Do That Somewhere Else Please
Warning! There will be a sensitive topic within this chapter! As well as some ... "slight stuff" ... towards the end of this chapter.
- Dipper's POV -
My eyes slowly opened to a ceiling. Everything was blurry at first and I thought I have been in the hospital. Soon the colors begin to come back, reminding me I was in my room. Was it all a dream? It felt like one. Too weird to be a reality. I hope it was... Because I don't want to have a confused and stressful mind. I slowly rose up, hearing a familiar voice. "He's up!" I rubbed my eyes before gazing over, spotting my sister first before finding Kahlil on the floor.
...
.
Wait. What?
"Are you okay, Dipper?" Mabel asked.
"... Are you guys real?" I asked.
"Go to sleep, you're still dreaming." I heard Kahlil say. I was literally about to do just that until I realized I wasn't in a dream. Or the fact that I can't sleep when I'm already sleeping in a dream. Don't think that made any sense...
"Don't make his mind work after he passed out." Mabel said.
"Sorry, just wanted to see if he did." He said, snickering.
"... Where did I pass out?" I asked.
"You fainted in front of the school. Where that scene happened." She answered.
"... So it wasn't a dream?" I asked.
"No silly. It was all real." Kahlil said.
"Wait. What. I don't believe it." I said.
"It was a big surprise to me too. Unlike you over there, I didn't stress over it and took it like it was my savior. I did want to get out of the situation." My sister said, frowning.
"... So you're telling me that... besides reading minds. YOU CAN STOP TIME?!" I said, glancing at Kahlil.
"Yep!" He chirped.
"... I think I need to go to sleep again." I said.
"Aww, don't be like that. It's a useful ability." He said, frowning.
"Yeah, and I need to go to sleep." I said.
"It's daytime, Dipper." Mabel reminded me.
"... How long was I out?" I asked.
"About an hour." Kahlil answered.
"... Can I still go to sleep?" I asked.
"Oh my god. No, Dipper. Don't avoid your boyfriend." She said.
"I'm used to it by now. But in all seriousness, we know you're not going back to sleep." He said.
"... I wish." I lied.
"Sure, keep lying and see where that lands you." He said, narrowing his eyes.
"How can you be so mean, Dipper?" Mabel asked, turning to me as she sat on the floor.
"He's been like that ever since." Kahlil said.
"With you only. To others, depends if they get on my nerves as you do." I said.
"Aww." He snickered.
"How is that cute to you?" I said, eyeing him.
"You won't get it." He snickered once more. I grunted before turning to my sister.
"You two are really something..." She said. "Anyway, I cannot believe that you showed your powers in front of Dipper!"
"I told Dipper beforehand. I just didn't tell you." He said.
"And I didn't know you knew he had powers." I said.
"Well, at least as twins we have a better power than you do!" She said.
"Is it twin telepathy?" He asked. "Some twins have that with each other."
"... Aww, I thought we were the only ones." Mabel frowned.
"It's still a unique ability to have with your twin." Kahlil said.
"I guess it is." I said, resting my head on my knees.
"Oh!" My sister said, soon digging in her bookbag. "Look what my math teacher gave me!" She pulled out one thick packet. And from the looks of her face, I already know what it is. "I'm not doing this."
"Then you will fail." He said.
"It's so big!" She said. "I can't solve all of this in one week!"
"With my help, you can." I said.
"Yeah... Did you get one?" She asked me.
"Nope. Not yet." I said.
"Count me too." The blond said.
"... You people are the luckiest." She said, looking disgusted.
"I guess we are in many ways." I chuckled.
"Many ways?" He said, raising his brows. "Like what?"
"I'm not naming them all." I grumbled. "I'll list a few."
"Aww, I wanna hear the full list. See which point we both have the luckiest... times. Actually... list some and I'll list mines." He said. I looked a bit surprised.
"Does this mean storytime?" Mabel asked.
"I guess if you want to call it that way." Kahlil said.
"Alright. At least it'll be better than this giant packet." She said, placing it down. She sat up and ready to listen.
"... Well, we both have birthdays at the end of the month. Don't think that counts as lucky...-"
"It kinda does." She said.
"Well, okay. Um..." I trailed off, trying to think anymore. Although my brain wants to work slow.
"Here I'll list one of mines." He said. "On the day that I met you, I was actually going to commit suicide." I widened my eyes, lifting up my head, and stared at him. My sister did the same thing. "But seeing you made me change my mind. And I think at that moment, I think you came at the right time to make this life one of the luckiest I've ever had."
"... Oh my god." I said.
"You took the words out of my mouth." I heard my sister said.
"I know it can be shocking, but... It is what it is." He smiled.
"So meeting me made your life much better than before?" I asked.
"..Hmmm. Pretty much. Although I do hate one-sided love. That was the pain." He said.
"I feel guilty now." I said, frowning.
"Hey, it's not your fault you didn't like him before." Mabel said.
"I know. And even if you crushed on me for so long, you never stop being my friend." I said.
"I didn't want to. I think it'll upset you." He said.
"Dang, that must of sucked." Mabel said.
"Not really. It was fun flirting with an oblivious "friend." He snickered.
"Oh yeah! Dipper is one oblivious person." Mabel giggled.
"Yeah... I dont know how I didn't spot the signs. I pretty much thought it was normal until I ended up feeling feelings for you." I said, looking to be embarrassed.
"Nah. You still didn't know I had a crush on you up to the point I told you." He said.
"... Now I think about it, yeah." I nodded.
"However, you are not oblivious to certain jokes." He said.
"No, stop it. We're not talking about this when my sister is here." I said, glaring at him.
"Alright." Kahlil chuckled.
"Certain jokes?" Mabel asked.
"You'll get it when you get there." I answered.
"... Okay." Mabel said, giving up in the slightest.
Silence filtered itself in as I quietly rested my head on my knees again. I stared down at my sister, staring down at her packet. I slowly grip the bedsheets as a thought appeared in my head. Will it work though?
"Mabel?" I said.
"Yes?" She answered, looking up at me.
"... What are you going to do with your ... boyfriend?" I asked.
"... I don't know." She shrugged.
"You don't know?" Kahlil said, raising a brow.
"I don't know." She said, frowning slightly. "I... I know it's bad staying with him but it's worth it-"
"It's not. It's never worth it!" I said, interrupting her. "Be with someone that will make you happy and not manipulate you into this shit."
"Since when you're the romantic-"
"I'm serious, Mabel. Your relationship with Mermando isn't working so well and I'm not saying it's your fault. I don't know what's it's like to be in an abusive relationship like these but... seeing the signs of it on your face... I can't help but want to know what's been going on between you two. I wanted to know if you were doing well. Instead of this so-called "anti-self" and ... frightened appearance." I said, looking stern. Mabel kept silent, hugging her knees to herself.
"He's not going to find out, Mabel." Kahlil said.
"We're not going to tell him. And I'm sure you can trust us." I said, assuming Kahlil read her mind.
"... Okay. Then what do I do?" She asked, looking up at us.
"I would just stop the relationship from there on. He has brought so much suffering down upon you. And you don't deserve none of it." I said.
"But what if he... what if he...-"
"After what I pulled an hour ago, don't think he'll be coming back." The blond said.
"... You sure this will work, right?" She asked.
"Yes. Cutting ties off with someone who could be so cruel to someone to the point they're treating you like an object is a good thing." I said, nodding.
"... Okay. I will do it. I will break up with him." She said, a faint smile appearing on her face.
"That's the spirit!" Kahlil chirped.
"Thank you, guys." She said, her smile growing wider.
"You're welcome." I smiled.
"... Would you really be thanking me?" He asked.
"Kahlil don't start it." I said, eyeing him.
"Yes! I would! After what you did today made me realize you're terrifying when you're pissed off." She said. I chuckled, almost spilling out with laughter.
"Yes, I am. I don't like it when people hurt my friend." He snickered.
"But also, that he was the dangerous person this entire time." She said.
"I guess I did a good thing." He said.
"Yes you did, and I'm so proud of you." I said.
"... Really?" He said, turning to stare at me.
"... Well not the point where well, I passed out but yeah." I said.
"Yeah... you're mind was so stressed that I made it worse..." He said, looking guilty.
"You kind of didn't. You made me rest my mind. So you did two good things today." I said.
"... I guess." He shrugged.
"Why don't you appreciate the things you do?" Mabel asked.
"... Um, I don't think I... I..." He trailed off, staring down at the floor.
"You okay, Kahlil?" I asked, concern rising in my voice. He didn't say anything afterward, making me worry even more.
"Kahlil?" Mabel said, looking concerned. I turned my body and stood up. I quietly walked over and say next to him. I place my hand on his shoulder as he flinched and looked at me. "You okay?" I asked softly.
He looked away and sighed. "I did it again, didn't I?"
"Take your time if you need to." I said. I watched him smile softly.
"Well, somewhat that question makes me remember stuff I didn't want to so I'm not going to answer it." He said.
"Okay! Sorry if it made you uncomfortable." She said. I widened my eyes, shocked at her response.
"It's alright." He said. My sister spotted my reaction and smiled.
"Did I do well?" She asked.
"... Yes, yes you did." I said.
She smiled even wider. "That's good!"
A couple hours went by as the sun was going down. Mabel ends up starting in her math packet, trying to solve the easier problems before coming to me or Kahlil for help. Although, I've gotten bored and decided to help her with any of the problems. It was a nice time, the three of us talking like the old days. However, I cannot compare and believe that this time will be the same as the old times. All I can do is enjoy these times. I looked out the triangular window, watching the sun's light fade away as the sun sets in the horizon. My hands rested in my lap, my mind working calmly as it should. I overheard my sister talking to Kahlil once more. I didn't mind much of it until her voice raised. I turned my head and looked over.
"Well! Thanks, guys! Looks like I'm ..." She trailed off as she flips the page of her math packet to how much she has gotten done. "4 out of 15 pages done!"
"30 if you count both front and back pages." Kahlil added on.
"Yeah... I hate that." She grumbled. She soon snapped back to her happy self. "Anyway, I'm going to go downstairs to hang with our Grunkles." She said. "At least so that I can take a break from this."
"You have all day tomorrow to do it and the whole week after the half-day on Monday." I said.
"I know. Just math gets... complicated so fast." She said. She picked up her packet and placed it back into her backpack, soon cleaning up all of the paper sheets and pencils. "I hope you guys will be fine on your own."
"I think we will." Kahlil said.
"Nothing but chilling and relaxing." I muttered quietly.
"Alright!" She walked over to her bed to unplug her phone and walk over to the door. "If you guys need anything, always call from above!"
"Okay." I nodded. I watched her leave as she shut the door. I sighed and grew silence.
"Chilling and relaxing? What is this, some relaxed nightclub?" I heard the blond say.
"It's not. Why would you compare this to a nightclub?" I asked.
"Oh. You must not hear the benefits of what you can do in one." He said. I turned to give him a confused look. All he did was just smirk at me. And that gave me an idea of what he was talking about. I glared at him before turning away.
"Is anything you say always going to be dirty?" I asked.
"Not always, dear. Only sometimes." He said. I heard footsteps coming closer to me until I heard my bed frame creaking. I turned and stared at Kahlil who was leaning on the frame.
"Yeah, right." I grumbled before looking away from him.
"You do not trust me?" He asked.
"I do. It's just that you love to pull your dirty jokes." I answered.
"Mhmm, that is true..." He trailed off. I grew silence once more, staring out the triangular window. I watched the light again, hoping it'll come back for another day. And soon it was dark. I stood up and walked over to the lamp, turning it on. I turned and stared at Kahlil, who appear to be nervous. I tilted my head, concern rose within me. "Something wrong?" I asked.
"I'm starting to think I'm afraid of the dark corners of every room." He said, a hint of fear in his voice.
"Afraid of them? Why?" I asked quietly.
"... I don't want to answer that." He quickly said. His eyes were glowing a yellow blur, looking or trying to avoid the corners of my room. I was still curious however, I decided not to ask again. "Alright." I said quietly. I walked back to my spot and sat down. I stared at my lamp before looking back at him. "I can ensure you that this room is safe."
"I know... I know it is. It's just... sometimes I get an inch of fear from the corners for no reason at all. Even if there's nothing dangerous about it." He said quietly.
"... I'll assume it was in the past." I said.
"It was... just... staring at the only space in the quiet, dark room... I guess... I just... avoid the corners from now on." He said quietly.
"... I can... probably understand that." I said.
"... You don't need to relate." He said. "I don't want anyone to relate to what I experienced."
"No, no... Just the fear of being afraid of something that isn't really frightened by most people." I said.
"... Oh, sorry." He said quietly, looking guilty. "How.. or what are you afraid of?"
"... Maybe... Well... I don't think I have many fears, I may have some from the huge change that altered some of myself." I said, reaching up to my eye patch. I took it off and stared at it with my good eye. "But... I don't think they're ... going to show."
"They might. It really depends on the situation." He said.
"I... I hope they don't show." I said, a slight fear sparking within me. "Although... I didn't like how I just froze up today. I didn't like it at all. It was like someone or something has stopped my whole body from ... moving or functioning properly." I said. "That shouldn't happen right?"
"... It's a sign of something." He said quietly.
"... But... it shouldn't have happened, right? It's... disordered... and odd... right?" I asked.
"... Mhmm. However, you cannot control what you are not aware of. You can try and overcome it of course, but... certain things just get past your barriers and it's too late to stop feeling that way. And sometimes ... you just keep letting it happen." He said.
"... Yeah. I'll try to prevent it from happening..." I said. "Probably avoid people who will yell in my face."
"Oh, that part... You know, if I didn't hold myself back, you would be seeing blood on the grass." He said, his voice becoming cold. I widened my eyes, staring up at his different eyes. We don't need a dead body. He snickered, smirking afterward. "You know I won't kill anybody."
"How do I know your serious?" I asked, crossing my arms.
"I am! I won't ever doubt to kill anyone. Even if I want to so badly." He said. "Not for the "oh, killing is fun thing" but doing it for getting rid of bad people in this world."
"Eh. I'd rather wait until karma comes around to bite them in the ass." I said. "Make them feel like the bad actions that they did ruin their entire life."
"... You know what, that is a better idea than mines." He said, nodding.
"Good. I don't want to be hearing dead bodies on the news." I said.
"Nice to know you're not going to trust me." He grumbled.
"I was joking. I know you're not going to kill anybody." I said, raising my brows.
"How do I know if you're joking?" He asked, raising a brow.
"..." I frowned and turned away. I guess I wasn't, but I really didn't mean it. I know you're not going to. I felt the bed bounce for a moment making me want to turn over to the cause. As I was about to look over, the blond pulled into a hug. "And I don't mean my slight annoyance." Kahlil said softly. "Don't get all frowny now."
"I thought you were serious." I said quietly.
"You'll know I'm serious when I don't act playfully." He said softly.
"Okay..." I said quietly, keeping my voice down.
"You don't have to keep your voice low." He whispered.
"I know... I just don't know what to feel at the moment." I said. He slowly let me go, allowing me to look up at him. From what he said a few seconds ago, he was right. There were no signs of irritation. Just a concerned look. "What do you feel the most?" He asked.
"... Guilty." I answered, frowning.
"There's nothing to be guilty about, alright?" He said softly, creating a soothing ambience around me. "You didn't hurt me yet."
"If that's the case... then I guess everything is fine." I said, the guilt slowly disappearing.
"Mhmm!" He smiled.
I smiled softly, feeling my cheeks growing warm. "I'm really glad to have you."
"You are?" He said, tilting his head.
"Yes. You make me feel better." I said.
"Well, I'm glad I do." He smiled once more.
"Um. Do I do the same to you?" I asked.
"Yes. Sometimes..." He said, looking away.
"Sometimes?" I said, raising a brow.
"Yeah... you can be annoying sometimes." He said, sounding as if he doesn't mean this at all.
"Am I annoying?" I asked.
"I did just said that you are sometimes." He said.
"Truthfully. Am I annoying?" I asked again, staring at him. He looked as if he was going to give up this playful trick that he's pulling on me. He looked at me and smirked. "I know that you're lying."
"Playfully.~" He said, slipping into his flirtatious behavior.
"Yeah..." I said quietly, avoiding looking at him. Because if I do, I'm going to get lured into his trap.
"Aww, you don't like it?~" He said.
"... That is a complicated question to ask me." I said.
"Why is it complicated?" He asked.
"Because I don't know if I want to give in to what you are doing right now." I answered.
"Aww, you should.~" He chirped.
"Why should I?" I asked, looking back at him. Why did I ask such a question to a flirtatious person right now? I know what their answer going to be.
"It'll be fun. You know that for sure, right?" He asked.
"I do..." I said, trailing off.
"Besides... we're on a bed right now-"
"NO." I said quickly, cutting him off. He snickered, quite enjoying the reactions I give to him.
"You know I'm joking, right? I would never do anything against your will." He smirked.
"I don't think-"
"You don't trust me, don't you?" He asked, saying what I was about to say.
"... I do. But only to a certain point." I answered.
"Then you don't." He said.
"... Okay, fine. I know you won't do anything without my consent." I said, giving up slightly. Although half of my mind is still holding me back.
"That's right. I would become something horrible that I don't want to become." He said.
"... At least you have good morals in your flirty mood." I muttered.
"Did you want me to have bad ones?"
"No! I mean...-"
He burst out laughing, "I'm joking, Dipper! Jeez."
I glared at him, wanting to end his playful matter. I've had enough of this. He soon stops as he smirked at me. "Aww, are you getting mad?"
"I'm not. I'm just getting annoyed." I said.
"You're getting mad. Admit it.~" He snickered.
My face grew warmer as his teasing continued, already making me feel a rage within me. "I'm annoyed. That's it."
"You sureeee?" He asked, tilting his head. "In my viewpoint, you're not by the way your face is looking red."
"You're not going to quit this, aren't you?" I asked.
"Until you admit it.~" He smirked. I sat in silence, calming myself down. Although the warmth didn't disappear, and I feel like it's a different reason for that cause. Probably because I'm thinking of something that I wouldn't do. However, I have the urge to do so. God, why did he lured me into his trap?! I knew I would act according to what he wants. I don't even know why I'm avoiding this all. I looked away from him, thinking silently. "You don't want to?" I heard Kahlil say.
"... I'm not mad anymore but sure, go ahead and see if you're correct." I said.
"Well I was a few minutes ago... until you drop the behavior... however... why are you still red?" He asked.
"... This is a sign of something bad." I answered.
"Or something good.~" He said, correcting me.
"... Yeah, it is." I admitted as I slowly looked back at him. His smile slowly turned into a devilish grin.
"You didn't once lie or try to go around it." He said. "I'm surprised."
"What's the point of it?" I asked.
"Amusement." He answered. I didn't want an answer but okay.
"Right... you do this all for yourself." I said.
"And..." He scooted closer to me, making me grow redder. "To cage you in this mist I have going on."
"Cage' You make it seem as if I'm a caged animal. No way out to escape." I said.
"Not quite. You're not doing anything to run away or react negatively to my actions. So I know what's going to happen next." He said.
He's right, I'm not. "And what is that?" I asked.
"I think you already know.~" He smirked. I couldn't hold back my smile anymore. I just couldn't. And I surely can't hold myself back for this one. It's a moment that I can enjoy for a bit, maybe more if I'm lucky.
I made sure my body was turned slightly to prepare what was coming next. Already I was beginning to lean in close as I watched him do the same. As our eyes close, and our lips connected, I lost my way to my thoughts. It was like everything was set in motion. I couldn't reach my thoughts and neither did I need to. Actions were already taking place. The awakening of my heart, attempting to jump out of my chest was bearable, enough to keep me pumping through this.
Was I realizing just how much my body was close to his? Nor how his arms found themselves around my waist? Nevermind the fact of how desirable this was. I felt so much pleasure, so much excitement shooting through me as he deepened the kiss. I found my hands digging into his hair. It felt silky, as well as being thin. After they were bored, I managed to take control and wrapped my arms around his neck, slowly pulling myself closer to shut out any space that was between us.
As soon as his fingers begin to move along my skin, blood rushed throughout my body, causing me to panic. A little noise escaped my throat before I quickly pulled my arms away and broke away from the kiss. I managed to catch my breath as I was bombed with so many thoughts in my head. However, it wasn't the end of this little mess. I was pulled back into the kiss, this time, more gentle with care. I froze with little room to work for, until I felt the back of my head, through my hair being rubbed. The sensation effortlessly made me feel calm, easing down my sudden fear.
Within a few seconds, I slowly managed to get a hold of myself. I placed one hand on his shoulder, feeling the rubbing disappear. Soon I begin to sense the slight panic shooting through me, knowing that his fingers went back to exploring my body. My hands grip tighter to what was there, soon finding themselves around his neck again. Soon the gentle feeling turned into this thrilling pleasure I was living for. My hands ended up trailing against his skin, wanting more action than just sitting around.
With that action, comes a price for what happened next. This sudden motivation from him caught me off guard. It was like he was digging in for some more, devouring me alive. I quickly melted into his wishes, giving him everything I had. As seconds passed, we ended up escalating this mess. Either I had a mind in this part or did everything played out without me present? It sure did seem like I was out of my body, watching it unfold. However, I can't bring myself to spectate this. We were once sitting upright until I realized he was on top of me.
I didn't panic, I didn't have time for that. No matter the circumstances, it was the enjoyment I crave. He broke away from the kiss and stared down at me with those yellow eyes. He grinned mischievously, making me smile with a dirty look. "Looks like I got the upper hand of this." He whispered softly.
"Do you?" I asked quietly, panting slightly.
"What does it look like? I have you pinned down against your own bed." He said quietly.
"You do... you do." I said. I was about to open my mouth to say something else until he cuts me off.
"So. Are we going to try the hard way or easy way?" He asked quietly.
"What's the difference?" I asked.
"One could dive deep into this while the other could be gentle with what you can expect." He answered.
"...hmmm. What would be the perfect option for this?" I asked.
"I'll answer that for you." He said. I watched his gaze trail to my neck. I grew redder with an uneasy feeling. However, it quickly disappeared when I felt his lips against my neck. This sudden force from the action made me release this noise that managed to slip past my barrier. A little of me wanted to hold it back, however, I wasn't listening to that voice. This is my chance to experience it at last. However, that voice didn't give up with its attempt. I quivered slightly from another motion of his lips, giving him more of those soft noises.
And then it clicked.
How could I forget where I was? Why didn't I listen to the voice in the first place? What if- fear begins to shoot within me as I grew uncomfortable within seconds. I guess he could sense it too because he moved away from my neck. "Something wrong?" He asked quietly.
I looked extremely uncomfortable and a whole face of redness. "... Can we stop?" I asked.
Kahlil's expressions appear to disagree with my question, but soon he gave in. "Alright." He moved off of me and sat on the edge of the bed. I slowly rolled onto my right side, curling up slightly. "... What... made you stop?" I heard him ask.
"... I... I just...- I had a bad feeling..." I answered quietly, trying to relax my racing heart.
"Of what?" He asked.
"... I... I didn't...- I...-"
"You didn't want them to hear your moans?" He guessed, which made me squeak quietly. I gulped down my fear and breathe.
"Yes..." I responded quietly with my shaken voice.
"Alright. I guess we won't do it here then. If it makes you this uncomfortable." He said. I squeeze my hands into fists as guilt rose up in my heart. I... I...
"And don't you dare think about doubting yourself." He said, cutting my thought process. "Don't doubt yourself for something that you feel deeply. I quite understand why you don't want to do it here. So it's fine."
"... Okay." I whispered quietly.
"At least it was fun while it lasted." He said, a little hint of content in his voice.
Yeah...
End of Chapter 46
I'm still new to writing whatever I did in the last section of this chapter, so bear with me on that.
If you skipped the entire section and landed here, good for you. I don't want to make anyone uncomfortable with the last bit of the chapter.
So, this might be a while, possibly a long while until any of you guys get one of these types of scenes again.
so yeah. x-x
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