CHAPTER 35 - A night to remember.

BPOV

Previously...

Of all things I didn't expect her to say that. Were we actually ready? was she really ready?

This Chapter...

Edward's eyes darkened, almost imperceptibly, but there was also some sort of anxiety.

"Bella... do you know what you're asking for?? I mean we shouldn't rush into -"

"Edward I'm dead serious... And I'm not rushing into anything. I have, in fact, been the one holding us back, and now I'm telling you... we are ready." I took a deep breath realizing he might not believe me. "It's fine Edward... Let's go back and just... talk"

"Believe me Bella... I want to... but... I don't want you to regret -"

I stared right at him, defiance and irritation must've been clearly visible on my face -

"Goddammit Edward... I'm not going to regret anything that involves us... we both know that..."

Edward was scrutinizing me... "ok Bella, we will go to my place and... talk... let's see how things go from there... ok?"

I nodded... but this man clearly frustrated me. What do I need to do, to prove to him that I'm ready!!??

The drive back to his place was agonizing. Edward was too silent... I didn't know what he was thinking... or feeling...

We reached his apartment and we sat on the couch in front of his fireplace...

"Bella..." he took a deep breath "I love you, and I mean it... but I don't want to rush things... I mean we just started dating, and you yourself told me, that your feelings when we first met, were all over the place... I don't want you to regret any of this..."

"Edward... seriously - it's sweet that you care so much... but I assure you again, I will never, and I mean never regret any of this or us, because -"

"Bella, we just started dating, I don't want to screw this up -"

"Jesus Christ Edward! I am here offering myself to you... and you're not interested... just tell me that! I don't know how many times to tell you that I would never regret anything, but obviously you don't want me that way. You should've just told me, that -"

"Bella... how could you say that, you know how you affect me!!??"

"Then why??..."

"Because I'm the one that's scared... I love you too much... that I feel if you regret anything... that you'd spiral and I would be the reason why!" Edward was shouting now... but I could hear the tremble in his voice. "I'm sorry Bella..."

"No don't... I'm sorry - but I'm telling you Edward... I love you too... maybe more than you love me -"

"Not possible" he murmured.

"It is possible... also the reason I'm now ready is because we love each other... and I want to be with you in every way possible... is it wrong of me to think so?"

"I'm sorry - I'm just scared of losing the one thing that's most important in my life..."

"Please no more apologies... I love you so much... I want this Edward... I need this..."

Edward's eyes gazed into mine, searching for the truth... he must've seen that I meant it because he leaned in to kiss me.

The kiss was slow but passionate, my hands automatically went to his hair. But the minute I tugged on it and Edward groaned, something changed... the kiss became more frantic.

I was now straddling Edward's lap on the sofa, his hands were roaming all over my body. His hands moved so close to my center, but they retreated back. I was about to protest when Edward pulled away. His forehead rested against mine

"Bella, do you want to take this to the room?"

I nodded, unable to speak.

As if I had no weight at all, Edward picked me up in his arms, my legs wrapped around his hips, pulling him almost too close. I began kissing his neck... well it was right there.

"Fuck Bella... " Edward moaned.

We reached his room, and he set me down. We were just staring at each other, so I pulled him in for a kiss. I started pushing off his coat and unbuttoning his shirt. Since I was fumbling, we broke apart and he aided me.

All the while, he was looking at me. His eyes were really so beautiful. Once his shirt was off, he kissed me again, this time slower. When my hands touched his skin, there was an intense feeling, like electricity... his hands were on my hips.

It was evident that he was allowing me to set the pace. I pushed him back. He looked at me questioningly. I started to remove my dress, and he began to help peel the dress off me.

The dress was collected at my waist, our breaths were labored. Edward's eyes had darkened considerably, and I felt the effect I had on him because we were so close. I couldn't believe I affected him as much as he did for me.

He helped remove the rest of the dress, and gently laid me down on the bed, with him on top of me.

"You are so beautiful Bella..." he whispered so reverently, looking into my eyes. In that moment, he made me feel absolutely beautiful and perfect. I blushed, but couldn't say anything more.

We started kissing again. Edward's hands were lightly trailing up, and across my hips.

But I needed more. My hands found their way down to his hips, and I began unbuckling his belt and pants. He stopped kissing me to help me, throw away those articles of clothing... they fell somewhere in the room.

We were both now only in our underwear. Neither of us had said a word. We were just lost in each other's eyes and kisses.

I couldn't take this sweet torture anymore, and my hands went to the elastic band on Edward's boxers. He removed his boxers, and then finally he slowly and sensually removed my underwear as well.

His hands found mine and he brought them up to his lips.

"Bella... I need to know that you are absolutely, one hundred percent sure of this..."

"Yes I am. I love you Edward... always will... I need you..."

He reached out for the drawer on his nightstand, but I held his arm -

"I'm clean and on the pill Edward... I want to feel you... all of you..."

He nodded - "I'm clean too, are you sure Bella?"

I touched his cheek. "I've never been surer in my life."

My legs wrapped around his hips as he slowly entered me. I felt a twinge of pain, because he was stretching me like I've never been stretched before and because the last time I had been with Riley was much before he even proposed to me.

When he was fully inside he asked - "Are you ok Bella?"

"Yeah just give me a minute."

Edward was kissing my neck, inciting the most pleasurable feelings.

When the pain subsided, I started to move.

Edward began to move too. Slowly at first. This feeling of pleasure was new to me. He seemed to be reaching a place I never even knew existed.

Our movements began picking up speed, and my back arched. I was moaning loudly, I knew that. But the sounds his moans were making driving me even more wild.

Our perspiration made our movements even more erotic and amazing if possible. Edward's hair fell on to his forehead.

"So perfect... my beautiful Isabella. I love you."

I knew I was almost there, my back was arching so high, and then Edward shifted his position slightly, and I instantly hit my breaking point. I tightened around Edward and he came with me too.

He collapsed on top of me, his warm breath on my chest. I was lightly massaging his head.

When we finally caught our breaths, he looked up at me, his eyes searching mine for any form of discomfort or regret, but he couldn't find any and he finally smiled.

I blushed back, with a small smile on my lips as well.

"I always wondered how far that blush would go... now I know."

My blush deepened. He chuckled softly. The vibrations from his chuckles did things to me...

He kissed me lightly on my lips, and he brought a wet towel to clean us both up.

After that, he pulled me into his arms. We were both happy and sated. I was drawing lazy circles on his chest, while his hands were lightly trailing up and down my arms -

"Thank you Bella... for agreeing to this date, and for this amazing and perfect night."

"No thank you Edward. I love you."

"I love you too... so much." He bent down for a kiss. I smiled at him.

"Goodnight Edward..."

"Goodnight my beautiful Bella..."

I felt a strong arm on my stomach, which almost scared me, but then I remembered the amazing night Edward and I shared.

It was crazy how having sex was more... just more when I was with Edward. Everything felt better, right and simply perfect. Even my sleep was much better, not that we slept much.

I have never ever felt this way.

Four times... we were together four times. I have never been more satisfied, in my entire life.

I glanced at the alarm, over Edward's shoulder. It was around 8 am. I guess it became routine for me to wake up early for my workout. But I don't think I needed one today.

I was feeling a bit hungry, so I gently removed Edward's arm from my body, and decided to fix us some food. I couldn't wear my dress, so I decided to grab Edward's discarded shirt. This was so cliched, but it felt fun and nice for me.

I was just looking for a pan, from the cabinet, when I felt two arms wrap around me and kisses being planted on my neck.

"Good morning beautiful... I missed you... you really are fucking amazing you know that..."

I turned around to kiss Edward.

A/N:

These two finally put things behind them and have started to move forward?

What's next in store for them.

Hope you liked this chapter!