Hello, friends! Here's another few chapters, I'm both excited and nervous for where this story is headed. Enjoy!
BPOV
We spent the rest of the day obsessing over our little baby, each time we spoke to the little bump, Edward told me what he was thinking, and it couldn't have been more incredible. Edward was right my little nudger was already so smart. When I had first been changed, I didn't think my heart could be anymore full than it was, but I was wrong I didn't diminish my love for Edward either, it was like my heart had swelled to accommodate all of the love I now had in my life.
"She gets that from you," Edward complimented.
"If I recall correctly, you didn't used to think I was all that intelligent," I teased, with an eyebrow raised. I knew without a doubt that Edward was smarter than I.
"I always knew you were smart, Bella, but getting involved with a vampire as a human isn't the typically the wisest decision," Edward retorted playfully.
"I'd disagree, it's probably the smartest thing I've ever done," I said leaning forward and kissing him gently.
"I'd beg to differ, but I couldn't be happier that I was your blind spot," Edward whispered in my ear. Even now, he still had a way of sending chills through me. The power this man had over me was boundless, of course, he never knowingly took advantage of that.
It was a great relief that Edward and I were okay, that we were once again on the same team. I didn't want the tension weighing on us anymore, it was much easier to carry everything together.
I still needed to hunt more than normal, but Edward watched me intently each time, it was both endearing and annoying how protective he could be.
"I have half a mind to bring the animal to you," Edward confessed.
"Edward, it's fine. Besides, I'm still technically stronger than you," I teased before taking off, I knew Edward would catch up to me, despite my newborn strength, Edward was still slightly faster than I was.
My laugh was trailing behind me. Edward had been right, it was amazing running. Nothing blurred passed us as we ran, and I could still make out the smallest details of the woods. We never tired, our muscles didn't ache, we could run forever and not feel the exhaustion. It was exhilarating. I heard Edward approaching, but he didn't continue straight, he ran a semi-circle until he was running at me. He was showing off. I laughed as we stopped less than a foot away from each other.
"But, obviously not faster," Edward laughed. There was nothing I wouldn't do to see him laugh, I'd spend the rest on my existence trying to get him to laugh.
"Showoff," I muttered. Edward carefully pulled me into him, and kissed me tenderly.
Carlisle came to see us the next day.
He could hear the hummingbird heartbeat on his own, which was good considering an ultrasound couldn't see through my marble skin. Essentially, we were going into this completely blind. I couldn't explain it but I felt this resolute faith that everything would be okay. I believed that end of the day the love I shared with Edward and my little nudger, would overrule everything else.
As a human, I never had this faith, more precisely, I had never had this faith until I met Edward.
I recalled the eulogy, he claimed that I brought out the good in him, and maybe I had, but he had done the same for me. He described me as his light, but he was the reason I could be the light. Before him, I had always taken the path of least resistance, to be fair even on that path there was still quite a bit of resistance, but Edward had given me something worth fighting for. He was the reason I had all these sappy and romantic words to write.
Carlisle and Edward were once again discussing how exactly I would deliver, neither thought I would be able to give birth naturally, and they thought that letting the baby claw its way out would be too painful. Besides that, all of the legends were of half-vampire children who had human mothers, a human's skin was much easier to break than ours, who knew if our little nudger could break through our practically impenetrable skin. Carlisle was thinking about a C-Section, but neither were sure how exactly to do that.
Another issue was that Carlisle could only estimate how far along I was. Edward explained how he could hear the little nudgers thoughts, which fascinated Carlisle. We could also hear how strong the heartbeat was, but there was nothing that we could do to give us an exact due date. All Carlisle could do was infer.
The next day, Edward teased me as I tried to get into any of the clothes that were in my closet, Alice had filled my closet so most of the clothes was form fitting, which meant I didn't fit into anything anymore. I groaned in frustration. I could hear Edward's laugh's coming from inside our bedroom. He was sitting on our bed completely entertained by this latest development.
"I'm glad you think it's funny Edward," I playfully scolded, throwing the shirt in my hand at Edward. He, of course, caught it with ease. If his laugh wasn't so captivating I would have been slightly annoyed by his amusement.
"I could call Alice-."
"Please don't, I mean who knows what I'll end up with," I groaned.
Edward kept snickering, I huffed and walked back into our shared closet. He had less than a quarter of the closet for his clothing, but I figured I would steal one of his shirts since he thought it was so funny. I grabbed a pair of my ratty sleep shorts, considering they were one of the only pair that still fit.
"Be honest, how hideous do I look?" I asked as I walked out of the closet.
He leaned back and pursed his lips.
"That bad, huh?" I muttered.
"No, no Bella. Actually..." He seemed to be struggling for the right word. "You look...sexy."
I laughed out loud. "Right."
"Very sexy, really."
I laughed as I pushed him away, but he just pulled me right back to him, "I have half a mind to hide all your clothes, so you only have mine to wear."
I continued to laugh. The playful side of Edward had slowly been reemerging and I couldn't have been more thrilled to see it. I liked that there was a side to Edward that very few people got to see, like a shared secret between the two of us.
It had been about a week and a half into this pregnancy, and though I could feel the nudges getting bigger and stronger, my bump didn't grow anymore. Carlisle theorized it was because our skin had very little elasticity to it.
I couldn't help but wonder about the rest of our family. Even though I didn't have the best relationship with Rosalie, I didn't want her to be upset about our newfound circumstances. I knew how she felt about having children, and now as immortals, Edward and I were getting a baby.
I started to wonder about them, no one except Carlisle had seen us. Edward reminded me that they were still keeping up their human roles back in Forks. It was amusing to think that they were all in school right now, well Alice and Jasper were. Rosalie and Emmett had been seniors last year, so they were done with high school. Edward had said that they weren't taking off to 'college' just yet, and if anyone asked they were taking a gap year to stay with the family during their 'mourning' period.
I couldn't help but wonder if they were keeping their distance because they didn't know what to make of this peculiar situation. Edward had assured me they were just giving us our space to figure everything out, but I didn't know what to make of everything.
I was sitting on the couch with my legs criss-crossed, and Edward next to me. His hand in mine. Carlisle was sitting on the loveseat perpendicular to us. Carlisle and Edward were in the midst of another discussion about their research. I laid my hand on my bump. The nudging became more frequent, it was like the little nudger was trying to tell me something.
Edward looked up and warmly eyed my bump, "Her thoughts are getting louder, more distinct, she's afraid she's going to hurt you."
"Incredible," Carlisle marveled.
"Don't worry you're not going to hurt me," I cooed.
"You think it's going to be a girl?" Carlisle chuckled at Edward's inference.
Edward smirked and nodded, "Well Bella imagines a boy, but I don't think so, I think it's going to be a girl."
I smiled warmly at the change of conversation, this seemed more like a normal conversation that one would have before becoming parents. It was still a shock to the system that Edward and I would be parents.
It was a little scary thinking about this baby we were bringing into the word, very literally one-of-a-kind. We didn't have any idea of what we could expect from our little boy, there was nothing to base our expectations except legends and myths.
From what Edward had heard from the little nudger's thought, we could tell it was already incredibly considerate, I know this helped ease concerns about the baby being similar to the immortal children they had described.
When describing those children, Carlisle had mentioned that they were frozen at the age they were changed, but without even being born yet, our baby was changing, it could now recognize Edward's and my voice with ease, already so smart. Our little nudger already had his favorite songs, and could understand the sadness in some of the music we played. Which meant Edward and I were now cautious about what exactly we played, not wanting to upset him.
"Carlisle? Is everyone okay with all of this?" I started to wonder about what the rest of our family was thinking about this rare situation.
"Everyone is taking in the surprise of it all. Esme, ever the optimist, is very excited, we've never had a child in the family before. Alice is struggling seeing around the little one, Jasper is a little more cautious, I suppose. And Emmett is mostly preoccupied with Rosalie," he sighed.
"Is she okay?" Despite the countless times Edward had told me not to worry about Rosalie, I couldn't help it. I knew bring me into the family had caused issues, I didn't want to continue to perpetuate those issues for the rest of eternity.
Before me Edward had been very close with his family, by getting involved with me, somewhat of a rift had developed. And I knew that if he had to, Edward would walk away from his sister, but I didn't want to be the reason he did that. I didn't want to be the reason his family broke apart.
"She's...trying to reconcile some things, Bella. It's truly nothing for you to worry about," Carlisle said warmly, before changing the subject. "They'd all like to see you two, I know Alice and Emmett miss you two very much. It's much quieter in the house with two of our family members gone."
I nodded, "I'd like to see them too."
Alice, Jasper, Rose, and Emmett came to see us a a day later later. It had felt like so long since I had seen them.
I could tell that this whole situation had made Jasper uneasy, but once Edward had told him that he could hear the baby and it's thoughts he felt better, Jasper even tried to feel the baby's emotions. He could sense my worries and love for Edward and my little nudger, but amazingly Jasper could feel the love coming for our little baby.
It took Rosalie a little to warm up to this, but once she did, she was thrilled by the idea of a baby around the house. I had never seen Rosalie as ecstatic when I called her Aunt Rosalie. Emmett was thrilled now that Rosalie had come around.
I could tell it was unnerving to Alice that she had a hard time seeing around the baby. Rosalie was the one to tell her that everything would be okay. She didn't say anything, but she didn't like not knowing what was going to happen. She still put all of that aside and got really excited at the prospect of a new Cullen, she started talking our ears off about a nursery and all of the things we would need for a child. She was also not impressed that I was now wearing Edward's clothes, but I managed to talk her out of a shopping trip.
I tried to explain that we weren't even sure what the baby would be like, if it would need the same things a human baby did, but Rosalie and Alice wouldn't hear any of it. It was a little strange seeing Rosalie so positive and excited. It couldn't have been a bigger deviation from our past relationship.
Everything seemed to be falling into place.
"Have you thought of names yet?" Rosalie asked excitedly.
Edward and I shared a look, I had thought of some names, but I wasn't entirely sure if Edward had. It felt surreal that Edward and I were now in a space to talk about this like we were new parents, without all of the supernatural concerns. At least without most of the supernatural concerns.
I knew those concerns still laid beneath the surface but right now I just wanted to enjoy the happiness.
"I promise we'll let you know once we've narrowed them down," I laughed. Alice and Rosalie both rolled their eyes at our unwillingness to share, it was funny to think that Alice couldn't spoil the surprise for once.
Once they left, Edward and I sat down in the living room.
"Have you thought of names, love?"
I nodded, "Have you?"
"Oh, I'd much rather hear your ideas," he laughed.
I started to chew on my lip, "Well, I thought if it's a boy, E.J, Edward Jr."
"You want to name him after me?" The look of endearment on Edward's face was priceless. "And if it's a girl?
"Well, I was playing around with our parents' names, and I was thinking Renesmee Carlie, you know Renee and Esme and Carlisle and Charlie." I started chewing on my lip again at Edward's indecipherable expression, "What do you think?"
"I love it, unique names for a unique situation."
I was glad he liked the names, I wanted whatever name we choose to have significance to us.
Now that I knew our little baby could hear us, I decided to write something just for them.
I had a few ideas and it wasn't long before they started to take root. This time Edward was with me throughout the writing process, it never ceased to amaze me at how beguiled he was by me. I had always felt plain, ordinary, but the way Edward looked at me- it was with the same adoration and love I felt for him.
Seven
Please, picture me in the trees
I hit my peak at seven
Feet in the swing over the creek
I was too scared to jump in
But I, I was high in the sky
With Pennsylvania under me
Are there still beautiful things?
Sweet tea in the summer
Cross your heart, won't tell no other
And though I can't recall your face
I still got love for you
Your braids make a pattern
Love you to the Moon and to Saturn
Passed down like folk songs
The love lasts so long
And I've been meaning to tell you
I think your house is haunted
Your dad is always mad and that must be why
I think you should come live with me
And we can be pirates
Then you won't have to cry
Or hide in the closet
And just like a folk song
Our love will be passed on
Please, picture me in the weeds
Before I learned civility
I used to scream ferociously
Any time I wanted
I, I
Sweet tea in the summer
Cross your heart, won't tell no other
And though I can't recall your face
I still got love for you
Pack your dolls and a sweater
We'll move to India forever
Passed down like folk songs
The love lasts so long
"Something different?"
"Well, I know he can hear us, so I wanted something a little lighter. Even though it's a little fuzzy, in spite of everything I did have a great childhood, I wanted to commemorate that. An homage to childhood, I guess."
"You miss them." It wasn't a question but I answered anyway.
"Very much," I admitted quietly.
