-Chaoter 39-
-Quinn pov-
I honestly have never felt so alone. Everything with Beth doesn't even compare to this. I at least had some people who would talk to me. Well I have someone who is talking to me.
I know it was dumb to let them in though. I was upset and on walk with Beth when they showed up. We talked and they made me feel good. I know it's probably leading to something bad though.
I just want a friend right now. Sadly they are doing that for me. Which is what brings me under the bleachers today. Smoking like I haven't done since the summer.
"You may need to slow down" I glare and they put up their hands with a smirk "You have almost gone through a whole carton and you will smell like it"
"Why I brought gum Noah" I sigh and pull out a fresh cigarette "I also have perfume and mouth wash in my locker"
"So you have been blackballed by your girlfriends?" I nod and he shakes his head "It not right! You did nothing but be loyal for them and follow what Santana wanted! They don't understand you Quinn"
"Dont trash them" I take a drag and then sigh "This isn't working"
"Why I got the good stuff" I watch him pull out a big blunt "If you want"
I look around then nod "Whatever takes the pain away" He hands it to me and I light it "Here's to numbness"
I put it to my mouth and take it in. I cough a bit but it even on the third smoke. I feel the euphoria wash over me and smile. This feels so freaking good!
Fuck going back to class.
-Time skip-
"Hey what's the time?" Noah lazily picks up his phone and goes wide eyed "What?"
"You missed the whole day" He starts laughing "It's four man"
"Nice" I stand up and start to walk toward the opening "This was a nice escape"
"To bad there isn't an escape from this" I feel my heart drop as I turn to see a angry trio of my girlfriends "Car! NOW!"
"Hey" Noah stumbles up and stands beside me "Fuck you! You ruined everyone's life enough! Rachel was better of without! McKinley was better off without you! You don't deserve Beth! Why don't you give her back to Quinn and give my rights back!"
Shelby's face is unreadable "Is that how you feel?" I try to answer but I have cottonmouth "I'll see you all later"
"Way to go Quinn" Brittany shakes her head as tears fall "Way to go"
"Come on" Santana grabs Brittanys hand "Let's go"
I watch them go and feel my tears falling. I try to yell but can't. I start to walk but stumble and almost fall. I feel a hand on my wrist and turn.
"They aren't worth it" Noah smiles "Why don't you come home with me?"
I rip my arm away and stumble out from the bleachers. I try to catch the car but it's gone. Way to fuck up Quinn. Why can't Quinn do anything right?!
I'm not Quinn though. Quinn has always had the wrong perspective on life. Quinn was made to be the perfect daddy's girl. I am not my fathers daughter.
I start my way home with a determine mindset. I'm gonna fix this as me. The real me that's inside this mess. The one hiding behind Quinn Fabray.
It's time for Lucy to have her second shot.
-Time skip-
When I finally get home I have gotten some saliva back. I slowly open the door and step inside. There's a strong lack of baby sounds right now. I finally hear familiar sniffles and sobs.
I walk to the kitchen and grab a water bottle. I twist the cap off and drink some. With a wet mouth I can finally speak. When I close the fridge I'm met with my puffy eyed mom.
"You!" I give her a confused look and she pokes my chest as tears fall "You caused them to go away! You made me lose my grand baby again! I thought you were gonna be better than us! I thought you were gonna be better than him!"
"What's going on?" I look around to see if anyone's gonna help "Where are my girlfriends?"
"Ex girlfriends" Fran walks in with a note "I'd tell you what it says but I don't wanna talk to you"
I take the note and read over it. Tears start to fall as I read it.
'To the beautiful Lucy Quinn Fabray,
I think it's better that we separate ok? You proved today you do not really wanna be apart of this relationship. I am sorry if I forced this on you. I just want you to be happy.
I am taking Beth, Rachel, and Sugar with me. Don't worry about us. Just use the money I'm leaving to get help. Drugs aren't good and you have mental issues you need help with.
I really did love you Lucy Q.
I just wish things could've been different.
Love,
Shelby Corcoran XO'
"Santana called you a bitch and left with the other two" I look at my mom feeling my heartbreak "Why would you go to him? Why would you not stand up for them?!"
"Cottonmouth" I shake my head and look down at the note "Where did they all go?"
"Why should I say?" I look at my mom who turns away "You did this Quinn"
"It is LUCY!" I see both of my family members turn toward me as tears stream down "You should tell me so I can get my family back! I fucked up ok?! I was hurt that I felt alone after being ignored yesterday! So I turned to Puck after seeing him...he made me feel less alone"
"Comfort inn" I look at Fran who is holding keys "Get there before I call to warn"
"Thank you" I run and grab the keys "Thank you"
"Go!" I nod and run to the door "Get our family back"
-Time skip-
I pull into the only comfort inn close to us. I'm immediately out of my car and inside the hotel. How do I get their hotel room though? Wait they brought Beth!
"Mam!" I run to the check in "My wife and daughter are trying to get in their room"
"Name?" Wait it's that easy? "Name mam"
"We booked it under hers" The lady nods "Shelby Corcoran"
"Room 215?" I nod and she sighs "Who are you really?"
"A girl who messed up and wants to make it right" She looks around then hands me a card "What's this?"
"Master card" She looks at her computer "I never saw you or told you room 112"
I smile and step back "Never said a word" I take off and run to the stairs "I'll be quicker this way"
I open the door and sprint to the first floor. I burst through the door and try to find the room. Once I find it I stop at the door. What if they don't take me back?
"It is worth the risk" I put the card in and open the door "Uhh hey"
"Should we call the cops?" I step in and see everyone sitting around "Like how is she even here?"
"Hear me out" I look Shelby in the eyes "Please"
"Fine" There commotion but Shelby holds up her hand "Just let her talk"
"I felt alone" I close the door and look at everyone "Noah found me when I was with Beth and made me feel less alone...like I didn't just screw up everything I've wanted..he talked and listened"
"So you exp~"
"I expect nothing" I sigh and look down at the ground "I do not expect you to come back to me, I do not expect you all to still love me, I do not expect you all to want me, and I do not expect you all to accept this apology! But I am truly sorry for hurting you all and..and I just want to be happy again...I want to finally be me and stop hiding behind the facade I've put up for years now..I wanna be Lucy"
It's silent for a few minutes "Look up" I don't and soon my head is raised by Santana "Theres those gorgeous eyes"
"You will have to earn trust back" I look to see Brittany to my right "But two of us are on board"
"All three are" Shelby comes over to my left "Let's do this right ok? No more quick motions for the relationship"
"Alright" I smile with tears in my eyes "Alright"
"So just like that it's fine?" We all turn and see Rachel being held back by Maribel and Sugar "You have messed up regionals order and your future! You have messed up peoples emotions and lives! This shouldn't just be sorry and it's fine!"
"Rachel settle down!" Shelby steps toward her "What has gotten into you?"
"She didn't stand up for you!" Rachel breaks free and steps toward us "She didn't defend you and you have just let her back in! That's not ok!"
I sigh and nod "Shes right" All eyes are on me again "I'll cover the room and you all can go back home"
"Luce you aren't staying here alone" Santana turns toward Rachel "You need to apologize!"
"What?!" Rachel's face gets angrier "THAT IS ABSOLUTE BULLSHIT!"
"RACHEL BARBARA BERRY!" Shelby steps toward her "You settled down right now!"
"Or what?!" Please don't say it Rachel "You barely acted like my mom before! Why try now?!"
The room grows silent but oddly less tense. It's like a bomb went off but for good reason and to help. We all look at the mother and daughter duo. Rachel isn't standing down.
"Rac~"
"No" Rachel starts to shake from her anger "You came and left me, you came and got Beth, you came and got sugar, and then you finally got me! Why was I not first?! Was I that low of importance to you?! Did you care that little about me?!"
"Watch it Rachel" Shelby doesn't move "Be careful on what you say"
"Fuck watching what I say!" Rachel steps toward Shelby "I needed my mom but you weren't there! Yeah I know things were said! But you still left! You decided to leave me! You could've had me but you didn't want me! So why now?! What is so special about me now?!"
"Because I was tired of hurting myself Damnit!" There it goes "Every night I was crying after I out Beth to bed..I would look at her and wish I was putting you to sleep! But then I started realizing that I was ruining beths life doing that..I was gonna come back to get you but I didn't have money. Becoming Sugars tutor and maid helped with all of the bills and helped me..it helped me finally become stable enough to get you finally"
Rachels face is no longer angry "So you really want me? Even though you can still love Beth and them?" Shelby nods and Rachel starts shaking again as sobs come out "I'm so sorry!"
Shelby catches Rachel as they start crying together. I feel a hand on my shoulder and turn. I smile as Santana is beside me. I pull her into me and then get pulled into Brittany.
I hope this is the true start to moving forward again. Because I really don't wanna move backwards. I think I'm going to do everything right this time. I wanna do everything right now.
Starting with being a better me. Quinn's days are in the past now. Now it's time to be myself again. It's time to finally be Lucy Fabray.
It's time to finally be happy again.