I ACTUALLY POSSESSED HOMURA?

by WeirdSelfInsertDude

(Takes place in a loop after Oriko Magica. Oriko is an important character for the story. I use ' Insert whatever here ' for my speech and " Insert whatever " for other characters) ' How long do you have to suffer Homura, my beloved one? Let me posses your body for a while, let me carry your burden for you. I would do anything for you after all. '

55. INTERMISSION: STORY NEWS IMPORTANT

I have very important and sad news. The truth is my mental health has plummeted. It all started when I had my first panic attack back in March. The truth is the panic attack itself was not important at all. I managed to get rid of it in a week without any medications or professional help. But ever since then I have been digging through my mind to find more problems.

Now that I say it, you may be confused so let me elaborate: The cause of my panic attack was because I couldn't breathe thanks to piled-up stress. That day I believed I was going to die, thankfully though, I have survived. I was completely healthy in body, after all, my body wouldn't let me die just like that.

After my discharge from the hospital though I would constantly get sharp pains and I would always worry about my breathing. Because I was thinking about it I was breathing manually 7/24 and it was extremely tiring for me. I have forced myself into releasing a chapter. If you ever go through the same problems as I, DO NOT THINK ABOUT YOUR PROBLEMS. The more you think about them the more they grow into bigger problems. When my family told me to dismiss all my worries I did so. I ignored the constant pain that arrives suddenly and stopped thinking about my breathing. In a few days, everything about my panic attack was solved.

Then my mind kept thinking about new problems. I forgot what they were after struggling hard to conquer them that is until my current problem. I believe to have solved them but this time my problems had left permanent changes on me.

I have stopped being a human. No, not the JoJo reference, I did not gain new abilities or anything. I have simply forgotten what it means to be a human. What it means to love, hate, enjoy, dislike, empathize, lust, to hunger...

When I was 10 years old or something like that, I would constantly think about things like IQ, consciousness, existence, heaven, and so on. I would even think myself superior to the old philosophies(don't hate on me I was just 10 years old). But now, I respect them greatly for not losing themselves like me.

What I am trying to say is, I am sorry but I won't be able to write a new chapter until I get my sanity back. And believe me, I wish for it very much. Until then, I regretfully declare Hiatus