Chapter 40: Lexa
About a half hour later, I'm seated in the fanciest store I have ever been in drinking a bottled water and snacking on some sort of appetizers while Clarke is shopping. Now I could get used to shopping like this. Cree brought us in and talked to the salesgirl and told her that we were friends of hers and to treat us right, then to my surprise she said she would see us at dinner and to have fun.
I think Clarke was glad that she didn't hang around and I am good with whatever she wants. I can't believe she decided to tell everyone about us. I thought she wanted to wait but I guess she was worried that I would get tired of waiting on her since she thought there was something between Cree and me. I don't know why she would think that. I thought I had made it clear to her that I wasn't interested in anyone else but her.
I'm pulled from my thoughts by Clarke plopping down on the couch beside me. I smile and kiss her cheek, "Are you having fun? Finding anything?"
"Lexa, have you seen the prices in here? They are crazy outrageous. Let's just go somewhere else."
"Ya Amar, don't worry about the price. You just get whatever you want and then I need you to help me find something to wear to dinner tonight. I didn't bring anything nice to wear and the way Raquel was talking this is some fancy restaurant we are going to."
"No, I refuse to pay these prices even if it is designer clothes that you can't get anywhere else in the world."
"Babe, if you don't pick something out, I will do it for you. Now come on." I get up and walk over to a rack of dresses and start looking through them, when the salesgirl comes up."
She says, "If you see something you like and you don't see your size let me know and I will check the back for you."
I say, "Thank you. Clarke, do you see anything you like?"
"I told you, I see plenty that I like but…"
"Please, Ya Amar, let me do this for you. The price doesn't matter to me. It's just money, I can always make more. It only took me one day to acquire what I have so please let me do this for you. Just pick out whatever you want and try it on. Here, let's go over to the suits and I will pick something out first and you tell me which one I should get, but if you tell Ash that I am actually enjoying myself…who am I kidding, she won't believe you anyway." I laugh and walk over to the men's section. As I walk by the drink guy, I ask him if he has anything stronger than soda. He smiles and says, "What did you have in mind?"
"Well, I can't drink too much because I fight tomorrow night, but I could use a couple shots of tequila and a margarita for her?" He smiles and walks away. Meanwhile, I pick up a couple of suit jackets, a pair of black pants and a couple of shirts to try on.
When I walk over to Clarke, the guy appears with drinks. I hand a shot to Clarke and offer a toast, "To the first of many shopping sprees with my girl." I tap her glass with mine and throw it back. When I look, she is just staring at me. "What?" I ask. "Do you not want me to call you my girl? I didn't mean y-you…"
She takes the shot and then puts her lips to mine. All thoughts left my mind when her lips touch mine. I lost my breath and heard a moan escape her lips as she parted them. Our tongues met and began a sensual dance that blocked out the world. All that was left was this kiss: all encompassing, all tenderness, all passionate at the same time. We lost all concept of time as the kiss went on and on, our arms pulling each other closer and closer, until we heard a throat being cleared.
I gently pulled away from the most kissable lips I had ever had the pleasure of kissing to find the drink guy standing there with Clarke's drink. I grabbed it and mumbled a sorry and thank you before he hurried off. I turned back to Clarke and her cheeks were still flushed from the amazing kiss. I said, "Um…that was, I don't know amazing can we do that some more." I shake my head, "But, what was that for? I thought…"
She put her finger up to my lips, making me quit talking. "Lex, you need to stop second guessing yourself every time you say something. I don't mind you calling me your girl, in fact, I quite like the sound of it. I was just surprised, that's all. This is all new to me and it may take time for me to process everything."
When she finishes, I say, "I'm sorry. I just really don't want to screw this up and I have already made some big mistakes already. I'm new to this as well, other than Ash I have never been in a relationship. Now I'm not even sure she counts. Clarke y-you have changed my outlook on my behavior and the lifestyle that I have been living lately. I realize that I have been using the partying and one-night stands to…I don't know, dull the pain of watching you with Finn. You changed how I feel about myself. I don't want anyone, but you and I know you aren't sure about a lot of things but of that you can be sure. I'm not going to pressure you and if I do, please let me know. I'm just going to go with it, you set the pace, you call all the shots. Whatever happens, I'll deal with it then."
She smiled, "Are you expecting me to run out on you?"
I paused for a moment. I have worries, I'm only human, but I really need to word this right so that I don't offend her. "Not necessarily, but you know if you decide you want to explore, I won't hate you. It'd hurt, especially since you're really the first person I've ever dated, even though I guess technically we haven't actually been on a date, but I would completely understand."
She gives me this funny look and says, "Explain."
"Just…this is an entirely different world for you now and you may be attracted to me, but what is to say in a few weeks someone else won't catch your attention? You could go out to the bar or club and meet the love of your life and then I'd be dropped. This is something I've always worried about, but I'm willing to accept with you. I'm excited about the possibilities and I feel good with you."
"I wouldn't drop you." she says stepping closer to me. "I couldn't do that to you."
"You don't know that, and you can't say it won't happen. Neither of us know where the hell this is going, but…I'm trying not to think about it."
"Good. You have nothing to think about. Now, we have wasted enough time. "Let's see you in those suits."