III
That was how they spent the days: composing songs, learning instruments (he the harp and she the guitar), splashing in the ocean and the freshwater lake, lazing in the warmth of the beach, composing ballads about the clouds—he would sing one verse, then she; the next, until they had a full heavenly court composed of fluffy monsters.
Jack assured that he would stay to heal for three days and nights, but time in Ogygia didn't move right. He counted. He'd stayed out the second night, watching the stars and the silver slit of a moon. There was an epoch he'd written for Flynn (she hadn't heard it yet) that lasted thirty minutes when sung at the correct tempo. It was designed to cycle between Mandarin and English, so it would take an hour in total. Calypso came to join him in the garden.
The stars and moon never moved throughout the song.
Time does not have the same meaning here.
Did Calypso have any control over it? Was Jack experiencing more per second or did Ogygia have a different sun, ticking away on its own orbit exterior to the rest of the world? Would he leave in three days and Flynn be old? He didn't mind her being old, but it broke his heart to think her worrying over him for or their time together stolen by old age.
Memo to self: find way to spend entity with Flynn. Jack reasoned they could, whether or not the war was won. Either they'd end up in Elysium together if they won or the Fields of Punishment if they lost. That's where Greeks went when they died, right? Jack didn't mind either way, as long as he had Flynn.
Jack found the body on the morning of the third day.
Calypso went to bath. Jack learned not to be easily stumbled upon when she bathed, so she had plenty of space or time to find items she may have forgotten—combs, jewelry, soap, shampoo, clothing.
The morning was pleasant, though everything had been pleasant, like the weather itself didn't want to leave an impression that could indicate the passage of time.
Jack hadn't explored the island yet. He had wanted to spend as much time working on Calypso's feelings for Odysseus, but she avoided the topic. The Greek hero must have hurt her bad. She asked uncomfortable questions about Flynn—ones that grew more uncomfortable once she discovered that Flynn's face was scarred. Jack loved her scars. Calypso had used a word he didn't like: disfigured. Disfigured and barren, she mused. As though Flynn wasn't beautiful because she had marks from living life. Jack had never known Flynn without those markings. There was no figuring to disfigure. It was just part of Flynn.
That was their talk over breakfast, then she'd gone to bathe. He just hadn't wanted to be easily found, but not wanting to be easily found quickly turned to the realization that he could continue out of the hiding spot.
At Camp Othrys, there was always someone to make sure he was in the right place, at the right time. Someone checked to make sure he did his voice exercises before breakfast, lunch, and dinner. Someone walked him to his monster meditation sessions, his band practice, his room. Life was a continuous carousal of Flynn's, Luke's, his boys', and the titans' faces. Before that, the riders had been switched out for his family, teachers, pastors, and youth directors.
When was the last time he'd been alone?
Stepping alongside the cave, gliding his fingers along the rough, chilly exterior as a guide, he jittered with terrified delight. Hollowness fogged him for the first step: he missed band practice; singing with Calypso made him nostalgic for it. He missed Phil and the other monsters; recounting stories to Calypso conjured up their memories. But…
Everything was sharper here. Maybe he was allowed to explore.
There was no schedule. There was no "someone." He had some time before Calypso would come looking for him—whether if she paused half way through a bath to come find something or finished off completely.
There seemed no badness on this island. No monsters. No death. He didn't need to fear the walls screaming nor the ocean coming to eat him. This world felt less dangerous. Emptier. Sadder. Ethereal at times. But less dangerous.
With the excitement of calculated fear, Jack traced his fingers along the exterior of the cave.
He did not expect to find a groove in the façade and a second three feet after: a doorway tucked tightly behind aspen trees and foliage. When he sang to it, mimicking the gentle trill of Calypso's voice when she called her invisible servants, he did not expect the stone to give way to a passageway. Peering inside, he didn't expect to find a naturally-lit cavern, a mirror image to the one he'd been enjoying.
Winged creatures—birds?—exploded upwards from the hideaway, into some unseen escape above.
For a heartbeat, Jack wondered if Calypso had been wrong: maybe he did need his medication on Ogygia. This felt too fairy tale, too much like a demented stumble into a rabbit's hole. This cave eerily reflected Calypso. Here, the harp was abandoned in the corner, wood warped and strings broken. The ingredients and herbs in the shelf looked rotted to black dust. Mold and moths crumbled the white linens of the bed into a green moss. The crystalline ceiling caved to allow gentle, pleasant sunrays to golden the center of the room, where Jack saw the unmistakable shape of a skeleton.
He froze, staring. Sometimes, if he looked long enough, things would go away. Sometimes, they were a trick of the light. His therapists and counselor told him to wait before panicking.
His chest hurt. Had he been holding his breath? Jack leaned forward, his hands still trailing the wall. There were more grooves, these much closer, much more systematic.
Upon checking the markings on the wall, Jack's stomach dropped. There were numbers. The same kind some of the titans and monsters used: ancient Greek. They were carved into the walls—all of the walls. They twisted around the room, growing into longer numerical values. All of it was disrupted by one massive word, something that someone must have written in desperation or obsession:
Πηνελόπη
Jack knew enough Greek to read it.
PENELOPE
He took another step in.
More birds fluttered up through the hole in the ceiling. Jack flinched. No matter how many times he looked away, no matter how many steps he crept closer, the skeleton didn't disappear. Jack knelt on the grassy mattress to inspect it. Judging from the size, he guessed it was a child or a very small person. There was a hole in the top back of the cranium, sending spidery fractures around it like rims of embroidery. It could have been broken when the roof caved in or maybe it was a death infliction—Jack didn't have the coroner background to say.
Someone inhaled behind him.
Jack shrieked. He jumped, almost stumbling onto the skeleton. Instead, his legs buckled on a nearby box—a funerary box.
Calypso stood in the passageway. Her hair was damp, tinted to a deep brown. Its ends brushed her white dress, making sections semi-translucent. Wetness clung to her cheeks, but he doubted that came from her bath. Despite her eyes being shadowed, they were too wide.
Unless Jack sprouted wings to sore with the startled birds, she was in the way of his only exit.
Her voice was thick with emotion. "All ancient versions of the story have Odysseus leaving me with a child. Did new variations forget to mention that?"
Jack swallowed, horrified. He hadn't found a mirror world of their little relaxing paradise; he'd found Odysseus'. His prison and his child's tomb.
"You made it sound like the stories lied about you keeping him here against his will." Jack scrambled off the funerary box, glad it hadn't crumbled into a heap of rotted children's toys. His skull hurt—he was tugging at his hair too tightly. He removed one hand to gesture at the walls. "Are these—are these markings about how many days he was here?"
She laughed: bitter, dark, heartbroken. "It's not my fault he couldn't keep track of how much time passes on Ogygia," she whispered, "I gave him everything. Was kind and gentle. I offered him everything…" The wetness spread down her cheeks to drip into the increasing dampness of her dress.
Jack's hand trembled. He forced himself not to curl into a ball, to rock, to banish the reality of the situation with thoughts that Flynn would come to save him. "B-but, he had a wife to go home to—"
"He had a terrible fate to bear!" she snarled.
"But he didn't! After he left you, the Phaecians crafted him a marvelous boat, and sure, Poseidon destroyed it, but he fights off all of Penelope's suitors, and he—and they—you—you kept Odysseus prisoner from his wife for seven years for no reason! You are an evil witch! A 'terrible fate…'" Jack's mockery died to horror. He took another step back, so the waterfall of sunlight and the child's skeleton lay between their two spaces of shadow. Jack pressed against the cavern wall, feeling Odysseus' scrawling, the numbers of days he'd desperately clawed out before he was allowed to return to his love. "'A terrible fate…'" His memory whirled in the alarm. "That's what you said about me… Oh titans—Oh Flynn! How long have I been here?!" He racked his fingers across the grooves in the wall, as though Odysseus' ghost had kept a record in Jack's absentmindedness.
How many other caves did Calypso have hidden? Ones with corpses of other lover's children and other lover's imprisonments.
"Jack…" Calypso's voice chipped with emotion. She opened her hands towards him, as though for an embrace. "Come here. Let's get away from this tomb. Let's go sing on the beach or collect fruits and vegetables for breakfast…"
Something made Jack's skin tingle. Hands, gentle but firm, clamped around his arms and dragged him forward, towards her. Her invisible servants.
Jack squirmed and fought, but each heartbeat glided him past and away from the dead child, from where Odysseus carved his days and the name of his love, and towards the outstretched arms of a spider in a woman's skin.
The invisible hands released him at the edge of her fingertips. The warm, soft skin graced his neck.
Jack wrenched back. He ducked under her arm and out the tomb. Tree branches and foliage lashed his face and arms as he stumbled outside. The ground felt warm against his bare feet, the ocean breeze as soothing as a tranquilizer. His heartbeat pounded in cacophony to the easing whisper of the incoming tide. He kept running until he found the beach.
"Jack… you can't leave."
Her words came directly behind him, steady, with no indication that she'd run to catch up.
He whirled to find her standing there: perfect braid still dampening her dress, frown dripping with tears, face something he would find on a stained-glass window instead of before him in the planes of reality.
Water lapped up against his ankle. He swallowed down the salty air to quiet his stomach and the panic screaming in his head. "They'll come for me," he said, taking another step backwards. The rush of water hit his calf.
She shook her head. "They can't."
"I'll—I'll try every day!" Something sharp—maybe a shell—split Jack's heel, but he refused to look away. If he blinked, she might grab him again. "I'll swim as far as I can swim until I can't swim anymore."
Her throat bobbed with a sob. "I will not let you kill yourself in such a way! Besides…" She stared off into the distance, the dawn's glimmer reflecting off her almond eyes. "Don't you think Odysseus tried that? Where do you think he ended up as soon as he lost consciousness?"
Jack's jaw dropped. He shook his head and stomped a foot into the surf. "No—no—there must be a way—"
"Jack, you can't get away." All the mirth and sweetness left her voice reduced to a clogged drone. "There is no leaving this place. No matter where you go—"
"No—"
"—all roads lead back to me. And—"
"Shut up!"
"—I'm tired of being alone."
"I said shut up!" the words vibrated painfully in his throat.
Her lip quivered. "Why must you be so cruel, brave one?"
"Cruel? Cruel?!" Jack laughed until his voice felt hoarse. "What's cruel is keeping me away from my home—"
"I get you for at least seven years!" It was her turn to ball her fists in a fit of temper, like the pastor's daughter caught taking ice cream money out of the donation box. "If you stay, you'll have immorality. You'll have agelessness. You'll have your sanity!"
"I don't want any of those things! All I want is my family—"
"I can be your family—unlike that barren, disfigured whore who refuses to be your wife."
Jack's terror and panic twisted tightly in his stomach. Blood thumped against his ears. His fingers trembled as he clutched at the guitar string braided around his wrist. "You can't assume every person that washes ashore will fall in love with you, you presumptuous—"
"But, that's how it works. That's how it always works. You will love me." That fragile, kindly veneer chipped.
Jack thought about the notches Odysseus carved into the wall, about the other dead children probably hidden in caverns throughout the island. How many times had Calypso been abandoned over the years? He may have pitied her if it hadn't broken her mind and warped her into the exact, spoiled goddess Camp Othrys sought to destroy.
Sanity. She offered me sanity. Jack didn't want this ability to reason. Life made sense here and the sense it made was cold, dark, and absurd.
"Ms. Calypso," he whispered, "I know you're too old to be acquainted with this, but, Stockholm syndrome isn't love. It's exhaustion, compliance, and distorted empathy. Forcing someone to love you by wearing them down isn't love at all—it's perversion, it's defilement—" He scowled, locking his jaw. "Take back what you said about Flynn."
Calypso's beauty soured with anger. The island itself seemed to thicken with fog. "I don't want to hear anymore about Flynn."
"Why? Because what Odysseus said about Penelope doesn't apply here?" Jack demanded, reviewing the verses of the epic. Odysseus had complimented Calypso, caved to her, if nothing else than out of fear of a wrathful goddess. Jack snorted, "'I know that my wise Penelope, when a man looks at her, is far beneath you in form and stature.' You're not better than Flynn. She doesn't base her worth off needing a man's romantic love, you delusional, archaic bitch. And I'm never going to stop trying to get back to her. And if you think you won't let me go…" Jack's nails dug into the metal of his guitar chord. "I'm going to make you."
Calypso's eyes blazed with rage. The air went static, breeze abruptly dying, and the tide seemed to smother its unending whisper. As Jack had experienced some of the times Luke lost his temper to Kronos, Jack realized he was in the presence of a goddess—an immortal being with powers he could not fathom. And he was about to fight her to go home.
"I'm going to make you sick." Jack laughed. This wasn't the overpowering need to quiet his siblings. This was a much more calculated hatred. "And if you still won't let me leave, I'll make you sicker. I'll give you leprosy to rot off your nose and show you what superficial love gives you!"
She may have been a goddess that cornered Odysseus, but he was Jak-Jak the Plague Bringer, the Scourge of New Rome, the Shame of Apollo and he was ready to sing.
"Darling, all night
I have been flickering—"[ footnote]
Calypso's anger melted back to sadness. She raised a hand, and Jack wondered if here, already, was a sign of defeat.
The collar of Jack's shirt constricted. The strings—so carefully spun on Calypso's loom—obediently stretched up his neck. Folds of cloth twisted into his open mouth. The song died. He choked on the gag.
Jack fumbled with the material. He clawed where the ridges dug into his cheeks. As soon as his forearms came up, the front of his tunic fused to his shirt sleeves. The material tightened, binding him until he was stuck in the position of Van Gogh's Scream.
Something tugged at his feet. Jack frantically searched down. Strands unwound from the end of his pants, crisscrossing and weaving. He managed one step backwards before it cinched his feet together.
His choked screams clogged to whimpers. Jack collapsed into the water, thrashing. Salt water splashed into his eyes, mixing with his tears. The material soaked up what had once been a refreshing coastline.
Flynn! He wanted to shriek. Oh, titans, please—Flynn! As Calypso's wet dress sashayed closer, the pounding in his head increased, encasing him like the full body straight jacket she'd hidden in his clothing.
Calypso's dress winkled with the layering of stratocumulus clouds. The soothing lull of water resumed, a mocking cacophony to his clashing heartbeat. He wished the ocean would overtake him, that the waves would encircle him like this binding and drag him into its uncaring depths, away from her caring embrace.
Fingers graced his cheek. They were warm to the touch in the iciness of the island. Jack sobbed, thinking about kissing after Flynn's fingers in the morning, about never getting to feel her calluses again.
These fingers, Calypso's fingers, were silky, salacious, and knew the methodical patience of a spider feeling its web vibrate. "No, Jack," she cooed, lifting his head from the sand and water. "No, you won't. You're going to stay here." She curled the strands of his hair off his forehead. Her dress—more suffocating material—pressed into his cheek as she lay his head in her lap. "And we'll be happy together forever." Or for seven years. Or at least until a god came to save him.
They sat on the edge of the beach, staring off into an eternal sunrise with the sound of her hums and Jack's whimpers in euphony with the tide.
Seven years. Or until a god saved him.
Jack had forsaken all gods and time didn't pass in Ogygia.
Author's Note: Thank you so much for reading! and thank all of you for your patience at this time and your continued interest despite my hiatus! I hope you enjoyed!
Footnote: Silvia Plath.