Hey everyone, so it has been...five years? maybe a little longer since I last posted? So, what happened?
Well, lets start at the beginning. I started watching Youtubers and really getting into watching Youtube way way back in 2013, I had just graduated high school and entered college. It was an interesting time, the first Youtubers I watched were Smosh although I watched them in high school (senior year to be exact), I hadn't posted fanfic until later. I made friends, and felt...like I had a community of likeminded people around me, and people genuinely liked the stories I wrote about Ian and Anthony! I loved Smosh, and even though I lost steam for Ian and Anthony I will always credit my love of youtubers and youtuber fanfiction to them, because they helped me get started. They were also there for me in a time in my life where I was, incredibly lonely in my personal life. I began to look at other Youtubers and watch them and their content. Which was when I was introduced to...
Dan and Phil
I started watching Dan and Phil in 2014 and I fell in love with them.
In my personal life, I was going through a lot of things that made me feel...less than stellar but Dan and Phil helped. They made everything seem ok, I had something to look forward to. I even met some great friends because of them, and though I've since lost contact with these people they at the time were some of the greatest friends I had. At the time, I had no direction in my life, at all. I was taking classes just to take classes at Uni, because I had no idea what I wanted to do with the rest of my life. I was aimless, and going down a very very dark spiral, but...writing fanfics about Dan and Phil, it made things seem a little brighter. However, in 2016 I began to experience very very dark emotions as my parents were breathing down my neck, and I began to get burnt out about my fanfics. As much as I loved them, I started to really, really feel like they were going nowhere, and I was overwhelmed by everything. Overwhelmed by school, overwhelmed by my parents, overwhelmed by fanfics that needed updating, overwhelmed by more ideas in my head that weren't stopping, overwhelmed by a Tumblr RP group that I joined.
It was all too much.
Also I have no idea what happened at the time, but I began to lose interest in my fanfics. Fall 2016, I took a Communications class, and my teacher showed us an episode of South Park, and well...I began watching it. I think it was also during this time Tabinof was going on, so there weren't a lot of uploads so I was like 'ok well, I can just go write South Park fanfics until Dan and Phil come back, maybe writing for a new fandom will get rid of this burnout. Well, I became immersed in the South Park fandom and while great at first...it turned out to be not so great. The fandom was nice and again I met nice people, but there were a couple of people in that section of the website, who shall be anonymous that made my experience not so friendly. It got to the point I abandoned that fandom, and just deleted all my South Park fanfics. I just couldn't deal with it anymore.
In my personal life, I had dropped out of Community College, and went to a school to get my certificate for Medical Assisting during this time. Unfortunately, it didn't guarantee me a job, and I was virtually unemployed for a year. At least until my sister's friend got me a job at a fast food place last year. So, guess whose now a worker at a fast food place? This moi.
I also experienced other things in my personal life that were less than stellar, including coming out as Bi...and then being scared back into the closet by my family, a toxic and abusive ex, and the ending of a long friendship...though I've made some new friends too. Essentially, my life has taken...kind of a downward spiral again. Ironically, in this downward spiral, I began to rewatch Dan and Phil's videos...the ones I missed out on in my five year absence and it was like...seeing old friends again which sounds so stupid probably. I even got the urge to update my phanfics and write some more. I don't know it feels weird trying to re-enter a fandom you abandoned for five years. Idek if anyone would care if I did return and started writing and updating again. But I'm glad that I saw them again, I even preordered Dan's new book! I just...really needed to see them again I guess.
Anyway that's what I've been up to the last five years lol
I have been a mess, but if you'll have me and my phanfics...
I'd like to start writing again, and this time I won't disappear for five years lol.
Thank you though, to everyone for reading my fanfics, and leaving comments, and even adding me to your fave authors list ' I would get lots of notifs about that! I'm glad you liked them.
If you have read this far, thanks but now I gotta tune out.