arena.
Later that day after Seth has gone to the arena with Roman and my brother Ben so they can prepare for their night of wrestling matches I am hanging out with Tayla, Joe, Leilani and Lia with Jonah before we head to the arena together. "So what has been going on with you?" asks Tayla.
"Not too much," I say as we are waiting for our lunch to arrive, "I'm not feeling that great lately."
"Oh really?" she asks with a smile, "what's going on?"
"I am just really tired but I have also been having nightmares which are keeping me up late at night and interrupting my sleep and I just have an unsettling feeling in my stomach. Did you have nightmares after everything that happened with Bray and Dean?"
"No but I had a really bad downfall from everything that happened," she says. "I haven't had nightmares but I went into a deep depression after all of it."
"I went into a depression too after my ordeal and I never really had nightmares about it before until recently and they all surround me becoming pregnant with Jonah. Everything I went through during my pregnancy that's what my nightmares are about."
"Interesting," she says, "anything else going on with you?"
"Just tired and sick," I say honestly.
"How long have you been feeling this way?"
"About a week or so now," I say. "I thought it was some type of stomach bug but we are going on two weeks here."
She nods, "and what about your period? Did you get your period recently?"
"Yes, I had it not too long after we got back from Aspen," I say.
"And was it a normal period or was it different?"
"What are you asking me?" I say as they bring our food. I nearly get sick at the smell of the ranch that came with my salad. I get Jonah's food for him and he puts my phone down so that he can eat his burger, even the sight of the ketchup unsettles my stomach. "Are you going to eat that pickle?" I ask him.
"No, Mama, you can have it," he says with a smile.
"Thank-you," I say as he hands me his pickle. I help Tayla get her kids' food ready since she does have 3 young kids, she has 3 kids under 3 and I imagine it's not an easy task for her. I know that she tried for years to get pregnant and then she was blessed with the twin girls and then she got a surprise of having Joe last year after Roman won his championship at Wrestlemania. I don't know how she does it but she deserves this more than anything, she was such a great bonus mom for Jonah when she helped me out a few years ago and I know how badly she wanted to be a mother, just as badly as I would love to have a baby with Seth. We have been trying for a couple years but it hasn't happened yet.
"So you're liking pickles these days?" she asks with a smile.
"I always liked pickles, I just like them more. I sat and ate half a jar the other day." I start to eat my salad not putting the ranch on it.
"You're not eating the dressing?" she asks.
"No, the smell," I say.
"You never answered me, what was your period like?" she asks.
"I mean I guess it was a little shorter than normal. It was probably about a day or so. It was really light."
"Have you taken a test?" she asks me.
"A test?"
"You know a test," she says being discreet because of Jonah. He picks up on everything and doesn't miss anything.
"No, I didn't take a test," I say, "I didn't think I needed to, I just assume that I had my period that I didn't need a test."
"I had a test," says Jonah, "and I got a good grade on it," he says.
"That's great, Buddy," I say, "you should be proud of yourself, you do so well in school."
"I am proud of myself, thank-you," he says, "what test did you need to take, for school?"
"Just a grown up test," I say, "a test that I think if I pass will make your dad very happy."
"Oh," he says before biting into his burger. "When do I get a baby sister?" he asks. "I'm still waiting."
"When God decides to give you a baby sister," I say.
"Oh," he says.
"Well, I think after lunch before we go to the arena we get a test, you take it and find out."
"Sounds like a plan," I say with a smile if I am pregnant it's definitely different than I was pregnant with Jonah. I remember being very sick with Jonah and missing my period, that's how I knew I was pregnant and the tender breasts. I have only been a little sick and tired nothing else.
"I'm going to be so excited for you if you are," she smiles. "I have plenty of baby clothes to hand down to you."
"Don't you want another baby?" I ask.
"Someday," she says. "Roman and I did decide that once Joe is 18 months old we would start trying for another one. It's just 3 under 3 is crazy sometimes."
"Yeah," I say with a nod, "I can imagine. I'm kind of happy with Jonah going on 6 just in case it would happen but I never really did the baby years so when the day comes for me to have a baby I'm going to be learning brand new."
"Well, any time you feel like practicing just let me know and I can send Joe to you," she says with a smile.
"I might need some practice," I smile.
"Anytime," she smiles.
Tayla, the kids and me enjoy our lunch together before we head off to the arena for Wrestlemania. On the way to the arena we stop at a grocery store not too far from the arena so that I can pick up a pregnancy test. I am trying not to get my hopes up just in case it comes out that I am not pregnant because I have felt that disappointment too many times. It would be great with me graduating school in the next month and Seth getting a pay raise with his championship run getting started tonight. "Hey Beautiful," says Seth as he greets me at the backstage entrance when we arrive.
"Hey," I smile before giving him a quick kiss on the lips.
"Dad!" says Jonah with excitement, it's not very often we attend WWE shows maybe once or twice when they are in Tampa but I don't go out of my way to go to the shows. I'm only here tonight because it's a special night otherwise I would be back in Tampa and catching it on the Network just to see Seth wrestle. I grew up with wrestling all around me and it gave me bad memories so I don't really get into the show much just to see my husband and to support him.
"Hey, Buddy," smiles Seth, "you excited for tonight?"
"Yes! I can't wait to see you wrestle," he says.
"I can't wait to wrestle in front of you and your mom, how was lunch today?" he asks as we walk to his locker room.
"It was good," I say.
"Feeling better?" he asks.
"I'm feeling a little better," I say. "My stomach is still a little eh but I'm doing better."
"That's good," he says. "Do you need anything or are you all right?"
"I'm all right," I say, "I just need to use the bathroom."
"Do what you need to do," he says with a smile as we walk into his locker room.
I make my way to the bathroom in the locker room. I open the box containing the pregnancy test. I take it out of the wrapper and remove the plastic cap. I do what I need to do and then place it on the sink after putting the cap on it. I wait a couple of minutes, pacing the bathroom waiting for the results of the digital test to appear. I let out a breath as I pick up the test. Pregnant , appears on the screen as tears fill my eyes, I'm pregnant, Seth and I are finally going to have a baby together. We have waited two years for this moment, for this time to happen for us. I get myself together before I step out of the bathroom after putting the pregnancy test into my purse.
I walk out of the bathroom to see Seth and Jonah hanging out together. Seth is showing Jonah some wrestling stuff on his phone. I smile as I see Jonah sitting on his lap as they watch his phone together. "You all right, Baby?" asks Seth as he looks up at me.
"Yeah, I'm good," I smile, "I'm really good," I say trying to hide my excitement. I'm not ready to tell Seth yet.
"Okay," he says, "you were just in the bathroom for a while, were you sick again?"
"No, I'm feeling all right," I say, "what are you two doing?"
"We're just watching some wrestling," he says.
"Sounds like a good time," I say.
"It is mama!" he says with excitement.
"I'm sure," I say taking a seat next to Seth, "You ready for tonight?"
"I'm definitely ready for tonight," he says, "do you want to go to the after party tonight or do you want to just go back to the hotel, get this animal to bed and then celebrate my victory?"
"I think we have some things to celebrate," I smile.
"Hmm," he says, "I can't wait. Thank-you for coming to the show this weekend. I know this isn't your thing but I really appreciate you coming."
"I'm here to support my man," I smile. "I'm proud of you, Seth. You've come so far. I remember the days you were training and working in FCW and then NXT, then you came home telling me you got your WWE contract I'm so proud of you and tonight you're getting your first championship I wouldn't miss this for the world."
"Thank-you for the support I know this life isn't easy for either of you and I know it sucks that I am not home as much as I used to be but thank-you to both of you for letting me live my dream and for supporting me."
"You don't have to thank me," I say with a smile. "It's my job as your wife to support you and I know Jonah looks up to you and is proud of you."
"I am proud of you, Dad," he says, "I'm really proud of you. You're the BEST dad in the world!"
"Thanks, Buddy," says Seth as he gives Jonah a kiss on the top of his head.
Jonah and I spend a little time with Seth backstage before he starts to prepare for his match by putting on his special ring gear he had ordered special for tonight and once he starts going over his match in his head and stretching out Jonah and I wish him luck, tell him goodbye and make our way to the skybox seats to watch the show until we are escorted down to the floor to sit front row for Seth's match. There's just so much happening, and so many family members that they leave the front row open so that the families of superstars can take turns to see their family member wrestle, I think it's a great way to handle things. Of course I sit front row with Jonah, Seth's mom, Kaylee and Seth's Brother as Seth's match is advertised and shortly after his match is advertise and they show the build up to his match with Brock Lesnar, Seth's music blares out as I pull out my phone to record him as he makes his entrance. He looks so good in his black and gold ring gear. He makes his way down the ramp and I couldn't be any prouder of him and how far he has come. Seth makes his way down the ramp and just as he is about to enter the ring Brock Lesnar stops him knocking him off the ring apron, Brock starts it off by delivering an F5 to Seth right in front of us. Seth struggles to get up as Brock begins to brutalize him, whipping him into the barricade in front of us, it hasn't even started yet. Seth screams out with each hit Brock gives him. Seth is flung over the announce table multiple times. I can barely even watch it as Brock throws Seth into the ring. Paul Heyman taunts him outside the ring, Brock wants the match to start as the ref checks on Seth to make sure he can compete, Brock gets impatient and throws Seth out of the ring. Seth didn't even have a chance. He gets thrown over the announce table again. I have Jonah cover his eyes as Brock throws him into the hood of the announce table. Brock laughs as Seth screams out. Brock throws him into the ring and the ref starts to check on him to make sure he's okay. It's more brutal than I could imagine as the bell rings out. Brock continues to brutalize Seth, throwing him around the ring like he's a rag doll. "Is Dad okay?" asks Jonah.
"Yeah, Dad is okay," I say as I hold him. "He's going to fight back."
Seth's back is swollen and red as Brock continues to whip him around, Seth comes back to it by delivering a low blow to Brock before kicking him in the face. Seth hits him with a curb stomp and then another one. Seth hits him with a third curb stomp and he goes for the cover. 1, 2, 3, the refs hand hits the mat and the bell sounds out. "AND YOUR NEW WWE UNIVERSAL CHAMPION SETH ROLLINS!"
We scream and cheer for Seth as the referee hands him the championship belt. Seth gets up holding the belt in his hand, he swings it over his head as his music plays, the pyro going off as he celebrates, standing on the ropes holding it up in the air as he points to Jonah and me as we are clapping for him. I have never been more proud of him and to see him so happy with his victory means everything to me. He climbs down and rolls out of the ring. He comes over to us at ringside and shakes his brother's hand and then shakes Kaylee's hand before he gives his mom a hug as she cries tears of joy. He makes his way over to Jonah and me, he greets me with a soft kiss. "Congratulations," I say hugging him. "You deserve this."
"Thank-you, Baby," he says kissing my lips softly before he picks Jonah up, he hands Jonah the belt. "I'm going to take him backstage with me," he says. I nod as Seth and Jonah make their way up the ramp as the crowd continues to cheer for him. Seth stops at the top of the ramp holding Jonah before he puts him down, Jonah gives him a hug and Seth hugs him back before kissing the top of his head. I smile at their moment together as they celebrate his victory.
It's such a special moment to watch as I get tears in my eyes, I take a picture just before they go to the back and place my hand on my stomach, everything is falling into place for us. "So he doesn't know does he?" asks his mom.
"Know what?" I ask as we make our way to the backstage area to meet up with Seth.
"The baby, that you're pregnant," she smiles.
"How did you know?" I ask.
"I'm just observant, I saw you multiple times during his match putting your hand on your stomach and then when Seth and Jonah were having their moment I saw you put your hand on your stomach, so you are pregnant?"
"Yes," I smile, "and Seth doesn't know, I'm getting ready to tell him when we get backstage."
"Congratulations," she says with a smile before we share a hug.
"Thank-you," I say with a smile.
We finally make our way to the backstage area with security. I allow Seth to do his thing as his friends congratulate him and his bosses congratulate him on his victory. Seth finally greets me with a soft passionate kiss as Jonah giggles at our affection. We make our way back to the locker room after our kiss as we walked hand in hand. Seth was getting ready to leave the arena by taking a shower and while he was in the shower getting ready Jonah passed out on the couch in the locker room. I smile as I watch him sleep, he's definitely one of the greatest things in my life and it gets me excited for the baby that will be coming in a few months, I can't wait to be a mom again. I am smiling as Seth comes out of the shower dressed in jeans and a t-shirt and his hair pulled into a bun. "Come here, Beautiful," he smiles at me. I make my way over to him and walk into his open arms, he embraces me, "I couldn't have done this without you." He kisses my lips softly, "I'm ready to celebrate."
"Me too," I smile against his lips.
"I can't believe I'm actually the champion," he says with a proud smile.
"I have something to tell you," I say with a smile.
"What's up?" he asks holding me.
"Well, not only are you a champion, you're going to be a daddy too," I smile.
"A daddy? I'm already a daddy," he says.
"I know that but a daddy to a baby you and I created together."
"Does that mean what I think it means? You're pregnant?"
I smile and nod, "I'm pregnant, we're having a baby!"
"Oh shit, I'm going to be a dad, we're having a baby," he says with so much happiness before he takes my mouth, kissing me deep celebrating the news of us creating life together. I wouldn't have it any other way.
*A/N: What did you think? Please review and thank-you for reading.