The best and the worst of times

Chapter 37

"And you think that you're able to do it Special Agent Gibbs?" she says.

"I need to Doc or else I will be losing my heart and soul as a man and a woman that I love I will lose as well meeting her and falling for her hard," he exclaimed.

"That may be Gibbs. If you do follow through. You will need to discuss it with Loreile?" she responded with Gibbs shifting in bed after his latest injury with his body with scars that have all kinds of stories to them.

"I plan to Doc. I just don't wish to lose her just as I did with Jack Sloane being shot and killed. I wasn't able to do anything about it afterward having been in shock afterward."

"Okay. But are you still in shock or you're living now with Loriele before moving onto the next level?" she will have to say to him.

" We are with planning our wedding since coming back from California and the drama that had happened with Loreile leaving and with me coming after her only to get involved in a case with the local Cartel and others," he said with shifting in bed with his body getting somewhat stiff.

"Are you alright Gibbs?" She had to ask to know that staying in bed a long time is not a good thing.

"It's time for my pain medication no doubt having to be feeling the discomforting," Gibbs commented even though he could have stopped the session with Doctor Confalone.

"Let me call the nurses station and have someone come in with your medication Gibbs?" she responded with getting up to head for the intercom.

After speaking with someone from the nurse's station. Doctor Confalone asked whether he was still up to talking a little bit longer?

"It's fine with me Doc just as long as it doesn't take that long with the questions?"

"Of course not Gibbs!" she needed to say with getting up to loosen up with her muscles. "So tell me what is your idea of getting married for the fifth time?" she joked as he was able to laugh it off slightly.

"I hope for the last time, Doctor Confalone. Even though Shannon is married and with Diane dead. I only have to worry about alimony with Stephanie and Rebecca?" he said since he was actually able to work it out with the two to drop it in the courts.

"At least with Loreile, she was only married once with her husband dying in the diving accident with his team all dying with the metal falling to kill them?" Doc will say to him with the shake of his head.

"And it cost her a year of her life after the death of her daughter Elizabeth being killed in the rainstorm. I can sure understand her pain after I had thought that Kelly had died in the crash at age eight?" Gibbs said with emotion from his throat.

"She was able to realize that she needed to live again just like yourself, Gibbs?" Doc needed to point out.

"It's not been easy over the years and with finally lowering the barriers deep inside of me." he took a deep breath to continue on with the conversation. Loreile has worked hard to get me to the point of being sane and for when it comes to the job and my emotions in general." he said with his head shaking slightly.

"But yet you feel at times that you're been losing it as well?" she quipped with asking the question to have Gibbs thinking about it long and hard.

"Oh, yeah, Doc. But I am constantly working hard to control my emotions for when it comes to losing it so to speak!" he said with the shaft of his body in bed. "I need to be in more control of those feelings for when I am around certain people in my life."

"Why?" she will ask with needing to get up to walk around to get back her circulation.

"I just need to Doc. Especially Leon always trying to prove that I am weak in many ways." he choked out with his words.

"If you're going to try and be rid of Leon, You need to be smarter than him at times for when it comes to your own movements? You do know that he's been watching you carefully during the past ten plus years," she said with quietness in her demeanor.

"Tell me something I don't know Doc? I needed to stay one step ahead of him in everything I have done for the sake of the job and my own sanity. And no doubt Loreile knows as well. Even though she hasn't voiced it Doc?"

"She's a very smart woman no less!"

"And why I love her a great deal among her other attributes," Gibbs smirks at thinking about some of the memories.

"You're blushing Jethro?" she spelled it out to catch him off guard.