-Chapter-42-Fireworks on New Years-
-Santana pov-
Today has been a very slow one. The club is over for New Years and we are having a nice party. Everyone is getting along so well. I am almost scared to hope it stays this way.
Beth has talked more, Juniper has crawled more, Judith is babbling more, and Amelia is so close to walking. Our family is all doing fine too. Ann is out of her wheelchair thankfully. It all is building up so quickly.
You know it will come crashing down. But I do not wanna focus on that. I wanna focus on the plus side. The plus side that we are together on New Years as a family.
"Hey" I turn to Blaine and nod "Your girls sent me over"
"They are so wrapped up with the babies" I put a hand on my stomach "I really want to have twins"
"You can still grow" Blaine smiles "I just hope to be godfather"
"So you can do gangster lingo?" His smile turns into a smirk and then we both laugh "I am so glad we came back to this place...we were gonna end the engagement in New York"
"Really?" I nod and look over toward the girls "Did they know?"
"No" I sigh and shake my head "It was all me"
He puts a comforting hand on my shoulder "Why?" I turn and look at him "Why did you wanna leave?"
"I tried to get pregnant twice over there" I feel tears threatening to flow "I tried twice and failed twice..I was not going to be able to give them more of a family...I was going to fail at being a fiancé"
"That would not have made or broke you" I look away and fed him still looking "Would it have?"
"I have always wanted to give birth to a kid" I wipe a stray tear away "If I would have failed again...I would have lost it all"
"They would not have left you" I do not respond cause it was not them "You would have left them?"
"I want to give them the world" I put a hand on my stomach as I watch my family laugh "This is the world they want"
Blaine does not say anything else and I am ok with that. We go into a slightly tense silence before he walks away. It is times like this I wish I could drink. But I have given that up to be able to have kid after kid.
Anything to give them their world.
-Time skip-Lucy pov-
"Hey" I jump and turn toward the doorway to see Blaine looking nervous "Is Rachel here too?"
"Yeah I am" Rachel walks over to us holding a changed Judith "What is goin on?"
"It is about Santana" I share a confused look with Rachel before looking back at Blaine "She...I should not really say"
"What is it?" He looks very hesitant "Blaine if you do not talk I will chop off your balls!"
"She tried two other times and failed!" I raise a confused eyebrow "She failed getting pregnant twice and then...she was gonna leave you two because she wants to give you the world and thought not being able to get pregnant...she thought she failed as a fiancé"
"The depressive episodes" I sigh and see Rachel shaking her head "That is why she is being secretive about her emails"
"She is going to keep having kids till we hit that dream number" I look at Blaine and give a small smile "Thank you..we will deal with this"
He nods and walks away "Stop hiding Santana" She slowly moves from the shadows looking down "I know you can not see your feet so face is please"
"You are mad" She sniffles and I see her body slightly shake "I-I just want one of you dreams to come true! I have always wanted kids! Rachel having one and then you probably having one...it scared me"
"Why did it scare you?" Rachel lays Judith down in her crib slowly "What happened in that beautiful brain of yours?"
"I thought you two would leave" I catch her as she starts sobbing "I love you! Pppplease! Do not leave me! I will carry them all just...just please!"
"No one is leaving anyone" I kiss her forehead and wipe her tears away "I love you and so does Rachel!"
"We would never leave" Rachel comes over to us finally "Why would we?"
"Cause" Santana sighs "I am a liar"
"And a thief" Santana looks at me confused and I move a hand of hers to my heart "You stop this baby"
"Mine too" Rachel mimics me with Santana's other hand "We are never leaving you ok? You leave and we will track you down got it?"
"Yeah" Santana sniffles with a smile "I understand midget"
"Now" I point toward the door "Someone owes us a song for lying and keeping a secret!"
She groans but smiles still. We follow her down and to the karaoke machine. Everyone watches as she picks out a song. There are some confused looks but some understand.
-Santana singing-
Every time that I look in the mirror
All these lines on my face getting clearer
The past is gone
It went by like dusk to dawn
Isn't that the way?
Everybody's got their dues in life to pay
Yeah, I know nobody knows
Where it comes and where it goes
I know it's everybody's sin
You got to lose to know
How to win
Half my life's in books' written pages
Live and learn from fools and from sages
You know it's true
All the things come back to you
Sing with me, sing for the year
Sing for the laughter, sing for the tear
Sing with me if it's just for today
Maybe tomorrow the good Lord will take you away
Yeah, sing with me, sing for the year
Sing for the laughter, sing for the tear
Sing with me if it's just for today
Maybe tomorrow the good Lord will take you away
Dream on, dream on, dream on
Dream until your dream come true
Dream on, dream on, dream on
Dream until your dream come true
Dream on, dream on, dream on
Dream on, dream on
Dream on, dream on, ah
Sing with me, sing for the year
Sing for the laughter, sing for the tear
Sing with me if it's just for today
Maybe tomorrow, the good Lord will take you away
Sing with me, sing for the year
Sing for the laughter, sing for the tear
Sing with me if it's just for today
Maybe tomorrow, the good Lord will take you away
"Thank you for snitching Blaine" Santana smiles "That honestly helped me"
"Oh no" Rachel points to the mic "Snixx has come out too and she knew! Me and her had a heart to heart! You or her are singing another song!"
Santana groans and then goes to the machine. I chuckle and pull Rachel into me. I love her brain sometimes. I am sure Blaine will get killed later.
-Snixx singing-
Do you ever feel like a plastic bag
Drifting through the wind
Wanting to start again?
Do you ever feel, feel so paper-thin
Like a house of cards, one blow from caving in?
Do you ever feel already buried deep
Six feet under screams but no one seems to hear a thing
Do you know that there's still a chance for you
'Cause there's a spark in you?
You just gotta ignite the light and let it shine
Just own the night like the 4th of July
'Cause, baby, you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go, "Ah, ah, ah"
As you shoot across the sky
Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go, "Ah, ah, ah"
You're gonna leave 'em all in awe, awe, awe
You don't have to feel like a wasted space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow
Maybe a reason why all the doors are closed
So you could open one that leads you to the perfect road
Like a lightning bolt your heart will glow
And when it's time you'll know
You just gotta ignite the light and let it shine
Just own the night like the 4th of July
'Cause, baby, you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go, "Ah, ah, ah"
As you shoot across the sky
Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go, "Ah, ah, ah"
You're gonna leave 'em all in awe, awe, awe
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through, -ough, -ough
'Cause, baby, you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go, "Ah, ah, ah"
As you shoot across the sky
Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go, "Ah, ah, ah"
You're gonna leave 'em all in awe, awe, awe
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Everyone claps and Snixx comes over to us. I can tell it is her based on the walk. We have gotten really close to her over the past year. She has grown in me.
"The clock is ticking!" Everyone turns to the tv as the ball gets close "5...4...3...2..1!"
"HAPPY NEW YEAR!"
I get lost though as I get pulled into a three way kiss. We have been trying to perfect this for a bit now. I thought the bellies would hinder it though. I am definitely mistaken.
"Let's make this years ours" I nod breathlessly as Rachel cuddles into me and Santana cuddles into her "It will be ours"
I nod my head and pull them closer. I love these girls so much. This year will be ours for sure. Every year after this one too.
We will get our ride off into the sunset. I just know we are gonna be ok.