You woke up the next morning to an empty bed, the cooled sheets and pillow telling you that Negan had been gone for a while. A quick glance at the clock showed it was almost 9am, and you lazily stretched underneath the red satin, enjoying the ability to sleep in.
You vaguely remembered Negan waking you up with a kiss to the neck earlier, when it was still mostly dark in the room. He had murmured something about a meeting with his Saviors, and you had responded by turning over and grumbling for him to let you go back to sleep. The last thing you remembered was his low chuckle, and then you were out again.
Reluctantly rolling out of the ridiculously luxuriant bed (seriously, where did he find such a soft mattress during the apocalypse?!), you started getting dressed. Unfortunately, you only had the outfit from yesterday, which wasn't the cleanest after being out in the woods, but it would have to do until you returned to your own room.
The intrusive thought hit that maybe you could leave a few items of clothing here, so that you had more morning-after options for next time. You quickly dashed the thought, not wanting to get ahead of yourself. Sure, you had now spent the past three nights in a row with Negan, and two of those nights had been in his bed, but that didn't seem like long enough to start moving in items. Just the thought of Negan doing something so domestic as allowing you to start taking over his armoire and bathroom drawers made you chuckle at the ridiculousness of it.
Though, doing so would mean more events like last night could easily occur, since you wouldn't have to keep running back to your room for more clothes or other belongings. Your mind flashed to the shower, and what the two of you had done in it the previous evening. How you had gone to your knees and proceeded to blow both his cock and his mind. He had been particularly vocal, his sharp grunts and loud moans echoing off the tiles as he ran shaky fingers through your hair and made you feel like the most seductive woman on the planet.
Still smiling at the memory, you finished zipping up the boots, grabbed Ricardo, and headed out of the bedroom and across his office to the door. Creaking it open a few inches, you peeked down the hall. Seeing that it was clear, you quietly exited the room, shut the door behind you, and speed-walked down the halls and to the stairwell needed to get back to your room. Letting out a little puff of relief when you made it to your own floor, you slowed down the pace a bit, no longer needing to scurry like a roach caught in the kitchen when the lights turned on. Honestly, the fact that you had yet to run into a Savior or wife while making the morning-after trek to and from Negan's room was really damn lucky and-
"Hey!"
The sound of a voice just as your hand was reaching out for the door knob to your room caused you to jump about a foot in the air. Whirling around, you saw none other than Maria at the opposite end of the hall, waving her hand in greeting as she came towards you.
Crap. Couldn't the universe have at least let you put on clean underwear first?
Much as you didn't want to interact with someone at the moment, you couldn't help but recall the last time Maria had tried to speak with you, in this very hall. It had been after Negan confronted you about the pregnancy test, and you had completely ignored her and rushed past without a word. At the time you had been too emotional to care, but now you knew that she was owed an apology, not to mention the fact that you hadn't really chatted or hung out with her since the night out at the picnic table. Doing the mental math, you realized that late night conversation had to have been a little over two weeks ago. Yea, you had been a shit friend to Maria lately, and it was totally deserved karma to have her pop up when you weren't really prepared for social interaction. Well, you would just have to get over it. She didn't deserve to keep being pushed aside, and you wouldn't do so to her again.
Pasting on a grin, you opened the door and gestured for her to come inside. She preceded you into the room and settled on the rickety little bed. You tried to nonchalantly lean Ricardo against the wall, in hopes she wouldn't ask why you were walking around with a weapon so early in the morning. Thankfully, she seemed too busy scanning the meager surroundings to notice. It had been a while since she was in your space, and you tried to take in the tiny room from her perspective, wondering if she found it lacking. You weren't sure what the wives' rooms looked like, since apparently Negan wasn't keen on them having visitors up there, but if it was anything like the fancy clothes they wore then it was sure to be much nicer than your own room.
Just thinking about them made a lump of discomfort form in your stomach. It wasn't as if you had forgotten about the fact that the man you were developing feelings for had a harem of women he called his wives, but it had been a lot easier to push them to the back of your mind when one wasn't sitting in front of you.
Not wanting to waste time with small talk, especially when you both were smart enough to know it was a shallow distraction, you dove right in.
"I want to apologize for the other day, when I ignored you. That was shitty of me, and I'm sorry."
She gave a tiny smile, and you immediately knew that she wasn't mad. Of course she wasn't. This was Maria, and she was one of the most forgiving and patient people you had known since the apocalypse began. The fact that she was still willing to even deal with your fickle ass, especially after your last couple of interactions, was proof enough of that.
"It's alright," she replied. "You looked pretty frazzled anyways. Everything okay?"
"I don't know about everything, but things are alright," you mumbled, almost hoping she wouldn't hear the words.
You started picking at a stray thread on the grey cotton sheets, unable to help but compare them to the luxury of Negan's satiny red ones. Ugh, why didn't you just stay in his bed all morning, instead. You could've enjoyed physical comfort and social isolation there.
Able to feel the weight of Maria's gaze, you lifted your head to look at her. As expected, she was watching you closely, the slightest ghost of a smile tipping one corner of her mouth. "What?" you asked, not rudely, but perhaps a bit impatiently. She looked like she knew a secret that you didn't, and you wanted her to just spit it out already.
"You spent the night with him," she stated in a gentle tone, and when you jerked in surprise and opened your mouth to say...well, you had no clue what you were going to say, but thankfully she cut you off. "Which means," she continued with a raised palm, a silent gesture for you to not get defensive just yet, "that considering how negatively you viewed his multiple wives situation, you must also know he stopped sleeping with them."
Mouth still hanging open, you stared her down for a few seconds before snapping it shut. Making a "go on" gesture with your hand, you waited for her to continue with wherever it was she wanted this conversation to lead.
She then told you how she had suspected for a while now that the reason why Negan stopped coming to see the wives was due to his interactions with you. Her theory had been confirmed after your late night chat out at the picnic table when you admitted to being in his bedroom, somewhere none of the wives had been allowed to enter.
"Why didn't you tell me?" you whispered, clutching the bedsheet so tightly your fingers were about to go numb.
"Honestly? Because you weren't ready to hear the truth, and I knew you'd have completely shut down at the very thought of it. You still wanted to see him as a monster, so I figured I'd just wait and see how things played out. See if he'd keep allowing you to get close to him, or if one of you would get spooked and run, so to speak."
You mulled this over. Was she right? If she had told you a couple weeks ago that he had suddenly stopped sleeping with all of the wives, would you have believed it? Doubtful. And even if you had, never in a million years would you have listened to her theory that his drastic change in behavior was because of the few interactions he'd had with you up until that point.
Much as you hated to admit, Maria had been right to keep quiet about it. Though you did wonder how she thought you had found out. Did she assume Negan had told you? Or maybe she was aware of how Amber had been using Trixie, and had come to the correct conclusion on her own. Maria was intelligent, so there was a good chance she knew more about the goings on around here than people gave her credit for. You wanted to ask how much she knew, but also didn't want to risk outing Trixie, since she had told you that information in strict confidence.
Instead, you asked, "So now that you think I am ready to hear the truth, is there anything else I should know? Are the others coming up with a plan of how to quietly dispose of me, so that Negan will pay attention to them again?"
You said it jokingly, but were honestly curious to know how they felt about these recent changes. Amber obviously wasn't your biggest fan, but what about the others? Did they see you as a threat to the luxuries they enjoyed here? Honestly, if the roles were switched, and they were the ones threatening whatever you had going on with Negan, you'd be tempted to sharpen mini-Ricardo shanks and take them out one by one. Your subconscious whole-heartedly agreed, giving a battle cry and stabbing at the air, as if taking out imaginary opponents, while your brain sighed and rolled its eyes.
"Well actually, we did recently have a group conversation about you."
She said this calmly, but it still made your eyes go wide as you exclaimed, "You what?"
"It was a few days ago. Amber had been throwing a real tantrum after she tried to take Negan a dinner tray, and found him already in his office eating with you."
Oh yea, you remembered that event, vividly. It had been about a week ago, before his last supply run. It was the evening he had confessed to you about his dead wife, and then Amber interrupted by knocking on the door with a tray. It had been apparent she wasn't happy to see you there, nor to be sent away by Negan, so you weren't surprised to hear she hadn't handled it well afterwards.
Nodding for her to go on, Maria continued. "We let her vent about it for a couple days, since I think we were all hoping she'd eventually let it go the way she does most things that get under her skin. But she was like a dog with a bone this time, and kept running her mouth to all of us about how you were stealing Negan from us, and that if we continued to just sit back and let this happen, we were putting our status here in jeopardy."
Sweat broke out on the back of your neck at the possibilities of where this story could be going. Just the thought of the wives sitting around talking about you as a potential threat or enemy made your stomach flop, but you stayed quiet and let Maria finish.
"She was really trying to get the rest of us riled up, and then one evening she started telling us all that we better be prepared to start scrubbing toilets for points, since we were willing to just let him toss us to the curb. That was when Sherry finally stepped in and put her foot down."
"Wait, Sherry?!" you blurted, absolutely shook at this turn of events.
Maria nodded. "Yep. She told Amber that all she was doing was starting unnecessary drama, and that Negan had never given any indication that we would lose our privileges or have to start working for points just because he isn't fucking us every night. Amber tried to argue at first, but Sherry held her ground. Told her that she'd gladly go get Negan, so Amber could tell him her concerns face-to-face, rather than continuing to make assumptions behind his back. That shut her up real quick, and she stormed into her bedroom and stayed there the rest of the night. I haven't heard her say anything else about it since. She's still sulking around a bit, but at least she's been quiet."
Your brain was struggling to take all this in, especially the part where Sherry had not only stood up for you, but done so against another wife. Crap, now you really felt like an asshole for being jealous and internally snarky towards her that day in the kitchen, when she took you to the medic after you cut your finger.
"Do you actually think she'll let it go now?" You had a feeling that you already knew the answer, but couldn't help asking.
Maria sighed. "I can't say for sure, but Amber doesn't seem like the kind of person who is okay with not being doted on. I don't think she has any particularly strong feelings towards Negan, but she enjoys the status of being a wife. It can be a bit of a power trip, to catch the attention of a man like him, even if for shallow reasons."
"Yea, don't I know it," you mumbled under your breath.
Maria raised an eyebrow, having obviously heard. "I don't think I'd classify his attention towards you as shallow."
Giving a huffed laugh and shrug, you tried to play it off. "Yea, well, is anything about Negan easy enough to classify?"
"Probably not," she said with a shrug. "But that's part of what makes him so intriguing, right?"
"If by intriguing you mean confounding as hell, then sure."
Despite your annoyed tone, you were genuinely smiling at this point. Part of you wondered if this should feel more weird than it did, talking to a woman who was Negan's "wife", and had most likely slept with him, about whatever it was he had going on with you.
As if reading your thoughts, Maria's face became more serious. "I hope this doesn't make you feel like you can't still talk to me, or see me as a friend."
If you were being totally honest with yourself, the whole situation didn't make you feel 100% comfortable, but you were pretty sure that was because of the possessive part of you that wanted him all to yourself. But was that a realistic emotion to even have, with a man like him? Could you be okay with him continuing to publicly have "wives", even if he wasn't sleeping with them? And what if he later decided to go back to them? It's not as if he knew that you were aware he wasn't sleeping with them at the moment.
Mentally shoving those questions into the padlocked box with the other unanswered questions, you honestly replied, "I'm not totally sure how I feel about all of this yet, but I definitely still see you as a friend, so no worries on that front."
"I'm glad," Maria said with a nod. "And in case I didn't make it obvious, no part of me will be upset if Negan decides he doesn't want to give us the same privileges anymore. Well, so long as you promise to give me a spot in the kitchen, so I'm not stuck scrubbing toilets beside Amber."
"Deal," you said with a laugh, glad that the air had been cleared between the two of you, and that she wasn't harboring ill feelings towards you for taking Negan's attention away from her and the other wives. Part of you even wondered if she had spent much alone time with him, since she hadn't been his wife for very long when he stopped sleeping with them, but some things were just better left unknown. Besides, it's not like he slept cuddled against any of them all night afterwards, or let them in his bed...or his shower."
Your subconscious was feeling awfully smug at that thought, nose in the air as it strutted around with a superiority complex. Meanwhile, your brain was pointing at the padlocked box of questions in annoyance, a motion which the subconscious purposely ignored.
You chatted with Maria for a bit longer, the conversation much lighter and more frivolous than before. It felt good to just hang out and discuss random topics, the way you had when the two of you were surviving for weeks out in the woods together. You might've each taken very different paths when it came to Sanctuary life, but it was a relief to know that the connection you had formed prior to coming here surpassed those differences. You also appreciated that she didn't push for more information about you and Negan, and didn't even mention his name again.
When she left a little while later, a glance at your watch showed that dinner prep was in about two hours. Grateful for the chunk of alone time, you finally changed into fresh clothes and propped yourself up in bed with the copy of Harry Potter. You smiled when removing the little piece of paper you had torn from your notebook as a bookmark. While this one was blank, there was a second little piece of paper that was bookmarking a place closer to the beginning of the book. This piece of paper you had marked in pencil with the letter N, and it held the spot where Negan had stopped reading yesterday morning. You had stuck it in there after he left your room, the book having been face down on your side table where he placed it when you woke up and distracted him. Hoping that he'd return to reading it, especially if you kept his place, you couldn't help but mark his spot.
Just the thought of his possible reactions to some of the plot twists had you smiling, at the same time as a devious thought crept into your head. If you made sure to get him hooked on the first book, he'd definitely have to find copies of the other ones in the series to share with you, right? There's no way someone can read the first book and not need to also read the rest.
Both subconscious and brain nodded in agreement at this theory before cuddling up on either side of you, so that they could also see the opened book. Diving back into the story with a contented sigh, you immersed yourself in the magical world, not planning a return to reality and all the awaiting unanswered questions until it was time to head downstairs for dinner prep.