A/N: All right. It's finally here. The long awaited moment between Collin and Renesmee. I hope the payoff is worth the build up. For inspiration, I listened to Leave the Door Open by Silk Sonic and Unchained Melody by the Righteous Brothers. Also, if you're looking for a good romance, check out Ghost. It's a classic!
I took some liberties here since they were supernatural creatures, so just go with it.
This is rated M for mature scenes.
Thanks Costa for pre-reading. All typos are mine.
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Renesmee had spent most of the day at work brainstorming ways to get some much needed quality time with Collin. She couldn't get last night off her mind, where his hand was and where it was going to go had they not been interrupted.
She wanted more.
Her first idea was taking him on a mini vacation. But that was a no-go. Jacob was reluctant to let any of the pack leave town for more than a day until the werewolf problem was under control. He couldn't afford to lose the man (wolf) power.
So, she settled on a day trip. Maybe they could go to Seattle or Port Angeles and come back the same day.
She decided to run this idea by Leah, her best friend and roommate.
"What do you think, Lee?" Renesmee asked. "Port Angeles has some really cute cafés, and then we could come back here and…um…hang out." She felt the blood rushing to her cheeks.
"Hang out, huh?" Leah laughed. "Well, let me know when you two-" Leah used air quotes. "-hang out so I know when to be somewhere else."
Leah and Matt were waiting with her until her guard for the night to arrive. She was sitting across from Renesmee, while Matt was in the living room watching television.
"That could work, though, Red," Leah said. "You might even get Jake to let Collin guard you for the night. That way you could get a room and stay there instead of driving back right away." Leah took a bite of peach cobbler.
It was funny that as great as she was making pies, she really didn't eat them that often. But she loved Matt's peach cobbler.
"You think?" Renesmee's eyes widened. "That would be so great, Lee."
"It can't hurt to ask." Leah shrugged. "So, things are moving along with you two, huh?"
Renesmee smiled shyly. "Yes. Last night when he came over, we were definitely on our way. But my mother interrupted." Renesmee dropped her head on the table. "It was embarrassing. I was hoping he would come back over, but he texted me to say he couldn't."
"Believe it or not, it was probably a blessing in disguise, Red. You don't want your first night with Collin to be rushed. Now you can prepare for it." Leah narrowed her eyes. "You are ready, right?"
"Yes!" Renesmee all but shouted, which got Matt's attention. Leah waved at him casually, letting him know there was no emergency. Renesmee looked at Matt, and said, "Sorry."
Matt went back to watching television.
"Mom and I already got into it about me not getting pregnant." Renesmee rolled her eyes. "I'm prepared."
Leah looked at Renesmee. "No, I mean are you prepared. I know you love Collin, but are you ready to have sex with him?"
"Oh, that." Renesmee smiled. "Yes, I am. I've been ready for a long time. He was a little hesitant though, since I'm a virgin, but after last night, I think he got past all that."
"That's good to know," Leah said. "So, no other jitters?"
Renesmee looked at her fingers. "I would be lying if I said that I wasn't nervous. I mean, he saw me half naked last night. He's done this before, and he's seen another woman naked. What if he compares us? What if he doesn't like what he sees? I mean, he's too polite to say anything, but it will break my heart if I can see the disappointment on his face."
Leah reached over and grabbed her hand. "Listen, the past is the past. Do you think Matt cares that Sam was my first?"
Renesmee looked at Matt. "Doubtful."
"Exactly. One thing I've learned is that when a man really wants you, he wants all of you. Anyone can see that Collin is attracted to you. I'm sure he'll be more than satisfied with what you have to offer. Don't overthink it, okay. You two love each other. Just concentrate on that. Things might get awkward, but it's those awkward moments where you learn things about each other."
Renesmee felt better after that. Sometimes, she just needed a good pep talk.
"The good thing is if you do come to Port Angeles and something happens, our pack will be there if you need back up." Leah snapped her fingers. "Hey, you can use that as a selling point to convince Jake."
Renesmee's eyebrows rose. "Our pack? I'm going to have to get used to that."
"I know, right?" Leah smiled. "I've been practicing saying it out loud. Never in a million years did I think I would be part of a different pack, and an Alpha."
"So, everything is going well, then?"
"Yes, better than I expected. They're a great pack, and they seem okay with me sharing Alpha duties with Matt." Leah smiled. "I can't wait to phase and run with them. Then I'll really feel like I'm part of them."
"That's good, Leah. I'm just glad you're happy. God knows you deserve it."
Leah got up to throw her plate away. "Who's guarding you tonight?"
"Jason, I think." Renesmee shrugged.
Leah laughed. "Jake's still upset about him losing sight of Eden, huh?"
"Probably. As you know, the wolves are very protective of their mates, especially the Alphas."
"Don't I know it." Leah looked over at Matt, then smiled. "But, I'm pretty protective of him too."
"It's in your nature. That's why you make such a badass Alpha female."
"How was Jason last night?" Leah joined her back at the kitchen table with a bottle of water. "Was he a jerk? If so, I'm sure I could ask one of my wolves to guard you."
Renesmee smiled at Leah. She was still protective of her, too. "No, it was fine. I gave him some pie, and he loosened up. He even smiled on occasion." Renesmee giggled. "Your pie could stop wars all over the world."
"I wouldn't go that far." Leah rolled her eyes.
"Eww! Gross!" Matt said from the living room.
Renesmee and Leah looked at him as he stared at the television with a look of disgust.
Leah shook her head. "Look at Matt, my badass boyfriend who has faced vampires and werewolves, yet he gets grossed out by Dr. Pimple Popper." Then she smiled. "But I love him."
Renesmee lowered her voice. "I wanted to ask you something about our living situation."
"Living situation?" Leah's eyes widened but kept her voice low too. "Do you want Collin to move in?"
"No, I mean, maybe one day in the future." Renesmee tilted her head. "Or maybe I could move in with him." She waved her hands around. "What am I talking about? We haven't even slept together, yet. I mean, are you planning on staying here?"
"Oh." Leah looked down at her bottle of water.
"I know you're the Alpha female," Renesmee continued in a low tone. "So it would only be natural for you to move in with Matt. I don't want you to go, but I would understand if you did."
Leah looked over at Matt, who was leaning closer to the television as the doctor was lancing a particularly difficult boil.
"He did ask me last night," Leah whispered. "He wasn't forcing me, but he said that it would be a good idea if the pack was together in the same territory."
"Oh, what did you say?"
"That I had to think about it. I mean, I know that I'm the Alpha female, but moving in with my boyfriend is a big step. What if we hate living together? How is that going to effect the pack dynamic?"
"Well, it's good to know that he's not pressuring you."
Leah shook her head with a smile. "He knows by now that that won't work. Truthfully, I think I probably will move in with him, but I'm not ready yet. I need to get acclimated with the pack first." Leah reached over and grabbed Renesmee's hand. "But I promise you this. As soon as I know, you'll be the first one I tell."
"Good. That's what I told my mom when she asked." Renesmee squeezed her hand back.
There was a knock at the door.
"I got it!" Matt said from the living room.
"That's probably Jason." Renesmee stood up. "I hope he's as docile as he was yesterday. You left pie in the fridge, right?"
"Yeah. There's some banana cream and strawberry. Oh, I made a new one called Pina Colada. Try it and let me know what you think."
"Pina Colada?" Renesmee raised an eyebrow. She knew Leah was being evasive about something. "What's going on?"
"I can't get into it now, but I promise I'll tell you later, okay?"
"You better. Just because you are part of another pack doesn't mean you can keep important secrets from me."
"You know me, Red." Leah pursed her lips.
Yes, she did. Leah never kept things from her, even the uncomfortable things. She anticipated some things she would have to keep being an Alpha of a different pack, but this didn't sound pack related.
"All right. I trust you."
Matt walked into the dining room with a familiar face trailing behind him. "Look who I found lurking around outside?"
"Collin?" Renesmee said.
"So, I heard that you needed a guard tonight." Collin smiled and slipped his hands in his pockets. "I was in the neighborhood, and thought I check things out." He looked around the room coolly.
She got up and ran to him and jumped in his arms.
He was wearing a tank top with track pants. He was even wearing flip flips. That meant he wouldn't be in wolf form that much, only to check on things outside periodically.
She was so happy to see him, she kissed him like it was just the two of them in the room.
Leah cleared her throat. "So, um. Since your guard's here, we'll go." Leah stood at Matt's side at the door.
"Yeah, we don't want to interrupt." Matt waggled his eyebrows, then he looked at Collin. "I did a perimeter check an hour ago, and everything was clear."
"Thanks. I'll check again in a few minutes."
Leah looked at Collin in all seriousness. "Both of you stay safe, and I mean that in more than one way." Leah narrowed eyes.
Collin and Renesmee looked at each other once, then back at Leah. "We will."
"Bye Leah," Renesmee said, still perched in Collin's arms. "I'll see you tomorrow."
"Okay. Bye Red. Bye Collin."
After the door closed, Renesmee said, "How did you make this happen?"
"I asked Jake very nicely." Collin adjusted Renesmee in his arms.
Renesmee gave him a skeptical look. "Really?"
Collin slowly set her down. "Actually, I told Jake I would wash and vacuum his truck for a month, including spot cleaning the tires if he let me guard you tonight."
"Aw, that's sweet of you. You didn't have to do that, but I'm glad you did." Renesmee gently grabbed his chin and kissed his cheek. "I'll help you, if you want."
"Don't worry about that." Collin pulled her close again. "Tonight, I don't want to think about the pack or me washing Jake's truck. I just want to enjoy my time with you. So, you got me here all night. What do you want to do first?"
That question hung in the air.
She knew where his mind was. Hers was in the same place. She looked at her fingers on his chest.
Renesmee was certain she was ready to take the next step with Collin, but her nerves were getting the best of her. She didn't know a whole lot about sex.
She needed to relax, so she came up with an idea.
"Let's watch a movie," Renesmee suggested.
"That sounds good. Let me check the perimeter, first." He leaned down and kissed her sweetly. He pulled off his shirt before as he walked to the back door, showing her the many muscles flexing in his back. Then he turned his head to look at her over his shoulder. "I'll be right back."
Damn, he was sexy.
While he was gone, Renesmee went to her room and brushed her teeth and splashed some water on her face. Then she took off all of her clothes and grabbed the sexy lingerie that she'd picked out. The bra and panty set were navy blue, Collin's favorite color. She threw on a pair of sweatpants and a t-shirt. She pulled her hair out of the ponytail, and let it hang over her shoulders. Collin always liked it down.
After looking at herself in the mirror, she said, "You got this."
By the time she emerged from the room, Collin was closing the door and locking it.
Much to Renesmee's delight, he didn't put his tank top back on. Not to sound cliché, but she loved it when he was shirtless.
"Everything okay outside?" Renesmee asked.
"Yeah, everything is fine." Collin's eyes drifted down her body then back up to her eyes. "You changed your clothes."
"Yeah." Renesmee pushed her hair behind her ear and looked down. "This is more comfortable."
"That's good." His eyes did another onceover, and then slowly drifted back to hers. "Comfort is good."
There was look of hunger in his eyes that made her insides flutter. His smile held so many secrets that he seemed to be waiting to share with her.
She forced herself to look away. "Make yourself comfortable."
As Collin sat down on the couch, she went to the kitchen to take a moment to relax. "You want a piece of pie? I think we have some banana cream left. And Leah wants us to try a new one."
"What kind?" Collin shouted from the living room.
"Pina Colada." Renesmee looked at it sealed with foil and labeled on the top.
"Sounds good. I might have a piece later."
"What about something to drink? I have lemonade, iced tea, water." Renesmee looked up from the fridge at Collin.
"Water is fine."
Renesmee could feel Collin's eyes on her as she put ice in a glass then added water. And they stayed with her as she brought over the glass and then took a seat next to him on the couch. It was like he was undressing her with his eyes.
"Thank you," he said with a flirty smile.
"You're welcome." Renesmee licked her lips.
"So, how did it go last night with Jason guarding you?" Collin took sip of his water.
"It was fine." Renesmee pursed her lips. "Did he say anything?"
"Nope, which was why I wanted to check with you. Was he rude?" Collin put his glass of water on the end table.
"Actually, it wasn't too bad. He even came inside and ate a few pieces of pie. We actually talked." Renesmee smiled. "He might not hate me anymore."
"What did you talk about?" Collin asked curiously.
"Mainly about Aaron. He hasn't woken up yet, but Kim seems optimistic. He goes by to see him at least once a day. He hangs out with Tommy there playing cards waiting for him to wake up and asked to be dealt in."
"That's nice. I'm glad he can see that you're not a threat. Now, we just need my mother to see how great you are."
Renesmee wasn't holding her breath on that one.
"So, what are we watching?" Collin rested his head on his hand as he looked at her lovingly.
"It's an older movie that came out in the nineties." Renesmee shifted in her seat. "It's one of my favorites. It's a romance."
"A romance, huh?" Collin ran his fingers down the back of her neck. "What's the name of it?"
Renesmee leaned into his touch. "Ghost. Patrick Swayze and Demi Moore star in it.
"I can handle a good romance," he said. She sighed tenderly as he massaged the back of her neck. That felt so good.
Renesmee opened her eyes to see Collin smiling at her. She stood up and said, "Go ahead and get comfy while I get the lights."
She had to get a hold of herself. Collin had massaged the back of her neck many times, but this time she knew there was more behind it. She was eager to see what those hands did next.
Renesmee walked over to the switch to turn off the lights. She turned around slowly to look at Collin sitting on the couch waiting for her.
Most shifters kept the temperature low in their homes to combat their high body temperatures, but Leah knew that Renesmee didn't like it too cold, so they came to a happy medium at sixty-nine degrees.
Renesmee would usually dress accordingly, and Leah would use her fan.
But she wanted Collin to be comfortable, so she turned the AC down to sixty-five degrees. Her logic: Collin was going to be keeping her warm with his body temperature, so she wouldn't be cold for long.
The AC clicked on, blasting cold air from the vents, and Renesmee rubbed her arms.
Collin smiled, and said, "You're cold. Come here." He held his arms out for her, and she joined him.
She sat between his legs, nestling close to him. His arms wrapped around her, one arm around her shoulders, the other around her waist, instantly creating a cocoon of warmth around her.
"Bettter?"
"Much." Renesmee rested her feet on the ottoman in front of her. Collin did the same around hers.
Renesmee clicked on the television and used the remote to locate the streaming service Netflix and found Ghost in their movie catalogue.
She liked that Collin would watch romantic movies with her. She did like action movies, and she like comedies, but if she were being honest, romance was her favorite.
About twenty minutes into the movie, she glanced up at Collin. He wasn't asleep, and still seemed interested in the storyline. That was a good sign.
"Wait, that Sam guy is the same guy who was in Point Break, right?"
"Yep, that's him."
"I thought he looked familiar."
One of Renesmee's favorite scenes was when Molly told Sam that she loved him.
The sincerity in Molly's eyes always made Renesmee a little emotional. To have someone care about you that much was so beautiful. Renesmee felt that way about Collin.
I love you, Collin, she sent to him.
He looked down at her, then said, "I love you, too, babe." Then he kissed her cheek.
Then the characters Molly and Sam were at a pottery wheel. Sam sat behind Molly as she was working on a vase. Soon, he joined in to help, getting all muddy and covered in clay. All the while, the love song Unchained Melody by the Righteous Brothers was playing in the background.
"Maybe we should try pottery," Collin whispered in her ear, then leaned down and kissed her neck. "Looks like fun."
"Maybe." She leaned into him.
"Or maybe you'll let me try something else." He ran his tongue along the shell of her ear. "Mmm?"
"Okay." Renesmee bit her lip as she eagerly waited to see what he was going to do. When the nerves started to creep up, she reminded herself that she was with Collin, the man she loved and trusted. He wouldn't hurt her.
Slowly, one of his hands inched lower.
When she held her breath, Collin said, "Breathe sweetheart. I want you to enjoy this. Just relax."
Renesmee took a deep breath in and then slowly let it out.
His hand went under her shirt, fingers grazing over her stomach to her breast. His finger brushed over the fabric and he said, "Is that lace?"
"Yes."
"I wanna see you in this," Collin confessed, "but first I want to try something." Collin's other hand drifted down to her pants.
She took a quick intake of breath.
Collin stopped his movements. "Is this okay?"
"Yes. Keep going."
She felt his hand caress her lower belly, then dip in her sweatpants. His fingers stayed outside her underwear, feeling around.
"Is this lace, too?" Collin whispered in her ear.
"Uh-Huh." Renesmee leaned back against Collin.
"I can't wait to see you in this, babe." Collin's fingers grazed her inner thigh, outlining the hem of her underwear. His kissed her neck again, then his fingers started moving again, staying outside her underwear. He touched her where she wanted, where she needed.
"Collin," she whimpered.
"Feel okay?"
"God, yes." She dropped her head against him and opened her legs wider. She didn't know exactly what she was feeling, but she knew it felt good.
One hand grasped her breast outside her bra, while the other applied a little more pressure in a slow, circular motion to her most intimate region. She'd never felt anything like it. Right before things started to get interesting, Collin pulled his fingers away.
"Collin," Renesmee whined. "I think I almost…"
"Just relax, sweetheart." He pulled the band of her underwear back and slipped his hand inside.
"Oh, God," she said and looked up at the ceiling.
His fingers were on her bare skin, touching her, teasing her, loving her. He continued with the circular motion with the same amount of pressure, but at a faster pace. Then he pushed two of his fingers inside her.
"You okay?"
"Yes, just don't stop!"
Using the heel of his hand, he applied gentle pressure to her most sensitive area while his fingers probed until they found her sweet spot.
Her hands fisted Collin's sweatpants, and she whimpered. She thought she heard something rip.
As the character Sam was making love to Molly, Renesmee was having her very first orgasm.
Sensations ran up and down her body from her ears all the way to the tips of her fingers and toes and back again. Around and around it went and she didn't want it to stop.
"Oh!" she said as her body tensed and released. "Oh, God!"
He gently pulled his fingers away.
When the sensations passed, and her heart rate slowed to her normal rate, she stopped the movie. She turned around and faced Collin.
"Make love to me right now," she demanded.
Collin looked surprised at her curtness, and honestly, it shocked her too, but she knew what she wanted, and she wanted Collin Littlesea.
"Yes, ma'am." Then he kissed her, holding her close, and making her forget her name.
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Collin felt like the luckiest man in the world.
For centuries, men wondered how the female mind worked. They racked their brains trying to figure out what they wanted, and what they were feeling.
However, Collin had the upper hand now that he was dating Renesmee Cullen. Her ability to transmit thoughts and words worked wonders. She would tell him things with her thoughts, and she would speak to him, especially if what she was trying to say couldn't be said it words. Those times she would use pictures.
Tonight, she was showing him that she was enjoying what he was doing. In his mind, he saw an endless field of roses blooming in succession.
That was a sure sign that he was doing the right thing.
It didn't happen all the time, mainly when she wasn't concentrating and when things became intense between them. It was like she was letting her guard down and letting him in.
He had no idea if she knew that she was doing this, but he was grateful either way.
"Babe, before things get too intense, maybe we should go back to your room." The last thing he wanted was for Leah to walk in on them. It probably wouldn't happen since he saw her leave with Matt, but he didn't want to push things.
"You're right." Renesmee got up so Collin could rise.
After experiencing Renesmee's excitement earlier, it was a miracle that things hadn't ended for him too. At this point, he wasn't sure who wanted this more, him or her.
When he got up, he felt cold air hit his skin. The material Renesmee held onto was shredded.
Renesmee giggled, and shamelessly held her fingers to her lips. "Sorry. Those weren't your favorite, were they?"
"What if they were?" Collin stepped forward.
Renesmee took a step back, although her smile didn't look remorseful. "I said I was sorry."
"Yet, you can't stop smiling." Collin took another step forward. "I think you're going to have to pay for that."
Quickly, he grabbed her and picked her up, throwing her over his shoulder. She shrieked with delight. Then he ran back to her room with her hanging over his shoulder like a sack of potatoes.
He slowly set her down, then pulled her in for an intense, open mouthed kiss. He pulled her lips in his mouth, sucking on the bottom then the top.
She always liked that.
"I love you," he said after pulling away. "God, so much. Thank you for this, for trusting me."
Renesmee touched Collin's cheek. "Of course. I always wanted you to be my first, and if it's anything like what happened earlier, I can't wait."
Collin kissed her again, pulling her to his body.
More visions flashed in front of his eyes. This time, she showed him warm colors: orange, red, brown swirled through his mind.
He pulled her arms up above her head, and then pulled off her shirt. As her arms slowly lowered, he stared at her.
"See something you like?" She bit her lip as she held her arms out.
"Oh, yeah." He dropped her t-shirt on the floor and scanned her carefully. "I see a lot that I like."
"Yeah?" She giggled shyly, then looked away. "I didn't know if you would like what you saw."
"Are you kidding." Collin stepped forward, then grabbed her hand. He placed it on his member. "Does that feel like I don't like what I see?" He put his hands on her cheek. "I love what I see, and I want to see more."
She bit her lip again, which was making him crazy.
"Okay." She pushed down her pants showing him the entire outfit. She nearly tripped over them trying to toss them aside. "Whoa!"
"I got you," he said, catching her before she fell. He helped her balance, then said, "Turn around."
When he couldn't see what she was wearing, he tried to imagine what she the outfit looked like. His imagination didn't do him justice. Seeing her in lingerie made him speechless. And it was navy blue, his favorite color. It was also the same color bikini she wore in the fantasy she'd created.
It fit her in all the right places, enhancing her already beautiful body.
"I picked it out for you. Do you like it?" Renesmee asked.
"Yes, I love it." Collin touched the material. Parts of it was lacy, while other parts were satin.
"You wanna help me take it off?" Renesmee said, innocently. "Sometimes I have a hard time reaching the clasp."
"Of course." Collin kept his eyes with hers as he reached around and unsnapped easily.
He pulled the bra down her arms and tossed it aside.
When she moved to take off her underwear, Collin said, "Wait. Let me do that, please."
"Sure."
He urged her to lie down on the bed, then he reached down and grabbed the bands of her panties and slowly slid them down her legs.
She was beautiful, her skin the color of French vanilla ice cream and just as smooth. Her red hair fanned out beneath her. Those brown eyes looked up at him mischievously, like she was planning something.
There were times when she wore a little bit of makeup, but tonight her face was bare, natural. In his eyes, she was perfect.
Now it was Collin's turn to remember to breathe. Renesmee was completely naked, laying on the bed, waiting patiently for his next move. Her arms were next to her head, her breathing steady, her eyes only on him.
Collin pulled down his sweatpants, well what was left of them.
Now they were both naked and both staring at each other.
"Wow," Renesmee said breathlessly, her eyes centered on his manhood.
Collin cracked a smile and lightly traced her inner thigh. "I'll be gentle, I promise."
"I trust you." And she did. He could see it in her eyes.
Since Kim wasn't sure if birth control would work with Renesmee's body chemistry, they had decided to use condoms. And Collin had some, just not with him.
"Do you have any condoms?"
Renesmee smiled. "Yeah. They're in the top drawer of my nightstand."
Her eyes stayed on him as he went to open the drawer, and there they were. A line of blue packages, quite a few actually.
"Well, I guess you were expecting to do this a few times." Collin grinned as he held up the packages.
"Like I told my mother, I'm prepared."
He ripped one of the packages from the rest and set it on the nightstand. Then he joined Renesmee in her bed. His fingers made slow treks over her cheek, then down her shoulder to her waist. Then around to her butt where he lightly squeezed it, which earned him a giggle.
Renesmee's eyes lowered down, and she gasped. Then she lifted her eyes back to him. "Can I touch you?"
"Of course." Collin shifted to his back next to her. She sat up and examined him curiously, gently touching his member with her fingers. Her touch was tentative, gentle as her hand moved up and down the length of him.
He had to remember that this was her first time, and she was naturally an inquisitive person. But if touching him helped her relax, he could handle it.
For now.
Her touch was so soothing, yet so enticing. His body twitched and she looked at him cautiously.
"I'm okay. It's just…you make me excited."
"Excited?" Renesmee smiled, then moved her hand again. "So, this feels good?"
"Yes." A growl slipped out of him, which surprised them both. Renesmee smiled sheepishly. "Was that my fault?"
"I think you know the answer to that." Collin stilled her hand. "Let me show you how much I love you." He gently pushed her back.
Collin ripped the package open and slowly slipped on the condom. Renesmee's eyes never left him. Her expression was hungry and eager, and he didn't want to keep her waiting.
He pulled her close and flipped them so she was on top.
"They say it's easier this way for the first time. You'll have more control."
"You want to relinquish that much control to me? This is my first time, remember?" Renesmee looked at him skeptically.
"You'll do fine. Just relax."
Collin leaned up and moved Renesmee in position. He lined himself up. He could tell that she was a bit nervous, but she didn't say anything.
Collin looked deep in her eyes. "It's just you and me, honey. If you want to stop, we can. If you want to keep going, we can do that too. Whatever you want, sweetheart." Collin kissed her again and waited.
The ball was in her court.
Her heart was pumping fast in her chest, and he was concerned she wasn't ready. Then she smiled, and said, "Okay. Let's do this."
"Okay. We'll go slow."
Collin thought back to the first time with his first girlfriend. It wasn't necessarily a disaster, but it was awkward. It took them a few tries to get it right, but he had learned. Now, he knew what he was doing.
This was her first time, and he knew that this was something that she would remember for the rest of her life. So, he wanted to leave a lasting impression.
Renesmee put her hand on his cheek. "Babe, remember I'm half vampire. I'm pretty strong. So, don't hold back, okay? I'm not fragile."
Collin smiled. "I know you're strong, but I want you to enjoy it. For that to happen, we'll need to go slow at first."
He slowly lowered her down. Instantly, his vision was filled with white lightning firing off in rapid succession.
He stopped. "You okay, babe?"
"Yeah, keep going. I'm fine." She gritted her teeth and closed her eyes tightly.
He held on to her waist them lowered her down more. More lightning. He had a strong feeling that he was hurting her, but he didn't stop.
She would tell him if she wanted him to stop.
Once they were fully joined, Renesmee's breathing came out in short spurts. Her eyes slowly opened, then she smiled.
She placed her hands on his shoulders. "That wasn't bad."
"No, that wasn't bad at all."
It was a snug fit, so Collin pulled her in for a kiss so he could collect himself. His vision filled with warm colors again, swirling around like a kaleidoscope.
He placed his hands on her waist, then lifted her up slightly the brought her back down. He did it one more time, never losing eye contact.
"Like that, sweetheart."
Renesmee nodded, picking up what he was saying.
She rose on her own, then brought herself back down.
Each time she moved brought another vision of warmth and light.
Collin leaned back until he was lying on the bed. He placed her hands on his chest to give her leverage while his hands stayed on her hips as she moved, ready to guide her if she needed it. But she clearly didn't.
This angle definitely changed things for her. He could tell by the visions she was sending him.
Renesmee moved at a quicker pace. Collin wasn't doing anything anymore.
"Mmm," she said on a sigh. Her eyes were closed, and she was biting her lip.
Her red curls were everywhere, bouncing with her as she moved.
God, she looked so beautiful.
In his thoughts, in the distance was a light sprinkling. It was like fireworks going off in the background. Collin closed his eyes and saw the fireworks that were lighting up his vision get brighter and brighter. He could hear them going off in his mind, firing at random.
He gently touched her most intimate spot, moving in a circular motion.
"Oh!" she said.
He felt her nails dig into his shoulders, and he growled low in his throat.
Then it happened. She was having an orgasm, a pretty powerful one by the looks of it. Her body moved over him; her eyes were closed with an expression of pleasure. His vision filled with thousands and thousands of fireworks lighting up inside of his mind. He could hear them exploding in a synchronized display.
Renesmee threw her head back as her body pulsed around him.
She collapsed on top of him, breathing heavily.
He rolled them over until he was on top. Then he was kissing her intensely and open mouthed, their bodies still joined.
He was still hungry, so hungry for her. She showed him that she was enjoying it, that she wanted him too by the way that she clung to him.
He was wired and wasn't sure if he could control himself. He hesitated.
Half vampire, she sent. I can take it. Take what you need!
That was the only encouragement he needed. He pushed in with a lot more force, then pulled out and pushed again.
Renesmee hissed through her teeth, and Collin stopped. Her eyes opened as if wondering who stopped the show.
"Hey, what happened?" She took deep breaths.
"Did that hurt?" Collin asked.
"A little, but in a good way. It feels really good." Renesmee touched his check.
He smiled down at her and kissed her softly. "You feel good, too." He moved again, except this time at a much fast and erratic pace. Renesmee panted beneath him, but the lightning was gone from his vision. Now he was seeing a mixture of fireworks and flowers blooming.
"Oh, don't stop!" she said.
And he didn't. He lifted one of her legs up high as he pushed inside, hitting her at a different angle.
"Ah!" Her head pushed back against the pillow and her fingernails dug into his biceps. Her body pulsed around Collin. That pulse triggered his own climax, and he let go with a low growl.
As he slowly came down for his high, he pulled away to discard the condom. Then he crawled back into bed with Renesmee.
"Wow!" Renesmee said, breathing heavily. "That was amazing!"
"Yeah, it was." Collin smiled down at her. Her curls were all over the place, giving her a serious case of sex hair.
"Oh, my God," Renesmee said, leaning up. "Did I do this?"
She gently touched his arms were her fingernails dug in, then he saw her fingers running over the area of his shoulders where dried blood had accumulated.
Collin looked down at his arm. "It's nothing. See, it's already healed over. Honestly, I liked it. It meant I was doing something right."
"Thank God you have superhealing." She kissed his arms and shoulders.
Collin rested his arms behind his head. "I think I worked up and appetite."
"You want some pie?" Renesmee leaned up. "Leah wanted us to try the pina colada pie she made."
"Yeah. It sounds good." Collin toyed with her hair. "We could finish watching the movie while we have a slice. I wanna see what happens after they had sex, although I can't promise that I'm going to keep my hands to myself." He leaned down and kissed her neck.
"Then I can't be held responsible for any more damage to your sweatpants." Renesmee laughed.
A/N: As always, I'd love to hear your thoughts. :)